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Entry#20 A Peep Into My Memory Bank

On the 21st day of the very first month, it was also the very year to welcome 21st century when Mrs. Lorelyn Oliveros Sta. Rita gave birth to her eldest daughter at exactly 4:02 in the morning whose name came from the acronym of “Grand Evangelical Mission” a term used in our church back then, which also means “precious stone” if we will scan it in a dictionary. Later that year, my mom gave birth again to her second daughter and my younger sibling name Meg. I was only a toddler that time but I still remember clearly the smiles and laughter came out of my mind/mouth as I play with her. Years went by so fast, problems poured roughly in our family. It was year 2004 which my parents nearly broke up. There was this time when I saw my mom in such bad state, her eyes were swollen red, there were some mark of bruises and scratches in her tender skin. I have witnessed how the two of them fight. I was so young back then when I have experienced to travel back and forth just to spend time with the both of them. Because of that situation, I have come to realize that even your loved ones commit unavoided mistakes in life. Year 2006, my parents went back together again for me that was a chance to restart and renew our way of living. I transferred from private to public school and that was my 3rd grade in Elementary. With the proper teachings of my parents, I successfully survived and passed the two years of my study in Laguna, t transferred again when I was a 5th grade student fortunately, I finished my elementary with high grades and that made me happy. Thinking that o would be able to make my parents proud of me, hoping that they or just even one of them will go up the stage with me, yet things didn’t flow the way I wanted to again, I thought of some things – the way pessimist think – maybe they really don’t love me enough. Our moving up ceremony was supposed to be one of the happiest and memorable day of my life. Yes it became the memorable on but the term “happiest” doesn’t fit it well. I was able to walk up and down the stage with teary eyes not because of happiness but because of the sadness that coated my heart. All those things happened in my past were memories, some may be painful but still worthy to be treasured.

I went back to school to finish my junior high in province. I am still a consistent honor student even if things became rough for me.. I was nearly sixteen years of age back then when my parents transferred to taguig and left me alone with my two other siblings, who would have thought that in that early age, I have experienced to become the parent who must stand firm to protect their home. I was just sixteen when I have managed to do most of the works that parents should do, I budget our allowance and made sure that I am giving enough for my siblings even if it was me who will be lack in needs. Seeing my sibling back then, having good meals to eat and clean clothes to wear made my heart flutter already. Never in my existence did I think that my life by that age will be the most memorable days of my life. I may have suffered a lot of pains and heartaches yet the good thing is that I was able to survive, not just me but all of the three of us.

At this very moment, I am already a Senior High School Student, hopefully, soon to graduate. My life as a Senior High may not be perfect in so many aspects but I can say that it is awesome, challenging and worth treasuring. I am currently studying at Upper Bicutan National High School. Taking up the strand Humanities and Social Sciences and is running and aiming to be with those honored students.

I am living a simple life, contented on what I have and just striving to achive my dreams, I forgot to mention that as of now, I am not in good terms with my father. The reason why? I would willingly write those in here but I think it was not suitable so what I will just do as a daughter is to continue and wish endlessly for a time when we can both reconcile. As a daughter, I would wish to have my parents ‘til I am as old as they are so that we can still have ample time to spend together and make precious memories as a lover, I want my partner to know that I love him with all of my heart and I wish for a good and God – centered relationship. As a true servant of God, I will fully comply with all of the things that He want me to do. I will continue to renew my life so that I can abide with His will and teachings.

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Entry#20 A Peep Into My Memory Bank

On the 21st day of the very first month, it was also the very year to welcome 21st century when Mrs. Lorelyn Oliveros Sta. Rita gave birth to her eldest daughter at exactly 4:02 in the morning whose name came from the acronym of “Grand Evangelical Mission” a term used in our church back then, which also means “precious stone” if we will scan it in a dictionary. Later that year, my mom gave birth again to her second daughter and my younger sibling name Meg. I was only a toddler that time but I still remember clearly the smiles and laughter came out of my mind/mouth as I play with her. Years went by so fast, problems poured roughly in our family. It was year 2004 which my parents nearly broke up. There was this time when I saw my mom in such bad state, her eyes were swollen red, there were some mark of bruises and scratches in her tender skin. I have witnessed how the two of them fight. I was so young back then when I have experienced to travel back and forth just to spend time with the both of them. Because of that situation, I have come to realize that even your loved ones commit unavoided mistakes in life. Year 2006, my parents went back together again for me that was a chance to restart and renew our way of living. I transferred from private to public school and that was my 3rd grade in Elementary. With the proper teachings of my parents, I successfully survived and passed the two years of my study in Laguna, t transferred again when I was a 5th grade student fortunately, I finished my elementary with high grades and that made me happy. Thinking that o would be able to make my parents proud of me, hoping that they or just even one of them will go up the stage with me, yet things didn’t flow the way I wanted to again, I thought of some things – the way pessimist think – maybe they really don’t love me enough. Our moving up ceremony was supposed to be one of the happiest and memorable day of my life. Yes it became the memorable on but the term “happiest” doesn’t fit it well. I was able to walk up and down the stage with teary eyes not because of happiness but because of the sadness that coated my heart. All those things happened in my past were memories, some may be painful but still worthy to be treasured.

I went back to school to finish my junior high in province. I am still a consistent honor student even if things became rough for me.. I was nearly sixteen years of age back then when my parents transferred to taguig and left me alone with my two other siblings, who would have thought that in that early age, I have experienced to become the parent who must stand firm to protect their home. I was just sixteen when I have managed to do most of the works that parents should do, I budget our allowance and made sure that I am giving enough for my siblings even if it was me who will be lack in needs. Seeing my sibling back then, having good meals to eat and clean clothes to wear made my heart flutter already. Never in my existence did I think that my life by that age will be the most memorable days of my life. I may have suffered a lot of pains and heartaches yet the good thing is that I was able to survive, not just me but all of the three of us.

At this very moment, I am already a Senior High School Student, hopefully, soon to graduate. My life as a Senior High may not be perfect in so many aspects but I can say that it is awesome, challenging and worth treasuring. I am currently studying at Upper Bicutan National High School. Taking up the strand Humanities and Social Sciences and is running and aiming to be with those honored students.

I am living a simple life, contented on what I have and just striving to achive my dreams, I forgot to mention that as of now, I am not in good terms with my father. The reason why? I would willingly write those in here but I think it was not suitable so what I will just do as a daughter is to continue and wish endlessly for a time when we can both reconcile. As a daughter, I would wish to have my parents ‘til I am as old as they are so that we can still have ample time to spend together and make precious memories as a lover, I want my partner to know that I love him with all of my heart and I wish for a good and God – centered relationship. As a true servant of God, I will fully comply with all of the things that He want me to do. I will continue to renew my life so that I can abide with His will and teachings.

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Entry#19 Reflection

Perspective of every individual towards a person varies on how they see you as you are. If we are to ask them to tell us something about ourselves, we should accept it.

This activity of ours required me to think deeply so that all of things I will write on their deeper are pure. I was able to dig deeper from the deepest part of my heart and brain because I wanted to feel them what I really feel towards them. I should be as honest as I can be and that I should not words that may be hurt their feeling unintentionally. When the rotation was done, I literally became nervous of reading what they have wrote about me. At the same time, I am slo excited, it’s not that I am afraid to be criticized, for me it’s just a matter of acceptance. As I am reading the letters, I felt like I’m blushing that time. I didn’t expect that most of the words written in my pager were compliments. There were some that is not but it still made me happy because they are honest about me. They didn’t sugar-coat things about me.. I am most touched by the words of my friends, that it made my heart melt.

I enjoyed the activity all in all, it made me realized many things about criticizing a person in a good way. I have learned that if you’re true to yourself, others will do the same towards you.

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Entry#18 Soundtrack

I found it hard to think of a song – may it be an OPM songs, pop song or even international songs that will best fit on how I describe my past memories. But instead of being able to think of those kind of song, I was able to think of our Church Songs.

6 – “Nasa tungkulin ko ang aking kaligtasan” these songs is all about how we, Church Officers, tned to hold on performing our duties. Everytime we sing this songs of appraisal, my faith in continuing my duty strengthens, as if I am already backed up with edification.

365 – “Ako at ang aking sambahayan” is a hymn about how you and your family would handle the divine election and that you will not turn back on serving God. It’s about reminiscing the goodness of Him. For the last is “Awit ng kahalalan” we only sing this song of appraisal every last week of a month. This appraisal hymn is all about being proud of the divine election we received from God. It’s also a vow that I will never ever let go of my divine election ‘til the last breath of my living.

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Entry#17 Forgive Me

During the first semester of my first year being a Senior High School Student in Upper Bicutan National High School, oone of our subject teacher told us to form a group, she then called some students to serve as the leader and then those leaders will be the one to choose their members. Unfortunately, I am one of those students who were asked to lead a group, and therefore, I have to choose my circle of friends to be the member, but then, an unexpected thing happened – I wasn’t able to write down (as my member) one of my friend which is supposed to be in my group. I don’t know what happened to me, I do beg for his forgiveness. I hurted him because he did hope and held on to me, as I was asking for forgiveness, I did everything just for him to forgive me – yet pain maybe not that easy to be removed so I waited for the right time when we will accept me again and treat me as what we sued to be.

“Time heals all wounds”.

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Entry#16 Inside Joke

Way back February 26, 2013, one of my closes friends formed a name for our “barkada”. The name she formed was a combination from the names of my closest friends. At first it was just; “ChriShaNnajoNEM” which came from the names of Chris-ann, Shaina, Ianna, Jobile, Gem and Mikaela. But as years passed by more and more names were being added in our barkada until it became “ChrisShaNnZyMiJoNeMae” which stand for our names intial syllables as well.

As of now, we are already nine (9) in our group and we are celebrating the 57th months of our friendship. We may not seeing each other very often nowadays, we have this promise that we will be graduating altogether and will have succeeding futures and will get a better job.

My friends will always be a friend for me. Distance may be a barrier but our friendship is built with more than just love but also sacrifices. We fight but we reconcile.

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Entry#15 Read & React

I find it hard to think of a poem or a song that would resonate me best. Instead of thinking of a song or poem, a title of the book first crossed in mind, I have red this book a few months ago yet the memories it left me was still hanging in my mind. The title of the book I have red was “RAIN” which is the name of the main character in the story. It was written by Virginia Andrews, a writer from America. I chose this book as the best piece that resonates me because it depicts the reality of living here in our country. The girl protagonist is so kind that even her sister is abusing her, but there comes the time when she have learned how to fight back. She have been through so many struggles and have faced many problems in life but it didn’t hinder and stop her to continue living her life. She was able to pursue her dream in the end.

I want to do the same thing she does in handling difficult situations, by that way, I can also be able to help my family.

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Entry#14 Astrological Omens

Birthdate: January 21, 2000

Horoscope:

Career goals will take precedence over family matters. Love is in the air if you have time for it, take care of your health to avoid complications.

A new year has begun and you are determined to make it one of the best. There is no reason why the next 12 months should not just be as good as the last but several times better as well.

As much as possible, I do want to reflect this horoscope into my life yet I am not putting much faith in this and I will just do it out of my perseverance. I don’t want to blame anything if and ever I failed because it won’t help. We have this individual free-will to do what we want still, we have to be mindful of thinking and doing what we think is right. Horoscopes are just an advice and future predictions based on our birth and positions of the stars and planets, don’t let ourselves be ruled by those but instead, we must be the one to rule our word. God’s wisdom is a much better reference to consider as we live.

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Entry#13 Belief

When I was younger, I always think of my life as a never ending fairytale in a story. I have a perfect home with perfect parents and loving sibling I took care of. We have complete supplies of everything we need and I am living so contented. But then, my so called “living in a fairy-tale like home belief” was wrecked and shakened when unexpected thing happened. My father went to and had another woman. Our life totally changed as well as my belief that our family is an exceptional ones. I am told then that there is no such thing as constant. I have learned to cope up with sadness and heartbreak and at the same time, I have learned how to comfort my mom who is in so mucn pain that time. Building family is easy yet maintaining strong family bond is the crucial stage. Each of the members of the family should exert effort in showing off the love for one another.

Now that I am already capable of analyzing right to wrong, I will not do what I think is wrong for the sake of my family and my soon to be family.

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Entry#12 Tourist At Home

The Felix Y. Manalo heritage that is located in Baryo Calzada Tipas, Taguig is probably the most significant place in this city as for me which I have only seen last month. It is truly a remarkable and undoubtedly or significant place because it is where God’s messenger in these last days Brother Felix Ysagun Manalo grew up and used to live and it is his birth place. I am so honored and happy to be able to visit that place because for me, it’s a dream come true.

Taguig also recognizes Baryo Calzada in tipas a historical site and they even approved the building of a heritage in there where we, members of the church of Christ can visit anytime without asking for permission in the government.

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Entry #11 Writing through Fear

People being scared of what might happen in the future is common. Being scared to talk of something and tends to avoid it would mean you are afraid of losing. We have different perspectives in life and have also encountered different situations as well.

I myself am afraid of only one thing and that is to lose my divine election being a member of the Church of Christ. For me, it would be best to die early than to be excommunicated in the Church because divine election is probably the most precious thing I have in my life. Without it, I will also be useless. I won’t be able to perform my duties in the Church and most of all, God will get mad at me and I really do not wish for that to happen.

So for my divine election not to be at risk, I am doing and performing my duties well and as much as possible, I avoid committing mistakes and sins intentionally.

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Entry #9 Truth is Stranger than Fiction

In fictional stories, the female and the male protagonist usually end up being with each other. Commonly, their story goes like this: The boy is an heir of a multi-corporated company which his father owns. This boy us such a brat and too boastful but then, he will meet this lady from just a poor family, the lady was his the opposite of the boy, she is full of motivation and dedication in life, so she took chance to apply for a job in the company and she will be hired, she will meet the heir and he will be her boss. At first, they will become enemies but will eventually be a lovers, and will live happily.

In reality, if I am to break the twist, I won’t make it a happy ending. In life, it is really so hard to deal with having an ending you just really wished. The man will die because of an uncurable disease due to his lifestyle when he was still young, the woman who was incapable of bearing a child lived alone and she did not decided to adopt because loneliness will eat her.

Living in this world full of rivalries, chaos, poverty and problems is so beyond difficult. We should always not expect that everything will come in our way. If we think we are in below, we should strive best so that we can go up.

Fictional stories are fruit of the imaginative thinking of writers who want to entertain their readers, we cannot live in fiction therefore, so always think of the reality of living and make better ways to make your life truly stranger than fiction.

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Entry #9 Memory Walk "My Haven"

Everytime I dropped by in this place, it always feel like home. I am in serenity and I feel contented in every way. Since I was born and until now, my parents have taught me how not to forbid going in this place. This is the place where I want to go when I am burdened, I am also in this place when I feel so much joy. I stay at this place when I want calmness and peace of mind. In this place, I have experienced how not to stumble down but to crawl up. I have experience kneeling down to beg for something and to talk to someone so might and special.

This place witnessed all of my memories, even the precious ones or not, form my childhood up to adulthood.

This place will not be replaced by anywhere I go. I will always come back here because it is my haven.

This place that I am talking about is our Church :) 😇

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Entry#8 Recipe Book

In order to keep your friendship and last long,

You need the following ingredients:

1 gallon of tears

Heart full of love

100 teaspoon full of patience

10 liters of trust

10 cups of self-denying

17 ml of open-mindedness

Procedure:

Mixed the heart full of love together with understanding, patience and trust. Make sure that the heart full of love would be ready to get hurt so that it can burst out 1 gallon of tears. Put a valuable amount of open-mindedness in the mixed heart. Remember that every drop counts so keep in mind not to waste it.

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Entry#7 Chronicles Of You

21st day of the very first month, it was year of the dragon when my mom gave birth to me. I was the first born child in our family so they really took care of me a lot, When I was already one year old, me, my mom, and dad went to metropolis. They just told this to me so I am not that certain of the date when it happened but they said I got astrayed even when I am holding hands with my dad. He was so busy looking at clothinglines so he forgotten that I am beside him. That was year 2001, when yhey really look for and after me as if I am going to be lost again.

Year 2006, it was the second year of former President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo being the elected president of the country, that year was when my mom gave birth to our third sibling – it was memorable for me because I got to see mom suffering the hardship of not being able to pee because of some complications – and that really changed the way I see how mothers tend to sacrifice for the sake of their child.

Jumping on the year 2011, I have witnessed the fear in the eyes of every citizens not just in our country but also in japan when it was hit by a strong earthquake and tidal wave. Since back then I was still living in our province which is an island, we were also told that a tsunami was about to hit our spot, fortunately the wave didn’t reach the house where we stayed.

February 2014, when our Executive Minister Brother Eduardo V. Manalo hold a world wide walk for the victims of super typhoon Yolanda that hit our country last November 2013. We went to Gumaca, Quezon and there we abide and moved as one to obey our Executive Minister in accordance to the will of our Almighty God.

July 27, 1914, is probably the most essential date among the members of the Church of Christ. It is the date when the Church of Christ was registered in the country. So last July 27, 2014 we celebrated the 100th year or the centennial anniversary of the Church of Christ.

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Entry#6 Enemies & Friends

One name that immediately entered in my mind as I think of a person whom I really adore a lot is his name. Some may consider that his name is now very common and usual, but for me, it’s so special. I like him a lot because of his unusual attitude – which sometimes you won’t understand but if you will understand that he just know how to live in the real world and not how other see it as if they are living in a fiction. Hee is the kind of guy whom you will think of as an ill-tempered person (though sometimes he really is) as you first saw him. He is the kind of guy whom you will define as a typical bad boy, cold-hearted person, who is so difficult to be friends with. But as I know more about him, soon as he entered in my life. Just then I have learned that my assumptions maybe somehow true, still there are so many reason behind those and he let me know those reasons for me to understand him better. If you want to have a clearer definition of what life is? You should go to him and he will tell you what is is. If you want to have a deeper conversations about realizations in life, he is the best companions to talk with. If you are having bad times and you need comforting words? Believe me, he will provide it for you. If you want to be pissed off and laugh at the same time? You should go with him and he will mock you while complimenting. When you want to feel secure, he is one of the best shelter to deal with. If you would just witness at least three of those situations that he laid hands for others, you will not regret meeting him. Because for me, meeting him is probably the situation that will change my entire living. By the way, his name is Renzo.

On the other hand, I found it difficult to think of a person whom I don’t really like. Honestly, I wasn’t able to think of anyone. There may be times that I am getting pissed to someone but not to the point that I will not like him/her already.