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iamkenignacio-blog · 9 years ago

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Let's End It

I always say I'm not suicidal. I have no plans of hurting myself but I sometimes wish that I'll die soon, like just not waking up from my sleep anymore. The world will still be the same without me. There's nothing significant I can and I wish to contribute to this world, so this planet might be better off without me.

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I’m not suicidal at all, but, if I die in my sleep, I’d be perfectly okay with it.

When I was in high school, I always said that I wanted to die by the age of 25 because I hate the feeling of growing old, and being an adult is not something I could consider fun and exciting. Now that I’m 28 years old, it feels like I’m a medicine that’s already 3 years over its expiration date and slowly but surely losing its potency. Now, instead of being a cure, I’m becoming more of a poison... to my family, my friends, and this world.

There were nights when, rather than praying, I would just wish that I wouldn’t wake up from my slumber. Escaping, after all, is easier than facing reality head on. Well, tonight, you know exactly what I’ll be praying for. >.<

#senti sentimode life thoughts brainfart

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April 26: So last Sunday, April 24th, we celebrated Louie’s 28th birthday at his family’s place. I was coming down with the flu that day so I decided to come to the party late... like 2-3 hours late. Haha. I also cooked a small batch of spaghetti to bring to the party which made me a little tired. I went to Louie’s house at around 8 or 9PM. Nobody was opening the gate for me even how much I shouted for Louie’s name. Thank God Tita Vicky was still awake and they came to my aid immediately. Haha. Of course, in the short time we were prying open the gate, we were able to sneak in a few minutes of gossiping.

They’ve waited for me before they blew the candles. That was so sweet of them. I felt so special. Haha. They also liked the spaghetti that I cooked.

Tim was with his girl friend / fiance. I’m not sure but there were rumors that they were engaged already. They look good together. Though I still can’t shake off this petty admiration I have for Tim. He’s cute. :)

Ate Kat and Kuya Arjay was there, too. They had Aedan with them. I don’t remember when was the last time I saw them. Perhaps it was when we went on a food trip at Mercato Centrale in BGC.

After eating, we started drinking some wine. I was not feeling well that time so I told them that I wanted out from the drinking session.

I also met Ate Kat and Kuya Arjay’s new pet -- Pepper. He’s a Shih Tzu, too, like Pia. He’s 5 months old and I’m super excited to see Pia grow that big! Pia is too small and fragile at her tender age of 2 months, so I can’t really play with her like I would with Marcel.

Ate Kat gave me and Louie some money to buy a bottle of wine at Ever. While we were on the tricycle, I received a call from Jennifer that she’s already near. I was shocked that when we alighted the trike, Jennifer was already behind us, lugging her big guitar. It was fun. I missed her so much.

And James has decided to join us in the party. He has met with Louie before since Kuya Arjay (Ate Kat’s husband) is James’ first-degree cousin. He brought with him a liter of bubble gum-flavored Lambanog. It was awful! I’ve never tasted bubble gum like that. If there’s a bubble gum out there that tasted like that, I would sue that fucking company! Haha. Seriously!

We started drinking and the lambanog had this weird effect on me. I started to loosen up too much that I was annoyingly talkative. I even coined the phrase, “Ako na d’yan,” which is a statement you say when you want to takeover someone’s task, only this time I say it just for formality, without any intention of offering real help. Haha.

We also did Karaoke with Mahj’s Magic Sing mic. It was fun. I was so drunk and I was belting all the high-pitched songs I could find on the song book.

I don’t remember what time we left the party. Maybe around 3AM? I am not sure. But it was a good party. It was fun and I really missed my friends Louie and Jennifer. I hope we could hang out, just the three of us soon. I am also glad that Louie and James have finally met and talked with each other. And it was Jennifer and James’ first meeting, too! I was surprised when they both said that I talk about them all the time. I have many close friends and it brings me joy when they could meet each other because I know they are good people with an equally good sense of humor so they wouldn’t find it hard to develop a friendship.

When I got home, I took a bath before going to bed. It was a good night. Only that I woke up with cotton mouth from the previous night’s drinking. I hate hangovers!

#birthday

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NSFW: Bus Crotch Graze

Thank you to that one guy who stood at my side while I sat inside the bus—the guy who grazed his hard cock on my arm. That few minutes I savored your erection as it rubbed on and off on my arm has truly made my day. And I was glad that you were cute, too. Too bad our moment was cut short when this other guy stood between the two of us but I knew you were not contented as I was because I felt you rub your cock on me a few times before I had to transfer from the aisle to the window seat. Thank you, sir! I'll be jacking off tonight thinking of you. Rawr.

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iamkenignacio-blog · 9 years ago

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April 13 2016: Had our late lunch / early dinner at Mister Kebab in Fisher Mall, Q.C.

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April 13: Visited James at Hospital with Osang

After work, I ate breakfast then slept early for my rendezvous with Osang. We were going to visit our friend, James, at Capitol Medical Center in Quezon City. He had his tonsils removed, not they were infected or anything, but because he found them too big. I joked by saying that he just wanted to make it easier to deep-throat dicks (He’s gay like me btw). Osang and I met at 1:30PM. I haven’t had my lunch yet so I made a quick stop at Jollibee to order a Jollihotdog meal which comes with fries and soda (Yes, I asked for them to be large). We then took a jeepney to Monumento and then flagged down a cab which took us to the hospital. We saw our friend’s dad and his nephew outside the hospital. We decided to buy ice cream first at a 7-eleven, since ice cream can help soothe the pain from the surgical area. We were informed that our friend can only eat vanilla or mango flavor. We went for the mango one. It cost us PHP 250+.

We went into the hospital and was already waiting for an elevator when I saw my friend’s dad and his nephew waiting for us at the other end of the lobby. They told us that we need to take the other elevator. Okay. When we got to the room, our friend was inside the bathroom, trying to relieve himself of some shit LOL. When he found out that we were there already, he didn’t continue doing the deed and went out to meet us. We talked for a while and ate the ice cream we bought for him. We just talked, joked around, and laughed. Jamie, his little sister, was there so I started to cajole her into giving me the cute, black shih tzu puppy that I wanted. She didn’t budge. Bummer. Oh well, my other choice was cute, too, so it was not really a big problem. I’m planning to get the puppy at the end of the month since I don’t have money yet. Seriously, I’m so broke right now.

At 5:30 PM, we decided to say our goodbyes. We were supposed to leave by 5:00 PM but James went to the bathroom to commence his postponed shitting, so we had to wait for him to finish. Osang and I went to Fisher Mall to have dinner (Well, lunch for me really). We saw a group of elderly people with some young ones, too, exercising at the middle of the mall. It was fun. We wanted to join in because the music they were playing were such bangers! We ate at Mister Kabab, which I’m not sure is a branch of the West Avenue branch we used to frequent. We ordered Sizzling Kebab (for Osang), Sizzling Keema (for me), and hummus with pita bread (for sharing). We racked up a bill of PHP 550, which was pretty cheap, really. We then took a cab to Monumento, then a jeepney to Malabon. It was a long and tiring day. Add the fact that it was around 40 degrees outside made this day extra exhausting (and dehydrating).

My Nanay was already home when I arrived. She told me not to turn off the aircon when I leave today, but I decided otherwise for fear of our house catching fire. I then made up my mind to kill all the fucking fleas pestering our house and our dog. I grabbed my small blow torch, which was initially intended for my baking, and I burned the mother fuckers to their deaths! I’m pretty sure I was able to kill a handful of them. There were a few fleas still lurking around our rooms, but I hope I can get rid of them before we take in the new puppy next month.

Now I’m at work and a little bored. I replied to a few e-mails on our food blog. I’ RSVPed to two events -- one for this week and one for next. I asked Reish to tag along. I was hoping to bring Osang, but I’m pretty sure she’ll decline my invitation since she’s been trying to save some money.

That’s it. Work’s a bore.

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