iamlostboynotreadytobefound

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

all the time :'(

“In my heart I love her all the time.” - F. Scott Fitzgerald

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Alam mo ung mahirap, ung nararamdaman mo iiyak kana sa sakit.. Sa cr ka na lang mag vevent at iiyak mag tatago ka kasi di nila alam ung pinagdadaanan mo sakit. Tas pag labas ng cr nakangiti kana ulit... Ang hirap maging okay kahit di naman talaga. Patuloy ka nasasaktan ng nasasaktan ng nasasaktan ulit ulit.. Gusto ko na lang mag mura!

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

I love you every inch every year even we are apart... and still i love you even i'm no longer your person :'(

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Don't tell me your love is gone 💔

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

I miss everything about u and me.

I could only visit it in my memories

I wish you where here with me

And look at you and tell you

You mean the most to me.

I'm longing for your touch

As you hold my hand

And hug me tight

Sometimes the darkness

Is bitting me up

Hurting me inside

Until i felt bleeding out

I'm scared most of the time

Thats why sometimes

I need you to hold my hand.

i wish i was different..

I wish im not me..

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Crying myself to sleep.. Thinking why does keep happening to me. Everyday same day.same s/!*@ty feeling. Feels like a crap all over again! again!! I hate this you know. I hate this part of me.

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Ang sugat para gumaling, dapat ginagamot. Masasaktan ka, ibigsabihin epektibo ang gamot. Kalaunan gagaling ang sugat mawawala ang sakit. Pero ang marka mananatiling nan doon parin.

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

A while

Its been a while Since I shed a time Confuse at a moment But defenite for something The agony and Irony That will haunting me Same tragedy Different story Same feeling Different hurting Cried for thousand tears And yet nothing can be clear Stuck for every moment Nothing to do about it.

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Kung pede lng ipanalangin... Aaraw arawin ko na eh.. 💔

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I cried for you For a thousand times Words unspoken But will never be forgotten For I will behold The feelings that is gold A tressure I'll keep For sure no one will seek.

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Nabubuhay para magtiis o nabuhay dahil sa pag titiis?

Hindi ko maimagine minsan sarili ko na maging malaya. Yung alam mo na ever since mailap sayo yung ligaya. pero eto ka gusto mo paring hanapin sya.

Kaya minsan parang ayoko mag tagal ng sobra sa mundo.

Hindi sa pagiging suiciadal ah..

Konteto ako kung anong meron.. kung ano ang wala. Hindi rin dahil nawawalan ako ng pag asa o ng gana sa buhay.

Pero ramdam ko kasi sa sarili ko. hindi okay. hindi okay mga naging desisyon ko... Siguro kasi lagi akong takot.. oh kaya kasi hindi ko masyadong minahal sarili ko..

Feeling ko tatanda ako ng wala lng.

Ang sad no? Hehehe. ako lng ata yung nag iisip ng pag tanda... dami ko magiging regrets.. pag naiisip ko na lulungkot ako..

Pinanganak ka masayahin.

Pinanganak ka din na matiisin.

Kung may hihilingin man

At kung pede lang

Sana may maniwala...

Sana mag tiwala..

Sana makita nila

Hindi ako masaya.

Nalulungkot ako. parati nmn. wala nmng bago.. tatawa ako ngingiti.. mag lalaro.. mag papatawa.. mag iisip bata.. masayahin.. pero lahat ng yan karamihan jan hindi totoo..

Kasi yung totoo.. nahihirapan na ko.

Pero kailangan mag tiis. ganun talaga eh. tiis lng.. kahit walang kwenta pagtitiis mo..

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Minsan hindi ibig sabihin ng pagbitaw, ay pagsuko. Kung minsan may sitwasyong Mahal na mahal mo.. Pero kailangan mo sumuko Kasi alam mo makakabuti sa kanya.. Yun nga lang masasaktan ka. We win. we loose. but loosing doesnt mean your weak. accepting is bravery. #greatestlove. 🙂

Yung puntong sobrang gulo at kumplekado na ng mga bagay-bagay pero pinili mo paring mahalin sya..

Pero s'ya pinili n'yang bitawan ka.

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Chapter 2 : BATTLE

in life theres always a battle, a struggle. Ever since i always knew the battle of mine. Its between what you know and what you feel. As a kid i treat it like a game. a played with it like a child. I never really understand untill something came knock in front of me. I was shooked. Didnt got the chance to guard myself its already there. I felt like a snail just waiting for the time to come out face the evils thats within me by then I realize the battle, the war in my heart. The love that was there, the love that was not suppose to share, the love you be hold within your heart that feeling I kept and the feeling of guilt is tearing up every peace of me Little do you know how I wish, how I want, how I love to save you. simply beacause I love you. "ang may pag ibig handang magtiis, mahirap pero mag titiis ka pa rin"

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Nobody see Nobody knows We were a secret thats how it goes.

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Gusto ko malasing sa kape. :/

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Suffering the same irony 7years ago. but this time it leaves a mark on my 💔

[iamlostboynotreadytobefound]

Alam ko mali na, pero di ko kayang bumitaw 💔