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I have been anticipating this day, this very exact moment of pain and at the same time enlightenment.

Funny how we always hear “the only constant thing in this world is change”, but I never saw you changed. It is the same problem all over again.

So here I am today, pen and pad on the left, coffee on the right. Releasing the tension I have been bottling up for so long, hoping that this piece of sheet can somehow loosen the pins being poked on my heart.

Leaves falling, my heart is sinking.

You are really good in crushing it eh?

Birds chirping, voices mumbling, saying it’s about time.

Heavens have been answering my prayers long before. It was just me who chose to look at the other side. Dumb I was. Numb I am.

Breeze hissing, wind whistling, kissing my cheeks, drying my tears out.

I am thankful we’re miles apart now because I cannot bear to hear another single lie.

I am thankful the visa processing was very fast cuz I didnt knew how to say No to that big question you asked me before flying out.

Heavens have given me another chance for the nth time I know. It’s as if everything has been planned. New environment, new faces, new work, new home. And this time, I would not turn my back to the light.

I will not repeat the same mistake again by giving you…what was your line again? Last chance? lol.

Sorry but, I am not taking any more chances. My time is far more precious than being stuck with the wrong one. I got only two hands, and eleven years is too much a chance.

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Today, my OET result came out. I was on duty and received an email that I can already view my result in the portal. I waited for like 30minutes before having the courage to open it. I was very anxious and nervous and hid inside the bathroom. With trembling hands I opened the site and I shouted a little inside the cr (loud enough to be heard by my colleagues) because of joy that after 2 exams I finally got my desired scores without the need for remarking nor clubbing. God really knows that I dont have any money for such. 😅 Unlike the first one, in which I really knew right after the exam that I would fail thus I was not really surprised and nervous upon checking the results.

After I failed my 1st test in March 2022, I just said to myself that maybe its not yet the time and that I will still try to take the exam again. Others might be discourage after failing but my faith and my dreams are strong enough to keep me going.

Now, I’m one step closer to my dream.

Thank you and I love you Papa God, Mama Mary, Sr. Sto. Niño!!!

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Back to 12 hours shifting because again we are under staff! Having a long break is the only thing we look forward especially now that census is tripled from the time people are just staying at home. lol. I am looking forward to PBBM promise of a better future for nurses. But ofcourse not just rely on that flowery statement since we need to work in order to survive. Work ta kay poor ta. 😅🤣☺️

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If you can’t handle me then don’t. I would not ask you anyway. 😅🙊

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It’s September 1st! LeGo Hogwarts friends! Kani lang sa kay wa pay silhig padung ngadto. 😅😂 https://www.instagram.com/p/CTQeRD7vqDq_BCYBBQMG3slNc_YoNJ_EAnWHzg0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Coffee + Baguio weather + view = a perfect way to start the weekend. 🙂 https://www.instagram.com/p/CTGflqYJ-b0OKI7KwIiUuST25OTskdS2pHiEcA0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Breaking the hospital-apartment cycle once in a while but still with the same roomies. lol😅 #apartment8 (at BuKids Resort) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTEtm6cJLEv7Rp5RcZ2sApL0ZAzVvYY9b2oLdk0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I choose to make the rest of my life the best of my life! ☺️ 8.24 #forever24 (at SFJ Organica) https://www.instagram.com/p/CS773n3j0vJEwCe9GC_8vceF9esoPB1LwFN9rE0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Obligatory selfie for 10years in the Nursing profession. ☺️ So kadtong mga interviews sauna s college ug s mga job interviews nga “where will you be in 10 years?” Well, naa nakos 10years mga mam/sir. Hahaha. Five years as community nurse, 5 years as a bedside nurse. Ug mkadawat na kog longe kung apil akong serbisyo pagka volunteer, job order, contractual s ihap. hahaha. Kidding aside, I am grateful that I am able to pursue this career and find happiness in touching other people’s lives maskin pag puros signs ra jud akong gipangayo ni God sauna unsa nga kurso kuhaon. hoho. Thank you Lord! Thank you Nuestra Señora del Pilar! 👩🏻‍⚕️🙏🥰 PS kinahanglan n ug filter kay maclaro na ang 1decade. hahaha #ibeeelive #ivyonig https://www.instagram.com/p/CSysvw5J4-bKAFf2l7jTACeL10rFgCh4Yd9j5Y0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Allow me to flex my 3rd pair of eyeglasses.lol and a reason for a selfie too.🤓😅 Kesehodang tumaas n naman ang grade. hoho #eooptical #ivyonIG (at Dipolog City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CRTJmgms10jna82sTVI123I7Y2hV-GIUfDgsTI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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breakfast at the beach ☺️ #apartment8 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPMgVOBp1Vnii02OzWc8mZr3xOED1f95xLRb_c0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Huli na ba? lol. 😅 48hours post vaccination now. I am lucky to be able to have this vaccine earlier than the public because I am a frontliner. Even if I am not, I am a firm believer in the power of science. So magnaning jd guru oks para lng mkakuha ani kung wazang q nkawork under s Health Department. I experienced some side effects but I was expecting it. Never would I regret it too. Joining the hype to encouraged my non-medical friends here in socmed to get vaccinated! Have faith in science! The vaccines are safe and effective way to end this pandemic. Let us help our country recover and above all else lets protect our families! 😊 ps. just excuse my frightened face...nabalsan ang manusukay 😅🤣 #AztraZenecarecepient #aztrazeneca #resbakunakasanggangbida #bakunakontracovid https://www.instagram.com/p/CMb3FssHRU60CrWX3_js4UIQtpKOxVO1gJBva80/?igshid=112ygua7753q8

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happy days are here again ☺️ (at Mutia, Zamboanga del Norte) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLLWQsrpzSrXhu0jr988l8lO4EKNkE4zS-lWMI0/?igshid=1c1y0b1n910o

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I am learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me. chos 😅 (at วัดไชยวัฒนาราม) https://www.instagram.com/p/CKdPcf2Jx-FyLdO0ErvlC6lmqYhtEXIFZghDEM0/?igshid=1ushjtfntxc6j

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Happy New Year! 1st of 365days for 2021. The supposedly warm and loud celebration was welcomed with a heavy rain here in our city thus the crackling of fireworks (yes may nakakabili pa rin kahit nkaban-matitigas ang bungo tlga. tsk) and those who drags something noisy along the road while riding motorcycles were put on hold for more than an hour.

With the new normal of not being able to cross boundaries that easily, we ought to spend this celebration with our immediate family members only. Yes its different. Our whole lives were changed because of the pandemic. I just hope and pray that this nCov thing will be over sooner so that we can all move on and face whatever storm there is, taking in all the lessons we’ve got from 2020.

Now I can hear some fireworks and neighbors having a videoke. I just hope they are from the same household though. 😅

Hope we will all have a blessed 2021! 🎇🎆🎉

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Just when eveyone is getting busy in preparing for Christmas eve, I am here in our apartment with 4 others of my colleagues being quarantined are dying from boredom. haha. This is my first whole Holiday season away from my family.

Today is our 4th day of being locked up. My pahabol online purchases from 12-12 sale already arrived at home and just needed to be wrapped. While others are already below the Christmas tree waiting to be picked-up or delivered.

Yes it is not the duty of a god-parent to give presents during Christmas or birthdays but I just feel giving. Growing up as a child I always love the feeling of receiving gifts. It doesnt really matter how much that gift costs. The excitement I felt as I unwrapped a gift as neatly as possible (as my mom would say to recycle the wrapper. lol) and collecting the cards from which the gifts comes from. I wanted to share the same joy to my godchildren. Honestly, I seldom have gifts as a child so if any one of these godchildren of mine is the same as me, I would really be happy to make them smile even just for a day. Others may say it is a waste of money but hey dont you know the saying “the more you give the more you received”? Clearly not.

As long as I have resources, I would try to give. Who knows these children will also wish and pray for their ninang’s happiness too? 😉☺️

And for you who have an ample of time reading this, may you be spending your holidays with your loveones.

HAVE A WONDERFUL, SAFE AND HEALTHY CELEBRATION! MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Your on-quarantine nurse,

ICYWITCH

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Sometimes usahay makathink and hunahuna ko nga i have man cguro maybe lahing Bombay agi because of my facial features. 😅 Kidding aside, I am really not fond of posting selfies in socmed but this boredom is really killing me. Day 2 and counting. Expect more. 🙃 #captionforfunonly #notthatdumbokay #quarantinethoughts https://www.instagram.com/p/CJF8l4vJPMBhnsb_iccN_Gfit1Nl1_TWdVyAoA0/?igshid=1vplaew03lzh1