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ほよまるのたのた日記　250305

Hoyomaru shiba diary

bask in the sun

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ほよまるのたのた日記　250306

Hoyomaru shiba diary

toast and egg

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ほよまるのたのた日記　250307

Hoyomaru shiba diary

fishing

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a fish said to bring good fortune 🧧⁣⁣

available for patrons who sing-up in may

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please be patient with me im from the 1900s

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Everything makes sense

I accept what I know

It just hurts to accept it

My dad who was suppose to help mold his daughter was the first man to make me feel insecure about myself. Always pointing out how I would look prettier if I lost weight or comments like “idk why you’re so fat” or comments about how I shouldn’t eat this or that or simply just grabbing my stomach as a joke and laughing.

Then fast forward, I find “the love of my life.” And what does he do? Also make me feel insecure. To the point where I develop an eating disorder and start self harming because no matter how much weight I lose, I’m still fat. I’m fat, sad, starving, suicidal, but hey at least I have someone who “loves” me right?

Then I meet someone else. I get strung along only to feel insecure again. To be told “I’ll date you if you lose weight.” And what a fool I am. I told everyone “at least he never comments about my weight, he likes me for me.” Or what about when he said “no guy will ever take you seriously at that weight.”

I’m not stupid. I’m not blind. I know I’m not skinny. I know I need to lose weight. But why is it so hard to love me for me. Why do I have to be skinny to be loved.

And why does every man always have to remind me that I’m fat.

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自分のお婆ちゃん撮ってます。by yasuto888

‘my grandmother with her dog”

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A collection of my illustrations about life with a shiba - these and more are available as prints in my online store (linked here) until it closes on Nov 26th!

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Some of my fox & dog “A Friend Who Looks Like Me” series - prints of these & more are available in my online store (linked here) until it closes on Nov 26th!

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Source

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I just want to be alone

I don’t deserve anyone

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Same shit different person …

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I’m sooooooooo fucking tired of this cycle

Mack gets to just walk around like NOTHING

just like someone else I know

When they deserve HELL

but what do they get? NOTHING

LIFE IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR