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when the fuck will i be ok

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Literally me the last days

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Também quero chegar a ficar assim...

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I'm underweight and still feel this way.

Being at a “normal” / healthy weight, with a healthy BMI is so weird. You’re not fat, but you’re not skinny either.

You have an eating disorder, but you invalidate yourself because you feel like you’re faking it since you’re not skinny enough to have a severe problem.

Feeling like a disgrace to the ana community which consists of beautiful skinny people - people you don’t belong among.

Feeling guilty for reblogging all these thinspo posts because your illness is not “real enough”.

Wondering why tf you’re ALWAYS cold when your body has plenty of fat to keep you warm.

Wondering why you feel dizzy when you skip another meal when your body l i t e r a l  l y has enough stored energy to keep you “fed” for days.

Being in love with skinny jeans and oversized hoodies but they make you look fat and skinny at the same time somehow? How is that even possible???

Having your collar bones visible, but they’re not poking out of your skin enough, not the way they do on all these thinspo pics.

Feeling disgusted and ashamed to leave your house every time you get bloated, because, from a normal semi-flat stomach, you go to an 8-month-pregnant woman with twins. 

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my symptoms: *get progressively worse*

me: oh thank god i thought i was faking this whole time

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someone: why are you sad?

me: my man u r not ready for this conversation

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21 days

It’s supposed to take 21 days before doing something becomes a habit. 

So just think. 

21 days without binging could be a lifetime of self-control.

21 days of not eating after 6 could mean always waking up skinny.

21 days of actually working out could mean a lifetime of thin.

21 days.

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it dont even feel like june it dont even feel like any month we just floatin thru time

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No se si pueda recuperarme.

a thing eating disorder media could do much better is stop making their story revolve around the Rock Bottom Point. 

like we’ve all seen it - the girl faints in front of her entire school, the guy doesn’t wake up and is taken to the hospital in an ambulance, someone walks in on them purging and forces them into treatment. 

because a lot of us spend years trying to reach that Rock Bottom, telling ourselves that sure, the situation is bad, and we’re hurting, but at least we’re not fainting. at least you can’t see our ribcage. at least my organs are not shutting down. at least I’m still capable of getting out of bed. (and we reach one of those stages: at least i only fainted once, at least my ribcage isn’t that apparent, etc.)

no one enters recovery feeling like they’re sick enough, like they got to the right point. for 99% of us the dramatic, theatrical rock bottom will not come. things might even get better for a while, then worse, then better, then worse.

I would much rather see eating disorder media where the character decides to recover without being forced to by the concerned parent or the worried friend or the good doctor - enters recovery feeling absolutely fucking terrified and like they’re making the biggest mistake of their lives and like they’re absolutely incapable of doing this. but they still do.

I know a lot of us want our lives to look like the dramatic eating disorder movie with the heartwarming ending after all this pain but to be honest for most of us… it won’t happen. and that’s ok. 

i promise you will not know how bad it was until you get out.

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Think you eat too much to have a problem?

Many active people (women included) eat 3000+ calories a day and stay plenty lean.

The recommended daily calorie intake is 2000 for women and 2500 for men.

The recommended daily calorie intake for weight loss is 1500 for women and 2000 for men.

A 5-year-old needs about 1400 calories or more every day.

The minimum daily calorie intake for a long-term diet without medical supervision is 1200 for women and 1800 for men. Eating less than that eventually leads to starvation mode (a real–yes, real–state of biological stress characterized by decreased metabolism, increased cortisol production, and heart, brain, organ, bone, and muscle damage).

A 2-year-old needs about 1000 calories or more every day.

Most people can’t even imagine eating 1000 calories in a day. You’ll get 1,357 Google results if you search for the exact phrase “1000 calories is way too low” or “1000 calories is way too little”…but you’ll get even more results if you Google the same phrases for 1200 calories, because few people consider dipping below 1200.

A 3-digit daily calorie intake puts you at high risk for binge-eating, slowed metabolism, bone and muscle loss, nutritional deficiencies, gastrointestinal issues, infertility, hair loss, mood swings, and depression. Oh–and sudden death.

900 calories is less than what a completely sedentary, 5'0", 80 lb, 70-year-old woman burns daily (keeping in mind that your metabolism slows with age).

A very low calorie diet, also known as a starvation diet, is 800 calories a day or less. It is prescribed by doctors to obesity patients who need to lose weight quickly, is specially formulated to be nutritionally complete, and is monitored by medical professionals to prevent sudden cardiac arrest and death. It is considered an extreme diet.

600 calories a day or less is literal starvation.

500 calories is less than the daily calorie needs of the average 1-month-old.

400 calories is less than the daily calorie needs of the average newborn.

300 calories is less than what the adult brain alone burns every day.

-Mod Lia

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Lo identificable que es esto es mera coincidencia.

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What if these feelings never go away? What am I supposed to do then?

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gaining weight SUCKS and i want to CRY and also eat everything in the kitchen but i also want to starve but i also want to eat normally but i also want to exercise but i also want to purge but i also just want to enjoy life ugH