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GHOSTING.

Did i do something wrong? Did i say something that makes you uncomfortable? Why. Did. You. Just..... leave? Without saying anything..

I tried to contact you... but.. no answer. I want to try to call you... but.. im afraid that i’d just make things worse.. im afraid that you’ll think im a psycho.

Yes i know i shouldnt invest too much on this. But i just cant help it.. you’ve became my source of happiness. The one i think about when i open my eyes in the morning. :(

Maybe im just not that important..

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“I’ll text you in the morning” another bullshit. You’re just never true to your word.

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“I’d still love you, If the world stops spinning If heaven and hell tear us apart If you ever forget me I’d still love you, If I find out you weren’t made for me If these years in my life were nothing but a lesson If we were just a bad dream Darling, I’d still love you, If I never hold you in my arms If I never hear you speak I’d still love you, If one day I love another and If you don’t love me, I’d still love you”

— Richa Gill (@RiichaG_)

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Wow silly me..

Here i am reading our old conversation watching us go from stranger to someone, then goes back to stranger again.

And there you are sleeping, while at the same time, giving zero fucks about me... i hope you’re happy there.. i truly do :)

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This feels weird, but at least it’s not as bad as it was before.. at least i wasn’t crying.. im sorry i cant meet you halfway. You’re way up there and im... well im still here.. and i just made things very awkward between us didnt i?

It’s okay.. it will be okay. Like it always was. You’ll be moving on with your life so fast, im gonna slowly moving on, but i wont look back.

I’d cry and wanting more but deep down i know that i should be grateful. For that few months of happines. I got a taste of being with you, the real you. Not this pretentious little shit you are right now.

I promise i’ll be happy. And i wish you the same too.

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I’ve had a hunch months ago.. i knew that you acted like this because of your special someone doesnt like me.. i mean dont get me wrong. He has every right to.. you guys met years ago. And you only have 1 friend. Him, and that’s okay too.

I met you way too late. If only we’ve known each other sooner, maybe this thing would not happen, and i dong wanna be in the middle of couple’s fight.

So as much as i love you, as much as i want you to be mine, i’m gonna take a few step back. I might hide all of your posts and stories on instagram. But that’s not because i hate you. It’s because i cant see you. The more i see your face the more i’d fall deep into your love, and it’s not good for me. And i might not reply your messages that often, it would be easier for you since we dont talk much these days anyway, and you never missed me. You dont need me to thrive. You dont need me to be whole.. i need you, but that’s okay. Im nobody....

I just wanted you to know that you’d always be my best friend. You’ll always be the one behind every song that i sing. You’ll always be missed.

You belong with him... not with me. And i believe God has someone else in store for me.. and that someone might not be better than you, but at least that person belongs to me. Not to somebody else.

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Today is valentine’s day..

Do u miss me? Cuz i certainly miss you..

Do you think of me? Cuz just like any other day, i still cant get you out of my mind..

Do my name even cross your mind? Cuz i saw your text message every once in a while..

Do you love me? I guess not :(

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Here i am, on a holiday, still thinking about you.

You like me so much cant get out of my mind huh? Or maybe im just too obssesed with you, i cant enjoy seconds without you?

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I wish you’d miss me...

I wish you’d hold my hand, and kiss my fingers..

Or say you love me...

Or just... maybe reply my texts :(

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“I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.”

— Jenna, Waitress (via hplyrikz)

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There are lots of things i wanted to say to you, but i couldnt. Cuz i’d chickened out. Cuz this is inappropriate, given your status and me as a person.

But first of all, i miss you. I miss you everyday, and i cant take you out off my mind. I tried keeping out distance but i always find myself going back to the same direction. To you. You who doesnt give a piece of shit about me.

Second, you’ve changed. No matter how much you keep telling yourself that you’re just the way you were, but you have changed. At least not the person i met, and certainly not the person i fell in love with. You used to care, you used to be fun. I keep trying to do everything the same, just to convince myself that everything is exactly the same. But no. Everything is not.

Thirdly, im dumb cuz i love you. Im dumb cuz i cant walk away. Im dumb cuz i know that you will never be mine anyway. But im just too..... selfish. And im dumb cuz i gave you my all, but gave no shit.

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“I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. Then I saw that you were not perfect and I loved you even more.”

— (via hplyrikz)

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i think it’s important to realize that no matter how good you are to people, it won’t make them good to you.

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tell them i was the                                                                                                    warmest place you knew                                                                                    and that you turned me cold

- Rupi Kaur 

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