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I don't remember the last time i was THAT excited to write again! In a couple of days i'll return home and start to be active here, that's a promise c:

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Heyyo! After a year of complete radio silence, one of my friends dragged me back to Code vein, and my will to roleplay kinda came back? I don't know if this fandom is still alive, and if there still anyone who want to rp with me so... Make some noise here!There's a lot of i want to talk about, and maybe to start over, so yeah! C:

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Hell, it's been a really long time since I logged into this account, right? Ahah....

I probably don't have an excuse, but I still owe at least some explanation to the people I've been talking to here, because going nowhere... just rude? Okay, let's go. (I don't even remember how to work with text on Tumblr, what can I talk about lol)

This post may look like a total disaster and im sorry, i don't really remember how to formate lmao

Kinda a lot of text below, so yeah 

If I remember correctly, my last visit was around March 14-18 – at this time I had to pass my coursework – my final work in 3rd year of college. But these dates became a stumbling block in the whole story – we were quarantined and we couldn't do anything about it. In Russia, the number of people infected with coronavirus began to grow sharply, and our college had no idea what video chats were lol.

The next couple of months after that were literally hell – people started buying up all the products, the mask regime and the fear of infecting their relatives, there's not much to talk about. Or is there?

 I don't remember mentioning it anywhere, but I'm a Medical college student, and who is needed most during an epidemic? Doctors, nurses, anyone with the idea of holding pills in their hands. And although our College gathered people at will, I signed up to be a volunteer and work in the Red zone – where patients with coronavirus lie. Not that I like to help people in principle, but I needed to know what the disease is, to know how it goes. As they say – the best defense is an attack, yes?

And so I worked for a couple of months. But then something happened that I least expected – I myself fell ill with the coronavirus. It would seem that here I am with my friends running around the stadium, which has been converted into a hospital, helping patients of different ages, smiling and helping them emotionally survive this nightmare, but... here I am lying, and they are running around me. Worried.

I will not go into details about how the disease occurred, probably, there are already many articles on the Internet "in the first person", I will only say that it was not very fun. I was treated for a month. On the calendar, meanwhile, it's mid-July.

And it seems that studying is over, I am also healthy (relatively) but at home everything was not as smooth as I thought. Repairs, family fights, whatever.

And now, September. It seems that the number of infected people began to fall, and we went back to college. But I realized that this is my last year, I have to write a diploma, pass a professional exam, and in General a lot of things.

However, growth took off again, and the College decided to start gathering students for work in red zone again. So I signed up. But this is what will happen in the future.

 And so, in short, I went through hell and beyond, although it might seem that I had a lot of opportunities not to disappear so quietly, so everything is much more complicated.

So that….

If this fandom is still alive, and if at least someone remembers me, at least 1 person who is ready to write with me again, I am ready.

If not, then I killed myself with such a sharp loss, and it will be my punishment, I think. I will also answer all the questions, because I think I wrote this text quite incomprehensible, so yeah...

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Hi, Hello, good day! A quick update on things - I'm still immersed in my studies, but it won't last that long. On March 25, I will defend the diploma I am currently working on, and after that - I am completely free and will finally be able to write! I have some notes already, and I think they will be in order by the end of March. That's it for now, see you soon!

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...I already said that i mind be gone for couple of days, but i'm feeling that i have to say something more... I dearly apologize to the people i need to write answers or something else, but i just don't really have time for anything else than studies. I hoped that i will be able to write soon, but instead I was given even more work. So, i'm saying that i remember about everything, and i hope soon enough i will be able to write again. I hope see you soon!

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Ok, so i find some thing, and it's actually... An important one. For quite some time i didn't have an access to my old pc, where was all info about Blanche, important notes and etc. But yesterday i finally was able to get this info into usb and then watch on my today's pc and... Well in short, all info in carrd is correct, even if half of it i needed to get from depths of my memory, except one moment...

I put her old name. I even had separate note when i explained why i changed it.

...

Like before that i didn't have enough reasons to hate myself.

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Hey ho! Sorry for radio silence here, but i guess my classes eating me alive. Mostly i'm just going to college-studying till i'm be sleepy mess-come home-fall dead. I'm literally doesn't remember last 2-3 days lmao... Still, this will last about 1-2 days and then i hope i will be able to rise up from ashes! In meantime you can come to my discord, i'm mostly there now bc tumblr just don't show me any IM or doesn't let me IM people back, soooo yeah! It's Castedorr#3846. I'm always open to talk, plot things or just anything! As for now i shall return to studies, heart anatomy wouldn't learn itself...

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                ALONE  and  LONELY                 are not the same thing.

                                  — but sometimes,     ��                             I get CONFUSED                                   about which I am.

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A quick and easy plotting guide

Send me ✔ and I will bold my preferences for your muse!

My muse(s):

Do I know your muse(s):  yes | no | a little | tell me about your muse

Setting: our verse | my verse | your verse | modern | alternate universe | other

Pre-established relationships? yes | no | depends on the relationship

Possible relationships: friends | classmate | co-worker | roommate | family, real or adopted | dating or blind date | married | friends with benefits | unrequited love | lending a hand | teacher - student | rivals | allies | partner-in-crime | enemies | protecter - guarded | business partners | spy - infiltrated | manipulator - manipulated | star-crossed | first meeting | other 

I’m in the mood for: fluff | angst | horror | romance | humor | crime | hurt / comfort | action | supernatural | slice of life | crack | dark threads | light threads | any genre | multi-para | shorter para | one-line | any length | plotted threads | unplotted threads | other

Feel free to: message me ooc | message me ic | tell me your ideas | write a starter | answer one of my opens | send a meme | reblog this with your preferences - let’s find common interests!

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Well Well Well! Tumblr IMs doesn't want me know where's someone talking to me, so if you want, you can find me on discord! It's Castedorr#3846 (But at times I am a pretty silent person because I get very exhausted in a day, however I always reply to messages so ...)

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//OOC: PSA

Doesn’t matter if we’ve never interacted, if we’ve interacted once, or a BILLION times. Doesn’t matter if we have zero threads or FIVE BILLION. 

ALWAYS feel free to spam my ask box with in character asks, questions, or starters. 

ALWAYS feel free to spam my inbox with ask box memes!

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in memes.

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in quizzes. 

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in posts you want me to see!

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in posts that remind you of me/my muse.

ALWAYS feel free to tag/@mention me in stuff, period! 

ALWAYS feel free to start an interaction with my muse!

ALWAYS feel free to suggest a plot for our muses. 

ALWAYS feel free to send me an OOC message in DMs or in Asks.

I LOVE that stuff. YOU’RE NOT BEING ANNOYING. IT MAKES MY DAY. Talk to me! I love it! :D 

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❝ even  in  these  chains  you  can’t  stop  me.  even  in  these  chains  you  won’t  break  me. even  in  these  chains  you  won’t  haunt  me.  ‘cause  i’m  the  BIG BAD WOLF,  so  let  the  games  begin. ❞

PERSONALS DO NOT REBLOG/REPOST.

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𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞 !

    do   you   want   a   certain   kind   of   ship   with   my   muse  ?   check   out   the   key   below   &   send   me   a   symbol   to   tell   me   what   kind   of   ship   you   want   !     note  :    my   muse   =   blog   owner’s   muse     /     your   muse   =   sender’s   muses

romantic relationships !

💘  friends to lovers ❣️  enemies to lovers 💜  love at first sight 💙  slow burn 💚  skinny love 💔  exes to lovers again 🖤  on again , off again

familial relationships !

🌼  older sibling 🌺  younger sibling 👭  twins 🌻  friends like siblings 🍃  cousins 🌵  parental

friend relationships !

☀️   best friends 🌦   enemies to friends 🌈   friends since childhood  ⛅️  friends of circumstance  ☁️  school friends  🌩  friends from traumatic experiences

enemy relationships !

🔪   friends to enemies 💣   stole something from my muse 🔦   stole something from your muse 🗡   bullied my muse 🔫   bullied your muse ⚔️   family feud 🛠   fueds between mutual friends ❌   guilty by association

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                                  Once the storm comes out, the landscape changes.                                          What you had before is altered in some way.

                                                          And you have a choice:                                         build something new and better from what’s left,                                                                   or abandon it. 

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(     *     VALENTINE’S DAY ALPHABET   !    

send some letters to find out more about my muse   !

A   :   AFFECTION.   how does your muse show affection?

B   :   BOUQUET.   does your muse like flowers? which ones are their favourite?

C   :   CHOCOLATE.   does your muse like chocolate? which one is their favourite?

D   :   DATE.   what is your muse’s ideal date? where / who with / etc?

E   :   EMBRACE.   does your muse like hugs? what are their hugs like?

F   :   FLIRT.   is your muse good at flirting? how do they flirt?

G   :   GIFT.   is your muse good at gift - giving or do they struggle to get it right?

H   :   HEART.   is your muse quick or slow to give their heart away?

I    :   I LOVE YOU.   does your muse find ‘i love you’ easy or hard to say?

J   :   JEALOUSY.   does your muse get jealous in a relationship?

K   :   KISS.   is your muse a good kisser? why / why not? 

L   :   LOVE.   who does your muse love?

M   :   MOONLIGHT.   what is your muse’s ideal date? where / who with / etc?

N   :   NAUGHTY.   what is your muse like in bed?

O   :   ODE.   does your muse have a way with words?

P   :   PARTNER.   what does your muse look for in a partner? looks / personality?

Q   :   QUESTION.   would your muse ask the big question or expect their partner to?

R   :   ROMANCE.   is your muse a romantic or a cynic?

S   :   SWEETHEART.   did your muse have a childhood sweetheart?

T   :   TRUE LOVE.   does your muse believe in true love?

U   :   UNREQUITED.   has your muse had their heart broken?

V   :   VALENTINE.   how does your muse feel about valentine’s day?

W  :   WEDDING.   would your muse get married? why / why not?

X   :   XOXO.   does your muse use / like pet names?

Y   :   YOURS.   does your muse get protective easily?

Z   :   ZZZ.   how many people has your muse slept with?

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nonverbal memes

add + to reverse who does the action

[ attention ] for your muse to touch mine as a way of getting their attention  [ sleep ] for your muse to wake mine  [ cover ]  for your muse to cover mine with a blanket or a jacket  [ lift ] for your muse to give mine a hand stepping up or over something etc.  [ kiss ]  for your muse to come up to mine and kiss them without warning  [ run ] for your muse to run their fingers through mine’s hair  [ braid ] for your muse to braid mine’s hair  [ embrace ]  for your muse to hold mine  [ smile ] for your muse to smile at mine from across the room  [ wave ] for your muse to gesture to mine to come closer  [ panic ] for your muse to grab mine’s arm or get behind them in a moment of danger  [ touch ] for your muse to rest their forehead against mine’s [ weep ]  for your muse to catch mine crying  [ eat ]  for your muse to offer mine food [ hit ] for your muse to attack mine  [ love ] for your muse to touch mine as a show of affection or reassurance  [ nap ] for your muse to fall asleep against mine  [ rest ] for your muse to rest their head in mine’s lap  [ look ] for your muse to catch mine staring  [ seduce ] for your muse to touch mine sexually  [ help ] for your muse to lean on mine for support  [ give ] for your muse to offer mine their arm  [ entwine ] for your muse to hold mine’s hand  [ laugh ] for your muse to laugh at something mine did  [ dance ] for your muse to dance with mine  [ sit ] for your muse to pull mine into their lap  [ yell ] for your muse to calm mine down  [ cry ] for your muse to wipe mine’s tears away  [ dream ] for your muse to wake mine from a nightmare  [ surprise ] for your muse to show up at mine’s house without explanation  [ fix ] for your muse to treat mine’s injury  [ sacrifice ] for your muse to get hurt protecting mine  [ guard ] for your muse to step between my muse and danger  [ taste ] for your muse to cook for mine  [ sing ] for your muse to sing to mine 

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Please… Help those who are suffering.                              If you can ease their burden…                                         even if it’s only a little…