idkwhattonamyself

[idkwhattonamyself]

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♥ pairing: ollie bearman x fem!reader

♥ synopsis: due to your sister’s demanding job you babysit your niece very frequently. she’s taken a liking to your boyfriend ollie and fans have since become obsessed with their dynamic.

♥ smau - fc: women on pinterest - as always none of the pictures are mine <3

♥ warnings: swearing !!!

♥ a/n: i actually combined an old ollie draft of mine for this fic! i hope you like it!

-April 12, 2024-

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yourusername babysitting duty

tagged; @/olliebearman

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user1 the little bear cookies 🥹

paularon_ I didn’t know you baked?!

yourusername just every now and then 🥰

paularon_ you should def bring me one of your treats to try next time you visit ☺️

yourusername i’ll consider it

paularon_ i’ll have a cupcake

kimi.antonelli i’ll take a bear cookie

yourusername apparently i’m a cater now ??

yoursister thanks for helping me out! love you <3

yourusername of course! she’s obsessed with ollie so i’m sure she’ll have a fun time lol. love you more 🫶

user2 loving the pink aesthetic

user10 she’s so cute right?

prema_team the paddock has missed you

yourusername tell the paddock i’ve missed it too 😽

olliebearman i’ll be over in 10 xx

charles_leclerc i thought i said no boys over ☝️

yourusername @/charles_leclerc try and stop me

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”Ollie!” your niece Laney shouted, dropping the toys out of her hands and sprinting over to your boyfriend.

He laughed, picked her up, and carried her on his hip back over to you.

“What’re you playing?” he asked, looking down at the scene.

On the floor was a cutout paper race track and a group of cars following along it.

She hopped out of his arms, “This one’s you,” she pointed to a red car. “You’re in the front because Lando and Max crashed into each other.”

An orange hot wheel was placed on its side next to a flipped over blue one. Ollie covered his mouth to laugh as she dragged him around the track.

He sat down on the floor with his knees up as she explained the rest of the race, “Here’s Charles, your teammate. He’s in the back though because the pit wasn’t good. They almost messed up yours but I stopped it.”

“What would I do without you?” he giggled.

“I dunno,” she responded with a shrug.

She grabbed the ‘Alpine’ to DNF it before her eyes narrowed, finally noticing a bag he placed by the door.

Ollie stood up and grabbed the gift, bringing it over to her with a smile, "I got you something in Japan."

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user2 duffy!!

user8 ollie bear 🥺

user10 oh stop it they’re so cute

user3 omg I love them

user27 do you really think ollie likes your pink bed? 😐

yourusername @/user27 he more than likes it

olliebearman @/yourusername you can't say that 😭

kimi.antonelli 🫣

olliebearman @/yourusername I'm glad she liked the bear tho

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olliebearman monaco's just not the same without her

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yourusername I'm there in spirit 🥹🫶 I'll see you in a few weeks

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user9 oh god they're so cute

arthur_leclerc so what I'm hearing is boys night??

olliebearman ...

kimi.antonelli well yes

charles_leclerc well no!

arthur_leclerc @/charles_leclerc club tonight, boys night tomorrow.

user21 ain't you a millionaire fly her out to Monaco !!!

olliebearman she's with the kids

frederickvestiofficial @/olliebearman kidS plural??? 😧

kimi.antonelli papa bear

user1 HELPPPP KIMI 😭

user7 @/kimi.antonelli LMAOOO

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charles_leclerc je t'aime xx wish you were here to celebrate with us

arthur_leclerc 🫂

olliebearman still can't believe I witnessed this in person

yourusername @/olliebearman you don't have to rub it in 🙄

user9 this is so important to me

user1 I have no one to talk to about this to

user8 oh I bet laney was so excited

user6 @/user8 aren't we all

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yourusername some much needed boyfriend time

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kimi.antonelli aw (ew)

yourusername @/kimi.antonelli ew you

kimi.antonelli a date without me is crazy 😔

user8 everyone needs ollie time

user38 where's Laney?

yourusername with her mother...?

user10 wish that was me in his hotel

yourusername real

user10 @/yourusername bitch

user7 what do I have to do to get an Italy date night

antoniogiovinazzi99 in my home country and you didn't even visit?

yourusername NOO :( I'm sorry I'll stop by soon

arthur_leclerc woww yn and I thought Ferrari was a family

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yourusername packing for the British Grand Prix <3 Good Luck to the Brit boys this week @/alex_albon, @/lewishamilton, @/landonorris, and @/georgerussell63

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oscarpiastri erm 🤓☝️

yourusername are you 1/29th british

lilyzneimer cant wait to see you <3

yourusername can't wait to see you more

georgerussell63 don't worry I'll win the race for you

landonorris @/georgerussell63 be sooo serious

user2 shout-out british men guys

yourusername WE CAN GO BAND FOR BAND 🗣️🔥🇬🇧☕

user5 LOVING the red

user6 she has to rep the team !!

user7 you're so gorg

kimi.antonelli lewis fan club: meetings at isack's

yourusername I'll be there

user8 I could 100% see isack being the president of a Lewis fan club

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yourusername I can't believe I had to keep this a secret! @/olliebearman this has been your dream since we were kids and you’ve finally done it 🥹 i couldn’t be prouder <3 I love you so much

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olliebearman couldn't have done it without you

user1 and the cutest couple award goes to

estebanocon welcome him to the grid for me. can't wait to see you two in the garage

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alexandrasaintmleux love you guys

yourusername love you alex xx

charles_leclerc @/yourusername do you love her more than me

yourusername @/charles_leclerc I love her more than ollie

olliebearman @/yourusername ???

olliebearman @/alexandrasaintmleux way to ruin our moment

user7 I'm so happy for him

yoursister laney is ecstatic

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yourusername so proud of her uncle <3

user8 " her uncle" JUST KILL ME

user9 if they break up love is dead

user10 my parents

user6 she's so proud of him 😭🫶

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"There's a very special supporter in the Ferrari garage right now," Martin said on the pre-race broadcast as the camera zoomed into Laney with her bear.

"There is Oliver Bearman, joined by well—little Ollie Bearman," he said with a chuckle.

"Isn't that just adorable, Martin?" Crofty asked.

"It definitely is, I might need to snag me one of those bears myself," he laughed. "He could probably make a merch line out of that I'm sure it would sell."

"I'd buy it," Crofty added.

"Well, either way," the camera panned back to you and your niece. "Those are some great fans to have by your side."

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olliebearman my day ones 🫶

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[idkwhattonamyself]

i never wanted us to be sad about our situation. i’m grieving our love that didn’t even start. how odd, hm? i just hope that you’re coping better than me. i want the old us back.

[idkwhattonamyself]

and now that she’s back, what will you do?

[idkwhattonamyself]

i’m trying to get rid of these feelings. i’ve been crying every hour. i miss you so much. i’m sad that we couldn’t even try, we both like each other but you didn’t even wanna try. i’m angry at myself for being too understanding, i wanted us to try. i really wanted to.

[idkwhattonamyself]

To the one who’s reading this,

I like you. It’s true that I like you. I don’t know how it started, I’ll guess noong nag simula tayong mag asaran bigla may nabuo na lang? That’s my only guess. I confirmed that I like you na noong October 30. I really tried to deny it at first, alam ko naman na wala akong pag asa kaya I ignored my feelings for you. I also tried to assess kung ano ang nararamdaman ko para sa’yo, ayaw ko naman kasing guluhin ka kung hindi naman pala ako sigurado.

I want to get this off my chest na, ang hirap pala kung itatago ko sa’yo ’to. I made you sad, I know. It hurts to see you cry dahil sa situation na ’to. It’s okay if you don’t want us to try, gusto ko lang talaga na sabihin na sa’yo ’to. Kung ano magiging decision ’yon din ang magiging decision ko. I have a request pala, I don’t want our friendship to change or end. Importante ka na sa’kin kaya please don’t act different after this.

I hope na okay ka na ngayon. Take your time before responding sa message na ’to. Ayaw kitang madaliin.

[idkwhattonamyself]

i like you. it’s true that i like you, ikaw ’yong pinaparinggan ko sa mga posts ko. hindi ko alam kung paano saan o paano nag simula pero i know that i have feelings for you na. i was indenial sabi nga nila pero alam ko na ngayon sa sarili ko na gusto na talaga kita. i want to get this off my chest na, ang hirap pala na hindi ko masabi ang mga salita na gusto ko sabihin sa’yo. i confirmed that i like you na noong oct 30.

you don’t have to like me back, it’s okay lang. but i want our friendship to stay the same, please? ’yon lang ang gusto ko, ayaw ko mawala ang friendship nating dalawa. i don’t want this friendship to change dahil lang sa confession na ’to. sobrang mahalaga ka na sa’kin. please, just let me admire you. i will eventually move on, i hope.

[idkwhattonamyself]

i lied, i actually like him. i am lying to myself if i said i dont have any feelings for him. but i know i dont have any chance so i will keep quiet about my new found feelings. it will hurt me but who cares? i will never admit it to anyone but myself. he will remain as my best friend, my kuya. that will be our dynamic forever because i know that i will never be enough and that she will be better for him. i like him but he deserves so much more better than me. this will be my confession to myself, not to him.

and to E, i like you but i can never confess to you. i’d rather die to admit to you that i have feelings for you. i know that my feelings are important but our friendship matters more. i dont want anything to change because of my feelings. so until i die, you will never know that i liked you and we will remain as friends. : )

[idkwhattonamyself]

manahimik na nga lang ako :/

[idkwhattonamyself]

kainis kung ayaw nyo maniwala kayo na may problema dyan

[idkwhattonamyself]

sabing hindi nga sya

[idkwhattonamyself]

moving on kahit may something pa, kapagod mag hintay ng update sayo lods.

[idkwhattonamyself]

gagawin mo pa ata akong backburner, sige. gawin din kitang backburner ko. tingnan natin kung sino mas toxic sa’tin. you can never hurt me, baby.

[idkwhattonamyself]

hi diary,

its not an update about him. its an update about me. lately ive been feeling down, idk why. im afraid that im starting to get back to my old self. i hate it, i dont want to go back to my dark times. but i cant help it, i hate so fucking much. i just wanna cry all day and just do nothing. i just got back from it like months ago, i dont wanna go through it again. but i know, deep inside that im starting to go back. ive build my happy me for almost a year, i wanna stay like that forever. i know i cant but i just wish i can.

[idkwhattonamyself]

hi diary,

i met this cute boy. at first he caught my attention, i didnt know that i was his potential crush. but he suddenly caught my attention. hMm, i chatted him after like 2 days. its been 8 days since then, i am doing good and im happy. he treats me right, he’s super gentle and soft when it comes to me. i once said my favorite ghibli movie is castle in the sky then a minute later he watched it with me. he compliments me everytime he can. he gives me updates on whats happening to him even though i dont ask. and oh, he asks me if im comfortable with this or that. when i asked about what his favorite song was he said it and then asked me what was mine. he immediately listened to it and i was like ><. i can sense that he really wants to get to know me. he often asks questions about me and my life. were like opposites attract tho but i like it. my heart is racing everytime he calls me baby. whenever i talk with him im always smiling like a lovesick girl. he also started adopting the way i chat. like, i often use po and opo, and he started to use it also. plus i send a lot of stickers and he also started using it!! he’s so cute, i swear. he matches my vibe, like when i say i want to do this he also wants to do it. isnt he cute? you can say he treats me right and he’s my type. i think im falling for him. ill update u whenever i remember again.