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tracey emin, 2013

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Promised myself (and my therapist) I would get better at noting things I’m grateful for even at the end of a long day, so here are some snapshots from today that weren’t lost on me!!

Choosing to shrug something off instead of spiraling about meaning where there is likely none

Cuddling w best friend’s bunny (obviously)

Doing light piano warm ups after getting home even if I was DOG tired. <3

Cool wind on a humid summer night in June

The silver chain link bracelet I got while shopping with one of my best friends

The lip gloss my best friend gave me because the subtle berry shade reminded her of me

My mom.

Ironing out my future

Getting better at capturing little moments — that’s where the real magic happens

Reading recreationally today in my indefatigable attempt to combat my stress-induced reading slump!!!

Romanticizing all the little things. Seeing my own perception of them as more than enough.

Studying all by myself after a long day at the clinic constantly being around other people

Hour by hour schedule

Being back on my rhythm

The funny reels oomf sends me

The color pink. The color buttercup yellow. Neutrals.

Trusting that whatever I’m worried about right now is just a brief moment in time… I will pull thru

Thai tea latte

Accepting imperfection while studying — choosing to come back and master material later rather than expecting perfection off the get go

The Arab buffet I love going to

The ability to give or relinquish meaning to things

Being off my phone for hours at a time like I used to

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Sometimes finding internal peace looks a whole lot like cuddling with one of your best friends’ bunnies and picking organic kale from her family’s garden to boil and eat later… if only I can do this every day

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Sometimes finding internal peace looks a whole lot like cuddling with one of your best friends’ bunnies and picking organic kale from her family’s garden to boil and eat later… if only I can do this every day

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la scarzuola in umbria, italy ⋅ ph. stefan giftthaler

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hi cianna, so i dont know if u remember but one time u posted abt how rejection can actually be good for you, like it's just part of life and you have to get used to it and actually learn how to handle it, well anyway i got rejected twice by girls i liked, which actually sounds sad and not at all inspirational 😭 BUT both times i was the one to ask them out and yk put myself out there and i kept thinking of your post and im actually proud of myself for how i handled both situations (not to pat myself on the back for being able to deal w something in a mature way as a 21yo lol) and i'd even say the first instance helped me handle the second one better (lesbian drama), anyway wow this is so long and u didnt need to know all that but i just wanted to thank you for posting and being here, ur words inspire me every day and im glad we are mutuals 🫂🩷 if u do happen to read this cause ik u get so many asks in a day pls dont post it haha love you <3

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!! I love hearing from you and this truly warmed my shriveled heart and I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Maryam Mirzakhani

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Are you watching any shows right now? Also I love your blog sm

girl I’m on season 3 of Ginny and Georgia and I am OBSESSED . Idk what I’ll do when I’m done w it. Hopefully read a book . It’s the first show I’ve binged in a looooong time it’s so good (I do skip drawn out scenes but overall the storyline is so entertaining for me). I rly like it!!!!! Give it a try

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Like being self centered has been so fun literally what is anyone else even doing. I had a coffee date w a friend in another city today. I may book a spontaneous trip to visit my uncle in Europe. I may just stay there for half a month. I just bought my first ever music stand for my piano. & this new crop top w a teddy bear on it (very y2k). I wrote my grandmother a love letter in Arabic. Im doing intermittent fasting but my phone edition. I’m studying by myself at weathered bookstores. Life is so fun right now .

Guys I literally hate to admit this but being obsessed w yourself and your life no matter how small it may seem litetalky works like effusing that energy ATTRACTS people but what’s even nicer is you dgaf if it does because you’re having so much fun all on ur own

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Guys I literally hate to admit this but being obsessed w yourself and your life no matter how small it may seem litetalky works like effusing that energy ATTRACTS people but what’s even nicer is you dgaf if it does because you’re having so much fun all on ur own

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Bro I’m 22 and I’m relearning piano (I learned the basics nearly ten years ago) let’s learn at the same time and prove them all wrong

LETS DO ITTTTTT 🩷🩷🩷🩷

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you have an early 2000s anime protag shirt situation going on in that childhood picture (and the default little kid getting photographed stance, very normal, not especially cringe btw :) also a very cute smile♡) toodeloo

No like the fit is so out of character bc everything else my mom dressed me in was so girly 😭😭 thank you!!

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lmao girl, you're not ancient for starting at 22, i personally started at 7 but because i was a little kid who didn't appreciate that some stuff took effort to learn i hated it and now i wish i took it more seriously bc i was rlly behind in grades compared to ppl my age. my piano teacher died in 2020 and i haven't played seriously since then and now at 21 i really regret not trying again and i think as an adult, i'm more willing to go through trials and periods of failure than i was when i was young. starting at 22 is great bc you're an adult who has more resilience than the child version of you probably would

This is such a good perspective! I feel like we are taught that if we don’t start around 12 latest then we’re basically Doomed from being as good as our peers, but that’s not fair!! People who start later in life shouldn’t be limited to just being hobbyists… especially at my age. Like the last thing I want to feel is I started late when I’m literally in my early 20s

There’s nothing wrong w wanting to take up a hobby casually—but there’s also nothing wrong w being ambitious about it even if you start “later in life”

Btw you with piano is me w tennis!! I had formal tennis classes when I was 6-10, then discontinued it indefinitely and now want to pick it back up again!! I also fit the avid childhood reader to now trying to fit reading in as an adult pipeline lol — I used to write a lot too! I keep thinking about the pianist anon I got & translating these skills (from academia and reading/writing) into my musical learning in the present!

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tbh i would say the reason so many people who play piano started early isnt bc there’s a unique advantage to that, but because people just. don’t make time to pick up hobbies in their adult years as frequently. i would say you picking it up at 22 just shows how much you care and your willingness to make time for the instrument, as opposed to a lot of people who are just strung along by their parents for the extracurricular or whatever. also, what takes a 4 year old a year to learn you could manage in a week — it really will be okay 💗

I want you to know I read this ask while drunk yesterday and I bubbled and fizzed into so much joy…. I know people who’re like “it’s okay you can still PLAY as an adult! You don’t have to be good!!” Bc like? I do wanna be good? I wanna be just as good as someone who started at age 4??? I wanna believe that I could be able to catch up if I truly grinded?? Like I am taking this seriously by having bought a whole piano + paying for formal classes + being in constant correspondence w my teacher + reading an entire textbook like it’s another subject I’m studying…. I want to be able to compete one day. I want to be really good at it. I think nothings wrong w being competitive . I don’t wanna limit myself. I don’t wanna be humbled just bc I started “later”

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pianist who started at 8 and taught piano through high school... IMO starting kids on piano at age 4 is insane because their Little Bby Hands simplu do not have the size / span / fine motor control to really play well, no matter how much they intellectually understand what to do, which makes piano a very frustrating exercise for them. a LOT of kids who start that young come to hate the piano. for an ideal piano education, I would recommend general music play from the start (rhythm games, dancing, singing, IDing intervals, improvising, etc) for little kids, and then moving into formal piano study at age 7 at the earliest.

(so that lady you asked probably had super intense parents / teachers about piano, is my point. pity the pianist who started at 4.)

starting any other age is fine, too. listen.

I like to think that learning to play piano and cello as a kid was really my first experience learning foreign languages. at the very least, learning how to read and write and listen and "speak" (play) in the musical world, not quite in english, prepared my brain for starting to seriously learn foreign languages as a teenager and young adult. funnily enough, when I'm actively playing piano, my brain does not move through my otherwise-constant language-based internal monologue -- when I play it all comes from this wordless knowledge and these bodily instincts. it's one of the only times I'm so In The Flow that words aren't in my brain.

so like, maybe you never studied an instrument until 30, but you grew up speaking multiple languages, or you learned some later, or you work with your hands, or you do pottery, or you walk around IDing birds by sound. there are so many wells of knowledge and instinct your brain draws on to create your musical understanding.

it's impossible to boil down any person's musical understanding to just their formal training. it comes from so many sources and strengths under the surface of your brain. only considering the most formalized of training is doing everyone a disservice!

finally, anyways, the biggest factor in whether or not an adult beginner succeeds in learning piano isn't their natural talent at piano; it's their natural talent at being a beginner.

I love you for this ask thank you so so so much! What an amazing perceptive I truly am floored

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Highlight from today’s wedding that I went to (first church wedding experience ever btw) is that the lady who played the piano during the whole thing impressed me so much. So I went up to her after my whole bridesmaid routine was done. Asked how long she’s been playing for. She goes “oh they started me late at 9. They usually start them at 4” and you can literally not pay enough money to see my face in that moment. LATE . At 9. Girl . Try 22??????