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🤓☝hug of joy and happiness

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Ford speaks Minecraft enchanting table

follow-up to this saga

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Quick sloppy doodles from last week

Had an idea of like “what if the Light and Dark worlds have different styles, like even the media too”

So in the Light World, it’s a bit more rendered and with more natural colours with watercolour and coloured pencils, while the Dark World is stylistically like cell shading with brighter, almost neon colours

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The problem partner

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💚🩵🩷

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Kris Kitchen scene was a big mood

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he is like a prey animal to me

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overhearing my neighbor rant on the phone top of his lungs and his friend is saying something in calm voice and he goes NO. NO NUANCE. STOP SAYING NUANCE. MY BOSS NEEDS TO DIE

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They are studying us in petri dishes

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kris seeing through their hand in the shadow crystal. all the "severed hand"/"guy who wakes up without a hand" references in the new chapters. berdly having his entire arm paralyzed in the hospital if you didn't spare him in chapter 2. toby fox talking about his chronic wrist pain often preventing him from coding and playing. learning to navigate his disability and how working in a team makes developing games possible for him, even if they don't perfectly represent his vision. the piano as THEE representation of kris' freedom and individuality outside of their role as The Cage. the option to tell susie that Kris will keep playing if she learns to play piano too...

if kris loses their hand and deltarune ends with a 3-hand concert where susie plays alongside them i am going to walk straight into the ocean

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YOU KNOW I LOVE TO BE LOVED LIKE A

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Im a kick ass artist capable of learning so fucking much and i got awesome lips and nice titties and my hair fuckin rocks. go on. Im waiting.

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Egg hunting season's looking good this year

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I really didn't.

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finally figuring out the best boy

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i'm thinking about how lonely Noelle is.

like, we all know Kris is very lonely and very detached, that much is obvious. we can't even let them have full autonomy. but it's just as heartbreaking to see the little details that show how lonely their childhood friend is as well.

dess's disappearance rocking both families is how we can assume asgore lost his job, the holidays stopped coming over, kris was sent to receive psychiatric help [insinuated by the chapter 4 egg event], and just in general how the close bonds shared by both families fell apart to the wayside and how that impacted everyone.

losing a fundamental support system is devastating to anyone, especially children. we see in chapter 3 especially the kind of environment that tragedy instilled in the dreemurr household, how it affected kris especially.

but oh my god i can't begin to imagine how dess disappearing affected noelle. that girl lost her big sister. she spent years just searching up her name, maybe hoping she'd turn up somewhere. even if she never told them, maybe at least she was somewhere.

losing someone like that is so hard to process because your mind wants to place them somewhere. they have to have gone somewhere. they can't just be nowhere, we just can't not know. everyone seeks closure, to give someone's memory a place to rest.

even worse having a child try to process all that, while still growing and getting older, trying to make sense of the world around them. and then noelle not only loses her sister, but technically loses her childhood friend along the way. from what little we know, they spent time apart. most likely due to the families interacting less and less, but also that point in time where kris began to go to therapy and became more and more closed off.

so, i honestly can't blame her for trying to shrug off and downplay just how much kris means to her when talking with susie in dess's room. once you say something out loud, you put a lot of weight into it. it becomes more real, and you're faced with what the reality of that is. saying outloud just how much a memory means to you, because its with someone you love, just makes that loss of connection more palpable. you remind yourself what you both lost, and she's lost so much.

noelle and kris aren't close like they used to be but there's still something salvageable there. in weird route you take advantage of her trust, trust that remains from years of knowing someone more than anyone else, and knowing they know as much about you. you find out she misses them terribly. she's not lying to someone because she isn't sure if she's going to have her old friend back ever again and doesn't want to face another loss, she hears kris again and feels like she got them back.

she doesn't want what you make them, she wants her childhood friend back. she misses their voice and hearing it again brings her to tears.

she's so, so lonely. she clings to an idea of what she could have with susie. she desperately tries to make sens of what happened to her sister. she visits her sick dad every day. her mother is never home.

she misses her childhood friend. they're there, they're always around, but they don't feel all there. it was already painful enough for one loss in her youth, but to feel like you're, at the same time, losing a friend who is technically within reach, is heartbreaking.

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Light shines within you.