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Am I being game again

hari ni aq rasa down sangat...xtahu sebab apa...aq baru dpat tahu they become friend again kat fb...tgokkkan pd list recently added. hati aku jadi hancur. sebab aq ingat dy betul2 menyesal pd perbuatan dy..tp......rsa diri aq ni kna game dan aq xtawu aq kne game dgn spe.

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Aku sayang mak abah

semalam abah cuba tegur aku..biasala aku masih melayan rajuk tah apa apa...aku masuk bilik..siaan adik aku kena ceramah beregu ngan mak abah aku. haha. deep inside me i hate being like this. sedih kot, jdi anak derhaka gini....aku cuba ubah tapi kdang2 tu terlepas jugak...kadang2 terpk jugak biarla aku pergi dulu so that mak abah aku xdela sakit hati melayan perangai teruk aku.hmmmm mereka akhirat aku...harap sangat Alllah gantikan hati aku yang penuh dosa dan noda ni dengan sekeping hati yang baru so that aku dapat berbakti pada orang tuaku. aku benci diri sendiri

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Jadikan dia yang terakhir untukku

ieka, 2017

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16/08/2017

i did it again. aq ws dia lagi. and surprisingly aq boleh p mintak maaf kat dia! like lol...hang xsalah apa pun weyh awat la p mntak maaf. aduiyai. tapi tula....dia macam da berubah....and there is some awkward moment between us. i mean, rasa janggal and aku mula rasa jauh dari dia...hurm....xkanla dia da ada orang lain...hoping hes not getting anyone else. lol english aq jahanm...harap dia masih setia menunggu aku..

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mlas dah nak pkiaq

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Malu

serius aku malu ngan diri aku. dah besar tapi perangai macam budak kecik, yes thats what my dad said to me. malu dengan semua orang on how easy my self getting enggaged with sadness

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Don’t ask yourself what you did wrong or how you could have done it differently. Don’t waste your valuable heart and mind trying to figure out why he did what he did. Or thinking back on all the things he said, and wondering what was the truth and what was the lie. The only thing you need to know is that it’s really good news: He’s gone.

Greg Behrendt, He’s Just Not That Into You (via thoughtkick)

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Ya Allah ampunkan dosaku pada orang tuaku...berilah aku sekeping hati yang baru

diri sendiri.ieka

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Depression

the word depress itself shows how inexplicable feeling that human eyes fail to see. Aku sedih sangat, dah lama aku xrasa macam ni. aku xsalahkan mak dan ayah aku. aku salahkan diri aku sendiri. for being me. dulu mak kata aku ni blur, sedih sangat. aku jadi teringat sampaikan setiap kali asgment or orang bagitahu aku jadi blur. Doa ke tu? pastu semalam ayah aku cakap belajar tinggi2 tapi tak berakal. tak berakal? aku sedih sangat. rasa macam ditusuk sembilu tajam sangat smpai tah aku xtahu nak describe. ayah aku sendiri cakap camtu. rasa diri ini terlalu la hina dan buruk akhlak. sampaikan aku xboleh nak tahan airmata pun. sampi ke tempat kerja. ya aku depress. depress bukan sebab parent aku. aku depress sebb diri aku. Ku nak jadi yang terbaik tapi aku gagal!

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Move on

please jangan mengharap dah icar. hang kenaa step out from the zone, deep inside me i dont feel like fall for love anymore. i just want to get rid and never return. i dont even feel like going back to my uni for my grads. but then i have to think bout my parent. seriusly dalam hati aku aq sedih sangat2. lonely sangat2. like no one would care bout me and feel macam rendah diri gila sebab xjadi kepentingan orng.

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Forget

i should forget him. i must. seriously rose(not my realname), u have to move on! he is not interested in u. look at u! ure trying so hard to make him happy but him?? he dont even care bout u or ur presence.  u knew it already. inside u when u messaging him. like he would reply u for hours. and in shorts. and he always ignored everything u have said. not ignored. he dont even remember! he just thinking bout himself. not u. if he truly like or love u, he wont say any other girls infront of u. like please rose, have u forgot how many times he cancelled his promise with u? when u are so damn excited to get out with him like u willing to take shower,ironed ur outfit as fast as u could just because u didnt want him to wait long for u, but at the end what he did? he overslept!!! and he easily said hes tired. without single sorry. and blame for the sport activity but not himself.! u knew all that rose! i knew u were excited because u get to know a handsome and wellknown lad and u wish he would put his eye just on u up to some point u willingly exhaled ur pain.! just to make sure he keep in touch with u. bngun rose. dia just nak gunakan hang ja weyh. dia tengah bosan. xkan hang xperasan dia just nak keluaq ngan hang time tgh malam and whynot time siang? sebab dia xmaw reputasi dia jatuh! dia xmaw la orang nampak hang kluaq ngan dia. dah tu sruh hang belanja lagi. sanggup drive jauh2 sebab senang nk puaskan hati dia. yang hang pun pulun pakai lawa2. xkan hang xsedaq lagi. dia makan sedap2 kat rumah dia xpkiaq pun hang da makan ka dak ka ap ka. dia taw nak ajak hang kuaq ja. xkan hang xingat camna ia janji pkui 8 hang pun punyala beregegas besiap smp tauk habih benda2 selerak panik sbb tkut xsempat siap. smpai sggup tinggai nasik sbb takut dy trtggu. hang da siap pastu siap kluaq lg tggu berdiri terpacak cam orang bodo and end up dia mesg ckp kluaq koi 9 la. weyhhh kebodohan pa tu yang hang xnmpk lagi rose!!!!!! dahtu hang sanggup xmakan just sbb nak kluaq ngan dia. cer la pkiaq weyhhhhhhhh hang nak lagi ka orang selfsh teruk sampai gitu??

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i did it again. i thought im the one and only but then yeah i did it again; syok sendiri

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People

people nowadays just make me scared. i mean not that scared but scared up to some point i really dont understand why there must be such attitude. i do admit im not that perfect but hmm i think shouldnot be that way when u are struggle to look up for urself and seeking attention in such manners. like lol come on. be urself.!

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this roses are so calm to see

Love Horoscope for August 2017

culturenlifestyle:

It’s the end of summer and love is still in the air! Believe it when we tell you that this month is extra special! August will bring two big eclipses, which means passions and intense emotions will be running through everyone’s veins. 

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Dm

Dia direct message aq bout his story. i reply with a love emoticon. and he just seen

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Ya Rabb, jika benar dia jodohku maka Kau dekatkanlah hatinya dan hatiku, Jika bukan untukku maka Kau ambillah kembali segala rasa untuknya dari hatiku

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i miss him, do i?

i dont like him actually, but i dont know...my heart felt empty. not empty kinda thing, maybe before this i used to message with him but then all of sudden we become stranger again..aku cuma nak dia faham yang aku serik disakiti dan aku mengaku aku dah start sukakan dia even perangai dia annoying namatii..hmmm..