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SLASHER IF?!!

yes! it's called killer batch and it's about getting high and trying to stay alive. this is the official blurb:

What do you get when you combine a group of college students, brownies accidentally laced with lsd instead of marijuana, a revenge plot and a family with murderous tendencies?

You get what's coming to you.

it's still very much in development and i plan to only release it when im finished mirror mine, but i do work on it whenever i get the chance.

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get to know you tag

i was tagged by @bacchanal-if (thank you bestie!!) and i love tag games so i couldn't resist :)

last song: lust for a vampyr by i monster

currently watching: the rookie

fave colour: the pink i use for mirror mine

place of birth: belgium

current location: my bed

relationship status: 👎

last movie: pulp fiction (and it was boring as hell, sorry movie bros)

currently working on: mirror mine & my slasher if

gonna tag @softfairies @burning-academia-if @thelonelyshore-if @apt502-if (no pressure besties) and anyone else who wants to participate!

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Hi Alli, what's the word count for the current demo?

currently it's sitting at 75k including code!

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candles & heartache

summary: valentines dinner is interrupted when alex comes home after a rough day at work.

pairing: m!alex x ada (f!oc)

word count: 978

and finally, the second winner of my valentines giveaway, @riveringrio asked for fluff and angst! as always, big thank you to @softfairies for proofreading and providing the fabulous artwork!

ada is just beginning to light the candles when she hears a key in the front door. a smile spreads across her face as she glances down at the table set with plates, cutlery and roses in a vase in the middle, ready for her and alex to dine there. the food is in the oven keeping warm, a recipe for homemade lobster ravioli courtesy of her mother, and dessert is chilling in the fridge, a tiramisu cake baked by callie, sitting beside a nice bottle of rosé. it's not the most extravagant of plans but for a moment she wonders if she's not underdressed, wearing plain jeans and a hoodie she had stolen from alex. But then, the door is opening and that train of thought is cut off as the man himself enters the apartment.

"surprise!" she cheers, arms thrown up in the air as he stands in the doorway. "happy valentines day."

slowly he blinks at her, a dazed look on his face before he glances around the apartment, darkened by candlelight and decorated for the occasion. he opens his mouth to speak, but no words come out; her bright smile morphs into a frown.

"alex?" she approaches him, still standing in the doorway, and gently places her hand on his arm. he's still wearing his scrubs, the baby pink fabric at odds with the haunted look on his face. Now that she's up close, she thinks she sees dried specks of blood on his collar. "are you okay?"

his eyes flick up to her face, and now that he's looking at her, reality seems to come crashing down on him. "sorry," he starts, his voice breaking over that one simple word; he inhales sharply before continuing. "sorry, um... i just..."

her arms are already open wide when he collapses into them, sobbing into her neck and desperately holding onto her as if she's the only thing keeping him together. she doesn't ask questions and he doesn't give any answers. it's just the two of them together in this moment, and that in itself is enough.

they stay like that for what feels like an eternity. even long after his sobs have quieted down and his breathing becomes more calm, she still holds onto him, rubbing slow circles on his back. it's only when he feels ready to pull away does she let him go.

"sorry," he says again, wiping away the last of the tears on his cheeks. "it was just... a really tough day at work."

"do you want to talk about it?" she nudges the door shut with her foot before gesturing towards the couch, away from the dining area and their candle lit dinner. she tries to mask her disappointment at her work being abandoned; alex is more important than that. his needs come before anything else, now moreso than ever.

“not really,” he tells her, groaning as he drops down onto the couch, his head resting on the back cushions. “i don’t want to ruin the mood more than i already have. what did you make that smells so good?”

she ignores the question as she sits beside him, the corners of her mouth turned down in a frown. “you’re not ruining anything,” she insists. “dinner can wait; i'm here for whatever you need.”

he looks at her then and smiles, the weight of the day seems to melt away simply with that alone, as if she’s his cure to the madness he’d have to endure. And she probably is, because that’s what he is for her too. “you’re the most beautiful woman i've ever seen,” he says simply, the melancholy of his day long forgotten.

she blinks at him, a confused laugh bubbling up from her throat. “what?”

“it’s true.” he nods as if having shared sage wisdom. “and i'm not just saying that because it’s valentines.”

she playfully smacks his arm. “lex, be serious.”

“you think i'd joke about that?” he asks, a look of mock offense taking over his features. “how dare you insinuate such a thing.”

she wears a soft smile as she looks at him fondly. while she’s glad to see this fun, joking side of him again, she doesn’t want him to bury whatever he’s feeling and pretending it doesn’t exist. that's no way to live; they both know that well. “alex,” she starts and he drops the act instantly. She reaches for his hand, giving it a squeeze and feeling relieved when he squeezes it back. “i just want to know that you’re okay.”

“i am,” he insists and upon seeing she remains unconvinced, he squeezes her hand again. “i will be. i just need a moment; a breather. i'll tell you everything tomorrow.”

she arches an eyebrow at him. “promise?”

“i swear on my life.” he raises his free hand to trace a cross over his heart and her lips twitch in an involuntary smile, which he seems to take as a win. “now, will you please tell me what you made? i can feel my stomach digesting itself over here.”

laughing, she gets up from the couch and he follows her to the dining table like a lost puppy. although ‘lovesick’ seems to be a more apt descriptor. “you’re in luck,” she says as she puts on a pair of oven mitts to pull the food from the oven. “it’s one of mom’s classics.”

“you’re too good to me,” he says, sliding into his chair, watching as she brings the food and wine to the table. he stares at her the whole time and she finally catches his eye as she sits down across from him. “i ever tell you how much i love you?”

she shrugs, smiling coyly. “yes... but i could stand to hear it a couple more times.”

and he does. he tells her every chance he gets.

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DEMO

Update Wordcount: 59,904 Total Wordcount: 114,296

Finally, the chapter one (part one) update is here! I've been fighting tooth and nail against my own perfectionism, but my partner assures me that the chapter is good and I think I'm finally happy with where it's at. In this update you can:

Wake up!

Have a conversation with your host (Jay, Ravi, or Dr. Jones)

Go for a drive!

Return to the lake, or check out a gas station in the middle of nowhere.

Eat Breakfast! Meet Beck & Perri!

And that's it, nothing else weird will happen at all, I promise <3

There's a good amount of branching in this one. Three starts, two distinct middle paths, and it all comes together at the end. Because of that it might feel a little shorter than its almost 60k words (somehow the edit made it longer this time???), but I'm feeling good with the length.

Apologies in advance, but you'll need to start a fresh save for the update. I ended up changing the variables in the prologue quite significantly. Additionally, the content warnings page has been updated for chapter one, part one, and can be found here. Feedback is always welcome! My askbox is open, and the forum post for the WIP is another great place for feedback. That can be found here. Thank you so much for your support, and I hope you enjoy!

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grayson would be a noah kahan fan. ive decided it.

"Look at me, all f-up over someone I'll never meet (MC)"

(sorry 🥲)

grayson in the bad endings be like:

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sandcastles

summary: for their first date, grayson takes paloma to the beach to recreate the first time they met.

pairing: grayson x paloma (f!oc)

word count: 970

as one of the winners of my valentines giveaway, this drabble is for @frutillia! the artwork was done by @softfairies, who is very cool and also proofread this for me so yk,,, go support her :)

paloma sits restlessly in the passenger seat, glancing between the road ahead and grayson next to her, his fingers drumming against the steering wheel along to the beat of the music playing in the background. she doesn't recognise the artist, but her best friend seems to be a fan of the acoustic melody and raspy vocals. she still can't quite wrap her head around it; she used to know everything there was to know about the man and now she finds herself getting to know him all over again. so much has changed and yet not enough, especially not the butterflies in her stomach anytime they're together. but then again, it's finally their first date; she's allowed to have butterflies.

she clears her throat, shifting in the seat to turn her body towards him and he tilts his head towards her to show he's listening. "so, um... you haven't told me where we're going."

keeping her eyes on his face, she watches as his cheeks begin to turn red.

"it's a surprise," he says softly, almost as if embarrassed by his idea and before she can come up with a reply, he reaches over the center console to take her hand in his.

"okay," she agrees, her own face getting warm and she gives his hand a gentle squeeze. the drive continues in comfortable silence and its not long before grayson pulls the car to a stop in an empty parking lot, the beach front sprawling out in front of them.

she glances at him curiously but he only smiles back. climbing out, he rounds the front of the car to open her door for her, refusing to listen when she insists she can do so herself, and he makes sure to grab a backpack from the backseat before taking her hand once more. she follows along as he leads her down the sand, the waves lapping softly at their feet.

"if i had known we were coming to the beach, i wouldn't have worn jeans," she jokes and he glances down, sheepish.

"sorry," he says before looking at her again, a smile curling on his lips. "but i'm hoping it's worth it."

"what is?"

squeezing her hand, he slides the backpack off his shoulder. "since it's our first date," he says as he begins to pull open the zipper, "i thought we could maybe build a sandcastle."

he pulls out two plastic buckets and spades, and she feels as if her heart swells in her chest. judging from the size and bright colours, it's obvious that they're cheap children's toys but it doesn't really matter. not when it's with grayson.

she smiles back at him, overwhelmed by the amount of love she feels for him in that moment, and she reaches for a spade. "just like when we met," she says softly, running her thumb over the groves in the handle. when she glances up at him, she finds him watching her with a hopeful look on his face. "i think it's perfect."

his shoulders sag with relief and he pulls her into his side, pressing his lips to the crown of her head as if its the most natural thing in the world. she sinks into him, breathing him in and longing for more, but he lets her go all too soon.

"so, paloma," he states. "tu veux construire un château de sable avec moi?"

she laughs. "of course."

grinning, he sinks to his knees on the sand and she follows suit. together, they build in silence, though as the castle grows, she notices him paying more attention to her than the task at hand.

"you know, it doesn't count if i do all the work," she chuckles and he shakes his head as if to shake himself from his staring only for his eyes to lock back onto her face almost immediately.

"sorry," he says but she can tell he doesnt quite mean it. "i'm just not fully convinced this is actually happening."

she can't help but frown. "what do you mean?"

"that you're here, real and in front of me, for starters," he replies and her stomach twists at the thought of their time apart. "and that you agreed to go out with me. i never thought you would."

"i never thought you would," she says. "i've had a crush on you forever."

a bright smile unfolds on his face that she finds contagious. "who knew we were such idiots?"

"i think everyone but us," she quips and when he laughs, she realises just how much she wants to make him laugh for the rest of time. and without really thinking, she says the words she been wanting to say for lifetime. "i love you so much, gray."

as if a switch has been flipped, he launches himself at her and her squeal of surprise is effectively cut off when he kisses her. full of passion and years of pent up longing, it only takes them a few seconds to get lost within each other. it feels like an eternity when they pull away and simultaneously not long enough. he presses his forehead against hers; his hands gently cupping her face, thumbs brushing over her cheekbones. she thinks she could lose herself in the warmth of his gaze until he speaks. "i love you too, paloma. forever and always."

feeling suddenly shy, she glances away, turning her head to the side and catching sight of the heap of sand that used to be their castle. "looks like we'll have to start again," she pouts and he glances briefly at the castle ruins before kissing her cheek.

"i'll do anything you want me to," he states. "especially if it means i get to kiss you again."

"grayson?"

"yeah?"

"kiss me again."

he's all too happy to oblige.

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oh my goodness just finished the demo and i am obsessed !!

thank you bestie, im so happy you liked it!!

i know ive been kinda vague about when the next update is coming but 🍑 i am working on it! so no promises but just,,, watch this space!

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“grayson would be a noah kahan fan” noooo now im imagining him screaming along to dial drunk alone in his car after the search for mc goes cold

accurate. literally gray every night listening to his sad boy music:

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"You wouldn't deny us dying kids french fries, would you?" The oldest says and the other two pout at you almost as it on cue.

"Excuse me, none of you are dying," Alex interjects, offended at the very notion, and you can't help but laugh. "I'm very good at my job."

I'm shamelessly stealing this from twitter, but writers !! Quick, reblog with the last line or two that you wrote, no cheating.

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grayson would be a noah kahan fan. ive decided it.

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the submission for the giveaway is officially closed ✨️✨️

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forgot it was the last day... ill give it an extra hour

are you a fan of mirror mine? do you enjoy all things romance? do you like giveaways? if you said yes to these questions, then you're in luck!

for this valentines day, i'm collabing with the incredibly talented @softfairies to bring you two drabbles featuring your mc and chosen ro, and an artwork to match.

details of giveaway:

two people will be selected

each person with receive a drabble of approximately 800-1000 words and full-body artwork based on it

to give me time to write and dolo time to draw each piece, the two people selected will be announced a week apart

**if you don't respond within 24 hours of being chosen, someone new will be selected

**we have the right to refuse a request

"but alli," i hear you ask, "how do i enter??"

fear not my friend, it's easy! all you have to do is input your tumblr username on this here form! the form will be open until february 13th, so act fast! likes and reblogs will not count.

good luck and happy hunger games!

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are you a fan of mirror mine? do you enjoy all things romance? do you like giveaways? if you said yes to these questions, then you're in luck!

for this valentines day, i'm collabing with the incredibly talented @softfairies to bring you two drabbles featuring your mc and chosen ro, and an artwork to match.

details of giveaway:

two people will be selected

each person with receive a drabble of approximately 800-1000 words and full-body artwork based on it

to give me time to write and dolo time to draw each piece, the two people selected will be announced a week apart

**if you don't respond within 24 hours of being chosen, someone new will be selected

**we have the right to refuse a request

"but alli," i hear you ask, "how do i enter??"

fear not my friend, it's easy! all you have to do is input your tumblr username on this here form! the form will be open until february 13th, so act fast! likes and reblogs will not count.

good luck and happy hunger games!

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WHY IS DATE-DIALOGUE SO DIFFICULT TO WRITE !?!?@?@

WHAT DO U MEAN THEY CANT JUST SIT THERE IN SILENCE !!

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I just stumbled over this trudging through this hellsite. In my opinion it's probably one of the most mentally fucked up IF's I've ever come across.

Lucky for you, I'm kind of into that shit. I'm going to keep an eye on this one. Cruel cliffhanger is very cruel and very reminiscent of the older and actually good drama series.

Congrats on your new laptop by the way. Which one did you get? Lenovo, Acer, Other?

me when people call my writing fucked up:

THANK U BESTIE IM SUPER HAPPY TO HAVE U HERE!!!!! (also i got an acer, it seemed like the best choice after all the feedback i got)

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are you a fan of mirror mine? do you enjoy all things romance? do you like giveaways? if you said yes to these questions, then you're in luck!

for this valentines day, i'm collabing with the incredibly talented @softfairies to bring you two drabbles featuring your mc and chosen ro, and an artwork to match.

details of giveaway:

two people will be selected

each person with receive a drabble of approximately 800-1000 words and full-body artwork based on it

to give me time to write and dolo time to draw each piece, the two people selected will be announced a week apart

**if you don't respond within 24 hours of being chosen, someone new will be selected

**we have the right to refuse a request

"but alli," i hear you ask, "how do i enter??"

fear not my friend, it's easy! all you have to do is input your tumblr username on this here form! the form will be open until february 13th, so act fast! likes and reblogs will not count.

good luck and happy hunger games!