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Me: I don’t care about statistics page on my ao3—t’s about the joy of writing, not the numbers. Also me: stares at the kudos graph like it's a stock market crash

Sorry stats page. Gone but not forgotten.

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sometimes your brain really just offers you one banger of a sentence and then that's it for the entire rest of the day. creativity expired, the ability to think has clocked out for the day, context for as to how we even get to this sentence? sorry we're all out. this one sentence is all you get.

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baby i’ve got half finished wips you couldn’t even imagine

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to anyone who has ever been nice to me:

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"why do you write?" because it’s the only way to silence the characters pacing around my brain like victorian ghosts with unresolved issues that prevent them from moving on.

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daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

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nothing in the world makes me more evil than just being kind of annoyed

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The only way I'm getting through my day today is knowing that in 206 days, I'll get to meet Eduardo Strauch with @melisusthewee 💛💛💛🥺😭

(The real Eduardo Strauch, not Rafael Federman. But I can't find any gifs of him 🤣)

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so what if I want to have total control over every single thing at all times. just let me lol

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big. HUGE.

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Becoming a writer is great because now you have a hobby that haunts you whenever you don’t have time to do it

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I have a lot of neurodivergent kids in my family. And I’ve worked with a lot professionally. And I often see their parents think the kids don’t want to connect, when they would love to — they just want to do it differently.

If they don’t like jokes and teasing, they might like silly noises or yes-and improv.

If they don’t like playing a competitive or narrative game with toys, they might like to take apart a toy, or sort/stack/line toys up, or get buried under toys.

If they don’t like biking or walking a trail in the woods ‘properly,’ they might like to walk along fallen logs, stand in the creek or look under rocks and leaves for creatures.

If they don’t like hugs and cuddles, they might like to bump shoulders, touch fingers, hand hug, spin around together, or (if they like more intense input) wrestle, push faces together, squeeze each other hard or run into you.

If they don’t like putting on kids’ music in the car or to dance to, they might want to listen to a game or show soundtrack, nature noises, a podcast, binaural beats, house music or metal.

If they don’t like animated movies where sad or scary things happen, they might like younger kids’ gentler shows, or adults’ science and history shows, or live zoo and nature cams.

And so many of them would benefit so much from the adults just slowing down. Not scheduling so much in the day, not rushing them through an activity, not stopping them playing the same song or watching the same bug for an hour, letting them absorb everything their way. Seeing it as a meditation instead of a problem. Joining them there.

And if you were one of those kids being rushed and scolded, trying to make yourself like teasing or competition or intense movies or a full social schedule — I’ve been reparenting myself and you can too. Whenever you notice something isn’t giving you joy — you can do it differently. Not everyone is forcing themselves through things they hate for “fun,” and we don’t have to.

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i can’t believe some of yall are married/in long term relationships…..i thought we were all yearning together

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the self-indulgent fanfiction will continue until morale improves

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cardio room, young women’s christian association by karen solie / interview conducted through the man-eater's throat by george david clark / stay soft by mitski

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i think all rpf is justified because rpf doesn’t come from nowhere. they were doing something to deserve it