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Do you feel it

My heart is weak

Your voice is cracking

My life so ecstatic

Whoever dies that’s their problem

Grave digger I come from the bottom

I hear it calling this stardom burning up no arson

How do you move so elegant

those hips don’t lie when you handle it

Uh uh when you handle it

Those hips don’t lie when you handle it

You’ll find a way to get the front row your best friend got with the promoter

I know you saw it

And your conscious is doing back flips on it

Casual affairs got you sinning

It’s eating your alive your sinking

When you walk into the club and you spinning

I guess those heals they gone find a way (I know they see me)

In a girls world full of lust

She gone kill all these other doves

Shawty you just looking for a fuck

You mixed this sex with those other drugs

In girls worlds full of lust

She gone kill all these other doves

Shawty you just looking for a fuck

You mixed this sex with those other drugs

Oh no no my mind is so cold

I’ll never forget you neck biting

A form of erosion babe these speakers are blowing

Oh no no

You feel me so slow

Lights sex drugs camera action

Lights sex flash camera action

Lights sex drugs camera action

Lights sex flash camera action

I’ve developed Insomnia I can’t sleep

Don’t try to text me

Don’t try to test me

I’m past this point of my sanity

I’m burnt out and your sinking

(Your sinking)

But we’ll go out fuck it we’ll show out just for tonight

In girls worlds full of lust

She gone kill all these other doves

Shawty you just looking for a fuck

You mixed this sex with those other drugs

In girls worlds full of lust

She gone kill all these other doves

Shawty you just looking for a fuck

You mixed this sex with those other drugs

Oh no no my mind is so cold

I’ll never forget you neck biting

A form of erosion babe these speakers are blowing

Oh no no

You feel me so slow

Lights sex drugs camera action

Lights sex flash camera action

Lights sex drugs camera action

Lights sex flash camera action

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I hate this

I hate myself

I might just kill my self

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hate this job

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I Remember there was something strange with her face that day

She said

You don’t look to amused and

It Looks like you been abused

Baby

I got this no stop thought

It’s been consuming me

How could you leave when I’m at my worst ?

This world lost its color since you been gone

I swear it has

The flowers all die as I pass them

The strangers next door give me dirty looks

I been alone

Am I forever alone ?

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I can’t fight for you anymore

My skin is bleeding

Pins and needles

Pierce my hands

The Tetxure is

Coated red

There’s a war whithin

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Celine I won’t give up on you

We were told it would be ours someday

You Managed to hold on this long

Dont let go now

The circus just started

If you could just see yourself through my eyes

These lessons feed my

Centered

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Loneliness will suffocate you

It’s scary

consequences of betrayal

will leave you wondering

why you were never good enough

My life has never been perfect

But you where the only one that

made it feel as it was

I look for you in every direction

But never seem to find those lips that connect as ours did

As they say actions speak louder than words

My dear it seems to be that your all talk

Your mouth is unworthy of my trust

I’ve been sent to kick rocks —Celine

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I’ve developed insomnia due to these voices in my head

I’m past the point of insanity

Schizophrenic as they would call it

Maybe I need to stop taking LSD

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Drugged out is the way I cop with this

(emptiness)

I’m a Lavish living junky

There’s No peace in living this way it seems to be

that

The older we get the less people care about us

There’s reasons behind that

Kids are so nurturing

They warm our hearts and remind us everyday that

there’s still Pureness and love in this world

3 lines feeling lucky

Girl give me some company noses been on crystalline

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Here it is the thought of being alone for to long

I don’t want to disappear I was in love with this

version of myself

The “ Mr loverboy”

The “he’s all about his girl” type

It was a beautiful moment in time

I’ll cherish these moments for the rest of my life

My happiest moments ended with you in between

my arms

It’s been killing me so much

I feel this constant void in my chest and my mind

I wanted it to be you

Only you

I truly do this for you as well

We could’ve been beautiful together

But here I lay on a half broken bed

I’m writing this not for you but for me

I see your ghost wherever I go

I always smile when it crosses my path

Thank you for everything

Xo -celine

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The anatomy of a human is uncanny

You ripped me from my lose ends

You made me see what it means to breaks leg

I had 77 chances to sell myself to you

And I missed them all

what a shame

My Thoughts been so insane

3 bullets through my brain

I hope it’s beautiful

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My Eyes all bleed

These Tears are shown in red

Maybe since my heart is dead

Every since you left there’s been a prolonging

Effort to make myself be heard

By thousands and millions

Your the only person I can’t get too

(The only one I can’t get too)

I heard you been seen with someone else

Has he been treating you like everyone else ?

Baby

Just tell me, tell me

I’m dying to know

+ xo xo Celine

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Why do I feel jealous?

I feel like there is a better guy for you out there in the world

I want to be your best

I want you to remember me your whole life

And be able to say that’s the best man I’ll ever be with

You don’t truly know me yet let me introduce you to

Xo -Celine Avalon

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I’m trying so hard to fight the resistance

I can’t talk to you

Your bad for me

I’m bad for you

We just can’t anymore

I know we both feel it too

FUCK I h8 this feeling

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tomorrow will be better

I promise

Don’t get

Stuck under the dark cloud over your head

This pain is temporary.

Not all days will be filled with regret

Not all days will be filled with disappointment

There will be a moment in time where you look

back and feel free

You’ll feel fulfilled

Xo~Celine avalon

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I’m using this as a therapy guide through these tough times I’m going through at the moment im trying better myself make myself feel alive again