ihatebeingfat123

[ihatebeingfat123]

New years resolution:

Be a better person.

Therefore im not postining here anymore. This era is over.

Not what you think.

[ihatebeingfat123]

[ihatebeingfat123]

Monday 27 september

Tw 82kg

Moved to a instutisjon

Started school

Was with a guy a little H 11cm

Dumped him now we bully him and his friends at school

Been to my first parties

Slept with one first

Two the second

Thid party was on friday now and um i got raped he even filmed it and i was going to sit on his back but i guess my fattass was too big i fell backward hit my head and idk we called 113 and i was in oslo legevakt on saturday

My friend tested positive on sunday and yesterday my other friend did and we all made out and stuff

I have symptoms but im full vaxinated so i guess ill be fine

The old fosterbrother case got hendlagt but im npt budging my stance meeting the lawyer for the first time tomorrow

Waiting for the test results for todays covid test prolly negative but idk

Im kinda with this guy now he is in the H11cm guy’s gang but whatever

Also another guy i was doing inbetween these two

He was perfect but idk he seemed too good and he just blocked me out of nowhere after that second party i invited him on the first but he wasnt rly idk he didnt want to talk to people in the start and it was my first party so i didnt want him to ruin it for me

Im selfish i know

So the guy im kinda with now he is so creepy and my friends says he is ugly but i kinda like it. The feeling of if i leave him he will hurt me. Idk. I hope he does. Im a terrible human. But im just trying to survive. Just as you are. Whatever you have done is to protect yourself or others.

I struggle alot. I think i have scitzofrenia. I see hear feel things…

I have a sugardaddy he bought me underwear

The bump i got on my head idk i feel like im dizzy all the time ive had three binge days in a row and i just want to go down to 78.7 or somthing again!!!!! AHRGH PLEASE someone can you send me some nasty motivation i need it.

Dont worry girls i will be starving tomorrow. NO FOOD istg. Only a moster and gum. No dinner. Im telling myself NO DINNER!!!!

I cant remember when i was supposed to wake up tomorrow. Ill just wake up 8:00 ask the workers.

Wow im dizzy again by just laying here vibing to music.

Ugh since moving here ive met cocky rich bois an ugly bitch guy that people thought were hot at last party who fucking filmed me or somthing he told my friend i was fat i think i hit him. Drunk ofc. And yes i told the police when they questioned me.

AAHHHHHH I WANNA BE SKINNY LIKE MY FRIENDS!!!!

We weight us in the nurse’s at the school and my friend was 48.5kg omg and ofc i was almost double her weight fugging 82.3 or somth.

Ai i just want to be skinny now

Sory lack of post its been stress

[ihatebeingfat123]

saturday 31 july tw

81.6kg

yeah im a fat blob. i ate mcdonalds today. and also i went running for the first time alone:) i did intervalls though of jogging and walking. this lady walked past me on the trail when i justhad finished it. i was breathing really heavy and my astmah had kicked in. it was awkward. i had a dream of my ex. he was with me but when i wanted him to stay romantically he left. just the feeling not any saying. i still feel like a fattie. the fattie ive always been. even though ive lost 16 kgs. well idk i feel hurting

[ihatebeingfat123]

thursday 29 july tw

80.2kg

i moved out. im going to sue my fosterbrother for what he did to me. im at home rn but im being moved to a instutisjon soon. its like a childrens home but ages 12-20 or somthing. it might be very far away. they said most likely in innlandet, east part of norway. i live south in østfold rn. fuck me man. 

so ive upped my body count. unfortionatly before that happend. i was with my bf. but then i was with a girl friend and we went to my ex`s house. she left and he made me stay. little did i know that was thelast bus. or i would walk 2 hours home. i ended up sleeping there. and he layed on top of me grabbing me and touching even though i didntwant to. i told him many times to stop. but he didnt. at that time i was laying on the couch but i went to his bed where i could be alone. i woke up at 3 am to him cuddling me and taking his stanky boner on me. i told him to get off but he wouldnt. it went on for two hours or more. he begged for sex but i told him no at least ten times. he told me nineout of ten guys would have taken me about now. i was scared i was going to get raped again. so  i said fine. i consented. it lasted no more than thirty seconds. i instently regretted and cried. it happend again after that one more time. 

and i told my stupid boyfriend. i wold him everything but his brain capasity didnt allow him to understand i didnt want this. he kept on saying i did this to him and so on. i was heartbroken. for a long time. i did what i do best. coped with getting male validation. not to mention my ex wanted me back. but i said no. ive blocked him and by stupid ex by now.

but i slept with another guy who actually understood the situation. he was so nice to me and i wondered why i stayed with these asses before. my friend gave me an app called happn. its like a dating app. i met up with four guys since. the last one is older than me, i like it. i liked everything with him but idk he seems care. maybe its because im fat. also i went down to 78 but ive gained. 

also its tough at home. my mom is in the hospital. i got her there. my useless father thought she was fine at home but she was dying. she fine now but yeah.

i visited her and these nurses didnt care to come when we said it was an emergency. they waited 15 minutes and when i complained they said well at least now were here. i got so angry and i flipped him off and he threw me out. fucking hate kalnes sykehus. i posted about it on jodel and i sweard he or the two other nurses replied angry. but people sympathised with me.

i woke up to a girl wanting drama and a guy had saved my nude and posted it to a groupchat. now i have  to sue that too.

life just fucks me over.

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Monday 14 june tw

80.6kg

Well now i finally told my colleage that i trust that my fosterbrother rapapad me and she told the leader of the work apartment im in. So yeah here i am in the pause room just cried gotten two hugs from adults and yeah im just vibing i guess. Its 15:11 and im finished 16:00. Its raining so i have to ask my fosterparents to come pick me up. One of them. Ill call ruby- not her real name. I have about 8 minutes till i have to go down again. I do feel like im collecting myself. She has to tell our boss about this and idk maaaan. I dont want more trouble. They already screamed at me for not wanting to go in their boat with them because last time fbro was there and i cant stand him. They told me leave for my old house where i get hit and abused mentally or come with them. Even my fdad ew i dont like using «dad» i hate every man thats related to me. Even him screamed at me that i didnt get rapapaed by his son. HE IS IN DENILE. I wish i wasnt!!! I wish he didnt stick his weiner in me twice without my consent. I WISH IT DIDNT HAPPEN.

Now yes im very aware that i sound nonlogical or unserious but please understand miss reader that im not mentally stable and there is a reason im starving myself…

Im fat but its self harm. I hate the hunger feeling thats why i like having it. I hate having a headache and feel fainty thats why i do it. I have struggled with body but its more like i

Wow girl just called me. Fostergirl or whatever she is also in the system. She wondered why i had cried.

I feel nausious.

[ihatebeingfat123]

Wednesday 9. June tw

80.7kg

Hi yeah i know i didnt post for a month but yeah i gained back to 84 and ive lost it now but it took some time.

Its break at my work and i dont have alot of tole to write but basic updates:

I got some friends now in this small town and even a love intrest in the group. Its challenging because the other guy is an incel and cant get layed. He dont like to see me and love intrest be lovers.

Like he is skinny, my lover. He was buttering me up with sunscreen on sunday and i was laying on my stomach. He pointed out to our friend my love handles and was poking on them. We we were in the water he came behind me and held my tummy. Like full on squish down on my fat. And he said somthing about how soft it is. Later that evening we were going to the gasstation to get somthing to eat. But i said oh well i feel naked because i was litterly wearing a bikini and a short dress on top. He said you dont need to come in with us. Then the other friends was inside and they stopped up to talk ofc. Like i was just in the car hungry and fat. Not good. But yeah

I feel like he is meanspoing me and idk how to feel about it. I should just love that he is helping me. He says he doesnt mind me being fat but yeah- every guy does that. They are just too pussy to say it to your face.

I ate dinner on monday because the girl that lived here before always come then. And she is like five years younger than me so i feel a big sister role i need to set her a good example. She doesnt have any older siblings. So do i so i know how she feels probably wanting some older bro or sis to look up to.

Anyways im getting a visit today for the first time from this girl thats in the group. Litterly the only girl besides me lol. Were hanging alone. But i think my fosterparents said they are also getting visitor(s)? Today so im like idk. I feel like they said their son’s name and i really hope its not him.

Girl knows what he has done to me. I hope she dont like say anything about it-

Wtf my coworkers just asked if i wanted cake. CAKE??????

N im tryin to lose weight. My soon to be bf is litterly fatshaming me and i exercise on the thread mill almost everyday skipping dinner and you ask me if i want cake?

They dont know ofcorse. But you know. Ive said ive been trying to lose weight.

I should have been 70kg by now...

Too bad im 80.7kg...

[ihatebeingfat123]

Wednesday 12. may tw

80.2kg

Yeah i remembered yesteday that i should post but then i ignored. So yeah im home with my real fam now. Im staying untill monday. I texted him some more. Yikes ik. Also i um drank alcohol so thats probably why i got them balls now.

Eh so my fostermom was so nice to me. She said she enjoyed my company, that i was chill and.... somthing else. Aw my heart you guys. But i have a suspicion its fake.

Anyways. Im kinda sober kinda not rn. I ate mcdonalds today💀

I know. Breakfest was bread, topping and pear. Mc was 9 nuggets, sweetpotato chips, BURGER and three garlic dipps. And i had alot of other stuff😳 ah fug.

Tomorrow i need to walk alot... i must exercise to earn the privilege of eating. Im messed up. I messed up. But at least im warm again. My metabolism just📈. Mom isnt coming home untill the end of the month i predict. Its going better though. I just hope they are treating her right.

People were mean to me today. Cashier i told i was like two bags. She said ok. I had to pay for it. I didnt get any bags. I asked her. She gave me one. I said i needed two, for the flower i bought my grandma as well. She just flicked it at me. And the mcdonalds people fucked up our order.

Aw i feel really bad for my grandparents rn. Oh no im almost crying. I need to spend time with them. Tomorrow.

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Monday 10. may tw

Post 2

Finnaly fit the pants. Or i managed to take them on at least. Im happy. But they are tight. Lets say ill try them on on: 78, 76, 74 and see if they fit better. They obviously will but yeah.

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Monday 10. may tw

80.7kg

Wow im almost passing my first goal weight. This is insane for me. Ive been sick since i was 13-14, im almost 18. and now is the time i finally take controll and get down to what i desire the most. One of the things at least.

Yesterday i followed him because i saw he had 199 followers and made his profile open while both being active for a long time. I think maybe its a sign. Or im maybe an idiot for even thinking about him. Its not like i WANT to like him. It just is what it is. I cant change it. Belive me, ive tried. Im still trying. Im going ho hook up with different men and get my body count up. Maybe we hit 20 if im lucky. Eh maybe my body count shouldnt surpass my age. Damn. But were getting there.

I ate. Had bought some sugarfiber online. Ate it raw with just water and sugar. Took definetly too much. I think they only work in smoothies or pancakes. Eh... but i got a yougert two knekkebread and a banana on the side. So we hope my constipation seezes. Can definetly feel my rectum pulsate rn. He knows whats about to happen.

Its not good weather for me to be cleaning today. So im waiting till tomorrow. Ill be taking that covid test again tomorrow. Oh fug the food is in my throat. G g g ... fuggg it hurts.

My fostermom wasnt minding her buissniss today. Like i was showering and she was all like youve been in there for 25 min. Yeah karen with a c. I have. Im washing my hair and taking breaks to make sure my dandruff shampoo, purple shampoo, hair mask and conditioner is doing its job while i shave and wash the rest of my body. You used 15-20 in the bathroom a couple of days ago. I told you to please hurry up since i had work and had to leave in 20 minutes. While you, old bitch, dont have a real job and sit home all day. Worst part is i didnt even hear the water running once, when you were in there. All i heard was you moaning and breathing like crazy and buttering yourself up. Its not like you can do that some other place no? I mean i wish i could take the shower somewhere else but i cant so im not in the wrong here. And then you using 7 more minutes after telling me to go back to my room and wait. And then you not even telling me youre done and i just had to sit there and intestly listen if youre gone or not while being naked and holding my towel. Yeah nice caren. Nice. Youre so nice and perfect you have all the rights to be telling me how to live my life and how to shower. Looks like you do that well or should i say smell...

Mini rant i know but im so done with her complaining. Like. Get a life. And she told me to get down so we could talk. And when i was there she was like🙂 i just wanted to see your face. N- i s t g.

Oh well im probably up to 81 now. Man it sucks. I kinda want to-

Wtf

Im in quarentine and they have a guest? I mean i know her i dont mind, but really? Yall be saying i cant go nowhere talk to anyone but you have a guest when its at the riskiest with me?

Fuck you. Thats all i have to say.

I kinda want to try on the jeans that i currently have as headboard again but i told myself only at 79. Im impatient. Ah we will see, im bloated and my stomach has work to do rn. Im just laying here like a potato.

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Sunday 9. may tw

81.2kg

Its now my lw im at right now. It feels relatively good. I havent eaten since friday. My dUMB ASS texted my fosterbrother about my feelings yesterday. This will just account as a punishment i guess. I dont know how else to deal with it.

My fostermom came and asked if i wanted breakfest. I said no. She has understood it. «Are yOu nOt goNna eAt?» no. No im not. Im starving myself.

Hey i can look at it as a fast. Which is actually good for the body once in a while. Even the greak philosofs did it for mental clarity.

But yeah i told her im not eating because then boys will find me pretty again. I didnt actually mean it like i dont get attention, because i do. Not like aloooot but you know. And i told her i sent the message yesterday which she said was good. Its like- now they have documented proof that i like him. Even though he raped me.

Told her as well im not going to eat till im home on wednesday. She said «i know youre going to» i smiled. This is a challenge. Wanna bet bitch? Huh?

If i eat i lose the mental challenge i made up with her in my mind so. I just hope i dont pass out.

The only physical labor ill be doing or have done is put my clothes away today. Thuesday i have to clean my room and pack my bag. But other than that ill be sedetary. Maybe ill do some streches to not become a shrimp.

Ah she told me its chicken for dinner today. Kinda cringe. I know my fb brought them it. He works at a chicken factory.

Oh my colar bones is permanent now. I dont have to «press in» which is pretty based. Im kind of cold. Turned on the heat after venting my room.

My mom has an infection so she will be testing a new medicine another day. Im worried.

Im kind of hungry. I think of watching some ed/ mukbangs. But i always get more hungry from them.

I dont assimilate with pictures of bodies. For me its more of numbers. But i will say that i now look «skinnier» than before. And i feel it as well. Fanta stick.

My sister said we will be sunbathing at home in bikinis. Ill have to buy new ones. I want nike shorts too. And alot of stuff. Ill be getting my pay check on wednesday too. So thursday will be shopping day. Im craving blue cheese and honey. And were getting boba and mochie. Omg im going to gain 5kg. Ah fug.

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Saturday 8 may tw

82.5

AHHHH im so fucking stupid. I messaged him. My fosterbrother. Told him this: I know you're going to ignore this msg. Sure, I'm posting something at all, but I wanted you to know that I still like you. That was all.

Basic translation too annoyed to correct it. But basically told him i like him AAAAHHHH.

Havent eaten anything today. Im still in quarentine. Fug. Bruh moment- this came right from my sister.

It is what it is. Havent eaten have done laundery but thats about it. I need to shit. Ah he left me on read. Omg.

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Friday 7. may tw

82.5kg

Today i was awoken by my fosterdad at 09:30. he said i had a half hour getting ready. I dont know how long i layed in that bed but when i was finished putting my contacts in and starting to get dressed he asked if i was finish. I was just daydreaming and trying to make sense of things.

Ive been thinking about my fosterbother and how i think i have stockholm syndrom. I want him or rather his body on top of me hugging me tight. I want that leo so bad. But everytime he is around i cant even look at him. He wait hold on.

When i was doing chores today i thought of sushi and my foster mom texted me saying they bought it. Huh thats a weird «coincidence»

Anyways so i miss him i do. But its so hard being in his energy field. I want to talk to him alone but i cannot for the love of God find my inner power to add him on any social media again after i blocked him. For a good reason. He stopped answering. Even when i showed him my fat honkers. Just left on read. What a douche. I still want him. I cant explain it. Its like a craving. Comes in waves. Gets stronger now but it has had a weak point. I think about him every day. I need serious help. Or maybe he should just talk to me. I should talk to him. Maybe its just as hard for him. Thats what my fostermom said at least. Oh my God. IM A FOOL. I should be starring him right in his eyes and flirt! But he said we cant do anything untill im 18. but me, , flirting isnt we. So should i? Not in front of his parents. I live in their house. And they are sick and tired of me being a clown wanting him. I asked if we could do somthing together but... they havent told me when or even yes or no. And no response=no. Im going to be a bitch. No matter what happens now.

I tested myself for covid today. Coworker got it so my hurrytest was negative. Waiting for results on the main one. Comes tomorrow. I have to take one on tuesday as well. On wednesday ill be going home. Unless the test is positive. Fug. My mom is still in the hospital. Im glad for her. She is getting better and the help she needs.

I had to eat what they had prepared today. Because im not supposed to touch things. But i got a bread and two crunchy breads too. Didnt like what they had made anyways it had butter under the toppings. Nasty.

They have been on their boat all day. Ive felt so weak and exausted but i went a 4k meter walk in the woods and then just cleaned clothes all day. Havent eaten more im still full but they are bringing sushi. I havent had that in ages. Oh yeah, also. I took 30ml of laxitives. Ah ha ha. BEFORE i walked in the woods. Imagine if i sharted my panties. I had to shart alot though. I have a headache.

Well i have a secret. But its no longer in my controll. For hurting me first. Karma comes in shapes and sizes we dont expect.

How foolish men are.

Does he deserve my love? No. Is my dumb ass scorpio falling for him? Yes.

Oh they came home downstairs.

[ihatebeingfat123]

Thursday 6. may tw

82.7kg

As of now im in bed not in work. My mom isnt going to get out of that machine anytime soon. Im coping. Actually not, but im chosing now to feel on it. Keeping myself busy. Having seggs senarios when i have to take a break from the phone. Its around my breaktime at work rn. But now i have all day instead of 30 min. Just vibing to lana del rey with a full stomach. Yes i did indeed eat.

Breakfest and lunch today, all three yesterday. I had strength training and i didnt want to pass out. And today i just want my body to «stock up» if you understand. Ive been having these headaches and i can barely want to stand up anymore.

Mini migranes. Vision cuts out, hot in the face, nausious, fingers prickle, breathing stops. Its bad. So im trying to take care of myself by eating. Its helping too. Its less severe for each time i eat.

I dont think starving myself is a good thing. But, i want to be thin. 75kg before june. If im not there. Then its on. I will punish myself bad. Its mental.

Wow currently listening to Mr.Kitty XIII its based. For yall non political. It means, on the edge but good. Basically.

On saturday ill be going out with that group. I asked my fostermom if i can bake a cake. BUT I DONT WANT THEM TO THINK IM FAT. Im reconsidering... aiiiiii. Ill just ask the guy what i should bring. Ouf im cringing. And my sosial anxiety is poppin’ atm. Stress. I hate it.

Got my curtains back though. But they are new and not my style. The lunch was half a THIN pizza. But who am i joking. Calorieessss. Carbs. Not bad my brain nEEDs carbs.

Ah i just want to be choked. And put in a room with netflix and get one meal a day. And have a man just come in. And the man has to be one of my fugfriends. Havent seen any of them in a loooong time. Im not allowed to. Because my fostermom tells me im not able to say no to men when they try to... so i cant see them. But the only guy that has ever raped me is her son.

Tove lo passion and pain tastes the same when im weak, «youre gonna get what you’ve given to me» is perfect. This song. Its about revenge. For me.

Albert einstein said revenge is for the weak. But he was jewish. He is wrong regardless. Only those who give up is weak. God gives the hardest battles to the strongest soliders. So if i fight back and take revengence on those whome done me wrong im not weak. Its a power move.

Im thinking of checking out twitch or watpad. Like idk what i would post. Probably me ranting about this mad and sick world. Maybe film snippits of me shartin so i can play it in the background while secretly recording a family dinner while i play it from my rapist’s chair. That would be hilarous. But i would get caught because id be ballin my eyes out. Laughing ofc. Ah im such a scorpio.

Ive been craving watching pll and another show which i cant remember the name of atm. Actually Reign

The gym yesterday was okay. I was having bad anxiety when i was omw but when i got there i just avoided looking at the guys there. I accedently dropped my flask in my emty bag on the bench and it made a loud ass metal sound and i cringed, but at that point i was finished and omw out. Since it was my first day back after like, idk one and a half month i was not pushing myself too hard. Which was good i feel now that next workout will be harder.

But yeah im buildin my arse back and arms. Im gonna be ripped by the time im in highschool again. Oh this time ill do it right. Ah and with me developing my bow and arrow shooting. Im a fricken badass. People should, and will fear me if they dear cross.

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Wednesday 5. may tw

82.2kg

Kinda dissapointed i didnt go down more in the night. I ate breakfest this morning. Felt that i was going to pass out. Im at break once again. So ill eatimate my intake 125+300=425. But we can say 500 just to be safe. Its kinda like the abc diet but not as strict.

I told the cps lady im not eating dinner because i dont want to see their ugly faces. Its true. But there is more underlying things that make me not want to sit there. How they always finish right before me then stare at me eating. Like im supposed to not finish my plate like the good little girl ive been raised to become. Ew i hope the person reading know im not into any of that. Lmao. Sounded weird in my head idk.

My mom is still in the hospital. God, please heal her. Its all im thinking about at this point. Well besides the fact that my rapist is going around free. He actually came to the house yesterday when i was facetiming my sister. I was laughing and having fun in my room because me and my sis are litterly twinflames. Not even joking. But yeah then i hear his voice and i just stop and we joke about it. Im not going to write it down because then i have to remember how funny it was and then ill laugh. And i dont want the chick in the same room to look at me weird. Am i crazy? Yes. Always. Its a good thing.

Im joking im the only sain person in this world. Ive met few who are the same. No more. Its sad. Whatever though. Im going to do strength training at the gym today. Fun right. My coochie stinks and yeah. I do mostly legs.

Havent been there since like march or early april. My body has felt it yeah. But it will be good. Too bad i have to use the shoes that i come with. If she says i have to take em off ill cRINGE to the max, probably cry when i get home. But we will see. I feel like passing out all the time. When i stand up i just stand and wait for the migrane symptoms that comes not ten seconds later.

So idk if ill have to eat dinner. Probably have to do that because of protein. Yeah prolly have to do that. ISTG if the dinner is VEGAN i will have to make myself two eggs. But thats rude and ive been really rude(back) to them lately.

Ugh her daughter is my coworker she just came into the room. They act the same. Fake. Fakefakefake and fake laughing fake smiles acts the best like she refused to have kids because she was too afraid and she works in a kindergarten. Imagine being such a damn pussy ass bitch. Her poor husband has to die alone with no children, no grandchildren, his ugly ass frogface wifu who talks waaaay too loud and yeah i hate them. Like she hasnt done anything wrong other than stirring up in my buissniss when it came to the money i earn at that one dinner. Which she said ill get a «few thousand» underplaying my fucking role in this thing. But hey. Guess who got seventeen and a half thousand. This bitch. Yeah. Suck my ass first price bitch. Anyways my break is over.

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Tuesday 4. may tw

82.4kg(!!!)

Wow im so shocked. Im at my lw. Havent been this light since 8 grade. Im so proud of myself. When i woke up and went to go shower my fostermom was in it and i was waiting outside for like five min and she was still not done(btw when i came she was out of it) she was just buttering up and breathing and moaning. Honestly think she was doing somthing nasty. She was rude when i asked if she could hurry up. What a bitch. Told her i was going out on sunday. Omw to work i got a text saying the meeting is moved till saturday😳 now i definetly wont be allowed to go. But quite honestly, fuck all.

My head is hurting and pounding when i stand up too fast. Its kinda like a migrane and i cant see. My mom has chronic migranes- what if starving myself triggers my dna to start giving me it. Ugh. Anyways. Break at lunch again. I work in a kindergarten fyk. The ladies were nice and said i can be inside with them today. They know about my mom and yeah. They sympathize. Oh hey i called with my ex from florida yesterday. Quite nice. He is giving me a chance. But i just want to be friends i told him that too.

Extra tw lmao. My stomach has been ok. Its been a little pain and suffering. Little grows here and there. And because of the pstav i have in my arm now which is ruining my lyfe i have a naaasty coochie. And my stomach hurts. I think i have a type of infection or bacterial stuff. Like i have had chlamydia before and idk. This isnt it.

Anyways now ill have to speak to her again🙄 saying its been moved to saturday. But they will tell me no. But ill say fuck yall and leave. Then they will yell as i walk out. Kinda badass. She says im not in controll. But actions speaks louder than words. Ill fucking show them. Scorpio vibes only. Fuck you ugly caprisun. And you leo son. UGH how i hate them now.

Im glad for my lw and i hope i can get to 79.9kg or lower before the 14. ill be going home on a visit. And i need to be skinny. Well i know that aint it but i need to be less fat. I guess you can say. Ive been watching tiktoks, mukbangs, thin/fatspo on yt and talking with people on the phone to hold up my time. I feel like i should do walks and stuff but im too weak.

OH and the training senter opened a week ago... i told her imma be going back tomorrow. Gettin that fat ass. I hope i dont pass out. Oh no i have to eat protein... Aahh more cals. Well looks like dinner is served tomorrow. Fug. But yeah. We do be gettin that summa bodey.

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Fuck i forgot

83.4kg