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do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

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Needed a new pfp and I really wanted to draw it this time!!

I had a lot of fun with this piece, even if the green and orange lighting were difficult to work with

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HAPPY PRIDE

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there are two competing sects on this website - one that uses the word "spicy" to mean "neurodivergent" and one that uses the word "spicy" to mean "sexual content." i do not like either of them

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Get yourself a fabric store that will light your fabric on fire for you

No but legit I asked what the fiber content of something was and the guy didn’t know so he cut a chunk off and lit it on fire and felt the ashes and was like. Yeah this is mostly cotton with a lil bit of silk. And that was the moment I knew. This is it. This is the fabric store for me. Also that guy is marriage material. Not for me but damn some person is gonna be so happy with him.

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for the past two years i have been sponsoring a tuberculosis detection rat in tanzania, her name is carolina. she sniffs sputum samples & alerts her handlers when she detects TB. recently she turned 8 & aged out of the program, so they held a retirement party for her & sent me photos.

while carolina moves on to live a life of rest & luxury in the retirement kennels, her role is being passed on to her successor, tamasha. she is 2 years old & was named after the grandmother of one of her handlers.

(with her handler priscus)

here is a description of tamasha:

"Tamasha is also quite playful! She enjoys jumping, climbing, and sometimes does a joyful little dance when placed in the TB evaluation enclosure – as if celebrating her enthusiasm for the work ahead. She’s also a big fan of avocado, her favorite treat for a job well done."

im not afraid to admit that this email made me cry like a stupid baby. you can sponsor your own big beautiful TB- or landmine-detecting rat through APOPO HeroRATS. they send you an update on how your rat is doing each month, including photos.

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I've been realizing how much my conception of various personal relationships and certain types of boundaries are determined by other people, not in the sense that I don't know what I am or want, but in the sense of "you are using a scale/categorization schema that I'm very disconnected from, so I feel how I feel and you get to put me wherever is most comfortable for you."

Like, is this relationship platonic or romantic? It's not really a meaningful distinction for me, but it's usually a VERY important distinction for other people, so they get to make the call. (My first marriage was romantic and my second is platonic and the love feels exactly the same to me)

It's similar when it comes to physical affection. I don't want sex, but if you take that off the table (and start viewing other acts of physical intimacy on their own terms instead of as stepping stones with an end goal of sex) I'm pretty indiscriminate and other people probably have a much stronger personal sense of what is desired/appropriate than I do. Nothing feels especially marked or hierarchical to me, but I still have to navigate that some things are much more societally loaded than others. Really I just want to live in a fantasy setting where I can soulbond with all my best friends but sadly that isn't an option irl so the closest substitute is as much physical affection as possible of whatever kind people are happy to give me.

Honestly gender is kind of the same: my internal sense of gender is "null," but I'm going to get gendered by existing in the world and that doesn't really bother me (my experiences are not universal and this bothers some agender people a great deal, obviously), but it's something that people do for their own comfort & understanding rather than reflecting any kind of meaningful truth.

I don't really know where I'm going with this, but like. It's interesting. For a while I was very hung up on the idea that if a category or feeling was real/important to other people I had to figure out some way to make it real for me as well, and I'm glad I've chilled out and stopped tying myself into knots about it. And simultaneously, sometimes when you hit a point of "this isn't real to me" it can be tempting to swerve into "this isn't real, full stop" which is also not great because other people's experiences are important too. You gotta be dialectical about it, I guess. Sometimes a concept is real when someone you care about needs it to be and otherwise it isn't, and that's fine.

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Leverage: Redemption 3x10- "The Side Job"

Leverage 1x9- "The Stork Job"

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Leverage As Random Text Posts Pt. 5 (+ My OC Lissa)

Nate:

Sophie:

Eliot:

Hardison:

Parker:

Lissa:

Sterling:

Tara:

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The Rundown Job was really the OT3 episode, uh?

I knew they worked well together, that's been obvious for a while. But in an episode of just them, it really hits how in sinc they are.

Hardison and Eliot doing their little handshake after watching Parker do her acrobat thing through a lazer grid.

Eliot's first concern being to get Hardison and Parker to safety. Them refusing to let Eliot go up against a terrorist attack. Parker's line about how they change together, for better or worse.

Eliot not being scared of the terrorists attack because he has Hardison and Parker on his side and he believes in them more than anything.

Also when Eliot put his hand on the back of Hardison's neck and looked into his eyes? That was so intimate. The tension was serious with undertones of sexual. It had the same tension as Parker diffusing the bomb.

The silent communication. The celebrating each other's victories.

Eliot throwing down the crutch in favor of leaning on his partners.

I'm sure other stuff I missed, it being only my first watch through and all. But that's the stuff that stood out the most to me.