iii-i-lvii

[iii-i-lvii]

Το μηισώ αυτό

Το μηισώ αυτό

Το μηισώ αυτό

Νιωθώ ανίσχυρς

[iii-i-lvii]

Guess what, nothing is permanent but you have so so many late night talks in her kitchen and you make crafts together <3

i’m scared that I you’ll get the wrong idea about me. I just wish I could be close to you. I wish you were a permenant part of my life. I wish I didn’t have to say goodbye soon. you gave me so much to look forward to.

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sometimes it be :(

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too real too quick too close to home too real too quick too close to home too real too quick to close to home too real too quick too close to home too real too quick too close to home

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amen

being drunk is sometimes where u just gotta b

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it will be ok.

I got one of the worst fucking haircuts anyone can ever get today and i’ve cried twice about it I look bald I look like a disgusting baby I look like a god damn fucking duck I didn’t realize how much of my identity was part of my long ish hair and I legit feel like part of me is gone in a really horrible way and i can’t sleep because i’m so fucking upset

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I wrote this on the october trip lmao

tfw you finally start writing again and not only is it super super way better than u remembered but you start to notice that it’s your way of healing from the 194895948372 thing that have happened over past 4 years

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wrote this in 2019 still relevant but different situation

i’m scared that I you’ll get the wrong idea about me. I just wish I could be close to you. I wish you were a permenant part of my life. I wish I didn’t have to say goodbye soon. you gave me so much to look forward to.

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guess what!!! you live w her in your senior year!!! It's a very good time. It's weird but good .

and I had a good friend here I had a really fucking great friend that I was happy to have for once and could vibe with and was on my level and I finally had another person in my life and then she fucking dropped the major and we can’t find a time to meet up to talk about why or even see each other or play d&d and it just really really hurts all i’ve ever wanted is a friend but i’m too difficult and weird and smart and picky for people and I just get so fucking drained by everyone

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1. I was young and an actress

2. with my father in a casket, I had no plans

3. And I left the footprints, the mud stained on the carpet, and it hardened like my heart did when you left town.

4. ^^^

4.5. ((literally this line means 2.75 different things for three different people and one is punching me in the gut, one is backhanding me across the face, and the other is sweetly and gently stroking my hair))

5. But I must admit it, I would mary you in an instant, damn your wife I'd be your mistress just to have you around

5.5 ^^ no words

5.6 new subject just entered the chat

5.7 just to have you around

5.8 I love you

6. But I was late for this, late for that, late for the love of my life, and when I die alone, when I die alone, die alone I'll be on time

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8. so i drive the taxi and the traffic distracts me from the strangers in my backseat; they remind me of you

✨9.✨ But i've read this script and the costume fits, so I'll play my part.

10. But that's all in the past love; gone with the wind

11. I won't be late for this; late for that; late for the love of my life; and when I die alone, when I die alone, die i'll be on time.

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some days youre young some days you can identify parts of cleopatra by the lumineers so hard u cry alone in ur childhood basement after drinking boxed red wine and pouring hydrogen peroxide over the deer bones you found in the woods

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You will be warm again. I promise you.

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like if T hadn't totally ripped out any and all ability to cry then I would have started crying in the shop

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like it fucking makes me so ashamed for liking things and being happy and talking about things that make me happy

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I hate RSD so fucking much bc bitches will say sth to "knock me down a peg" bc they think i'm super super cocky bc I can come off that way, and it'll hit like a gut punch and fucking destroy me for the rest of the day

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I swear to god i'm not speaking to them for a good fucking while after this semester

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I might actually do it this time I might abandon ship and sublet for the rest of the semester