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TO LORDJAN AND RANDY

To Lord Jan and Randy:

The year is almost ending and I have the drive to write this message to both of you and as I am scribbling words to compose this one, all I am feeling is how much I love you both. I know, I know this sound real corny but I cannot unhide the truth. So what I’ll be writing are random things I can think of when it comes to our friendship. How it started in my perspective and how I foresee it in the incoming years.

Disclaimer: there might me grammatical glitches but I do care less of these things because I am more of semantic-oriented-type-of-person.

HOW IT ALL STARTED

May of 2016 I received a phone call to revisit my Alma Matter this time, I am no longer a student craving for wisdom and knowledge but I am now a teacher, still craving, but my craving is a little more different. I am craving to share what I have in my little heart to my future learners. I have a storm of emotions that time. Anxious. If that’s the word that can describe the tsunami waves in my stomach and the irregular beating of my heart not to mention how cold my hands and feet were, if anxiety is inappropriate then I cannot find the most fitting word thereof. Nevertheless, I feel a slight comfort upon seeing a familiar face. Randy, he’s a schoolmate known for his charisma and outmost personality. Well I’ve heard rumours because I haven’t gotten any chance to have a close encounter with this famous one. I mean, he knows me, by name and I forgot to mention that he knows almost everyone in our school. Yep, a total walking human directory, he’s not creepy and he’s not weird either. I considered that as a talent, or more of a gift. So I am glad that I have someone to talk to in this new chapter of my life as a teacher. I offered my most decent smile and he smiled back with his bright red pair of braces. As expected, Mr. Congeniality started the conversation by asking random questions that made the time passed by unexpectedly. Then we both decided to visit our future office, the College of Arts and Sciences to secure a place *He was assigned as SHS faculty while I am assigned as a college instructor respectively, different departments but the same office we didn’t have a hard time looking for a place though because I am with the most good talker of all time. He has friends everywhere, even our previous instructors are his “mommy’s and mama’s” so meaning to say, I am in good hands. It didn’t last an hour when we finally had our area. I considered myself blessed that time. Then outside, we met Lord Jan one of my classmates in the college of education. He’s known for his wit and outgoing personality. Although we were classmates in most of our subjects, we are not that “friends” because he is with gayrls, a group of gay and women with gay personality. They are mostly loud and adventurous kind of individual while I, on the other hand had the most prim-and-proper-to-boring kind of college life. My usual route is home-library-school. No diversions no detour just the usual original route. I do not feel bitter though because man, if I was exposed to some other roads in life, I cannot promise to graduate on time. Basically, I know how smart this man is. He is somewhat lazy in paper works but he is at his best when giving lectures and anything that uses mouth as a mechanism in working. I feel more than happy knowing that he too, applied for a teaching position in the same institution and then we both learned that he is in the same department as I was. Deep inside, I somehow have the clue already that my life ahead is one helluva life with them.

NEW BEGINNINGS

School year 2016-2017 opened. I am pretty sure that I am excited to become the best English college instructor I could be but that didn’t last too long as I am transferred to the SHS department, Lord Jan and I. I am thrilled. Amidst this greatest twist, the CAS and SHS department decided to have an acquaintance party since we occupy the same office. The venue was in a beach. To be honest, I was the typical home girl person but because our presence was necessary I am obliged to come. Lucky enough, randy lives nearby we decided to go together. To my surprise, he asked me to change the shorts that I am wearing to the shorts that he brought because the concept was to have matching shorts. *Now I find this part a little corny, I mean are matching outfits still in? but I do not want to disappoint an innocent soul-so I thought I obediently followed his orders and wore that neon pink shorts of his. He had this wide opened smile showing his teeth wide open as a sign of contentment. When we arrived at the venue, he mechanically looked for Lord Jan and asked him to do the same. To wear the magic neon pink shorts as a sign of our friendship. Lord Jan is a “yes man” person he’s never a kill joy so yep LDR (Lord Jan, Diane, Randy) was born. We cheated *Yes read it right, CHEATED with a capital letter C to be in the same group together and to cut this quite tasking story, we won. We won wearing the matchy outfit and since then, we wear the sort-of-the-same outfits in most occasions.

THREE YEARS AND COUNTING

Since that friendship started, we conquered each other’s lives and secrets and souls and everything of the same concept. I’ve witnessed them grow literally and figuratively, from their vulnerability and strength, being drunk and being almost naked, their entire being, their totality and I love them even more upon seeing how similar and how different we are. They helped me become this person I am now. They contributed to my growth and changes.

To Randy. I called you chaks because I am so good in inventing names to the ones I love. I am even surprise why other people know the word “chaks” shortcut for chaka, such imitators with lack of creativity and imagination-poor souls. We had our first few arguments during one of your badminton tournaments in Gusa where we had a miscommunication about going or not going. Well, I apologized and so did you. I missed those golden days where we are so formal with each other. Those days when you still manage to find positive adjectives in your dictionary to somehow compliment me. Those days when you still respect my womanhood. Those days when you treat me normally. But yeah, I’ve outgrown that feeling because I know that I am not normal to you anymore. I am no longer a friend. I am more than that. I am your liaison agent, nurse, secretary, professional assistant in all forms may it be school, household and whatnot, and anyone. I enjoyed doing it because I know that I am helping. I live by the words of Xavier University, and that is to become the woman of others. IRO! Seriously, I am happy to become part of your life and your room. Stop being grumpy for no reason because I am not a fortune teller to guess what made you upset. Remember that you can always talk to me about literally anything and always bear in mind that as long as I live, I will forever remember how distorted this friendship is. I love you.

To Lord Jan. I decided to call you Yong2 because in our college life, I’ve known you for your LJ side and I want more than that side. I want to know you even better and deeper, what amazes me is that, you let me. You let me in to your life and it marvels me how big your heart is for all the people that surround you. You are never hesitant to share anything that you have in order to help. You even consume your own peace of mind for others. People might misunderstand you because of your intimidating look but once they know the real you, they will realize that inside a dragon mask is a dragon queen full of understanding and love to whoever ask for your help but is also willing to spit fire when called by circumstances. Thank you for letting me realize that I cannot manage a one on one duel with you in drinking MP, thank you for taking care of me when I tested my limits in drinking you know what lastly, thank you for helping me build my patience every time we wait for you. I am here for you always, remember that. I love you.

To Both of you, I am always here whenever you need me or even if you don’t like my presence. I’ll show up whenever I like. This love I have for both of you is already rooted in my heart. So let’s explore the world together and raise our middle finger to people who dislike us because they can’t be us. Most importantly, let us always do well and follow what is right no matter how hard it may seem.

With love,

DIANExx

#written:#DECEMBER 21 #2018

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