ilickthegunwithmytongue

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Time.

Time changes everything. No regrets, no commitments, no anything. Just free. I do long for a relationship but I no longer just want to be gf. I need proof or something that’s goes to show that my relationship is a commitment but not yet marriage. I feel like there’s no point. I’ve done that already. Idk just wishful, thinking out loud kind of thinking .

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An old hag

I just feel miserable sometimes. I've had time wasted and it's like picking myself up to figure out to be happy again is difficult. I don't have family here. I don't have the kind of happiness I want. I have to move and get away from all of this. I'm tired of the same thing all the time. Work is okay but there has to be more. Nobody really checks on me, no one calls me to see if I'm still surviving (except Carla). I really honestly don't have any friends at all. I'm glad my child is getting older, I will have her to do things with. No one understand how much I fake every day. I just need a break ...

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Whoa

My life has gotten out of control. Someone that I was willing to do it all for, cross the line. For any man to be cool and collective after putting their hands on a woman, you deserve a kind ass whooping. Like I can not believe I got to a place when I had love for someone like that. I wish him nothing but positivity and a lot of help. I blame his mom though, when all your life the people that are supposed to care about you abandoned you then why would you really care about anyone. I really tried and I feel like God warned me multiple time and I still tried to see the best. I'm just going to start this, if my mom doesn't like you then I don't like you. We ain't going to work. I just want to be happy again. I feel like now he has this story to make up to his next chick while I was the only person he's ever been with that cared about more than the money or the experience. Luckily Karma is a b I t c h . Sorry not sorry

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Zoo Day!

The zoo was chill but wtf were the giraffes!?? I live for those. If I could buy a baby one to raise in my backyard!! People just don't understand, like I'm so serious. That shit would so lit! One day tho! Don't believe just watch 🔮

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I hate being single but wait it is summer but I'm not young and 21 anymore. Shit gets old. I want to a mature relationship. I want someone to grow old with yet I'm only 25. I just want to start early cause I don't want to be 40 and alone. People don't get though. I really just want my daughter to have the man that I never had in my life. I feel like I'm failing as a parent because I messed up and didn't give her that. It sucks. Daddy issues are real !

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I have too much pride to ask for anything, even if I really need it😣

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When you want to call but you can't. It's hard not being able to talk to someone you care about. Calling would just seem desperate even though you desperately want to talk to the same person you used to talk to ever day. I hope shit changes.

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It's been years

I haven't blogged in so long. My life has been up and down. Last week I had my heart crushed by someone I thought was sincere and real. Never in a millions years I thought someone that I was prepared to spend forever with ruined me. I'm slowly picking myself up and trying to be happy again but omg I miss him. He doesn't miss me though. And I'm pretty sure he's still sleeping with God knows who. Why is it so hard to do the right thing?

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LAWDDDDDD...

Its been ages. Ive been alright, Ive got a lot on my mind. I havent blogged lately and I feel I can trust my thoughts better if I write them out. Regardless of the eyes that may bless this unfortunate expression I felt the need to release.

Im little over the bullshit. Im sick of the lies, the deceit. Im a loyal friend and I always feel like im that good for right now friend.

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remember when Emma Stone wore this coral dress to the golden globes and just slayed the entire industry

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‎The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman’s love with no intention of loving her.

Bob Marley (via perfect)

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boy: shit baby you're so wet already

girl: that's actually just vaginal discharge and my body is cleansing itself from bacteria and dead cells to prevent infection and to maintain optimal reproductive health i'm not even all that turned on right now and i would prefer to go get some food or something

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Do this shit now - Looking back on 2013, WHO ARE YOU? (probably gonna answer these for myself in my journal)

1: What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?

2: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

3: Did anyone close to you give birth?

4: Did anyone close to you die?

5: What countries did you visit?

6: What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013

7: What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

8: What was your biggest achievement of the year?

9: What was your biggest failure?

10: Did you suffer illness or injury?

11: What was the best thing you bought?

12: Whose behaviour merited celebration?

13: Whose behaviour made you appalled?

14: Where did most of your money go?

15: What did you get really, really, really excited about?

16: What song will always remind you of 2013?

17: Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?

18: What do you wish you’d done more of?

19: What do you wish you’d done less of?

20: How did you spend Christmas?

21: Did you fall in love in 2013?

22: What was your favourite TV program?

23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

24: What was the best book you read?

25: What was your greatest musical discovery?

26: What did you want and get?

27: What did you want and not get?

28: What was your favourite film of this year?

29: What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?

31: What kept you sane?

32: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

33: What political issue stirred you the most?

34: Who did you miss?

35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.

36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

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Always

*tries to act cool by not texting back right away but forgets and never texts back*

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The saddest people I’ve ever met in life are the ones who don’t care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there’s nothing to make it last.

Nicholas Sparks (via words—are-all-we-have)

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I have to try this