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Waiting to take off. No delays (yet). I'll be in Europe from today until 11/04. My family will still be at home, would-be robbers! So don't even think about it. I'll be writing up full things and adding color over at joshineurope2017.tumblr.com (link in profile). Lots of food, yarn, beer, and art over the next 10 days or so. We'll see what else. #iceland #reykjavik #copenhagen #munich #beertour #yarntour #travelingalone #missthefam #alreadytired

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Exercise

"Dude, you should totally work out. You're such a slug."

"I don't think so."

"Why not?"

"People who exercise, it becomes all they do and all they talk about. They turn into insufferable pricks."

"Whatever, I'm no different. Don't you want to be better? Don't you want to feel better?"

"All you people see in others is either what you want to be or what you fear you'll revert to. Either way it scares you. And no, I don't want that."

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i am the dead god buried in this broken machine.

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"I've decided to take up smoking." "Why would you do that?" "It's what writers do. It's a novelty. And besides, it keeps me from biting my nails and chewing off my finger flesh." "That's disgusting." "Yeah, I know, I've done it since I was a little kid and I can't shake the habit. I've quit smoking before. Once I stop biting my nails, I'll just quit smoking again." "It's strange how much sense that makes." "Lesser of two evils."

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She wears a light cream sateen overcoat and her hair is a platinum wilderness down below her shoulders. She's what I imagine a ghost might look like, if such a thing could exist.

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Now I go to sound the horn that brings the man will end you all.

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Remember the name of the man who killed you.

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The world quaked under the boots of Asgeir. The sun reflected fire from his sooted bronze hair. Asgeir Spilli Hermóðrson, the Godspear, his weapon his namesake. On he walked, for there were lands still to conquer.

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Dad used to say we sold ourselves out to the chinks long before they put us to work. Dad's been dead over ten years now. Up against the wall. All for me. Xiu never liked my father. She felt uncomfortable around him. Still she went to his funeral. I couldn't make it. I was there in spirit. I reached through the golden bridge in my cell and saw them all. My mother. Xiu and her mother. A few of our neighbors. No men. They were all off working. Or like me.

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"It's funny. I can't remember the way you smelled but I can remember your phone number. How weird is that? The sound of your mother answering. How annoyed she was. Always annoyed that it was me. I remember those numbers to this day. I think when I realized I couldn't remember your scent was when I knew I'd lost you. But I didn't know what that meant. I held on."

(emotional vs. rational, how the emotional side had let go, but something in the structure of what he remembered made him cling to that past. exact opposite of what you'd expect. remembering numbers like it's the answer to an equation, and not remembering the scent, which should be the direct path to memory and feed his longing. weird how that works. good place for this would be late-novel in the revenge/southern gothic peice.)

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"I come to your country, 鬼佬, and I rape your women. I am so young I have no hair on my 鸡鸡 and I still 入 them all. You have nothing in your own country because I take it. You can do nothing but watch me 爆菊花."

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"Do you want me?"

"More than I should."

"Is it because I have a boyfriend? I can't imagine that bothers you."

"Only a little. Hard to care about that right now."

"Do you have a girlfriend back home?"

"What kind of boyfriend would I be if I was here with you right now? I don't cheat on people."

"Are you going to make love to me?"

"When you put it that way, what choice do I have?"

"You just have to have an answer for everything."

I couldn't do anything else but kiss her.

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If civilization crumbled, what questions would you ask someone to determine if they were still civilized?

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I could smell her shadow stretched across the floor.

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The world isn't as doomed as you think. Just more than you can handle.

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so i don't lose it

ab falso quod libet (via hollowedOut.com :: v2.0 - posts)

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that bass video

Well, I decided to actually log in to my youtube account, and it seems that some people have been watching that old video of me recording bass for the Birch track 'X'. It's had somewhere around 650 views, with 2 people marking it as a Favorite. Not huge by any stretch of the imagination, but more than I had expected without actively promoting it. Anyway, there were people commenting on it and I made sure to send them links to the myspace page for Birch and I even thought enough this time to add a link to the myspace page in the description of the video. I wish Cade would change up the design for the myspace page - that "wall o'fire" motif is a little much. Anyway, I also noticed that someone other than this blog had linked to the video, although following the link put me to a different video in a young band's website, so they must have had me up at some point and replaced me with one of their own, or whatever. I couldn't tell where the kids were from, they had a .tk domain name, which is basically a free domain provider based out of New Zealand, and the language on the site looked Eastern European/Slavic in origin, but I don't want to try and guess on that one. Would be cool to know what they thought of the video, though. Looking again, it appears as though they switched their hosting to another free site. Still have no idea who they are. (via hollowedOut.com :: v2.0 - posts)