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About two years ago I drew Cody holding a lightsaber and this is me bringing that BACK baby hell yes

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au to make myself practice drawing armor

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art block saved by sexy commander cody everyone say "thank you sexy commander cody"

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i love tumblr i make commander cody art and the fans crawl out of their holes and swarm like ants to honey

yall are down bad for that man

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What is the charge? Eating a meal? A succulent Coruscant meal?

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I know that codywan is purely a fandom invention, so it shouldn’t shock me that the majority of content of the two is fluff, but their canon dynamic can be exploited for some of the best angst known to man.

Like imagine you were always meant to kill him. You were born to kill him and yet he treats you like a person, something that has only been afforded to you by your brothers. He’s everything you were told a jedi would be. He’s certainly not perfect. He had a lot to learn about becoming a general. (You wonder how many of your brothers died because him and his order didn’t study some goddamn tactics before going to war) He acts rather above it all at times, which is annoying, but you guess you would be too if you could move things with your mind. He’s very particular, but somehow able to talk his way out of some of the worst situations you’ve ever seen.

Sometimes he invites you for tea when you could be going over battle plans(the plans calm your nerves more than tea ever could) and despite how much he may pretend not to, how much he is desperate not to, he cares. He cares so deeply about his former padawan (their bickering reminds you of petty fights with the other cadets), he cares about keeping his men alive, and for some inexplicable reason, he cares about you. You find yourself also caring about him. You’re not supposed to be feeling this way, none of your brothers should. He’s your superior officer, so you say nothing when your heart skips a beat when he claps you on the back. You stay for longer than you should when drinking that bitter tea. You ignore the smiles and knowing looks your brother gives you. You’re happy, and the end of this war will make it all worth it.

Except it’s not.

He betrayed you and your brothers. You fought side by side with him and for what? Him to betray everything you ever fought for? You tell them to take the shot, not hesitating for one second. The only thing you need in that moment is him dead. And just like that the war is over. All the hurt, all the suffering, is finally over. But you feel like you have a hole in your chest more hollow than any blaster shot could make you feel.

Your brothers are dying less than they ever have, but you feel even less like a person than before. You follow orders. No one asks for your opinion. No one asks for your name. You are disposable and you know you will be replaced. Citizens who used to flee towards you are now fleeing away from you, as if you were as unfeeling as the droid army that tried to take them over. Only it wasn’t them who took over, was it?

This empire, which the deepest part of yourself is telling you to trust, goes against everything you were ever taught to defend. The first thing this empire ever told you to do was to kill the man who risked his life countless times for you and your brothers and you did it without question. Why? It seemed like the right thing to do at the time. Maybe if you had waited, had thought for just a second longer, Obi-Wan Kenobi would still be alive. He would be alive, put a hand on your shoulder, smile in that way that makes the edges of his eyes crease, and tell you “I forgive you, Cody.”

But it’s done. You’ve already killed him. It happened a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away. It is already over. Nothing can be done to change it.

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The Jedi Temple is full of animals. Creatures that came back from missions, strays from all levels of Coruscant, pets given to younglings after many akk puppy eyes, animals that just wandered in and didn’t leave. They live the good life, getting doted on by the entire Temple and helping the children practice bonding with animals.

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Years into the war, Cody gives Obi-Wan a letter.

"I hope you never have to read it," Cody tells him. "If we both see this through, I'll read it to you myself."

Obi-Wan doesn't want to accept it. He wants Cody to read it to him now, to tell him everything he feels he can't say until their duty is done. Wants to tell him they'll both see the other side of this war, even if he has no way to promise such a thing.

Obi-Wan has so much he wants to say to Cody, but doesn't. He understands, now, and he accepts the letter. He keeps it with him always. He hopes he'll never have to read it.

Months later on Utapau, when Cody hands him his lightsaber, Obi-Wan thinks of that damned letter tucked into his robes and hopes that this is the day he finally gets to destroy it, because there's no need for it, because he'll have memorized every word in the sound of Cody's voice.

He's wrong.

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Years go by on Tatooine. Obi-Wan still has that letter, unopened. He looks at it every day. He cannot bear to read it. He cannot bear to destroy it.

"I hope you never have to read it."

If there's love in that letter, he worries it'll break him completely.

The unknowing of it hurts, of course. But ignorance, in this case, he thinks it might be sweeter.

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i am about to create an au SO self indulgent. the target audience is 1 person and that person is me

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i wonder if the clones found comfort when it rained.

standing guard in a rainstorm, hearing the soft *pishhhh* as it hammers down around them. closing their eyes and imagining, just for a moment, that they're a cadet back on kamino. their batch is all together, and nothing bad has happened to any of them. no loss, no scars, just chatting late at night and dreaming about fighting for their republic.

i wonder if they hated it.

the rain reminds them of something they'll never have again, and maybe never truly had: a home. the rain reminds them of the icy kaminoans, the scorns from bounty hunters hired to train them. the rain is loud and unpleasant and cold, just like kamino had been.

the rain sounds like home, feels like brotherhood, tastes like loss, smells like death. the rain looks familiar, and inviting, but it's frigid and sharp.

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What are some Cody-related headcanons you have? If you'd like to share 🙏

Awww this is so sweet, Anon. Thank you for asking me 🥺 l never shut up about my stupid crack fic headcanons, so I offer a bunch more of those and I’m so sorry if you were looking for anything more serious.

also I’m terribly inconsistent in my writing in that I’ll go with whatever headcanons works best with my story, so if you spot any inconsistencies between these and any of the Codys I may have written, no you didn’t.

1.) Cody gets his scar during the first few months of the war after an explosion busts in his helmet and the metal catches his face when it was removed. As a consequence of that same accident, he also has only partial hearing in his left ear.

2.) When Cody’s stressed he pinches his nose and rubs at his eyebrows. Obi-Wan can always tell when a ground mission isn’t going they way they planned, even before Cody can report it, just from the pattern of the dirt smudges across the Commander’s face.

3.) Cody’s stony-faced, attentive, and quiet. This leads people to this he’s a good listener. This leads people to talk. Cody ends up a master of secrets. Cody knows about Padme’s pregnancy within twenty minutes of Anakin finding out.

Crackfic headcanons:

4.) Cody is a lying liar who lies, constantly. He lies to get ahead, he lies to get out of things, he lies just for the fun of it. It’s mostly harmless (unless you’re a member of the Senate Budgetary committee) but Cody delivers his lies so straight-faced and unfazed that only the people closest to him would ever think to question it. For nearly the entire first year of the war, Obi-Wan thought the clones exploded if they ate anything other than GAR standard rations. Cody only came clean once Obi-Wan saw him order fries while they were on shore leave and smacked them out of his hands. Cody’s also getting away with some spectacular amounts of government resource fraud.

5.) He drunkenly signed an email once as CoCo and none of his batch mates will let him forget it.

6.) There’s a space version of candy crush that’s been illegally downloaded onto GAR datapads. Cody spent 11 hours playing it once.

7.) Babygirl is petty. He’ll pretend not to hear someone ask for a tissue after they sneeze because they didn’t respond to his email on time once.

8.) When they were cadets, Cody downloaded an illegal version of a sptamogatchi onto his datapad and took care of it for YEARS. He left it in Wolffe’s care for a weekend away at an offsite training and came back to it dead. Now, every year, on its birthday, Cody sends Wolffe a message like, “he would have been 11.”

9.) Cody learns pretty quickly into the war that he’s the only one in the GAR capable enough to do his job (both as marshal commander and resident jedi wrangler). He once got held up in a two week long Senate investigation (into some allegations of resource fraud) and it had to be cut short because the GAR nearly imploded, Obi-Wan lost half his hair, and somehow there was a back order for two thousand LAATi’s. This knowledge immediately went to Cody’s head. By the second year of the war, he pretty much lives by l the motto of “what are they going to do, fire me?” This attitude is also a large factor in the case of the spectacular amounts of resource fraud.

10.) Cody is THE fuck around and find out parent of the 212th, in the most literal sense. His approach to supervision is “if it won’t kill you in a way that’s messy and hard to clean up, then it’s probably fine.” This leads to some INSANE innovation in the 212th rec rooms. Obi-Wan nearly has a heart attack while Cody reasons next to him that surely the anti-gravity machine will reverse some day and Longshot and Crys won’t be stuck to the ceiling for forever.

And now the Codywan headcanons:

11.) Obi-Wan falls first. Quick, hard and hopeless (I’m a one trick pony, I know). Cody’s aware of it, and honestly thinks it’s pretty cringefail at first because surely there are better things to be doing with their time during a war. But as things go on he finds himself more and more thinking increasingly unhinged things like “I like the way he smells” until one day, he’s just like “OH NO”.

12.) I’m always torn between Codywan who immediately sleep together 13-minutes into the war and Codywan who spend years a slow burn, aching, pining mess, but regardless of how they first sleep together, Cody ALWAYS finds out he’s in love with his General through the power of meticulous, semi-unhinged spreadsheets

13.) Cody can handle broken bones, blaster burns, every muscle in his body screaming from exertion, but he cannot handle being sick. Cody gets sick for the first time after a rare flu that makes its way through the men and he is MISERABLE. He’s just like “my body has betrayed me. this is my end”, tossing and turning in sweaty sheets while Obi-Wan tries to feed him some hydration packs and get him to just sleep it off.

14.) Codywan and Obi-Wan are force bonded (it was an accident and a natural consequence of them being in close proximity for so long). They can mostly control what they feel from each other through shielding, but sometimes smaller, subconscious things bleed through, like Cody stubs his toe and Obi-Wan yelps across the room. Cody can always tell when Obi-Wan’s been skipping meals in order to work because he still feels hungry after he’s eaten six ration bars so he has to go track Obi-Wan down and make him eat for it to end. In turn, Obi-Wan always knows when Cody’s staying up late in a caf fueled paperwork bender because he himself CANNOT sleep and he has to go dig Cody out from whatever room he’s squirreled away in and force him to sleep so they can both rest. They both can also feel a subtle sensation when one is asleep or awake, which makes for some spectacular revenge/blackmail situations, re: when one is in Medbay and the other sends a comm tattling to Helix to before they can make an escape

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Occasionally I think we suffer too much from wanting to inject a normal perspective into star wars. Obviously the clones should not have an everyman normal perspective on the jedi, they are some of the least normal people alive. Obviously the jedi are not a normal perspective either, they grew up in a monastery and have cosmic forces pouring through their heads. The natborn officers are all handpicked fascists so they aren't normal either. Not one single being on any of those warships is ever normal.

Padme was a politician at age 10. Naboo is weird. They're all weird. And those mandalorians. Listen, if a traditional mandalorian found themself on melida-daan as per fanfic tradition, they wouldn't be normal about it. They'd see a bunch elementary kids doing warfare and think that's the coolest shit. They'd teach them how to fire a rocket launcher with their tiny bony arms and when a bunch of them die on the raid they coached them on they'd tell the other seven year olds it 'twas an honorable death.

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padawan cords > padawan braids

i always thought it odd that padawan braids would only be for jedi that have hair, which stands out when looking at the removal of the braid when padawans are expelled; it's one thing for jewelry to be ripped off, an entire lock of hair is completely different, and what do you do for those with piercings, tattoos, or body mods to display their rank as padawan?

the same thing for undercover or stealth missions. wouldn't it be better to have something that can easily be removed and hid? with the amount of people in the galaxy that don't like jedi, it doesn't make sense to have something so obvious to draw attention to padawans

the solution? cords of beads similar to the songcords from avatar but short-term, used only throughout your time as a padawan, and maybe without the song aspect unless it is a lineage thing and can be kept either on their person like a bracelet or necklace or attached to their belts

for anyone that isn't familiar with the concept, the people in avatar have a cord that represents their life's major events or achievements, beginning in birth and is extended and added to as the person grows

they can use beads or other items to represent a certain event and the same thing can be done for padawans. here's some concept art of the cords:

when a jedi and initiate are officially recognized as master and padawan, the first thing they would gift the padawan is the plain cord with one bead to represent them becoming a padawan, whether that is an item representative of either of their species or home planets or maybe a bead with the symbol of the jedi order

they could use wooden beads, feathers, scales, rocks, crystals, pieces of metal, coral, shells, buttons, fabric, amber, glass beads, dried or pressed plants, and so many other things from different planets they visit for missions, added on as the padawan learns and grows, sometimes being gifted by the master or added together by the master and padawan

they could also have some other material shaped into beads in specific colors to represent courses of study and major skills learned at the temple, for example purple for pilots, red for healers, white for archivists or lore keepers, black for shadows, blue for guardians, green for consulars, orange for sentinels, yellow for temple guards, on and on in whatever color you can think of, and maybe different shapes of beads represent different things

when the padawan is knighted, they could gift their cords to their former master, like how in canon they keep the braids. i just thought that it would make more sense to be more open to different species and work according to their roles as jedi in a way that displays their accomplishments and experiences while also keeping them safe and have the ability to pass on their cord

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Do the jedi have like. the star wars equivalent of sword dances? I mean lightsaber fights already look like dances, but like what about the ones that are actually intended to be dances? like imagine dancing with a lightsaber- that would be sooo pretty to look at. I imagine that obi-wan isn't like super good or an expert or anything, but there's a couple that he knows and loves and does really well, especially when he's on his own. Qui-gon was really good at many and taught him to do them and it stuck, and on those nights he was grieving he just dances listening to the force. Nobody dances quite like obi-wan, though. Like he doesn't know a lot of dances but he's really really good on the ones he does know, and plus points to the fact that obi-wan is probably also musically inclined.

Anakin is really good, too, like qui-gon, he caught it much more easily than obi-wan did. It probably started out as him accidentally seeing obi-wan do it when he was younger, and then trying to emulate and failing lmao, and then it became like, and alternative way of meditating for Anakin? like at some point Obi-wan realized that dance could totally work as a way of moving meditation and decided to teach anakin himself and enroll him in classes, and I think anakin would really get into it especially during the war. Padme would like it, she has an eye for stuff like this so sometimes she helps point out details to anakin.

Ahsoka learns from anakin because anakin is definitely the type to add sword dance into ahsoka's curiculum, but he prefers teaching her himself because he just so happens to be really good at it. Ahsoka would like it! like she's not as into it as anakin is but sometimes she practices when there's a lot on her mind or like, when she wants to show the clones what she learned. oh, the clones would absolutely enjoy watching ahsoka dance, and ahsoka would totally convince anakin to do it with her. Sometimes they'd convince obi wan. When she leaves the order she still practices, it's her way of staying connected even though she'd never come to realize it herself. And when (if?) the whole oder 66 thing happens, the sword dance is one of the few jedi culture bits that not many outside of the order knows, and she preserves it.

I like to think that she'll teach luke, one day. like maybe directly, or maybe she'll leave him a set of holo-recordings that he finds, and then luke would try to emulate and learn, and because he's Padme's and Anakin's son, he'd catch on and learn quickly. It won't be a perfect imitation, so Luke just uses his gut (the force) and adds new bits into the missing portions of the dance. He'd teach leia too, like leia is not super interested as luke is, but this specific aspect is actually super fascinating to her, so maybe she'll learn a bit, while also assisting him in doing some research about it. It surprised her how it helps her clear her mind.

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aquatic people in the jedi temple

considering the wide variety of species in the jedi temple, there are definitely bound to be a range of needs by each, such as aquatic people, nocturnal people, blind individuals (like the miraluka), those with other disabilities, etc. as such, there's probably accommodations for each of them.

headcanon then: there's an area of the temple that is like a massive manmade pool, or multiple pools, where the community of aquatic species lives in, having their respective sleeping quarters in pods along the "walls" of the pool, and an area in the middle for other recreational or educational purposes

the exterior of the pool has a hallway outside of water that goes around and connects to each room, and maybe each room has a window that is like a pocket that connects the area with air to the water like a tiny ship moon pool and the aquatic person can peek out their "window" to speak with the land people

the central area of the pool has spaces for eating, recreational purposes, classrooms, and meditation spaces, all of this so that those who are made for water can relax, eat, sleep, and do their day-to-day tasks and hobbies comfortably

still, not all are the same, which means the tech that they used in the mon cala episodes in sw:tcw were developed, or simply advanced, by the jedi for the sake of having land species hang out with their friends and lineage members underwater, or there are a lot of oxygen "bubbles" for them to use

this is especially great when thinking about aquatic species forgetting about their need for water, since they're technically supposed to be in water at all times, and i can imagine land species jedi hanging out with their aquatic friends, masters, or padawans above water, noticing that they're dehydrated, and then dragging them to the pools as they grab an underwater suit or mask

picture this: padawan bant eerin being super focused on her studies and not paying attention to her health needs for the moment, and obi-wan pulls her and her (waterproof) study materials into the pools to chill and study underwater

padawan nahdar and kit meditating together in the center of the pools, or practicing with their specially-made lightsabers for underwater combat

jedi knights and masters visiting aquatic younglings and playing with them in the water before they're fully adjusted to being out of water

just a space made for the respective needs of all jedi!

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I know in my heart this is what Cody looks like when shinies burst into his quarters at 3:23 am to tattletale on their squad mate

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mission on swamp planet<3

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