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i wrote your name down on a piece of paper and ripped it into pieces and burned them in a jar bc i hate that you stopped talking to me with no warning or explanation i don't understand how people can do that

i think when you're close with someone and you've shared so much of yourself and been vulnerable with each other the least that person can do is fucking explain why they don't wanna be part of each other's lives anymore

i'm angry and hurt and i haven't fully processed that and i want to fucking tell you how shitty i think that is but every time i open the message i come up fucking blank all i want to know is why

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yeah

i

think i'd be a lot happier if i deleted social media bc it makes me want to kill my self haha

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oof it's a really bad time right now? i'm so do anxious lately it's so incredibly horrible i always feel like i'm gonna die when i go anywhere or do anything

i'm getting rid of my weed pen because i think that's contributing to my anxiety

also not having a job is depressing the fuck out of me i'm so bored and i don't know what to do with myself and i feel like i'm going nowehere and i'm about to turn twenty and i've got nothing figured out

also i feel like im no ones number one which is so fjdnsnsnnas i feel so so bad like i feel like in no ones number one choice right now gjdnsanabsbbfbdbsbsbsbdbd which is fine i guess i'm my own number one but i'm just like lonely and hanging out with some friends today made me feel better but i didn't feel 100% there and lhhlhIgshshehfjdjs all my feelings are hurt the only thing making me happy is my linguistics class and going to work with my mom

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i love my dad...he's so kind and comforting in his own little way when my mom is being so mean and hurtful and crazy

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i just had. ahorrible realization

i'm an adult

i was on my way home from work and work was so discouraging today and im so stressed and i'm stressed about paying for classes and i'm stressed that i filled my tank a couple of days ago and it's already half way

like wtf those are adult things to worry about i'm not having any fun.. i'm 19 i need to start having fun again. lol

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mostly feeling good things lately !!! i am going to travel and i'm excited and i love my cool neighbors and driving with nice music on while the sun is beginning to set and also nature shows and my dog

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i wanna live somewhere where the weather is a little kinder and so are the people

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omg i miss eating pussy lol it's been too long.. god let me hook up with this girl soon

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i wanna text you and tell you

i'm sleeping over at my abuelas house

dozing in the presence of my bis abuelas and tias

but we're not the way we used to be

you're not my girlfriend and you never were

but that's how we acted

i want to be taken care of and checked in on and let you know how i'm doing

i want tjat and i want it with you

sometimes

but we can't be like that anymore if i'm ever going to move on from you in that way

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something cool i've discovered is that i'm like pretty good at making girls cum which is so fun like. i did that

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took a walk the other day was thinking about how just because there are so many people creating art doesn't mean i shouldn't create to? i was doubting myself and thinking it was useless to put my writing out into the world when so much is already out there but i wanna create because it feels good and i like my stuff not necessarily for other people or for moving up in the world

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ache

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i left this girls house feeling pretty shitty today but i think she made me realize that i'm not like actively participating in my own life..even tho she was a little harsh about it

being friends with her is cool i guess but lol it changed so fast from romance to friendship it makes

me feel snubbed and a lil weird idk it's weird i cried on the way home bc i feel so lost rn and i liked her a lot and it's weird tjejrnsmans idk dude

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still thinking

bout eating pussy...suckin tiddies..

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bitches will cry in your bed and fuck you with a strap on you bought together then not text back for a week

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thinking bout eatin pussy lads

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watch me fall in love with this girl!! i was that into her but oh how the tables have turned i feel like i could fall in love with her omg...i'm gonna try and chill JDJAJSSJJS she's so cute i loved cuddling with her her mind is so beautiful fuck