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imasoftieuwu · 4 years

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"I love you but I couldn't"

Yuta X Reader

Genre: Highschool AU, Angst, Some Fluff

Warnings: Mentions of an Accident, Bullying, Stalking?

"Senpai, you don't have to-" Yuta shoved a carton of strawberry milk and an onigiri into your hands before you could protest. "Can't I buy something for my Kouhai?" he asked smiling, petting your head, "Thank you Senpai but you really didn't have to..." you muttered cheeks flaring red and your heart threatens to burst out of your chest. Yuta clicked his tongue "Those kids, how can they be so mean! I reported them to the principle, they won't be coming to school for sometimes."

He sighed and pulled out a bandage with a cute panda bear design on it, carefully applying it onto the cut on your forehead "It suits you cutie" Yuta patted your head again, "If anyone bothers you again, tell me ok?" he asked his lips pressing into a thin line, "Thank you... Senpai." you nodded. As you turned away from Yuta and started to walk away, "Wait!" Yuta called out stopping you in your tracks, you turned around and faced him with wide-eyes, "I didn't get your name." he said scratching the back of his neck with one hand in his pocket, "Y/N that's my name..." you answered averting his gaze, "Ah, Y/N... that's a pretty name Y/N!" you nodded and started to walk again. "My name is Yuta by the way. See you Y/N!" he shouted waving at you grinning, but you already know that.

You already know his name since forever, you even know his friend's name, where they hang out. His favorite colour, his timetable, what he usually gets for lunch, his habit of biting his nails, and how his eyes would be opened in his sleep. It scares you, you thought he saw you that one time you were staring at him in his sleep. It may sound like you are obsessed with Yuta, well you are kinda. You just couldn't help but notice every little thing he does, he is the only human who hadn't looked at you disgustingly, who smile at your way every time your eyes met.

Everything Yuta did engrave into your mind, his name alone made your heartache, your adrenaline rushing through your body and your cheeks would be dusted rosy pink. You don't follow him home nor do you collect the things he left behind, you weren't that obsessed, you respected his privacy. You just hoped that someday a miracle would happen, and Yuta would notice you. He did, he even asked for your name and called you cute but you don't want to get your hope too high, you were just a lonely and strange girl that no one cares about at the end of the day. You sighed, fiddling with the panda bandage, grazing your fingers over the cut on your forehead. You stared at the fan hanging on the ceiling, whispering his name before curling up and closing your eyes shut.

Clutching your camera that's hanging from your neck and scrolling through the pictures that you took of Yuta from afar. Suddenly, a hand grabbed your shoulder and you jumped from the contact, "Senpai! You scared me!" you gasped. "I'm sorry I scared you." he laughed, "You like taking pictures?" Yuta pointed at the camera you're holding onto, "Why don't you join the photography club?" he continued. "Um... I- I just-" you stuttered, "I'll take that as a yes." he shot you his healing smile and pulled you into the hallway.

You stopped in front of a door at the end of the empty hallway, a large board with "Photography Club" written neatly on it by colorful chalks caught your eyes. Yuta slid open the door, still grabbing your arm and you stayed hidden behind his broad back. He tugged your arm signaling you to move forward, you slowly peeked out from Yuta's shoulders. The sight of Yuta's friends tackling each other, girls brushing their skirt and hair smiling wide at Yuta welcomed you. The girls' expression fell when they saw you standing next to Yuta hand in hand, but they quickly plastered on a fake smile and sent a wave your way. Cameras were placed neatly on a shelf in the corner, rows of photos stretched across the wall you eyes lingered on a photo of Yuta kissing a girl on the cheek with his arm around her shoulders. She has long wavy brown hair, dreamy eyes, and a bright smile a star necklace hanged across her collarbone matched the one on Yuta's.

That was the moment your heart shattered into a million pieces, your hope crumbled before your eyes. Tears threaten to escape your eyes, it felt like someone tied a knot in your throat, it's hard to breathe. You managed to swallow in your tears and pushed down the burning sensation in your chest, "Do you have a spare sign up sheet?" Yuta's voice snapped you back into reality. "Of course! Wait a second, Senpai." A tan boy, with brown hair, stumbled over a pen as he was rushing to Yuta. "Ouch!" he yelled, rubbing his head and handing out a sheet of paper for Yuta. "Your so clumsy Haechan." Yuta scolded, flicking Haechan's forehead, "Ouch, Senpai!" Haechan winced, rubbing his forehead and pouting.

Haechan is very cute, and to be honest, you would have a big giant crush on him of Yuta didn't exist. First years are crazy for Mark and Haechan ever since their acoustic performance covering "If I can't have you" at the school's opening ceremony, Mark with a guitar and Haechan with a microphone is a deadly combination. After joining the photography club, you found out Haechan have a quite big heart as well. You are quite close with him, you would work together for club project and Haechan would crack jokes to make you laugh. He would ask you how's your day going, the best or worst part is that he would convince you to skip classes, and you would sneak out to the park with him. Despite skipping almost all classes, Haechan was always able to top the charts.

"Y/N you have a crush on Yuta Senpai right?" Haechan cocked his head, "I- I don't- I just-" you stuttered, "So you do." he took a sip of orange juice before continuing, "Who doesn't, it's normal."

"Is it that obvious?" your grip on the swing's chain tightened, your eyes trained on the blades of green grass beneath your feet. "Yeh, but Senpai is very oblivious about these things so don't worry.", he reassured you, "But Yuta Senpai already have a girlfriend..." you sighed. Haechan was laughing so hard he dropped to the ground, his hand clutching his stomachache. "What's so funny?" you looked at him confusingly, "Is that why you have been avoiding him?" Haechan chuckled, "Then who's the girl in the picture?" you questioned him. "You were jealous of his sister?" He couldn't stop laughing, "So she's his sister?" you gasped. "Yes!" Haechan nodded furiously, still laughing at you, "I didn't know ok." you pouted and stomped away. "Y/N wait!" Haechan called out, jogging up to you.

You felt so happy, it was overwhelming but you also felt so stupid. All those nights crying yourself to sleep, all those days you avoided Yuta and pushed him away was for nothing. It felt like you just got resurrected from your tragic death by heartbreak, that means you have a chance now. "Y/N I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make fun of you." Haechan whined, tugging your arms and staring at you with big puppy eyes. You sighed heavily, how can you stay mad at him if he's looking at you like that and he knew that. "I'll forgive you." you crossed your arm, Haechan's eyes lit up, "But only if you buy me macarons." you huffed. "Fine..." he pouted, you walked back to school just in time when the bell rang signalling lunch time.

"Y/N! Haechan!" Taeil shouted, running to you, "Oh, Taeil Senpai." you shouted back jumping and waving at him. "You two sneaked out again didn't you?" Taeil narrowed his eyes, "Please don't tell on us Senpai, we had a substitute anyways." Haechan pleaded. "That's not a valid reason." Taeil scoffed, "You know I would never tell on you, but studying is important you're not in elementary school anymore." he nagged. "Yes, yes Senpai you've told us a hundred times already." Haechan huffed, earning a slap on the arm from Taeil.

"Hello!" Yuta flashed you a wide smile, "Can I borrow Y/N for a sec?" he asked blinking rapidly. "What if I say no?" Haechan raised an eyebrow jokingly, "Then I'll take her anyways." Yuta grabbed your arm and pulled you away. He stopped at the back of the school, "Um... Y/N so..." he scratched his head, you cocked your head. "You know it's only a week until the summer festival..." Yuta mumbled, "Uh huh." you nodded "I knew that Senpai, but you pulled me all the way here just to tell me that?" you asked. "No, I..." he took a deep breathe and continued, "Would you go with me?" he asked holding his breathe. "Of course I would!" you smiled at him, eyes curled into crescents, you were scared he could hear your hammering heart and you didn't know he was feeling the same. "So see you then Senpai!" you said running back to Haechan and Taeil, "Uh, see you Y/N" he called out.

That night you couldn't fall asleep, you keep jumping up and down on your bed repeating his proposal over and over again. You keep turing and tossing, his bright smile never leaving your mind, his voice echoing in your head. You just couldn't wait to see him with a healing smile stretched across his face, you wished the sun would come up and so did Yuta.

Dressed up in a night blue yukata with blooming flowers designs in different shades of blue adorned across the fabric, and sky blue obi tied around your waist. Your hair was braid into a crown braid, you stuck a purple-blue gradient flower tassel hairpin into your hair, the flower's stigmas are pearls accented with gold sparkle and golden leaves. You uncomfortable shifted your weight from one foot to another, craning your neck and scanning the giant crowd for a familiar figure. You've been waiting for a while, maybe he forgot he have much more important things than going to a festival with you right? Then why would he invite you in the beginning, if he can't come at least tell you beforehand you thought to yourself.

You crossed the street, eyes never leaving the ground and the rain started to fall. "Y/N!" a voice that you immediately recognised cried out, strong arms pulled you back into the sidewalk as a car darted right pass you. He hovered an umbrella over you shielding you completely from the pouring rain, "Be careful, you could have got hit by that car." he scowled arms still gripping tight on your shoulders, "I'm sorry, I'll be careful next time,".

"I thought you forgot about the festival" you were the one scolding this time, "I'm sorry I'm late. Jungwoo had some work to do and we had to wait for him." he explained, "It's ok, at least you still came." you pouted and glared at him. "You look very beautiful today." Yuta complimented, you didn't realise how close you were with Yuta until your nose grazed over his as you look up. You jumped but Yuta quicky pulled you back, handing you the umbrella and ran underneath a shelter.

Jungwoo handed Yuta a spare umbrella, everyone was here but there's someone missing. "Where's WinWin?" you asked, "Oh yeah about WinWin, something came up and he couldn't go." Johnny explained. "Ahhh, I hate the rain!" Haechan groaned, picking up his phone in the puddle. "I just brought it!" Haechan sighed, "You look like a duck." Johnny poked Haechan's pouty lips. "Ah, come on Senpai don't you have a heart I just broke my precious phone." Haechan complained, "Not my problem" Johnny replied nonchalantly and walked away leaving a fake crying Haechan with his broken phone behind. "Too bad." you patted Haechan and walked away as well, you stopped in front of a shateki (gun-shooting) stall. A Doraemon keychain, contained inside of a small plastic box caught your eyes. You were determined to get that keychain, you handed the stall owner some coins from your purse and started to shoot at the keychain. Shot after shot flew past the keychain, you handed more coins after coins still haven't able to shoot at the Doraemon keychain.

You reached into your purse for more coins and to your horror, nothing was left. You had used up all of your money on the shateki stall, you just wanted a cute Doraemon keychain. Then Yuta came to your rescue, "What do you want?" he asked with his cheeks stuffed with takoyaki pointing at the rows of prizes. "I want that!" you pointed at the keychain, jumping up and down, "But I'm out of money." you sighed pouting. "It's ok." Yuta nodded, handing you his box of takoyaki and pulling out some coins from his pocket. "You got good aim young boy!" the stall owner exclaimed, handing over the Doraemon keychain that Yuta just shot at. Yuta placed the keychain in your hand, shooting you a smile, patting your head. "Thank you Senpai!" you squealed and placed the keychain into your purse, your smile quickly disappeared as your stomach grumbled.

You forgot you haven't eaten anything yet, Yuta grabbed your hand and pulled you to a yakisoba stall. He bought two plated of yakisoba, one for him and one for you. "Is it good?" he asked, you nodded cheeks stuffed with food, the sight made him chuckled. You learned one thing about Yuta after the festival is that the boy has an insane appetite, he's still munching on his fourth box of takoyaki. "Let's go, guys, the fireworks are setting off soon." Mark called out, you nodded joining the rest of the group. You ran to the bridge just in time as sparks of colours exploded into the night sky, blazing colours scattered across the sky.

The loud crackling of the fireworks and the "Ooohs, Ahhhs." from the crowd ringed in your ears, this is your first time seeing fireworks this close and it was magical. Reds, oranges, yellows, greens, blues and purples painted across the sky, bursting into the traditional blooming circle or a star, heart, and a smiley face. You were staring at the blooming fireworks but Yuta wasn't, his gaze was fixed onto your face. A smile painted your face, alongside with the illuminating colours, you were always cute to Yuta. But tonight it's different, maybe it's the way you braided your hair, the yukata you're wearing or the light makeup you were wearing for the first time. Whatever it is, it made Yuta realized his feelings for you, he finally acknowledged the call of his pounding heart.

"Y/N!" your eyes flew open, and your head jerked up immediately when the teacher called out your name. "Uh, yes Sensei!" you called out, standing up from your desk, your mind still foggy. "Y/N are you ok?" Kaito Sensei asked worriedly, "I'm good Kaito Sensei." you responded, your eyelids heavy, you couldn't get any sleep last night and barely any for the last few nights. Yuta’s birthday is tomorrow and you haven't finished preparing his present yet, it's almost winter and you want to gift him something useful. So you decided on knitting him a scarf, a yellow one in particular since it's his favourite colour, only just a week before his birthday. You brought the scarf with you all the time, knitting at every chance you got, at recess or lunch stuffing it in your bag hurriedly every time Yuta appeared, at the park when you sneaked out with Haechan in the park, at the cafe where you are supposed to study, at night instead of sleeping.

"Y/N you don't look fine, Haechan can you help Y/N to the sickbay?" Haechan nodded, stood up and carried you to the sickbay. You can finally rest as your body sank into the softness of the mattress and your mind went foggy. You were greeted by a worried Yuta once you wake up from your deep slumber, "Y/N did I wake you up?" he asked hands still clenching at the blanket he pulled up to keep you warm. You shook your head lightly and murmured a "No...", "Why are you here?" you questioned, "I heard you are sick, I was worried so I came to see if you're ok." he said softly, lifting his hand and pressing it onto your forehead, checking your temperature. "You don't have a fever that's good." he sighed, "How long have you been here?" you asked sitting up. "Since the start of lunch, how are you feeling now? Better?" he asked worriedly. "I'm good now!" you exclaimed, shooting him a thumbs up smiling brightly.

"Hmm!" you hummed contently and took another bite of the tonkatsu Yuta made. You never thought Yuta could cook, and cook this good, what can he not do. You stared at the ball of rice packed into a cute brown bear with cheese nose and seaweed eyes and mouth, you muttered a small "Sorry." before putting it in your mouth. Yuta chuckled, "You're too cute." he thought, everything you did is undeniably adorable to him, he wished he could just squish your cheeks all the time.

This is the first time you've ever had a homemade meal before, you missed the taste so much but how can you miss something you never experienced. You don't know, Yuta's food made you feel so nostalgic it's so warm and you can feel the love in every piece of food. You lived alone your whole life, even in the orphanage when you were surrounded by people. No one ever gave you that warmth and comfort of a family, your parents past away in a tragic accident when you were an infant. You don't even know what they look like, for some unexplained reasons your family haven't attempted to contact you even once since the day you were born. You left the orphanage as soon as you turned 15, your parents left you a quite abundant amount of wealth that you used on renting an apartment, paying school fees and all the other costs in life. You would either eat ramen or order delivery and you would live on canteen's food, you don't know how to cook or more like don't want to. You found no use in spending your times and energy on cooking when food is one click away with today's technology.

"Done!" you squealed and let out a sigh of relief, you held up the carefully wrapped blue present box decorated with a red bow on top. You placed it inside of a brown paper bag, you read the neatly wrote letters on a small piece of paper for the last time checking for any mistake and slipped it inside a white envelope. You pulled out a brand new rose red coloured wax seal stick from an antique wooden box, you held the wax stick over the moving flame. Smearing the melted wax on the envelope, you quickly stamped the puddle of glistening red wax using a custom stamp with your initials. You gently placed the letter on top of the present box before jumping onto your warm bed, and letting sleep take over you.

"Y/N!" Yuta yelled, pulling you into his chest, the blissful warmth from his chest spreading into yours. "Be careful, you could have got hit by that car!" he scolded, a sense of déjà vu washed over you both, "I'll be careful next time," you said reluctantly pulling away from the warm embrace. "Oh! Happy birthday Yuta," you exclaimed and held out the brown paper bag you've been holding in your arms. "Thank you!" his eyes lit up as he hastily tears opened the blue present box, he wrapped the yellow scarf around his neck immediately. "I knitted it myself." you whispered under your breath, "That makes it even more special." Yuta laughed. His long fingers traced over the soft yarn, he smiled brightly at the warmth spreading on his neck.

You and Haechan snuck out again, this time running not to the park but a familiar door. The large board with the usual "Photography club" written in colourful chalk is now replaced with "Happy Birthday Yuta!" in bold letters. You slid open the door, club members rushing from corner to corner hanging rows of photos of Yuta and pumping up balloons. "You guys are late!" Johnny complained, "It's Haechan fault, not mine." you shrugged, "Hurry and come help don't just stand there." WinWin whined still pumping up balloons enthusiastically. "Yes sir!" you saluted before rushing to Jungwoo helping him hang up balloons and fairy lights. Haechan rushed back just as the bell rang, holding a cake in his arms. Jaehyun snatched the cake from Haechan's arms, he placed it on the table in the centre of the room, "Hurry light this up!" Jaehyun commanded.

Doyoung barged in with a blindfolded Yuta as you lit up the last candle, closing the door behind him Doyoung removed Yuta blindfold. "Happy Birthday to you..." you all sang clapping, Taeyong held the cake up to Yuta and said "Now make a wish birthday boy!", Yuta chuckled clasping his hands together and blew at the candle extinguishing each one of them. Laughter echoed in the small room, the lunch was spent with club members making jokes and eating cake.

You ended the day with karaoke night, everyone sang their heart out in the colourful room. You haven't exchanged a single word during the whole walk between you and Yuta after leaving the karaoke place, he insisted to walk you home since it is not safe for a girl to walk home alone. It's actually just an excuse for him to stay with you a bit longer, the tapping sound of your feet on the pavement and the occasional crunch of leaves kept you sane. An urge to confess bubbled up inside of you, it's just you and Yuta alone and this is the perfect time to do so you thought.

"I like you!" you blurted out three words you have been burying inside of you all this time, stirring up the silence between the two of you. "I always have from the start-", "But I don't Y/N, I'm sorry," Yuta stopped you mid confession. His words pierced your heart, you felt like he just stabbed you with a knife in your chest. Everything went silent, you wished the ground would swallow you whole. You couldn't bring yourself to look at him because you knew once you see his face the tears that you are holding back will flood out. "Oh, it's ok. Um... my apartment is just around the corner so see you later Senpai!" you said trying your best to not choke on the words sounding as enthusiast as you can. You waved at him and sprinted around the corner before your legs finally gave out, the burning tears you've holding back stained your cheeks. You didn't know how long you spent on the ground bawling your eyes out, you should have known better, you should have known there's no way Yuta would like someone like you, you thought.

It have been five months since your confession, you thought soon the hurt will go away right? But it didn't, your love for him grew more and more each day you saw him and so does the pain. It is already graduation day, you will never have to see Yuta again after his graduation. You don't know to be happy or sad that you will never be able to see his smile again, the thought ran through your mind as you sat staring blankly at the boring ceremony.

"I wish you the best Senpai!" were the words that you wrote onto Yuta's yearbook, you gave him one last hug and a smile before waving him goodbye. Haechan was sobbing next to you, "I will miss you Senpai!" he yelled waving Taeil, Johnny, Taeyong and Yuta. You patted Haechan's back as he sobbed into your shoulder, his tears wetting your uniform. You sighed heavily, this is the end of your first and only love you thought as you stared longingly at his back, his healing smile and words still playing in your mind.

Your fingers traced over his smile in a small polaroid, the sight of his smile makes your heart ached. It felt like this was all just yesterday, your life resumed "normally" after the Third years' graduation just without their smiles and encouraging words in it. You treasured the polaroids, some you took without him knowing before you formally met, some you took after, some with you in it and some with all the members in it.

Each polaroid contained their own stories, you were reminiscing about Yuta's birthday up to the night that led to your heartbreak when a gust of wind swept by blowing the polaroids out of your hand and onto the street. You hastily run out to the street, picking up each and every piece of flying polaroid. The deafening honk of a car was the last thing you heard before the vehicle plunged at you. Your vision started to blur as the red liquid gushed out of you, forming a puddle on the pavement and drenching the pieces of polaroid you are clutching. His smile was the last thing that flashes in your mind as you breath out your last breathe.

Sobs and choking sorries echoed in the green cemetery, grey skies clouded over the sombre scenery. Bouquets of flowers were placed in front of the stone slab with your name written across, the photography club members were all there including the graduated members were there comforting each other. But Yuta was missing, he was nowhere to be seen, the members tried to contact him but to no avail. "There's nothing we can do now, let's just hope Y/N rest in peace." Taeil comforted the members wiling his own tears away, "Yeh, all we can do is to be happy so Y/N can be happy watching us from above." Jaehyun choked out tears staining his face. Everyone said their last goodbye before leaving the flower filled grave.

A familiar figure appeared, he is dressed in a black vest holding a bouquet of red roses, your favourite flower. Yuta hasn't eaten nor sleep since the news of your accident broke out, he didn't cry, he couldn't. It's like the world went black, he refused to believe that you are gone, you meant everything to him and more. The thought of not seeing you ever again terrifies him, he tried to hold on to a small glimmer of hope that maybe this is just a cruel joke or a nightmare that he would wake up from. But it wasn't, you are gone now forever.The grey clouds grew heavy as cold rain started to fall, drenching Yuta in the stinging liquid. He fell down to the ground right in front of your grave and gently placed the rose bouquet next to all the flowers lying on the grass. "I lied Y/N." he muttered, "That night when you told me you like me, that was the happiest moment in my life." tears started to fall out of his eyes wetting his cheeks. "I love you, but I couldn't." he choked out harsh tears crashing to the ground, the pouring rain have masked his tears but he was crying.

Yuta was diagnosed with a chronic illness right after that summer festival, the world couldn't be crueler to him he thought. He couldn't love you, he knew he couldn't stay with you forever, he knew he would break your heart if he told you his feelings. So he hid it and lied, the lie that took you away from him. The doctor said he have a year but for him he died the moment the words left the doctor's lips. Your smile was the last thing he saw, before his lung also gave out and he collapsed onto the cold, wet ground.

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"It's all gonna be alright, I'm here"

YangYang X Reader

Genre: Zombie Apocalypse AU, Fluff, Angst?

Warnings: Blood, Gore, Swearing, Mentions of abuse

"Shit" you yelled as body came in contact with the ground results from the force of the bomb exploding. "They are really ready to roast this city huh." you thought, the government doesn't seem to mind the fact that people still exist in the city alongside with the zombies. Which are the product of a so called experiment to modify human genes, just to satisfy scientists' curiosity. The thirst that lead to soon destruction of not just hummanity but this whole earth, they only ever asked if they could do it but never stopped to think if they should and that leads to this. A zom freaking bie apocalypse, yes you heard that right what was once harmless fiction is now a nightmare people have to face on a daily basis.

"Oh lord! Y/N what the fuck just happened jesus" Kun ran to you hurriedly, his face contorted with worries. "Really, can't you tell? I just survived another bomb attack from our almighty government." Kun eyes traveled to your right leg where the flesh was ripped opened deep enough to show your bone. "What the hell happened to your leg?" Kun winced, and you flashed him a shit eating grin saying "Oh come on, you've seen my bones enough times to not be shock." Kun shaked his head disappointingly pulling out his first aid kid from his backpack. After bandaging your messed up leg and leading you back to an abandoned house, which is going to be your shed for some times, a day that is. You can't just stop, you have to be constantly moving from place to place picking up food and supplies on your way. Kun layed you down onto a couch and made sure that you were in a comfortable position before heading out. You drifted to sleep under the moonlight illuminating through the crevices of the boarded-up windows, wishing this is just a nightmare and you will wake up to the normal world before all of this resuming your carefree life. Your eyes fluttered shut as memories played in your mind like a movie.

"YangYang you scared me!" You gasped dramatically placing a hand on your chest as you twisted the door knob to close the front door. YangYang pulled you into a tight hug, you can't help but notice all the bruises and cuts littered all over his face and arms. "Did they hurt you again?" You asked, brows knitting you already know the answer and have seen him like this countless of times before but it still hurts you to see him battered up by his own family, people who are supposed to protect him not hurt him. "Well, that's why I'm here." He grinned scratching the back of his head nervously. "But it's ok, I'm fine. We're here now so do you wanna go?" He raised an eyebrow. You nodded firmly taking his outstretched hand, everytime you were with him it's as if time had stopped and all the worries faded away because in that moment in your own world it's only you and YangYang holding each other, drowning in love.

You picked up your pace as the rain is starting to fall, drops after drops of rain fell relentlessly onto your skin. The prickling sting of each drops of rain, the way the cold pierced through your skin, the way dampened clothes stick onto your skin is so vivid. It was freezing but you felt so warm as long as your hand is still in his, his grinning face as he turns around holding you tight running down the empty street etched into your mind.

YangYang pulled you into a playground, you crouched inside the small playhouse still soaking wet from the heavy rain. You sat there for a while, hands still intertwined staring out at the pouring rain. As time passed, the rain starts to calm little by little until it reduced to nothing. "The rain stopped!" You said smiling at YangYang, the rain had stopped but the wind grew larger and larger causing you to shivered as the cold intensified. YangYang pulled you into a tight warm embrace "But it's still cold, we should stay in here for a while." You nodded softly burrying your face into the crook of his neck.

The wind have dried your drenched self and its starting to get warmer, you took a deep breathe taking in his scent "I wish we can stay like this forever." he whispered. You whispered back a "Me too." before pulling away, he looks so ethereal under the moonlight you can't help but cup his face in your hands. "You look unreal." the words left your lips before you can even process what's happening, your cheeks turned bright red at the relisation of what you just said as his matches the shade of yours. His eyes widened as he whispers a small thanks, he quickly composed himself and pulled you out of the playhouse.

You adored the moon shining above, swinging your legs while sitting on a tree branch beside YangYang who was still holding your hand. You squeezed his hand turning to face him and said "It's all gonna be alright, I'm here" giving him a reassuring smile before resuming your gaze back onto the moon. He picked a flower from the tree and tucked it under your left ear, "You look prettier than the flower and even more with the flower!" YangYang exclaimed smilling widely at you. Your heart swelled up at his words and a smile stretched across your face, you gave him a tiny punch to his chest "Your such a sweet talker." you pouted. You sat and laughed on the tree fingers never leaving each other's reminiscing the nights where you would sneak out just like this and watch the sunrise. This night was like any others but little did you know it would be the last before the outbreak. As the sun slowly started to rise from the horizon, "Y/N." YangYang called you softly and looked at you with adoring eyes before he spoke again "Y/N, I love..." His voice faded away before he could complete the sentence, YangYang endearing smile is replaced by a scowling Kun.

Kun was restlessly pancing back and forth, contemplating on whether to wake you up or not. You were badly injured yesterday and needed to rest but the zombies won't rest. You opened your eyes to Kun face hovering over yours, his knitting brows relaxed. "We gotta get moving Y/N, the zombies were bombed yesterday but more is coming." Kun sighed, handing you your bag filled with water and canned food he had scavenged last night. You lifted up your shotgun to check if it's loaded, of course it is Kun is the most cautious person you've ever known, he probably checked the guns at least 3 times.

You swinged the bag over your shoulder as you stood up completely forgetting about your right leg. "Ouch!" you yelped as the pain from your leg shoots up to your head. Kun rushed over to your side settling you back down to the couch. The force from standing up abruptly must have opened up the wound as your leg is bleeding through the bandage. "The bandage needed to be change either ways." Kun said wrapping up your leg with new bandage, "Done!" he exclaimed, you replied with a "Thank you." and Kun waved it off with a smile.

"How are we going to run out of this city with this?" you gestured to your injured leg, "Ah, about that no worries. YangYang will pick us up." your heart skipped a beat at the mention of his name, the image of his warm smile and outstretched hand flowed into your mind. "YangYang?" you questioned, you haven't seen each other for months since your team splitted up to scavenge for supplies since it was running low and YangYang group ended up getting trapped in Minnesota. "They got out of Minnesota somehow, Xiaojun called me yesterday." Kun explained, "But how, didn't they closed the border?" you asked confused, "They probably blew up the border or something." he half joked, "That's a very YangYang and Hendery thing to do." you laughed.

The all too familiar growl and banging on the front door replaced the smile on your face with a serious expression. "Shit they must have smelt the blood" Kun clicked his toungue, but something is off. The zombies shouldn't be here right now, there is no way they could travelled such distance in just one night. Yesterday's explosion was large enough to cook all of the zombies in this city and possibly the one next to it. Based on the look on Kun's face you figured he must have known that this is not just those normal zombies that you are going to deal with, and normal zombies were enough to sends shivers down your spine. All the hairs on your body stood up, just the thought of evolved zombies knocked the air out of your lungs. "When did these little shits became pokemons?" you joked, cracking a smile from Kun, "Pokemons or not we still need to kick those little shits' asses don't we."

A swarm of mutant zombies barged in at the moment Kun twisted the doorknob, he stood behind the door and started to fire at the creatures with his riffle. They were much faster, more brutal and harder to kill that's for sure, confirming your earlier thoughts. It took not only one but double or triple shot right in the head to make the horrid creature crumble into a goey, bloody mess under Kun's feet. He was able to took down most of the zombies before they dashed to you at an inhuman pace, you aimed your shotgun right in front of the zombie's head before pulling the trigger and blasting it's head open. Kun reloaded his riffle and continued to shoot at the zombies at a relentless pace, a zombie managed to grab a hold of your right arm. You swiftly pulled out a knife from your pocket and stabbed right through it's skull as Kun blew up the last zombie's head that were heading towards you.

"Well, that was a workout." Kun huffed wiping the sweats on his forehead smearing the blood from his hand onto his head without even noticing. "You got something on your face Kun." you bursted out laughing, Kun's confused face didn't help as you were laughing so hard tears escaped your eyes. "Oh!" he gasped before pulling out a pack of wet tissue and wiped the blood of his face, hands and gun. He handed you the pack of wet tissues, you stifled out a "Thank you." still laughing and clutching your stomachache. "Oh come on, Y/N." Kun groaned, "I'm sorry." you huffed trying to stop the laugh but it's almost impossible.

Lucas poked his head out from the opened door, "Long time no see man!" he squealed running to you and Kun almost tripping on a zombie's blown-up brain. "That was close!" he yelped, staring wide-eyed at the pile of zombies, their guts and skull scattering everywhere on the floor. The scene earned a gag from Ten standing right behind Lucas, "Jesus you two did that? Alone?" Ten praised still gagging, Ten is ruthless in the battlefield and is one of the most skilled shooter in the State, chances of him dying from gagging at zombies corspes are even higher than being eaten by one. Lucas pouted shooting you a thumbs up with a big grin across his face, "Good job man!" he gave Kun and you each a pat on the back. "Um... are we going?" WinWin called from the van, "Yep!" Kun shouted and gestured to Lucas to lend him a hand. Kun and Lucas carried you into the van and settled you down into the back row. "Thank you!" you gave them a shining smile, "No problem." Lucas smiled back.

Your eyes lit up, your lips curled up into a smile as you threw your arms around YangYang's neck, his eyes crinkled into a crescent and the image of the outstretched grin on his face that is always on your mind now is staring right at you. YangYang gave a peck on your cheek, and pulled you into a suffocating hug "Ugh, get a room wouldn't you." Xiaojun shot you a disgusting look and dramatically gagged. "Are you jealous?" WinWin looked at Xiaojun suspiciously. YangYang reluctantly pulled away from the hug to let you breathe, the laughter grew louder and louder as everyone was making fun of Xiaojun's lonely status. Xiaojun would always say he just doesn't want to and if he did he would have 5 girlfriends at a time, no one believed in such a blatant lie of course. Sometimes you do feel bad for him, he's always known as the lonely nerd and girls wouldn't spare him a glance but it's always fun to tease Xiaojun.

YangYang snaked his arm through your back and pulled you to close the tiny distance between your bodies, smiling sweetly at you and tapped his shoulder instructing you to lean your head on his broad shoulder. You swear you could get diabetes someday because of his smile, you plugged in your earphone handing him to the other piece and played your favorite song. The song that you and YangYang would hum together sitting by the river with your feet dipped into the cool water and hands intertwined. The tune that the little boy with disheveled hair, bruised body, and the brightest smile would sing softly in a field of cattails by the flowing stream. The tune that led you to the little boy that is now holding you close and humming that same tune into your ear, patting your head softly and running his long fingers through your lushes locks. He intertwined his hand that was wrapped around your waist with yours, leaning onto your head and whispered "I love you" three words the left your heart hammered in your chest and joy to rush throughout your body. You closed your eyes and whispered an "I love you too." to YangYang, you can feel his smile with your eyes closed, he squeezed your hand reassuringly "It's gonna be alright, I'm here." were the last words you heard before drifting off into a deep slumber.

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