imatter2iexist

[imatter2iexist]

This is my 6th and last suicide attempt i will not let myself survive

I realize nobosy will rver be happy unless im dead

I dont deserve to be here I deserve to feel like this i did such horribpe things nobody will rver be happy unless im gone this pain will never. Ever stop. Its never going to stop.

It doesn't matter how hard i try huets it hurts hurts IT HURTS I CANT I can't do it there is no escape, there is no way to fix anything, there's nothing I can do about what ive done, I deserved every bit of it and you wont have to hear my bullshit anymore. I tried so hard and it doesn't matter. Its never going to stop

I can't anymore..I cant anymore. I cant anymore

Gonna try and remember to post on tumblr pls bare with me as I figure this out

Queueing up some older art, starting with this cynonari doodle…in my head it was meant to be their first kiss during their akademiya days :3

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 8 - Quetzalcoatl

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 9 - Cyclops

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 11 - Kamaitachi

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 16 - Bake-kujira

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 21 - Basilisk

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 27 - Chupacabra

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 4 - Mexico

Muertaposa, the Monarch Pokémon | Bug/Ghost

“They are rumored to travel between the world of the living and dead. Their wings carry coded messages to loved ones lost long ago.”

Inspired by monarch butterflies and the day of the dead (with some death’s head hawkmoth in there too).

More info on the 2020 Fakeathon here!

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 7 - Spain

Guelleon, the Mosaic Pokémon | Psychic/Poison

“A single lash of its poisonous tongue can put an adult to sleep and cause strange dream visions. Some people seek it out for this exact reason.” Based on the famous sculpture, “El Drac” by Antoni Gaudi, an iconic symbol of Barcelona.

More info on the 2020 Fakeathon here!

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Fakeathon Day 9 - Italy

Davinchip, the Wingmaker Pokémon | Normal/Flying

“It is born with an unshakable need to fly. It crafts makeshift wings using whatever materials it can find and uses them to get airborne for a short while.”

Ability: Fragile Wings - On taking damage, this Pokémon’s wings break and it loses its Flying type.

Based on Leonardo Da Vinci

More on the 2020 Fakeathon here!

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Dirtquatro sprite by @oripoke :V

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Faketober Day 02 - Patchwork

Brokenstein [ghost] The Discarded Pokémon

“A failed experiment that was discarded by its creator. Its body appears to have been stitched together from various parts.”

Designed in 2020 in a collab with @qamorfakemon! This little guy is the starter Pokemon for players in the Borovia region on Pokéngine. Though he may look small now, he has a secret!

Click here for more about the Faketober challenge!

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

Faketober Day 01 - Witch

Wizkit [fairy/psychic] The Familiar Pokémon

“It levitates a short distance above the ground on its broom-like tail. It casts good-luck charms on its friends and curses on its enemies.”

Inspiration: black cat, witches, Cait Sidhe

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

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[imatter2iexist]

@oripoke @bo-beanies Your "arr oh my god I have to post a thing..." the privelege on that...WTF...when you morally agreed and understand how i was being mistreated was wrong, but you backpedal and change your mind for no other reason than personal gain. Do you have any idea what you put me through. Do you have any idea what ive had to endure? Conditions no human being should EVER have to endure, especially not while being abused, and entirely alone

Why did you fill my head with things like. Friends are there for each other. And that im cared about. Why did you give me so much hope and trust to hold onto for the first time ever in my life, if none of it was true? I'd have done for it you. I'd talk to you, id have helped how i could. Instead. You couldn't just be a good person. You couldnt just be a good friend..you were just a bully at every turn, no matter how hard I tried, you used and mocked and abused and controlled. Is this some kind of joke to you? My health and safety is something for you to mock like pea, lmaaaooo what a loser, he couldn't control it for a single day lmaaaaoooo!! As if i dont have a crippling disorder i had no say in having. Do you know what causes it? Fucking childhood abuse. Ive only ever known pain and abuse, and you pretended to be good people, just to abuse me MORE?

I was/am sick. I deserved support like you, instead you controlled and abused me. You arent upset about what you did; you're upset about how I reacted to it. Spoiler: intense trauma to a person causes them to be upset. NONE of you helped me, it was too much of a nuisance to message me for five god damn minutes and explain whats going on, because i am fucking autistic and did NOT. UNDERSTAND. You caused me SERIOUS bodily harm, left me on the streets, stole my savings, cost me my cat..some parts of my person I can NEVER get back. While I was starving, you were partying and going to more cons, like what happened was nothing to you, like i was garbage, no apologies, no accountability, no nothing, you just circle jerk each other and justify that because i was yelling (in pain) it was therefore OK how you abused me. Yeah, i shouted some horrible shit. But i didnt ruin anyones fucking life or health or safety?! It was FUCKED up what you did. And you're on Twitter posting about my life and my safety, that YOU destroyed, like its a cute little thing or something? You think what you did is hilarious, some kind of sick joke?!

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