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My rainbow baby is 6 weeks!

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Could we have anymore bad luck?

In August we found out a surrogate picked us. We spent months building a relationship with her and today she backed out.

December 1st is going on my shit list of days.

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2 more days and it will be the due date. I feel like I want to scream and cry. I should be excited with anticipation of getting to meet this baby. Instead life just goes on.

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Today you would have been 6. We would be celebrating you as this would of been your last birthday as an only child. We would be preparing for the new baby that was due in 9 days.

But here we are without you and without a new baby.

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Miscarriage

And it’s over.

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3412

The hospital called to do a follow up from Saturday. They advised that my HCG was 3412 on Saturday. 💕❤️💕

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November 30th

6 years ago we found out the baby was ectopic and had to terminate the pregnancy. Worst night of our lives.

Last night, I started bleeding. 5 weeks 3 days pregnant. Is this a cruel joke? We went to the hospital but they couldn’t really do much. Now I have to wait to follow up with my clinic.

Please don’t let this baby be ectopic also. 😪

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1746

My new favourite number. Grow baby grow.

We have our first ultrasound on Dec 5.

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It’s 2nd Beta Day!!!

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909

My new favourite number. That was my new beta today. One more blood test to go to make sure the number doubles.

Is this happening???

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HCG Level

Today marks 11 days past our first transfer.

My HCG is just over 200.

Literally crying here. One step closer to my rainbow baby.

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Beta tomorrow. Fingers crossed 🤞

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Can’t wait till Friday to do my bloodwork. Is this actually happening?!?!

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Still a line!!!

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Still showing positive today

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Line????

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No sign of baby yet. Still early but so anxious.