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Old Coco sketches I forgot about!

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Bury Me At Makeout Creek, Mitski

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Apparently I wrote this long ass poem while suuuuper drunk and did not remember doing it until I found it in my google docs titled FLOATING DEATH SKULL, SALT RIM which I think is very fun what a nice little surprise for sober me

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aaron taylor-johnson  as tangerine in bullet train (2022)

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Insta-blocking anyone saying that it was "out of character" for Joe to cave and go see Booker lmao.

I said it then and I will say it now: People who thought Joe was angrier at Booker than Nicky in the first movie flatly were not paying attention to their characterizations, their acting, or anything else they said or did in relation to Book outside of the scene in the lab.

Yes, it is in character. You just weren't paying attention at all.

Throughout the first movie, Joe expresses anger in one of two ways:

With a joke ("The shoes were a particularly gruesome touch." "He thinks you're a mouse, Nicky." "This is a nice plane...Champagne?")

With a very calm deadpan expression. (*Spits out bullet.* "Very pissed off..." "You killed Nicky. You shouldn't have done that." *Brutally kills Keane by breaking his neck on his own weight.*)

When he is yelling at Booker, he is hurt. That is why he's yelling. That's why he's throwing unnecessary insults. I'm sure he's angry too but the dominant emotion he is feeling in that scene is pain.

But at the end of the movie, when they are all facing Booker on the pier, about to leave, Joe hesitates to leave. He wears the most anguished expression. It's only once Booker nods, as if to give him permission to leave him behind, that Joe turns around and walks away.

Nicky, on the other hand, expresses his anger by:

Refusing to speak/acknowledge the source of his anger (Merrick: "Lear?" Nicky: No response. )

A joke, assuming he can riff off of Joe ("I don't suppose you could remove these handcuffs." "There's a TV joe.")

A scathing criticism ("We are usually a better judge of character." "A fine justification. I have heard it so many times before." "As is yours.")

A glare (He glares at Merrick when he stabs joe with the envelope opener.)

In the lab, Nicky won't look at Booker. He doesn't speak to Booker for the rest of the movie. He tells Joe to stop yelling at Booker, not because he's defending Booker, but because he expresses anger through refusing to acknowledge the source of his anger and wants Joe to do the same. Booker is not worth their energy. Booker is already dead to him. Booker might as well not even be in the room. Booker who?

When they're on the pier, Nick glares coldly at Booker and then he's the first to leave.

It even makes sense when you consider their pasts. Nicky was a priest, first of all. Nicky joined a crusade and likely killed innocent people out of hate and a millennia later has to live with that on his conscience.

Joe forgave and fell in love with the very man who joined a war specifically to slaughter his people.

It makes sense if Nicky is the type of character who does not forgive easily. It makes sense if he believes in penance. It makes sense if he holds Booker to a high standard, because he holds himself to a high standard. In one of the comics, it's made clear that Nicky kills in part to punish. While I don't think that's made as textually present in the movies, it makes sense if that's still true to a certain extent.

And it also makes sense if Joe is the type of character who forgives easily. If he sees the best in people. How else could he ever have fallen for Nicky after what he did? And in the comics, it's made clear that Joe kills to prevent further harm. If we apply that same thinking to Booker, it makes sense if Joe is thinking that Booker already learned his lesson - so what is the exile doing other than torturing him?

It also works with their personalities. Nicky is understated. His expressions are subtle. Joe is impassioned, his face an open book, his heart on his sleeve. Joe is the sun, Nicky is the moon. Joe runs hot but douses easily, Nicky runs cold and melts slowly...

Cannot stress enough how absolutely in character it is that even though Joe was the most vocally and visibly upset when Booker betrayed them, that he is also the one who can't bear the thought of Booker being alone, or how absolutely in character it is that even though Nicky didn't say anything, didn't hardly react to Booker's betrayal, he was able to cut Booker off with ease, and is frustrated that Joe could so easily go back to someone who hurt him so deeply.

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online gf vs offline gf

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Me after TOG 2

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Cast Outfits!

Just thought I'd compile all of them. Whose style do you like best?

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I USED TO HAVE HOOP DREAMS TILL I FOUND OUT THERE WERE 𝑂𝑇𝐻𝐸𝑅 𝑊𝐴𝑌𝑆 𝑇𝑂 𝑆𝐶𝑂𝑅𝐸... 👅 IF YOU'RE GONNA BE MY 𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇 YOU HAVE TO BE OBEDIENT YOU CANNOT BE A WHORE.

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to isolate myself before others could exclude me

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THE OLD GUARD 2 (2025)

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the single most unrealistic thing about the old guard 2 is that nile freeman didn't look tuah right in the eye with the most unimpressed look mankind has ever seen and said "like the fucking app?" when he told them the villain's name is discord

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THE OLD GUARD 2 (2025) | foreplay

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Been thinking about this all day, and I think the main thing this movie failed to understand about itself is this: the immortality was supposed to be the premise, not the plot.

Like, the immortality piece fuels the villains in the first film, but the unknowability of it is part of the point. It’s a dreadful curse, to outlive all your loved ones. Or, it’s a powerful gift, to grow and nurture a relationship for centuries on end. Or, it’s a complicated responsibility, a way you are uniquely positioned to help make the world a better place, and how much of that mantle should you take on? It’s the premise, the vessel through which the themes and characters can be explored.

The point was never to find out the “rules” and drop a bunch of lore about it. This movie took the premise and made it the plot, and that I think was its cardinal mistake.