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Don't attack me bro ... although my daydream universe is everything I could ever dream of and more, not much need for the 'real world' lol.

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Jaime x Ter - Dos Nerds Enamorados 🇪🇸

"Una relación de pareja solo tiene sentido como un vínculo de ayuda mutua " - Jaime Altozano

Recuerdo cuando encontré el video de Jaime y Ter rompieron entre ellos y fui en "eskoc" cómo Auron le diría jeje. Pero en serio, eso me tomó completamente desprevenido porque, sinceramente, no esperaba que se separaran (o incluso nunca). Eran una gran pareja y es una pena que sus vidas ahora vayan en direcciones separadas, aunque espero que sea lo mejor. Recuerdo haber pensado en broma "El amor es falso" porque, por supuesto, la única pareja cuya relación esperaba que durara hasta el final (y una de las pocas que realmente me importaban una mierda) terminó separándose debido a conflictos de intereses entre los dos.

Pero ya ni me sorprende la ironía lol. Típico… Pero al menos disfrutaron de la compañía del otro mientras duró y brindaron a sus audiencias contenido adorable y saludable durante los últimos años.

Al menos finalmente tengo una razón para publicar esta foto tan linda de ellos que encontré hace meses lol. Además de la edición hecha por fans que hice y que se publicará más tarde hoy.

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tbh though ... but I'm not interested in lowering my self-esteem some more considering how stagnant it's been lately anyway lol But as a creator, I'm still gonna reupload most of my old videos onto my new youtube channel (in addition to posting new content) so I guess that's the closest to one-downing myself, especially given the lack of enthusiasm and bit of dread knowing that I have to fix up and repost them cuz they weren't good enough the first time ...

as a creator you shouldn’t have to feel like you constantly gotta one-up yourself. consider one-downing yourself instead. keep producing worse content to make your previous work look great by comparison

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This has pretty much been me every day. I’ve decided to start focusing more on my new yt channel even if it means working late at night lol. Although I guess I don't completely mind, since I'd rather make tumblr posts at home instead in public anyway.

“I have so much to do” *collapses on bed*

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What ? I was just treating myself, I deserve it ! But honestly, I could really use one right now ... tired of the same old shit. Speaking of which, I really need to go and see what the state of my bank account is lol. I haven't been able to get to it lately, mostly due to my crippling anxiety but also because I kinda don't want to know lol. I'm not sure if I even have any money there ... Schrodinger's Bank Account : Do I have money or not ? Only one way to find out !

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It's the part where I have to save yet constantly feel like I'm missing out on so many things that I don't have access to (that I could have if I had money !). There's apparently this Greek expression that says "Poverty desires taste" that I read from some Reddit comment (which at the moment I can't seem to find the source of it online lol). But regardless of whether it's real or not, it still holds true though. I mean sure, maybe I could save what little money I have for a "raining day" as I see my life going by without me. Or I could just spend it now while I have the opportunity and enjoy the present while I still have the opportunity. But I suppose that's how the poor stay 'poor' though ; you can't move forward if you don't have shit to begin with.

what part of “do not spend money” do i not understand

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Making tumblr posts is better when you finally let go of the need to please others, like you’ve been depriving yourself of a good time because you cared too much about fuckers not reblogging your cringe hot takes on main or whatever.

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i may be terminally online but at least i have fun and curate my experience to cater to my interests and don't intentionally seek out things that will make me feel worse and don't take out my personal issues on strangers on the internet

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whatever *becomes weirder out of spite*

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Hola, he vuelto :v

Oh look who came back crawling like a cockroach … it’s me !

Well, I wasn’t expecting to see myself back on this hellsite … and it hasn’t even been half a year ! 

Oh well, there are worst things in life. Anyway, now that I’m back and cringier than ever, might as well start this off by saying : ugh.

First starters, I initially created another account so I could transfer sound side blogs somewhere else since I wanted to officially archive my old blog and put the past in the past. But I do have some original memes I’d like to post somewhere that feels socially acceptable (because the community tab on my old Youtube channel sure as shit ain’t gonna work now, not that it ever would’ve anyway), and maybe reblog some posts here and there. Ultimately, I want this new account to serve as a place of “starting fresh”, even if temporary. 

I don’t even remember what my first post here was though, assuming it wasn’t just a reblog of some random meme or something lol. Anyway, I guess this will be my first post here. Off to a great start.