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#𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑶𝑺𝑺𝑰𝑩𝑳𝑪. a study in echoes , wanderlust , && perhaps a bit of a savior's complex . as written by dust . 𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒔. gdoc (tba) ; promo (tba) ; memes (tba) ; main blog ; multimuse

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I know everyone's saying that come season 3 we'll have a kiss in 1941, but I'm still on the side of them having an almost kiss in 1941. It's probably because I love pain but imagine them after they get rid of the Nazi zombies for good, saving each other's lives in the process, they're in the bookshop talking as they usually do. Imagine the hour growing late, Crowley standing from his place on the couch to leave. Aziraphale walks him to the door, and there's just this moment that passes between them. Crowley's hand on the doorknob, and they aren't saying anything, but this time, they don't have to. I don't want to leave but I have to. Thank you for saving my life. I'm so relieved I was able to save yours. If anything happened to you, I'd... and they're just right there. So close. The last time an angel and a demon were this close to each other, it was in battle. But not here, not in this bookshop. Not with this angel and this demon. There's something else here. One day, when they have the freedom to allow themselves the thought, they'll call it love. But today... Aziraphale steps away.

"Why not?" Crowley whispers.

Aziraphale shakes his head at the ground, before looking back up into the curious, desperate, beautiful yellow eyes hidden behind Crowley's glasses.

"I can't," Aziraphale whispers back, something desperate painting itself deep in his eyes.

Crowley nods, reaching behind him for his hat hanging on the hat stand and placing it low on his head. Turning the doorknob, he gives Aziraphale a small bow and leaves.

It won't be until 1967 that Aziraphale finally finds the strength and the words to truly answer Crowley's question.

"You go too fast for me, Crowley."

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stress out? no. stress in. internalize that shit and tell no one.

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PROMPTS FROM ANGELS IN AMERICA *  assorted dialogue from the play by tony kushner, adjust as necessary

in your experience of the world, how do people change?

we can't even talk about that.

i usually say fuck the truth, but mostly the truth fucks you.

i dreamed we were there.

i looked for you. i've been everywhere.

well, that's a stupid thing to do.

can you tell me where i am?

i'm gonna have a baby.

can i come with you? this isn't working anymore.

you fell out of love with me.

i have emotional problems.

now we both have a secret.

i burned dinner.

if you have something you want to ask me, ask me!

it was a joke.

i'm a shell. there's nothing left to kill.

i go there all the time. free movies.

i think if you touch me, your hand might fall off or something.

i don't know what will happen to me without you.

that's not purple. that color up there is mauve.

i never imagined losing my mind was going to be such hard work.

the body is the garden of the soul.

for god's sake, there's nothing left.

i've lived through such terrible times.

i have always depended on the kindness of strangers.

you do not live in america.

i can't. i'm scared of you.

how on earth did you know?

there are no gods here.

he loves... but his love is worth nothing.

it's like throwing darts at a glob of jello. there's no satisfying hits.

death usually has to take life away.

if i can find hope anywhere, that's it, that's the best i can do.

it's so inadequate.

worse things have happened to people who have touched me.

i want more life.

will the past release us?

you are amazingly unhappy.

we won't die secret deaths anymore.

you can't live in the world without an idea of the world, but it's living that makes the ideas.

the world only spins forward.

sorry, wrong room.

the time has come.

you only think you know all i know.

are we doomed?

you are fabulous creatures, each and every one.

i hate america. i hate this country.

it isn't easy. it doesn't count if it's easy.

stop it! stop it! i'm warning you!

what do you want from me?

you didn't have to do that.

only you love me. out of everyone in the world.

you're a battered heart, bleeding life in the universe of wounds.

it's no fun picking on you. you're so guilty.

i don't even know what all i know.

that was deliberate.

maybe a queen can forgive her vanquished foe.

it can be very hard to accept how disappointing life is, because that's what it is, and you have to accept it.

i live in america, that's hard enough.

you have to keep asking.

i don't have to love it.

i wish i could go traveling.

there's something creepy about this place.

everybody's got to love something.

no such place exists.

you'll find, my friend, that what you love will take you places you never dreamed you'd go.

i think i have a copy.

god won't talk to me. i have to make up people to talk to me.

half the time i just make it up, and it still turns out to be true.

good. i was worried it'd be a garden. i hate that shit.

i don't understand why i'm not dead. when your heart breaks, you should die.

one wants... but one so seldom gets what one wants.

life is confusing enough.

in the new century, i think we will all be insane.

that's how people change.

you reach a point where... the disappointment doesn't hurt as much, and then it gets easy to live with. quite easy.

i'd even pray for you.

so what the fuck is the matter with me?

we won't die secret deaths anymore.

don't you think it's depressing?

it's all been done before.

this is why, [name]. this is why i shouldn't be left alone.

you wanna destroy me, but i am not gonna let you do that.

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Your “guardian angel” is actually a demon that protects you and hurts people that are mean to you.

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finally got my theme updated & looking nice. just gotta work on the gdoc now... ugh

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will you just let me be silly for a sec. there's this dread so ancient in me

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"who fell first who fell harder" i actually need them both to be down horrendously bad for each other. hope that helps

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                         I had all 

                                  &&  then most of you 

                                           s o m e 

                                                    &&  now… none of you

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soz i've been quiet here over the past week, my mind's been so gd scattered, ugh... here's hoping i can work on replies and asks and such this coming week!

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➥ @ineffablexangel "The Incident" in question being either a point of contention between them or the funniest fucking thing that ever happened, but either way they never elaborate in mixed company.

plot twist: it's both, and they overdramatically twist the story in either a hilarious or negative light depending on whether or not they're arguing

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"old friends" is an underrated relationship dynamic because it's such an innocent boring sounding term for what is usually some of the wildest shit imaginable. it's always like 'oh yeah we go way back, we have history' and then you find out that history includes sex, drugs, murder, divorce, war crimes and The Incident

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── ˗ˏˋ “ Right, you never really were into suggestion boxes. ” He'll ignore the commentary on that movie― always had a hard time paying attention to those. “ For starters, you flooded the entire planet for forty days, and for what― ” Even just at the beginning of his ramble, Crowley stops cold. “ ...Hold on, what d'you mean, not happened yet? What else could possibly happen to me? ”

"In general, I think I already know the answer for you. Unless that's not happened yet." Had it? "I'm scatter brained; everything's everywhere all at once. Like the movie. But - well, actually, exactly like the movie. If the movie shifted perspective and--" She's talking too fast, and she stops; breathes, and motions to Crowley. "No suggestion box, just your opinion."

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── ˗ˏˋ What a question. “ I‒ Nchk‒ What, to me? Or in gen'ral? ” He can't deny that he's got an answer for both. “ Have you finally decided to put up a suggestion box, then? Kinda seems a little late for all that. ”

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There's a beat. A pause, as if she's processing something. "I can't tell if I should be happy that I am not that .. or scared that I am. Crowley-" And she turns, to look at him. "In your own opinion, what is the worst thing I have ever done?"

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── ˗ˏˋ “ Well, don't look at me. I didn't do anything this time. ”

"Oh, shit."

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with the reintroduction of the gomens fandom i also kinda wanna reintroduce balam.....

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sometimes i feel like i was born with a ｌｅａｋ and any 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓃𝑒𝓈𝓈 i started with just slowly sᴘɪʟʟᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ of me

               and now it’s all 𝙶𝙾𝙽𝙴

                                                  and i’ll 𝕟𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 get it back in me