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“I choose to love you in silence because in silence I find no rejection, and in silence no one owns you but me.”

— Rumi

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One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

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that Little Prince passage about taming ("To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world") hits different with exotic and "pest" pets

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@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

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Hii, i hope you're doing well.

May i please join this game? This is so inspired by one of your posts, but i would love to know how my future spouse would act around me!

I feel like you're definitely into manifesting, especially LOA because in one of yours posts you were only you are in control of your life/reality and that's a loa lingo haha

My initials are MK! Thank you.

OOP - you def got me there sis omgg i love love love LOA it’s my life 😍😍 good on you MK ! thank you for joining my game plz enjoy your reading!! and thank you for liking my pacs 🥹🎀

how they will act around you 🦋

it’s giving golden retriever energy!they get excited just being around you ! they love being around you literally no matter what you’re doing they want to be apart of if no matter if you’re going to the grocery store or even to the bathroom they want to be attached to you like glue ! they are addicted to you MK ! and they can’t get enough of being in your aura. they act super clingy and hug -y around you they love kissing you and showing the world that you’re theirs. def hella possessive energy 😍

for paid private readings dm me 💘

3 questions - $20

6 questions - $30

long channeled message - $90

plzzz no questions about health or death ☠️

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Congratulations on 500! My assumption of you is: I feel like you’re a diva in the best way. A baddie.

What is my future husband’s appearance?

hiii !! thank you so much! your assumption is hella correct and idk why but i read this in spencer reid’s voice 😭😭

your FS looks:

- short fluffy hair like to his ears it’s flowing tho, he may have facial hair like a beard, tan skin like def a POC , he’s hella tall, he has broad shoulders so he’s hella built

sorta like him but not white lol

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💘500 ask game💘!

thank u thank u so much for 500 followers it’s crazy how i gained so much so fast for just doing something i love ! i appreciate every single one of you more than you know 💗 😭

❣️ PLEASE READ ALL THE RULES ! ILL HAVE TO DELETE YOUR ASK IF YOU DON’T 😢

1.) follow me and like and reblog my last two readings AND THIS POST

2.) make an assumption about me w ur ask (be fun AND nice w it tho :) )

3.) this is a future spouse game BUT you can send me any ONE question you have and i will respond with a tarot message (i will try to respond as soon as i can so please be patient w me)

for paid private readings dm me 💘

3 questions - $20

6 questions - $30

long channeled message - $90

plzzz no questions about health or death ☠️

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Tarot/Oracle/Intuition masterlist:

Games:-

Intuitive moodboard game - CLOSE

Future Spouse Love Language - OPEN

Aesthetic moodboard game - OPEN

Spirit Animal & mythical creature quiz - CLOSE

Intuition level test game - OPEN

Tarot yes/no game - CLOSE

PACs:-

Self care (2022 edition)

Angel answers

Channelled quotes from FS/FP

Where your someone special is from/living

Timing PAC

Crush on you

Yes/no PAC {Jan-Mar, 2024}

Random things about ur FS #1

And more.

PAPs :-

Means Pick A Pic.

I'll will post imaginative stories/names (etc.) based on handmade paper chits. (similar to PAC).

Which Disney princess you are??

Idle Ice-cream flavours

Wedding outfits

Beautiful Princess / Handsome Knight {Jan-April}

Which country you should visit (coming soon)

And more.

Main intro page

K-pop navigation page

With love,

-SP 🥰💐

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Physical Features of Future Spouse

&

Shipping with ur Idol

{Will be edited tomorrow, you can still send asks}

2 Games in 1 post

Read the post carefully & completely before sending ur ask.

Rules:

Follow me

Like this post

Reblog this post, my reading m.list & my k-pop m.list

You can participate in both games, but send different asks for them.

1 ask per person (for each game).

No Anons

Follow all the rules.

1) Physical Features of Future Spouse:

I posted the PAC on same topic earlier, but I accidentally deleted it right after posting it.

In this game, I'm going to tell you about ur Future Spouse's physical features

I will tell you as much information as I get.

I will be using my intuition along with physical features oracle deck.

Exchange:

Pics that will describe my vibes or aesthetic

Ask format:

Ur initials/nickname

Gender preference

Emoji: 🌈 (only this one)

Exchange

(Read the rules above, before sending ur ask)

2) Shipping with ur Idol:

In this game, I will ship you with a member of ur chosen group(s).

You can ask for more than 1 group in the same ask.

Groups you can choose: Enhypen, TXT, Stray Kids, Ateez, BTS, Blackpink, ITZY, Le Sserafim...

(These are the groups that I'm completely familiar with. You can ask for other groups too, but it will not be accurate from my side. I will try my best to get familiar with those groups.)

Exchange:

Ship me with a member of the each group(s) you want to be shipped with.

Ask format:

Ur initials/nickname

Include some images to describe ur aesthetic

Emoji: 🫧 (only this one)

Exchange

(Read the rules above, before sending ur ask)

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“You sensed that you should be following a different path, a more ambitious one, you felt that you were destined for other things but you had no idea how to achieve them and in your misery, you began to hate everything around you.”

― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Netochka Nezvanova

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before you reach out to someone you miss, remember why they’re not there anymore. understand the possible consequences of reopening that door. it’s easy to impulsively run back to something that feels so familiar. but not every door is worth reopening.

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What Kind Of Love Do You Need?

Hi, Hexlings!

This pick-a-card reading is a Patreon All Tiers reading about what kind of love do you need. This can be romantic, self-love, platonic, or even familial.

This is a general reading, remember to take what resonates and leave what does not. This reading does not supplement your need to seek professional help.

Take your time when choosing your pile. Ask yourself the question and choose the picture that you can’t stop looking at. Listen to your intuition.

Extended Patreon Includes:

How will this love change your life?

Extra Messages

MasterList

Patreon Link

Ko-Fi Donations

Pile l:

What kind of love do you need? Tarot: The Lovers, Ace of Cups, Ace of Pentacles, 6 of Wands, Hanged Man, & Page of Swords.

Romantic. "I want a real love, dark-skinned and Aunt Viv love, [Redacted Part Of Song], That leave a toothbrush at your crib love, And you ain't gotta wonder whether that's your kid love"- J.Cole & Real Love by Mary J. Blige played in my head as I was shuffling pile l. You are in need of a healthy love. The kind of love where you both celebrate each other's wins and even losses, being each other's cheerleader, a shoulder to cry or lean on when life knocks you down, a love where there are no games just pure love, communication, and peace. There is a heavy sense of peace and fulfillment for you, with the kind of love you need. You probably have dated people who wanted nothing but to waste your time, and energy, or even unfortunately use you. You are now working on yourself and if you aren't I feel a glow-up is coming soon where you do work on yourself to help manifest this kind of love into your life because you want a partnership. A true soulmate that was ordained by stars (God, Allah, etc) themselves. There will be no confusion with this kind of love. I'm hearing Greenday- Broken Boulevard but only the part of " I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone" I feel for some of you those who aren't working on themselves yet you have some ways to go before this kind of love comes into your life. You may still be hurting from your previous relationship or if not still hurting you're in the energy of "Everybody ain't shit and you're better off alone." For others, it's not too far but it's also not going to show up tomorrow the window I am intuitively feeling is within the next two years. This is a long time coming for you pile l. I can feel it's something special. Patreon Post Link

Pile ll:

What kind of love do you need? Tarot: 5 of Pentacles, The Fool, The Hierophant, Ace of Cups, Awakening.

Self-Love. Singleness. Adventure. You are in desperate need of some self-love pile ll. You have been on a wild ride when it comes to allowing others into your life whether platonic or romantic and it's time for you to go into hermit mode for a while. The Tiktok audi "Be by yourself, get to know yourself" which is said in an island accent is coming to mind. You need to figure out who you are pile ll. I feel you have some sort of sense of who you are but you aren't sure if this is actually you or the you that has been crafted by social media, others and their idea of you, or your survival mode you where you crafted parts of yourself and chose the "safe" is to show others who don't like to see your full light because it dims there. There is also a need to let go of some people in your life. I didn't ask Spirit who because if this part resonates you should know. It's typically the first two names that popped in your head when you read the sentence but it's time to let go of people who are not good for you or add any kind of value to your life. Not only getting rid of people but getting rid of the old you. It's time for you to walk into a new light where you are glowing, thriving, and enjoying life how it is meant to be enjoyed instead of barely getting by day by day. You were meant to shine and not follow what everyone else is doing. You were meant to be authentic pile ll. Figure out who you are. Do things you never thought you would never enjoy and do them. Learn some new skills and hobbies. Take an Eat Pray Love trip even if it's just a trip to New York, Miami, Atlanta, Los Angeles, or even fucking Houston Texas if that is more your speed. Get out of your comfort zone. Shed your survival mode personality and shine. It's time for a new adventure. It's time to release this old story you keep playing over and over and start something fresh. What are you waiting for? Patreon Post Link

Pile lll:

What kind of love do you need? Tarot: 5 of Cups, Queen of Swords, 10 of Wands, Knight of Wands, 3 of Pentacles.

Friendship.Self-Care. There is this feeling that you pile lll are the type that likes to do everything themselves without bothering anyone. You may also like to say sorry a lot even when you didn't do anything as well as just not tell people how you are really feeling going through your struggles alone. Please stop. If you have people around you who truly care about your well-being please do let them know how you really are doing. There is nothing worse than having a friend going through things in silence and later on axe themselves off (speaking from experience). You do not have to suffer in silence pile lll. There are people in this world who would or do care about you and your well-being and want to take the load off of your shoulders. Stop being the strong independent cap that social media keeps trying to feed people with the whole grind and stay silent. Stay silent when it comes to goals until they happen, not your well-being. For others of you the kind of love you need is self-care other than taking better care of yourself this is more so having to do with your skills, abilities, and even your career. Some of you want to do more in your career whether it's at the job you are currently at, in the same field, or wanting to do something differently and this is the time to do so. Start learning and sharpening up your skills. Even sharpening up your mind whether it's reading more books maybe by Robert Greene on Mastery or Art of Seduction, learning languages, or whatever it is that you want to do to sharpen your mind ow is the time to do so. Patreon Post Link

Pile lV:

What kind of love do you need? Tarot: Ace of Swords, The Hermit, Awakening, Page of Cups, 3 of Cups

Singleness. Self Love. You may have been drawn to pile ll because they have received a similar reading to what your reading is about to hold on being by yourself, yours is just a little different. Pile ll reading was more so on finding themselves and getting to know themselves while your pile is more focused on loving yourself. Loving who you are and who you have become as a person because I feel a sense that it wasn't easy to become who you are today. You had to fight along the way to become the person you are because many people have probably tried to turn you hard, cold, assertive, or just overall mean and you had to fight to maintain a little bit of kindness, compassion, and some love you feel for others because you know that what others say and do to some people is not a reflection on you but them it's how you respond that is a reflection on you. This is a season of celebrating who you are and loving every inch of yourself. Whether you have body fat, a temper, watching weird shit, whatever it is that others try to put you down for and you somewhat have allowed to let those thoughts creep in this is your time to rebuke them and go forth in loving who you are and what you like. This is a time to go inward and really hone in the ability to not waver on what makes you you. Basically setting boundaries more so for yourself than for others while still remaining loving and kind to yourself. Your pile may also be a bit short like pile lll because it's quite straight to the point with no extra messages. The love you need is the love from yourself. Loving everything about you. Whether you hate your skin tone, voice, body, your interest, whatever it is embrace your flaws, embrace the many things people have been trying to put you down for, and let your beacon shine bright. You were meant to be who you are and nobody else. Don't let the ugliness of the world change who you are. Patreon Post Link

Thank you for liking and reblogging my readings. I always appreciate you guys on here and on Patreon.

Stay Safe and Be Blessed

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19:34 29/3/2024

Maybe when I say I want sex,maybe I mean the true intimacy of it.Because sex is a traumatic event,yet you expose yourself to it,why,it even triggers an immunde risk at times,yet we crave it and seek it.When I finally bare myself to someone that way,I hope it's someone who understands the sheer risk of it and even the intimacy of it all.When we open up our body to another,we expose ourselves to a million dangers and I hope it's someone who understands thay.

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I knew what the silence meant, and so did she. It meant that on an evening so calm, so iridescently blue, so full of the chink and chafe of insects and fat old dogs dragging their chains and belling in the neighbors' dooryards—in such a boundless and luminous evening, we would feel our proximity with our finer senses. As, for example, one of two, lying still in a dark room, knows when the other is awake.

– Marilynne Robinson, Housekeeping

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