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when the ao3 author is funny in the chapter notes and i get lowkey parasocial

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*After Regulus Faked his death in the cave and ran off*

James: Hey Reg- wait... um... is that your death certificate as your computer background?

Regulus: Yea, wait it gets better.

Regulus: *flips to next background to a picture of him crouching next to his headstone*

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rosekiller is this you

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Regulus: *wearing one of Sirius' old band tees*

Sirius: name 5 of their songs

Regulus:

Regulus: kill yourself

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Remus and Harry from chapter 14 of PoA

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James doing increasingly ridiculous jumps into the pool and Regulus going “that was so sick babe” every time because he is helplessly fond of this fool

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oh shit did you drop this?

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regular dorm activities

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"I'm too pretty for this" is a perfectly valid excuse for Sirius actually.

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Gray: Regulus

Blue: Evan

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JUST SAW A FED-EX DRIVER JUMP OUR OF HIS TRUCK AT A REDLIGHT AND RUN UP TO A SECOND FED-EX TRUCK (THREE CARS AHEAD) AND THE GUY LEANED OUT AND THEY JUST KISSED ON THE LIPS? HELLO?

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IM BACK! ✨🙇🏻‍♀️ I know lately I’ve been absent from my socials. And I’m preparing a content to talk a bit about this with open heart! I needed some time and that’s it. It was refreshing and so good for my mental health.  Briefly speaking, I was again entering on a exhaustion on making art everyday. And constantly doing it was turning really harmful for me. I was starting to get anxious, and with that a burned out sensation was starting to grow. And for a person that had a burn out stress over and over again, we start to be expert on this topic (sadly). After realizing that I might have a mental break over it I stepped back and took a time off. (Still was doing commissions)  Well, that’s it!  Hope you guys like this Sirius Black… kind of representing a bit of my art frustrations! 😂 and hope you guys don’t abandon me yet!

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sirius is so proud of himself after bagging the baddest baddie in the entire school (it’s remus. literally no one else thinks he’s bad.)

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regulus, barty, and evan being the hottest in their grade (they’ve each rejected at least 20 diff ppl)

also headcanon reg was probably always asked to model for the hogwarts school uniform

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don’t get me wrong, i LOVE crazy, intense, slightly psychotic rosekiller, but there’s something so precious to me about rosekiller where they are the only ones they can be soft and gentle around

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Collab with @spookeart for James’ birthday (I know it was ages ago now but shhhhhh okay 😅)

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Like a lot of other authors/content creators in the HP fandom, I am feeling a sense of heaviness over the rulings that happened in the UK and feel the need to speak on my (albeit very complicated) feelings.

What JKR is doing is terrible. It will ruin lives. It will end lives.

If you feel like that is being hyperbolic, please go look up the suicide rates for the trans community. It's a staggering number and it only grows as people seeking information, comfort, and support are locked out of proper resources due to heinous legislations like the one passed yesterday.

It saddens me too because I know that so many in the LGBTIQA+ have found characters/stories in the HP universe that have spoken to them and helped to understand their personal journeys---only to have that comfort ripped away by the very person who created them.

If you can permit me to be personal for a second: My brother is trans and before/during his transition (this was early 2010s) he always cited Remus Lupin as one of the foundations for coming to terms with his trans identity because he saw some of his own internal struggle in Lupin's character. He even went so far as to write a letter to JKR (which, thank GOD he never sent...) thanking her for creating a character that aided him with the complicated feelings he had when there were no other resources for him.

My brother is now a psychologist specializing in the young trans community and speaking to him recently, he has said that he comes across this same story constantly and each one ends in tragedy because that little piece of solace and comfort was not just taken from them, but told them that no, actually. You thought wrong to see yourself in this character. You don't matter.

Watching what happened yesterday and knowing the long history of bigotry JKR has spouted for years now weighs heavy on my heart every time I step into this fandom and often I question if I should still contribute to it. I know it's not much, but I would like to share some of the things that keep me going--even when it all looks really fucking bleak:

Fanfiction and fanart are, at their foundation, anticapitalist works--and can be used to fight JKR's agenda. By consuming fanfic/fanart zero money goes towards JKR. None. And further, JKR has no say in how you use her characters in these spaces. So, if you want to use these creative outlets to uplift trans voices, please do! Support trans writers/artists and urge them to PERSIST--because I promise you nothing is going to tick off the ole' bitch more than trans bodies/ trans supporters writing her characters.

Just because the writer is the devil, doesn't mean the art has to be. I won't go into the concept of "death of the author" because I think it can be pockmarked to hell with various examples, but what I DO subscribe to is that once the art is out in the world, it is now owned by the person who consumes it. To put it simply: when I read HP I am POSITIVE I imagine characters/settings differently than the person next to me. It's the beauty of the imagination: the creator can give us the blocks but how it is built is contingent on how WE perceive it.

Did I mention money? DON'T GIVE IT TO HER. Buy the books/movies second hand. Pirate the media you wish to consume around the fandom. Don't give her any reason to give any more hate funding and instead send that money to trans communities and groups who need it (they REALLY need it.)

Maybe I'm naive to say this, but I don't think interacting with the story as an art form is bad. She invented it, sure, but she isn't in charge of what goes on in my brain. If anything, this fandom NEEDS the trans community and supporters within it because not only can they push back, but they can educate those who otherwise are listening to the author. Don't let her win the space even though she's the author. It's no longer hers to have.

If you are someone who wants to leave the fandom because you can't bear to watch her continue to destroy it--I completely understand. But, as someone who has been in this fandom for over 20 years, the one thing I've learned is: besides monetarily she doesn't own shit. Don't let her take what you love from you and don't let her get away with scaring people out of their community spaces. Support and love our trans brothers and sisters and enjoy your HP despite it all. The things you love are worth fighting for.