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I want to write on this blog again SO BADLY

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“𝙏𝙊 𝘽𝙀 𝙈𝙄𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿” 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎.

basically i was rewatching a load of shows while i was sick for the last two weeks, and it just dawned on me how beautiful a notion it is to miss someone, or miss something? so before i go headfirst into the emotional motivation behind these prompts, i’ll post them, and hope you’re all having a fantastic week, and that you enjoy these prompts as much as i enjoyed writing them!

“ i miss you. “

“ i’ve missed you. “

“ i’ll miss you. “

“ you’re coming back, right? “

“ when will i see you again? “

“ please don’t go… “

“ i could go with you! “

“ when will you be back? “

“ you know you can’t come with me… “

“ i didn’t wanna leave without saying goodbye. “

“ i hate goodbyes… “

“ i’ll always find my way back to you. “

“ hey… no tears, alright? this isn’t goodbye. “

“ don’t leave me. “

“ i’ll see you soon, okay? i promise. “

“ this isn’t goodbye, you know. “

“ this isn’t goodbye. this is… until we meet again. “

“ i have to go now… “

“ were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? “

“ i don’t think i’ve ever missed anyone, or anything, the way that i miss you right now. “

“ hey, where’d you go? i was starting to miss you! “

“ why? do you miss me? “

“ stay with me… “

“ you know that i can’t stay here… “

“ what will i do without you? “

“ look outside your window… you see the sky? good. so do i. because we’re looking at the exact same sky right now, okay? so no matter where we are, or how far apart we are… we’ll always be underneath the same sky. so we’re not that far apart at all. “

“ i’m gonna miss you, you know. “

“ i didn’t expect myself to miss you as much as i do/did. “

“ i wish you were here. or i was there. just… i wish we were back together again. “

“ what’s it like over there? “

“ i couldn’t leave without seeing you again. “

“ if… if this is the last time i’ll ever see you, i need you to know… i have loved, and will never stop loving, you. you hear me? i love you. beyond whatever happens next. i love you. “

“ no matter where you are, where you go, where they take you… i will always find my way back to you. i promise. “

“ stop! stop lying! you left, and you’ve taken a part of me with you, so i want to know! i want… i deserve an answer. i deserve the truth! where are you? and why did you have to go there? “

“ i’ll hold you in my heart, until i can hold you in my arms. “

“ in case you ever foolishly forget; i am never not thinking of you. “

“ my heart never knew loneliness until you went away. i am missing you. “

and a few ACTION PROMPTS !

[ HUG ]:     sender, upon reuniting with the receiver after being apart for a lengthy duration of time, rushes over to them and pulls them into a tight, desperate, emotional embrace.

[ KISS ]:     sender, having just reunited with the receiver after being apart for a lengthy duration of time, catches them and pulls them in for a passionate, long-awaited kiss that tells all the things they’ve been bottling up in their absence.

[ FOREHEAD ]:     before parting ways, sender rests their forehead against the receiver’s, a possible final touch as they go their separate ways.

[ BURY ]:     before parting ways, sender pulls the receiver in for what they privately believe to be their final hug, giving them an embrace filled with heartache, desperation, and unspoken apologies.

[ GRAVE ]:     after going their separate ways, the receiver learns that the sender has died. upon travelling to their graveside, how do they respond to this tragedy?

[ COLLECT ]:      sender arrives at the airport/docks/other location to collect the receiver after being apart for a considerable length of time.

[ INTERVENE ]:     sender surprises the departing receiver by intervening before they leave, in the hopes of changing their mind.

[ REUNITE ]:     sender and receiver reunite after being apart for a long length of time.

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Anaïs Nin, from “The Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1939–1944“

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You were not happy last week! About anything.

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“𝙏𝙊 𝘽𝙀 𝙈𝙄𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿” 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎.

basically i was rewatching a load of shows while i was sick for the last two weeks, and it just dawned on me how beautiful a notion it is to miss someone, or miss something? so before i go headfirst into the emotional motivation behind these prompts, i’ll post them, and hope you’re all having a fantastic week, and that you enjoy these prompts as much as i enjoyed writing them!

“ i miss you. “

“ i’ve missed you. “

“ i’ll miss you. “

“ you’re coming back, right? “

“ when will i see you again? “

“ please don’t go… “

“ i could go with you! “

“ when will you be back? “

“ you know you can’t come with me… “

“ i didn’t wanna leave without saying goodbye. “

“ i hate goodbyes… “

“ i’ll always find my way back to you. “

“ hey… no tears, alright? this isn’t goodbye. “

“ don’t leave me. “

“ i’ll see you soon, okay? i promise. “

“ this isn’t goodbye, you know. “

“ this isn’t goodbye. this is… until we meet again. “

“ i have to go now… “

“ were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? “

“ i don’t think i’ve ever missed anyone, or anything, the way that i miss you right now. “

“ hey, where’d you go? i was starting to miss you! “

“ why? do you miss me? “

“ stay with me… “

“ you know that i can’t stay here… “

“ what will i do without you? “

“ look outside your window… you see the sky? good. so do i. because we’re looking at the exact same sky right now, okay? so no matter where we are, or how far apart we are… we’ll always be underneath the same sky. so we’re not that far apart at all. “

“ i’m gonna miss you, you know. “

“ i didn’t expect myself to miss you as much as i do/did. “

“ i wish you were here. or i was there. just… i wish we were back together again. “

“ what’s it like over there? “

“ i couldn’t leave without seeing you again. “

“ if… if this is the last time i’ll ever see you, i need you to know… i have loved, and will never stop loving, you. you hear me? i love you. beyond whatever happens next. i love you. “

“ no matter where you are, where you go, where they take you… i will always find my way back to you. i promise. “

“ stop! stop lying! you left, and you’ve taken a part of me with you, so i want to know! i want… i deserve an answer. i deserve the truth! where are you? and why did you have to go there? “

“ i’ll hold you in my heart, until i can hold you in my arms. “

“ in case you ever foolishly forget; i am never not thinking of you. “

“ my heart never knew loneliness until you went away. i am missing you. “

and a few ACTION PROMPTS !

[ HUG ]:     sender, upon reuniting with the receiver after being apart for a lengthy duration of time, rushes over to them and pulls them into a tight, desperate, emotional embrace.

[ KISS ]:     sender, having just reunited with the receiver after being apart for a lengthy duration of time, catches them and pulls them in for a passionate, long-awaited kiss that tells all the things they’ve been bottling up in their absence.

[ FOREHEAD ]:     before parting ways, sender rests their forehead against the receiver’s, a possible final touch as they go their separate ways.

[ BURY ]:     before parting ways, sender pulls the receiver in for what they privately believe to be their final hug, giving them an embrace filled with heartache, desperation, and unspoken apologies.

[ GRAVE ]:     after going their separate ways, the receiver learns that the sender has died. upon travelling to their graveside, how do they respond to this tragedy?

[ COLLECT ]:      sender arrives at the airport/docks/other location to collect the receiver after being apart for a considerable length of time.

[ INTERVENE ]:     sender surprises the departing receiver by intervening before they leave, in the hopes of changing their mind.

[ REUNITE ]:     sender and receiver reunite after being apart for a long length of time.

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I know I’ve been inactive on here and on @thebcstofus , life’s been a little hectic lately. I moved houses and I’ve been job hunting like wild. I do plan on coming back and writing soon though!

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new fc means linnea is canonically 5′4 now, who’s making the short jokes first

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new fc means linnea is canonically 5′4 now, who’s making the short jokes first

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not to be dramatic but ship with me

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Not many, or perhaps she was the only one ( besides Nikolai ), would find comfort in Zoya’s words. The queen was hardly a very warm person, this fact was well documented and wouldn’t even be disputed by the woman herself. But Linnea very rarely got intimidated by people, not without reason...and she didn’t find reason to be scared or put off by Zoya. “I’m Fjerdan, I grew up with the idea that fear is cowardly and nothing else.” She shrugged, though her words are evidence enough that she found little truth in the sentiment. “It’s silly that I’m a bit afraid of my own power, isn’t it?”

@ingenicr​ said: “ perhaps i am a little frightened… ” to ZOYA!

        “you would be a fool, if you were not.” there is the barest hint of a smile on the queen’s face, so faint it might well be missed. that linnea had admitted fear, to her, feels…strange. not uncomfortable, not unwelcome, but strange. she was the one with spines and scales, the general who had not been merciful when the squallers failed in training, who made them practice until they were near exhaustion. she was not the person other divulged fears to. (she had never wanted to be, but now…now, when everything was changing.)  “there is nothing cowardly in feeling fear,” she says, and though her words are crisp, her tone unflinching, it is not unfriendly. “but you cannot let it win.” 

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Midsommar (2019) dir. Ari Aster

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random writing prompts pt. i.

“ aw, that’s cute. did you think that i really loved you? “

“ i didn’t want to do this. but you betrayed my trust. “

“ this hurts me more than it will ever hurt you. “

“ you reap what you sow. “

“ what did i do? what’s so wrong with me that you can’t just love me? “

“ if nothing else, let’s make the most of being alive and together. “

“ i think i fall in love every day. “

“ i’ll save any life so long as it isn’t not my own. “

“ they didn’t bury you deep enough. “

“ my god, what’s become of you? “

“ enough of your games already. “

“ be careful what you wish for, ____. “

“ i know exactly what’s best for you. “

“ maybe if you weren’t so damn stubborn, we could get something done around here. “

“ you promised me. you promised. “

“ let’s play a game. it’ll be fun. “

“ if this is you when you’re calm, then i’m terrified of what you’re like when you’re actually upset. “

“ i didn’t mean to hurt anyone. i just wanted to help. “

“ i know i’m guilty. i am. i’m guilty. “

“ i don’t know what you want from me. i can’t fix you. “

“ it hurts, doesn’t it? i can make it hurt more. “

“ try not to get yourself killed or i’ll bring you back just to kill you again myself. “

“ you were the only person who understood me. you were my only friend. “

“ i know i shouldn’t care about what you do or who you do it with, but… i’m just—so lonely. “

“ you don’t know what you’re doing. you could kill someone. “

“ just let me help you. you don’t have to do this alone. “

“ aw, you’re no fun. no fun at all. “

“ you’re making me look like an idiot, i hope you know that. “

“ since when did you come back from the dead? “

“ i can rip you apart just as well as i can put you back together. “

“ there’s always something worth fighting for. “

“ pull yourself together, please. i can only afford one of us being a mess. “

“ stay with me. you’ll be fine. “

“ you clearly don’t belong here. “

“ you’re better off dead than alive, ____. “

“ do what you’ve been told. “

“ i can’t just sit around and let people get hurt. it’s my responsibility. “

“ you’re so busy taking care of everyone else that you can’t even take care of yourself! “

“ can i pay you to leave me alone? “

“ you’re running out of excuses and i’m running out of patience. “

“ is it really worth it? is all the blood and the death worth it? “

“ ____. you’re bleeding again. “

“ don’t act like you love me. “

“ i can’t feel anything. “

“ you’re going to tear yourself apart. “

“ i just want you to be safe. is that so much to ask for? “

“ i don’t think there is a right choice, just a choice you have to make. “

“ i could really hurt you, you know. “

“ am i even a person to you? “

“ you don’t even care. they’re just something for you to use and discard. “

“ don’t treat me like a child. “

“ i need to feel alive. “

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I generally have no fear about s&b but I DO worry that they're gonna have the crows do random shit for two seasons until they get to the ice court.

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more random dialogue prompts ,

“why do you have that look on your face?”

“finish what you’re doing, we have to talk.”

“what have you done to yourself?”

“did you do something different with your hair?”

“it doesn’t do any good to get worked up.”

“when was the last time we had a real conversation.”

“are you in the witness protection program, or what?”

“there’s something wrong with me.”

“no, i don’t hate you.”

“hey stupid.”

“we’re aren’t them.”

“looks like i’ll live long enough to make you pay.”

“you know you’re wrong.”

“i don’t understand, why are you doing this?”

“now, before i say anything, promise me you’ll stay calm.”

“what makes me so special?”

“you have no idea what i’ve been through.”

“you really don’t have to do that, not for me.”

“did you really think you’d get a second chance?”

"how about we don’t do that.”

“i have a lot going for me, but humility is not one of them.”

“you’re the worst.”

“i don’t need you right now.”

“don’t just stand there, looking at me.”

“i thought you were supposed to call me.”

“take my hand.”

“i need you.”

“you’re allowed to need help sometimes.”

“for someone who doesn’t like to feel things, you sure feel a lot of it out loud.”

“when this is all over, i want it to be you and me.”

“why won’t you tell me what happened?”

“you don’t know what this means to me.

“i know it doesn’t make sense.”

“i’m trying really hard to keep it together.”

“i know you’re new, but we do things a little differently here.”

“your voice is putting me to sleep.”

“did you find what you were looking for?”

"you knew and you didn’t even warn me?”

“well, i guess that’s broken.”

“i thought it was part of the act.”

“you think u don’t know you’re only here because they sent you?”

“you promised to call me if you didn’t know what to wear.”

“you can keep a secret, can’t you?”

“how could you do this to me?”

“put the gun down, dearest. i have news!”

“i know you don’t have any reason to trust me, but you need to know something.”

“if you’re here to tell me what happened last night, someone beat you to it.”

“people think i’m weird.”

“i think i’m losing myself again.”

“you can’t be here.”

“i wish you’d come to the funeral.”

“do you know what today is?”

“so, you broke my favourite mug… and you’re breaking up with me?”

“i need to get out.”

“it’s like i’m cursed or something.”

“you are remarkably well-behaved tonight, what have you been up to?”

“you gonna eat that?”

“sir, the pony rides are for children only.”

“i don’t want you to worry about that anymore.”

“we’ll never make it in time.”

“you’d be late for your own funeral.”

“you should have seen it coming.”

“oh, good, you’re here! hold this.”

“why can’t you just be happy for me?”

“on a scale of one to ten, how do you feel about nachos right now?”

“is this how you flirt with everyone?”

“how much longer till we’re there?”

“what have you done?”

“it’s time for you to repay that debt you owe me.”

“where did you get that? who gave it to you?”

“what kind of mother has thoughts like that?”

“i know I haven’t been what you needed, but i’m here, and i wanna help.”

“i never want to hear you say that again.”

“you’re all i have.”

“i know it’s not perfect, but i did follow the recipe this time.”

“i was doing so well until you showed up.”

“don’t eat that! i made it ‘specially for our guest.”

“it’s not that i don’t like my life, it’s that i don’t have the energy to enjoy it.”

“how can you stand this place?”

“don’t take this the wrong way, but you don’t exactly blend in.”

“you need to stop.”

“i don’t like that look, what happened?”

“is that seriously your password?”

“what’s your problem?”

“you had no right to use it without asking.”

“oh, wow, you weren’t kidding.”

“i couldn’t trust my own parents to protect me.”

“i’m surprised you haven’t been arrested yet. wait, no, i’m not.”

“why do you want to help me?”

“ten bucks for that piece of crap?”

“we have to hurry, they’re coming!”

“hey, look what came in the mail!”

“do you want to get a drink or something?”

“please tell me you didn’t eat that.”

“the worst part is you didn’t even notice.”

“if i wanted help, i would have asked.”

“wanna tell me what’s going on with your grades?”

“you need to leave.”

“talk to me, okay? i need to know what’s going on.”

“i do blame you.”

“sometimes life deals you a bad hand, but you can still play your cards right and win.”

“you’re no longer useful to me.”

“i’m not good with sarcasm: if you don’t like me, just say it.”

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korolnichevoya​:

              SHE  SAYS      it   with   such   an   easy   conviction   that’s   difficult   for   him   to   understand  .   he   can’t   help   but   think   of   vasily  ,   the   sibling   he      did      grow   up   with  .   there   is  ��no   doubt   that   nikolai   had      LOVED      his   brother  .   but   resentment   had   grown   like   a   cancer   between   them   and   in   the   end  ,   it   had   taken   vasily’s   life  .   nikolai   can’t   help   but   imagine   that   if   vasily   were   here   in   linnea’s   place   now  ,   he   would   not   be   making   the   same   offer  .   grief   and   love   nestle   themselves   within   his   chest  . 

              ❝     thank   you  ,     ❞   he   says   quietly   instead   of   properly   answering   her  .   ❝     do   you -   do   you   need   to   pack   anything   before   we   go  ?     ❞

Perhaps she should have given herself more time to get to know him, and perhaps jumping right into a situation before knowing everything might not have been an exceptional idea. But she never exactly knew how to compartmentalize her love and trust for people anyway. The closest thing to a sibling she ever had was the boy who lived next door, but that stopped when he started to expect marriage from her.

“Of course.” It’s now that she wishes he knew Fjerdan, there is an endless sea of all she wishes to say to him in this moment that she could never find the words for in his language. “That depends, where...where are we actually going?”

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morning after starters

“  last night was nice.  ” “  lets do this again some time.  ” “  i’ll leave my number.  ” “  i gotta go, sorry.  ” “  can’t you at least stay for breakfast?  ” “  i’ll make coffee—don’t go anywhere.  ” “  next time, maybe i’ll buy you dinner first.  ” “  if we do this again you better buy me dinner first.  ” “  i don’t think my legs work again yet.  ” “  i don’t wanna get up.  ” “  no don’t move, it’s too cold outside the covers.  ” “  there’s no way i can hide these marks…  ” “  this was probably a mistake.  ” “  this can’t happen again.  ” “  you always say that, and yet we wind up right back here.  ” “  are you watching me sleep?  ” “  you look cute all frazzled like this.  ” “  why are you looking at me like that?  ” “  keep kissing me like that and we’re gonna end up back in bed.  ” “  something wrong? ” “  i’d stay if i could, i promise.  ” “  so if i put my number in your phone, you actually gonna text me? ” “  i made breakfast.  ” “  how do you take your coffee?  ” “  fuck! i’m late—  ” “  did you turn the alarm off?  ” “  if you don’t turn that alarm off i’m gonna throw it out the window.  ” “  i can’t find my shirt.  ” “  babe, we slept in.  ” “  i know you’re awake.  ” “  i’ll stay.  ” “  why don’t you stay?  ” “  i like waking up with you.  ” “  i like having you here at night.  ” “  you know, if you moved in we wouldn’t keep having to say goodbye like this.  ” “  so when are we gonna actually go on a real date?  ” “  do i smell bacon?  ” “  you made pancakes?  ” “  come on, come back to bed.  ” “  you weren’t there when i woke up.  ” “  i thought you left.  ” “  do you want me to go?  ” “  just let me sleep for five more minutes.  ” “  you’re really beautiful/handsome. even if you drool.  ” “  you talk in your sleep, ya know.  ”  

ACTIONS:  1. for one muse to surprise the other with breakfast in bed 2. for our muses to go another round in the morning 3. for your muse to join mine in the shower while getting ready for the day 4. for one muse to stop the other from trying to sneak away 5. for one muse to invite the other to spend the rest of the day with them  6. for one muse to convince the other to stay in bed the rest of the day 7. for our muses to have sex in the kitchen instead of finishing breakfast 8. for our muses to spoon 9. for one muse to wake up with morning wood  10. for one muse to wake the other up with oral  11. for lazy morning sex  12. for one muse to wake the other because they’re having a nightmare  13. for one muse to distract the other from getting ready by kissing/groping them 14. for one muse to kick the other out of their home  15. for our muses to wake with no recollection of the night before  

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“ it’s alright, they’re gone now… are you alright? hey, look at me; are you hurt at all? “ from Jesper / @pistolslinger

“I think I’m okay? Yes, yeah...I’m okay.” Linnea tried to wiggle her way out of Jesper’s fussing, but a sudden sharp pain in her side made her stop. Her hand shot to the spot and it came away slick and red. “Oh...faen.”