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think probably someone has already done this or at least should have

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innovative

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It's a symbiotic relationship. When one of us falls, the other, too, must fall...

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Mutuals when you like multiple things on my blog I click through to see which posts have pleased you because ily

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Last night I dreamt that I was arguing with Tom felton in a tiktok comment section

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Spent some time with the soprano gang bc my emotional support classmate kept running away from me all day and they kept telling me to stop smoking :(

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I overslept and now I need to take a bus route I've never taken before

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You know what? She's right, I probably should talk to actual, real people about my problems instead of just screaming into the void on tumblr

But also, my problems are heavy as shit sometimes and I remember how much our previous friend fucked with her mentally by threatening to kill/cut herself and I would feel fucking terrible if I did the same thing to her. At the beginning of our friendship, I actually made a lot of suicide and selfharm jokes near her, but I could tell how much they upset her so I cut that shit out almost immediately. Now, if I actually told her about my suicidal thoughts or my struggles with self harm? It would fuck her up. She knows about it. She knows that I struggle with it, but I never mention it to her when it actually happens because I'm so scared of stressig her out. She already has enough on her plate as is, she doesn't need to deal with the mess that is myself. She knows that I'm a mess and I know that she loves me despite it, but I just can't bring myself to actually show her that part of me. She doesn't need to experience that. I'm too much, always have been, and I'm scared that I'll break her by letting loose. She worries and cares too much about other people, to the point where she'll destroy herself in favor of helping the people she loves. And I just can't let that happen. I won't let her fall apart for me. Becasue of me. I'm her best friend and she is mine. It's us two against the world and I refuse to turn against her too

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It's alright bc we're both professionals in communication and reflecting on our actions so any argument we might have gets snuffed out before it can properly start

I wish tone tags actually took off more, I genuinely can't tell if I'm having an actual argument with my best friend or if we're both just being silly

I know that I'm being silly. I don't know if she knows that I'm being silly. And given her track record of being terrified that I secretly hate her/ am going to abandon her, it's really stressing me out

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Oh no, turns out that we are actually arguing right now oh shit oh fuck I did not want this yet I did this to myself

I wish tone tags actually took off more, I genuinely can't tell if I'm having an actual argument with my best friend or if we're both just being silly

I know that I'm being silly. I don't know if she knows that I'm being silly. And given her track record of being terrified that I secretly hate her/ am going to abandon her, it's really stressing me out

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I wish tone tags actually took off more, I genuinely can't tell if I'm having an actual argument with my best friend or if we're both just being silly

I know that I'm being silly. I don't know if she knows that I'm being silly. And given her track record of being terrified that I secretly hate her/ am going to abandon her, it's really stressing me out

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Count me in

mutuals come watch my little pony with me rn

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