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Spent some time with the soprano gang bc my emotional support classmate kept running away from me all day and they kept telling me to stop smoking :(

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I overslept and now I need to take a bus route I've never taken before

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You know what? She's right, I probably should talk to actual, real people about my problems instead of just screaming into the void on tumblr

But also, my problems are heavy as shit sometimes and I remember how much our previous friend fucked with her mentally by threatening to kill/cut herself and I would feel fucking terrible if I did the same thing to her. At the beginning of our friendship, I actually made a lot of suicide and selfharm jokes near her, but I could tell how much they upset her so I cut that shit out almost immediately. Now, if I actually told her about my suicidal thoughts or my struggles with self harm? It would fuck her up. She knows about it. She knows that I struggle with it, but I never mention it to her when it actually happens because I'm so scared of stressig her out. She already has enough on her plate as is, she doesn't need to deal with the mess that is myself. She knows that I'm a mess and I know that she loves me despite it, but I just can't bring myself to actually show her that part of me. She doesn't need to experience that. I'm too much, always have been, and I'm scared that I'll break her by letting loose. She worries and cares too much about other people, to the point where she'll destroy herself in favor of helping the people she loves. And I just can't let that happen. I won't let her fall apart for me. Becasue of me. I'm her best friend and she is mine. It's us two against the world and I refuse to turn against her too

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It's alright bc we're both professionals in communication and reflecting on our actions so any argument we might have gets snuffed out before it can properly start

I wish tone tags actually took off more, I genuinely can't tell if I'm having an actual argument with my best friend or if we're both just being silly

I know that I'm being silly. I don't know if she knows that I'm being silly. And given her track record of being terrified that I secretly hate her/ am going to abandon her, it's really stressing me out

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Oh no, turns out that we are actually arguing right now oh shit oh fuck I did not want this yet I did this to myself

I wish tone tags actually took off more, I genuinely can't tell if I'm having an actual argument with my best friend or if we're both just being silly

I know that I'm being silly. I don't know if she knows that I'm being silly. And given her track record of being terrified that I secretly hate her/ am going to abandon her, it's really stressing me out

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I wish tone tags actually took off more, I genuinely can't tell if I'm having an actual argument with my best friend or if we're both just being silly

I know that I'm being silly. I don't know if she knows that I'm being silly. And given her track record of being terrified that I secretly hate her/ am going to abandon her, it's really stressing me out

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Count me in

mutuals come watch my little pony with me rn

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Printers will do literally anything but print

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Where is all of the Carlos content?

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I don't trust men who claim that they're "Golden Retrievers"

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the weirdly vengeful and petty tones aborted babies take in pro-life propaganda images are so funny like this passive aggressive "was it worth it mommy?" and "it's a shame you can't join me in heaven mommy 😔" like do you ever wonder if you were aborted for a reason you little bitch ass baby

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Talk about toast condensation, I need to clean my room. I'm really hungry but I need to put away all my crafting materials. I can't even consider eating before that, it's against the rules

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ALRIGHT WE'RE BALLIN' SHE GAVE ME THE PERFECT ANSWER

I CAN STILL DO A MAKE-UP-EXAM IN MATH AND PASS THE YEAR

I WILL NOT HAVE TO KILL MYSELF ON FRIDAY

I'm so scared to ask questions because what if they don't like my question and kill me*?

*give me an answer that I don't like

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Hehehehe

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I'm so scared to ask questions because what if they don't like my question and kill me*?

*give me an answer that I don't like

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Boybossed so hard at choir today that our teacher/instructor told all of us sopranos to shut the fuck up (sing quieter) because we were "tuning out the altos" (we are around 60 people) (10 of us sing bass) (7 of us are sopranos) (37 people are altos) (7 people somehow managed to tune out 37 people) (I have the sneaking suspicion that us sopranos are not to blame) (might just be me tho)

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Neither of us are diagnosed, but the conversations between me and my brother are so fucking autism coded it's ridiculous