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Day 11: Whose an LGBTQ+ elder or trailblazer who inspired you?

I mean the mf baddest period 💁🏻‍♀️

Bretman Rock for Vogue Philippines June 2023

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Day 10: Share a coming out or "letting in" story

It all started as separate friendships. I knew JaeJae. JaeJae knew Mel. Mel and I go on dates. JaeJae and I fall in the love. Fast forward to 2016, Mel needs a place to stay. We take him in, but he doesn't know about our relationship. Mel comes out to the both of us. And in my recreation of a La La Land scene (as pictured above), I come out to Mel. Fun fact: He actually thought I was just a really big ally 🤭

Best decision I've ever made of letting one of my best friends into my life. Love him everyday.

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Day 9: What brings you radical joy?

Honestly, this is us most days. Nothing short of sleepy comfort, cuddles, and kisses--100% with alll the love and gushiness. Amidst the chaos, work, and busy schedules (beside Chef's), this is home for us. This is joy. Radial joy.

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What in the holy ghost 🙌🏽 I wish I was in that room 😄 Bringing back "Stomp" like that was a whole revival in itself

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would also like to say that i absolutely loved the loud political nature of the tonys this year from the pride displays to the hamilton outfit coordination to the outright discussions of the state of the country, its nice to know that you can always count on the arts to never stay silent when loud and defiant voices are needed the most

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The Original Broadway Cast celebrate 10 years of Hamilton at the 2025 Tony Awards (full performance)

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Day 8: What kind of love do you want to model for others?

"Although you may feel broken at times, you'll still be the one who lives with unconditional compassion, love, and understanding for the world we wish would embrace us the same way."

The book was published when I read this line..I realized that was probably one of the two typos I wish I changed? So today, it just stands as a funny, little reminder for me to share what is true and relevant to me. At the time, I thought of maybe two other people that inspired this line, but midway, I started to change the pronouns and perspective to myself. Because this letter is still mostly, for me.

I cannot speak to the others' situations. At the time, these people inspired me to not be so jaded, despite the way our families and the world treated us. I always live with love and a big, whole heart--taking in all the good and bad and feeling it in all its entirety. Some days, I question my capacity for love and my heart's unconditional condition.. But it would be so easy for the world to break me and compromise the way I love. Therefore, I refuse to let it. So cheers to brave hearts and what they embrace 💕 I hope they teach the world to love the same.

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Day 7: Describe a moment when you surprised yourself

I shared my most vulnerable writing thus far and published it 🥴💕

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It's my 15 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Day 6: What message did you get growing up about who you were "supposed" to be?

I loved being lulled to sleep by my mom, especially on nights I cried or could not sleep. And she would always sing this lullaby that I still love for the sentiment, our memories, and her comfort--I even asked her to sing it for my debut 😅 And the lullaby went like this:

When I grow to be a Lady… I’ll be a queen, a lovely queen Walking in a garden shady… In gown of green with silver sheen maids in gowns and gold shall follow me And suitors of a high degree When I grow to be a lady… A fine and lovely queenly lady Then my Prince will come to claim his own And love will crown me to my throne.

I would ask my mom to teach it to me. And, when I was younger, I would always pause in between each lyric and ask what they meant. To which I learned that I would be a lovely lady, a queen with such elegance, and a Prince and suitors with high degrees to claim me as their own~

And she was (almost) right 👑🤭

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Day 5: What helped you reclaim or reimagine your spirituality?

Coming into loving my queer self felt like I was deceiving my Christian upbringing and my family... It was probably the loneliest I've ever felt. But this was the loudest lesson of fearless love for me at the time:

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. - 1 John 4:18

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Day 4: Share a story about your first pride event or LGBTQ+ space

Oh I absolutely could not wait for the day I finally made it to 🎶West Hollywood,🎶 most importantly The Abbey. I was in such rainbow bliss and notably remembered being so marvel-eyed upon entering 😍 I will never forget this night with these loves..even if I wanted to 🙃 Cheers to queers and finding their safe spaces and gayborhoods for the first time 🌈 M a g i c al ✨

"Gayborhoods will feel like Disneyland."

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did the math and if brandy and dorothy were stuck in the simulation for at least an hour in the real world, they would have spent around two and a half years together. (and all of that went away in a blink of an eye…)

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"die with a smile" would be playing in my background rn

Hotel Reverie (2025), dir. Haolu Wang

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