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Tuesday, May 27, 2025

Well this month was stupid busy. The concert with seeing Nic Cave and the Bad Seeds was one of the few times in the last few years that I've truly enjoyed a concert. Not only that but Nic also went in the audience and my partner and I got to shake his hand. As he went over the chairs he had his hands on our shoulders to make his way through. After that, later in the week we went to see two Belarusian animation films which were...a trip? Definitely odd but fun. In the midst of all this, tornado warnings/sirens didn't go off in places like St Louis because of stripping jobs due to the uneducated and short sighted nonsense of this administration. I absolutely place some of the blame on Musk and Trump because they done everything in their wake to k1ll as many poor people as possible. Then there's reports of bears in my area where black bears rarely go this far north. Well at least some good news from this year is my colonoscopy and scope showed no issues. What happens this year when the flooding and tornadoes get more frequent and stronger this year? They've already mucked up the response to the wildfires and tornadoes. Between natural disasters and cuts to Medicare/Medicaid, who do they think will be left to do the jobs they don't want? Not everything is solved with AI or robots. asshats-the lot of them.

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Thursday, April 17, 2025

Finally got the electrical work done to make the HOA happy.

Thursday, May 1, 2025

Finally made it through April, although not sure what May will bring. Is it something about April that just brings out the worst? There was Colombine the Oklahoma City b-o-mbing, some of the worst decisions made at the government level, Waco. Is springtime the time to release the worst pent up emotions of people? Since shelves may be empty soon, I'm buying a couple extra things and trying to save more of my money because this summer will be rough. Even though much of my social media has people around planning ahead I don't see people around me that seem to be aware. I'd rather have that over panic, but it's eerie to know of upcoming issues yet watch the majority of people seem unaware. It's comforting to see in a weird way though, as if there is a weird resilience that we'll be able to just live through another major event. It took me almost a decade after 2008 to get any sort of financial stability. Hopefully it won't be as long this time.

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April 16, 2025 Wednesday

It's frustrating that as soon as I start feeling healthy it doesn't last long. I'm trying to maintain healthy food intake but I end up reverting to my safe foods like popcorn and frozen waffles.

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Tuesday, April 15, 2025

It's ridiculous that we allow a petulant child be in charge of anything in this country. There's no plan, no strategy, just immediate emotional responses to anything that hurts little trumps ego. The tariff thing is getting old. I finally started feeling normal again. Still have issues with my mail. I tried explaining to the supervisor at the post office that my address is wrong in the database and he kept speaking over me and basically saying I was crazy and it's a glitch. It's so infuriating to deal with an old man boomer who assumes my issue, doesn't listen to me and talks to me like I'm a kid. I shouldn't have to bring my partner in to say something just because he's a man. It takes a lot for me to say anything to begin with and if I wasn't waiting for specific mail I'd just work around it, but it's causing me major issues. I know he won't get fired but honestly that man is a fucking piece of shit and I wish my mail didn't go through that office.

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March 17, 2025 Monday

ugh.

Tuesday, March 18, 2025

I did not account for autistic burnout.

Friday, April 4,2025

It's taking me longer than usual to recover this time around. At least there is the national protest tomorrow and hopefully things will start to look better now.

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Saturday, March 15, 2025.

The idea of March. Yesterday was a veterans march on DC but I heard little about it outside of tik tok. I'm not really surprised. We needed to get out of the house so we wandered around the mall a bit. Later we found a Laotian restaurant that had good fried spring rolls and noodles. While looking up info about Hanumankind, we found that he was in a movie called Rifle Club so we watched that in the evening. Tornadoes have been going through the Midwest like crazy. Missouri was hit and the videos of hail were certainly terrifying. Between that and the horrendous dust storms the weekend is certainly showing the impacts of climate change.

Sunday, March 16, 2025

Picked up my friend from the airport. Had a nice meal and my partner went home to do work on his vehicles and my friend and I did some shopping, had some fancy cookies and coffee, made some lotion bars with sage, talked a bit and watched Quiz Lady. I've seen the movie about 4 times but I always enjoy it. It's just such a sweet story in some ways. Sometimes a little change helps push in the right direction.

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Friday, March 14, 2025.

Oh pie day, at least there's something good about today since apparently everyone is going to cave and not have a government shutdown. So many fucking cowards. I forgot my friend was visiting this weekend, I could have sworn it was next week but I have such a poor concept of time at this point. Then there's the administration also continuing to halt free speech by making up charges when someone with a green card speaks out against Israel. Spent most of my day just trying to clean and get organized. For some reason I thought my friend from Texas was visiting next weekend because I have no concept of time it seems. At least I got my second bedroom cleaned up enough for her to sleep in. My partner came over and he seems to have more help at work now so he's less stressed and can take some time off and have more personal time.

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Thursday, March 13, 2025

Well I'm glad to see more town halls making representatives uncomfortable. At least judges ordered federal workers be reinstated. Between that and Elonia crying about his poor, failing stocks (sarcasm) trump pulls a public stunt of putting Tesla's on the white house lawn to try and get us to buy them. Why? We can't be "forced" to buy a vehicle. Let alien boy fail, it's about time someone deal with some goddamn consequences. I'm working to make sure my important documents are in one place. I have a feeling this will all explode soon. The main thing I want is my books and media. Entertainment is one of the few things keeping me from losing my mind even more.

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Wednesday, March 12, 2025

Now they have to get a budget to avoid a government shutdown. At what point are they going to take steps to stop the nonsense going on? It also feels like the people in the highest levels don't understand that if there are no people left then who will do the work? We know they won't. The selfishness and insecurity of middle aged men is what will cause humanity's extinction at this rate. And yet again I have requested my HSA card because I have yet to receive it. Again. Yet again, another person who dates say anything that remotely criticizes Israel is treated like a terrorist. Nevermind the fact that there's no Nazis walking around without consequences. I recognize this is nothing new, but the way the government reacted to Waco Ruby Ridge, etc. seems to be reserved more and more for non-white people. When I watched the green room, the tattoos and unsettling anger reminded me of a few instances when I was around people who had similar tattoos yet I felt uneasy and didn't know why but still. I have always been more terrified of neo Nazis than anyone else because there is an anger fueled by insecurity and fear and that is dangerous.

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Tuesday March 11, 2025

If we start WW 3 at this point, I don't know if I'll have the energy to keep fighting this nonsense. The Marshall law possibly happening on April 20 is certainly not a good sign. And right now we're added to the human rights watchlist. This is all so preventable. I'm glad I'm not part of the church anymore but I've also forgotten some of why people think the way they do in those religions environments. There are more ads and articles showing up on my feed for hobbies at home or cleaning schedules to implement. It's weird. When I needed info on a cleaning schedule z I had difficulty finding it, now I can't get rid of it and there is definitely a trad wife vibe to it. One article was about someone trying their grandma's cleaning routine from the 1950s. How is that not propaganda? I've always had hobbies at home that have been "grandma" hobbies like knitting and sewing, but now I'm getting way more content that I don't need, nor do I find it interesting. On top of which, now this fascist regime is trying to say free speech (or any criticism of Israel) is domestic terrorism. No, domestic terrorism is the Oklahoma City bombing or the Unabomber. But I guess white male citizens weirdly don't count under white supremacy.

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Monday, March 10, 2025

Daylight savings is unnecessary. I don't adjust well to gaining/losing an hour. Now it's the time of year where we freeze at night and melt in the afternoon. Energy wise it uses less AC or heat if you plan right. Now there's apparently people smuggling eggs, which is hard for me to take seriously. I don't often eat eggs and once I figured out substitutes in baking it just isn't something I buy a lot of. I don't particularly want to have dry beans as my main source of protein again which I recognize is partly from growing up poor. It just sucks because I finally started to make some headway and savings for some financial security but it doesn't matter. While I doubt it will ever happen, just get rid of student loans. They've been swirling around for so long and not paid off, why keep trying? Most people have long since paid them off but what's left is basically extreme interest. This is a of "you should repay your loan" ignores so many factors that lead to this being the case.

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Saturday, March 8, 2025.

Happy international women's day while living in a country that actively hates women and continues to make policies hostile to women and families. I've also seen an uptick in the amount of weight loss ads which is infuriating. My weight, is my weight, is my weight. If I lose, great. If I gain, great. It's just not a priority I really care about. Today my partner and I went to the Taiwanese bakery for a treat, Dutch Bros for a sparkling soda, then IKEA and walked around for a couple hours. It was nice to get out for a bit before heading back and playing some Mario kart. I noticed a couple articles discussing that musk is not supposed to have authority to fire government employees but we'll see how that goes. I have doubts that it will actually be enforced. However, because of the negative press and amount of backlash, it's good to see that it's getting to the people in Washington DC (well some anyway). If it keeps up, maybe it can make an even bigger difference. Considering it seems that musks substance use may be moving his end date closer, I would not be surprised if one of the young, insecure ass hats ends up taking his place and causing even more damage.

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Thursday, March 6, 2025.

In thinking more on it, I really wish there were more than two parties. To be fair, I've thought this for a while, but the lack of fast moving (and visible) actions from the democratic side is fueling the fire for a workers party. I will say, it seems more people are gaining class consciousness but until more people are willing to truly learn and analyze internally I don't know as if that change will truly come.

Friday, March 7, 2025.

I definitely checked out today. I had little interest in doing anything as it's hard to see the end purpose of what I do. My partner is frustrated at work but so far at least keeps a decent mindset about work vs. personal life. Made some sushi, watched Orphan. I forgot how much the movie kind of pissed me off because of how much the dad just seems to ignore everything. My partner also made a fun hay feeder for my bunny that says "super Mothra world" in the color scheme from the super Mario brothers game. It is nice having a feeder for him instead of putting it in the bin for him to throw around or tip over.

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Tuesday, March 4, 2025

With all the nonsense going on with the state of the union I can't even stand listening to media today and I'm taking a break.

Wednesday, March 5, 2025

What in the hell was that indecisive weather? It was decent in the morning, cold and slushy in the afternoon and a blizzard by nighttime, ew. At least today is slightly calmer. I made a video about Mike Johnson and how we should put a lot of attention on him and he'll crash out. Then within a matter of hours, maybe 3, BAM dude gets a DUI which is funny as shit because he gets on his high horse about religion yet much like hegeeth, can't hold his booze. I guess it's ash Wednesday but since I do absolutely nothing with religion, it took me way too long to realize that today. With the tariff nonsense, it's clear that Trump just lashes out because he can't handle the tiniest bit of criticism. One day it's tariffs , next day not. The difference is now he's messing with forces that are even less forgiving

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Monday, March 3, 2025.

I thought I'd try to go to Joanns one more time to get that pattern I want but the lights went out while I was in line. At this point I've tried twice this week and countless times before so I give up. I went home and finished the last few steps on projects I've been trying to finish for a while. My canvas jacket and one pair of pants is now done , but I need the snaps on one of my shirts. I'm finally clearing out my craft room I'm just not fast. After watching the documentary on Ruby Franke I have some thoughts. The dad is trying to act like he was a bystander pissed me off. He was a part of the decisions when making decisions/punishments for his kids but he's going to act like he just "went along with it" because of her feminine wiles? Miss me with that nonsense. Luckily, my partner didn't have to work too long today to tear down the set, but he's still deciding on if he should stay in the band he plays guitar in. I think he'd be happier out of it, but it's his choice.

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Sunday, March 2, 2025.

My mom texted about stopping by but I didn't wake up until 1 am and said next Sunday would work better. After playing some Mario kart and mario party, my partner and I went to see Love Hurts. It was a good movie and pretty light hearted. And of course we needed to eat beforehand and went to Popeyes Chicken. It took 5 minutes to get 2 sandwiches because we didn't want mayo (neither of us like mayo). It seems whenever we go to that particular theater there is inevitably something that goes wrong. Not sure why, but it's weird it's happened the last 5 times we've gone. Since it was my birthday weekend and I had Monday off my partner stayed and we watched young guns. He likes the movie partly because of childhood nostalgia. I thought it was "meh." I didn't hate it but it's kind of a "bro" movie. I guess it's supposed to be all these 80s "heartthrobs" but I don't see it. These dudes all look the same to me.

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Friday, February 28, 2025.

No buy blackout Friday. Since it's my birthday we went to the local art museum. Neither of us spent any money today. Both of us have art museum members[ships] so it was going to cost us nothing. I do feel fortunate that my partner supports the same fights I'm joining because I know for so many that's not the case .

Saturday, March 1,2025.

We went to my partners parents house for some lobster that was sent from Maine [from his extended family]. I enjoy lobster but the work to get the meat is ridiculous. I didn't mind hanging with his family while his nephew pulled him away to play. His brother in law explained that he picked the VA job specifically because he thought it would mean more security but after the current ridiculousness of the D.O.G.E. and the cuts being made seems that security for his job isn't guaranteed. I was socially drained and my partner noticed so we headed back and spent the evening watching extraordinary attorney woo and cuddling with my pets.