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i think james has to fall at least once a year. like, he's very athletic and has great reflexes, there's no reason for him to trip and fall.

but one out of the 365 days is his unlucky day, where his body just doesn't connect properly —or he's just distracted and can't see the very clear obstacles on his way— and he's left with bleeding knees and some bruises.

it was fun when he was a kid, because kids get hurt playing all the time. but being 22 and suddenly you don't know how to walk and trip over air on the way to your new part-time job?

it's haunting.

and it's exactly how he meets regulus, who is just trying to get some pastries and go home, but then somebody just fell right next to him, groaning "fucking hell, not again" and jesus fuck that's a very hot man and oh my god is that blood.

so regulus, who isn't a first aider or anything of the sorts, but knows how to clean and take care of all sorts of injuries, just decides to be nice and help.

james immediately uses the "i just fell for you" line on him, regulus calls him an idiot, james overshares about this being a yearly occurrence, regulus thinks that's ridiculous, james uses that as an excuse for them to become friends (or more) so he could see it with his very own eyes, regulus calls him ridiculous. the conversation is complete banter while regulus cleans the wounds.

they both leave with red cheeks and each others phone numbers.

and after some years, regulus is always carrying some first aid kit in his bag, because his boyfriend was right and once a year he falls over nothing, like an idiot. and he has to be there, to laugh, make fun of him, and then patch him up nicely.

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”Remember this feeling. This is the moment you stop being the rabbit.”

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why do you even have tattoos if your wife and kid don't use it as coloring book

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the audacity of neil to say ‘they could have blinded you’ to andrew when he himself had just had the skin right under his eye burned with a dashboard lighter. baby they could’ve blinded YOU fgs

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you can’t make this stuff up

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Okay but how are you gonna being a Jean or Andrew mega fan while actually hating Kevin

If you genuinely believe Kevin is a coward or a bad person for leaving the nest and not going back for Jean then you don't actually know either of them because Jean would not hold that against him

Yes he would be upset and he would have every right to be angry but he would also understand because everything that happened to Kevin happened to him, he understood how fucking hard it was growing up like that and he would not "hate him for the rest of their lives" because he knew if he could get away completely he would have ran with Kevin too but he was scared to leave because he knew that Riko would always own him as long as both of them were alive

And Andrew could literally never hate Kevin because did we read the same books, he literally put his life on the line for that man after knowing him for less than a year. I may bring it up a lot but the Baltimore/bus scene will never be proof of Andrew's 'real' feelings for him. He was scared and angry and acted in the only way he knew how

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Fandoms stopped being a fun escape from reality when people started spreading the belief that you should prioritize purity over pleasure and the art you create must be a reflection of your moral standards at all times.

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This part-

They ruined me forever

I still haven't finished the third book but I needed to draw that scene

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I’m wheezing

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This fic has been consuming my brain space. I spent entirely too much time on this and I could have done the whole song honestly

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I'm like if a chivalrous knight kissed a fair maiden's hand and said "my lady, I fight for you" and then walked off and immediately tripped over his own armor and fell on the ground

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i think we as a fandom genuinely forget how kevin and andrew are literally like best friends. like andrew went with kevin to california. at the start of tfc everyone describes them as literally joined at the hip. if andreil ever got married KEVIN WOULD LITERALLY BE ANDREW'S BEST MAN. kevin will call andrew in the future when they're all graduated because he knows andrew will pick up. they had a single carry-on between them in tgr. they probably stayed in the same hotel room. they fight like an old married couple throughout the og trilogy constantly. kevin knows how to rile andrew up and to calm him down. nora can pry kandrew (romantic and platonic) from my cold dead fucking hands.

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Two golden retrivers and one black cat 🐶🐱

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the press going insane after andreil coming out because they finally after years!!! understand what neil means by "i swing towards the goal" that he says when a reporter asks about his sexuality

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Coach Rhemann trying his best to support Jean but also trying to figure out if some oddities are result of:

abuse from his time in the nest

a French thing

just his personality

Coach Wymack is the only one he knows with experience of helping a former Raven de-transition from the Nest so he'll occasionally call Wymack and give a vague statement to try to see if Wymack has dealt with this with Kevin, while not giving too much away in case it's just a Jean thing.

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Rhemann: So... some of my kids decided to take classes together, really stick to a buddy system sort of deal

Wymack: Yeah. It's a thing. Kevin's gotten better but he still gets anxious if he's alone.

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Rhemann: Some of my players are really excelling in language arts. Which is great for their grades, but their imaginative descriptions really toe the line between feedback and a yellow card.

Wymack: Jean, right? Kid speaks three languages that I know of and I think he's most adept at insults in all of them. He had more than a few choice words for me and my team when he was out here.

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Rhemann: A good thing about California is that it hardly ever rains.

Wymack: That's a good thing? Thought you guys were dealing with a drought.

Rhemann: Yeah, but sunshine and good weather most of the year. People don't have to worry about slick roads or getting wet.

Wymack: I guess?

Rhemann: Water.

Wymack: Hmm, yeah, not sure where you're getting at with this one. Whatever it is, I don't think mine had it.

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I will bet every single ounce of my life that Kevin knew Jean was in love with him but didn't act on it.

I'm going to bet my left leg that the reason Riko punished Jean with the backliners was not because he saw Jean looking at Kevin but because he saw Kevin looking back for even a fraction of a second longer.

I am also going to bet that Kevin doesn't have internalised homophobia he is just SCARED to act on tendencies because he thinks he'll still get punished for even indulging and to keep a good rapport. He even tried to teach Jean in the Nest but after Jean got out he shipped him to Jeremy because he knows Jean needs it.

So either ill post a pic of me eating a celebratory cake or ill post a boomerang of me doing a flip off a cliff after Kevin's books comes out

Also weird but I think Kevin definitely knew about Andrew's thing for him