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Mcd Laurance is only flirty when he's trying to put on a front.

Aphmau sees it when she first meets him. He just failed to protect his lord and watched Joh die in front him weeks before she came to Meteli. And he is trying so hard to keep it together because everyone is looking at him. Either for leadership since he's the head guard or in suspicion because they don't believe his story about seeing a ghost who shot the arrow at Joh.

It's so much pressure, but if he even dares to open up and show just how much stress he's under, it will make everything ten times worse.

So, he flirts, compliments, and comes off as nonchalant as he can. It's the only way he's found to make it seem like he has a good of things, while also getting on people's good sides.

The women enjoy his compliments. The guards, merchants, and workers enjoy his banter. And when it doesn't work, he always laugh it off as a joke.

We only see him break from this front when he mentions people he's close to. Like Joh, Cadenza, or Castor.

He tries his best to flirt with Aphmau when they first meet. But it doesn't work. However, instead of having a horrible reaction like anger or disgust, she simply brushes it off and keeps pressing for answers.

The more they interact, his flirtation becomes a sort of special banter. Not the kind he uses with the guards or merchants, but a type of banter he only uses with her. Her reactions are enjoyable and enticing. As much as she groans about it, Laurance can tell she enjoys it. If not, she would have seriously told him to stop.

Later on, this front and even the banter he's formed with Aphmau shatters completely when he comes out of the nether. It's just too much, and he can't keep it up. Not with the void burns lacing his body, not with the aching pain of the transformation still haunting him months later, not with blindness taking away one of his most important senses.

He's the most honest and vulnerable he will ever be. He reaches out to Aphmau with that vulnerability, and she cradles his hand, let's him know that she's here for him.

His infatuation with her begins to grow into something deeper at this point. He confesses, not knowing if he'll die soon. It certainly feels as though he'll lose himself in some way eventually.

She turns him down, and part of him is grateful. Because as nice as it would be to have her, he is in no way a suitable partner for her now. He can't even call himself human anymore. Still, it's nice that she knows, and still accepts his company, still offers him sanctuary in her village.

When he heals and starts feeling a bit like his old self again, he tries reaching for that front he hasn't used in what feels like ages. It's different. He's no longer trying to be charismatic in order to stay in people's good graces. He's genuinely forming connections with the people of Phoenix Drop.

Hid banter becomes more lighthearted and real, less about keeping up appearances and more about having fun and building proper connections. He loves teasing Garroth, as shy and defensive as he is. The head guard makes for an excellent target if Laurance knows what buttons to push. And the way he won't even try to fight back, simple rattles on about dignity and grace and the morals a proper guard should have. Laurance enjoys it, and they begin to form a close bond.

When he starts flirting with Aphmau again, it's all good-natured as it was before. But it's even better now. They each know how they feel about each other, and they each know that the flirting is nothing serious, so Aphmau begins to flirt back.

It's a horrendous first attempt. She and Laurance end up fighting over their shared love for a table. But it's real, and it feels good, and Laurance finds it's so nice to laugh again, to feel human again.

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Just saw this TikTok that reminded me of a conversation Zane and Aaron had, where Zane basically confessed that he deeply cared for Aph (not sure if he meant romantically or in an emotional connective way) and that he wanted to tell Aaron so that he was aware of how he felt and shared that he wouldn’t interfere with what Aaron and Aph had!!!

Ngl this made me reflect about how much Zane truly cared for Aphmau even though knowing that she would never (romantically) “like” him back

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honestly i just think we all need to slow down

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YESSS ( this art style is so cute 😖)

"Polyamory really would've saved them all a lot of heartbreak-" i completely agree, here's a 2 month old garrancemau sketch i have in my ibis🫶🙏

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☆Our Bisexual King🙏🙏

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summary of Jess’s most recent tiktok for those who haven’t seen it yet / don’t have tiktok / prefer to see things in text formatting :

— she admits to lying to jason when they first met about her age, claiming to be eighteen (18) when she was only fifteen (15). when she turned eighteen (after knowing him for three years online), she confessed to him her real age.

— then follows up by apologising to jason for lying about her age when they first met and allowing him to take the brunt of the fandom’s abuse, stating that the reason they kept jess lying about her age a secret was because they knew her career could potentially end over it.

— she also apologises to the fandom for anyone who worried about her and her relationship, and who were not just believing rumours.

— de-bunks the rumour that jason made jess change the story because he was jealous (this is in relation to the rumour that ein x aphmau was supposed to be canon, but jason was jealous of all of the einmau support and unnaturally forced aarmau.) addresses that the ‘jason made jess change the story’ rumour fuels the rumour that he manipulated her when she was younger.

— also addresses that she changed the story at end of diaries season two because of harassment from garmau fans (specifies “in real life”) and this is the reason why diaries stopped entirely.

— 2016/2017 jess and jason had a stalker. she doesn’t comment much on this other than stating that it has been appropriately handled, and stating their stalker spread a lot of rumours online within the fandom.

— the reason jess is bringing all of this up is because she is planning on bringing a series back, and clarifies that fans are allowed to have an opinion on her writing but she doesn’t want them to attack those surrounding her (family, friends, colleagues, ect.)

i highly encourage everyone to go view the tiktok (i put it in the content source) to verify this info for themselves, and see the recent activity. this post is purely informative.

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LITERALLY!!! Or I feel like Aaron could have had a better build up or character development with Aph but not in a romantic way since it was out of no where, maybe like a close friend or a role model relationship

aphmau's attachment to aaron is so random. she had so much build up with laurance and garroth and didn't fall for them, but then this guy shows up, she knows nothing of him and is all "oMg wHEre iS PooKiE??? 😰😰" FYM "POOKIE"???

forever upset with jason and what he did to the story.

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I AGREE!! I refused to watch season 3 cuz I was so heartbroken after season 2 but I’m slowly getting to watch it now

AWW i've never watched s3 of MCD but liochant is so sweet :']

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my Roman Empire is how laurance should’ve been the descendant of shad, it was set up so perfectly! Him referring to himself as having a darkness inside of him, and aph being the light to that darkness is soooo Irene and shad coded

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what do you mean mcd 9 year anniversary. what do you mean it’s been 9 whole years. i was maybe 10 when it started premiering and now it’s been 9 years. foul.

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She’s so pretty！this fan art makes me wanna cosplay aph/irene so bad

Some Irene/aphmau fanart I did recently ! I’ve improved a lot since the last drawing I posted lol

( if you repost please credit me @Lactorant_ on insta ^-^ or my tumblr user :3 )

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Exactly!!! Like I refuse to believe that Aph didn’t have a breakdown seeing Levin and Malachi all grown up! Especially with Levin choosing to call her by her name out of no where!

I think the MCD characters are WAY too chill about the 15 year time skip. You’re telling me no crying, no panic attacks???? Like I would be sobbing and throwing up??? They’re all like “Hm, sad. Anyways-“ like bffr

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If only Jason wasn’t jealous of a fictional character would we get this masterpiece 🫠

i read a post on here talking about how, logically, if aaron hadn’t been shoved into the storyline shad’s descendant would have been laurance and the implications of this are actually so catastrophic for me

the idea that laurance was supposed to take up the roles that aaron played in the storyline implies that not only would we have gotten laurmau endgame but we would’ve seen the rise of the laurmau cinematic universe wherein they are endgame in every series and every lifetime

the introduction of aaron as a character pulled them apart. they were thrown off course. they were meant to be together in every universe and now they will never be anything anywhere ever again

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RP news at aphmau vidcon Q&A

audience: "Are you ever going to finish the remakes of Diaries and MyStreet?"

Jess: "That's a really good one. I absolutely want to. So Mystreet - I don't know how you follow that up, and I've been working for years trying to figure that out. There's plans! There's plans. and MyStreet will have a final season - at some point! At some point. But I can't promise any time soon, so just keep an eye out, eventually you'll get one conclusion season. Some point coming up. So, for Diaries, I'd like to do something a little different, and... thinking about ways to do it! So I don't wanna spoil anything just yet - but just wanna figure out if that's possible, so, we'll go for it."

audience: (unintelligble question)

Jess: "Book... Mayyybeeee...? We'll see! No promises, but!"

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What makes Qsmp so unique to me as a server is how all the members naturally gravitate towards working together and supporting each other because external conflict so great, not one person could take it on alone.

hence all the "it takes a village" mentality with the huevos/eggs.

In other servers the members would become enemies to create their lore and while I adore those servers, it made friendship a very fragile thing. In the beginning of Qsmp would throw each other under the bus at the behest of the island locals for an advantage but for the exception of maybe qQuackity himself not any more.

And in qsmp it's unity by design! Forcing everyone to cross language barriers to succeed.

Quackity man, you did a good job