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look what i made :c

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2018 was something else ☹️😖 I wanna go back

I miss anpanman ☹️ and gogo ☹️

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He’s literally so precious 😭🫶🏼 Need him irl

Manga Kirishima save me.... save me manga Kirishima....

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I'd hope that a lot of k-pop fans could watch this video from Ian and try to understand a little more the hard life that the idols they appreciate and care for have to face

I really hope things are NOW different from what was going on when Christian was in his idol career life BUT I know that a lot of Kpop companies, even if in a subtle way, are still horrible towards the young talents they have in their hands...I actively follow only 2 groups from the kpop scene and I can see huge differences in the way they managed the members of those 2 groups...

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Today is the only day of the year you can reblog this post

Otherwise they will get you /j

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happy halloween!! kirishima as choso 👻

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Need this rn

One forehead kiss from Kirishima could fix 100% of my problems

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WOW 🤭

how we feeling guys?

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Mcd Laurance is only flirty when he's trying to put on a front.

Aphmau sees it when she first meets him. He just failed to protect his lord and watched Joh die in front him weeks before she came to Meteli. And he is trying so hard to keep it together because everyone is looking at him. Either for leadership since he's the head guard or in suspicion because they don't believe his story about seeing a ghost who shot the arrow at Joh.

It's so much pressure, but if he even dares to open up and show just how much stress he's under, it will make everything ten times worse.

So, he flirts, compliments, and comes off as nonchalant as he can. It's the only way he's found to make it seem like he has a good of things, while also getting on people's good sides.

The women enjoy his compliments. The guards, merchants, and workers enjoy his banter. And when it doesn't work, he always laugh it off as a joke.

We only see him break from this front when he mentions people he's close to. Like Joh, Cadenza, or Castor.

He tries his best to flirt with Aphmau when they first meet. But it doesn't work. However, instead of having a horrible reaction like anger or disgust, she simply brushes it off and keeps pressing for answers.

The more they interact, his flirtation becomes a sort of special banter. Not the kind he uses with the guards or merchants, but a type of banter he only uses with her. Her reactions are enjoyable and enticing. As much as she groans about it, Laurance can tell she enjoys it. If not, she would have seriously told him to stop.

Later on, this front and even the banter he's formed with Aphmau shatters completely when he comes out of the nether. It's just too much, and he can't keep it up. Not with the void burns lacing his body, not with the aching pain of the transformation still haunting him months later, not with blindness taking away one of his most important senses.

He's the most honest and vulnerable he will ever be. He reaches out to Aphmau with that vulnerability, and she cradles his hand, let's him know that she's here for him.

His infatuation with her begins to grow into something deeper at this point. He confesses, not knowing if he'll die soon. It certainly feels as though he'll lose himself in some way eventually.

She turns him down, and part of him is grateful. Because as nice as it would be to have her, he is in no way a suitable partner for her now. He can't even call himself human anymore. Still, it's nice that she knows, and still accepts his company, still offers him sanctuary in her village.

When he heals and starts feeling a bit like his old self again, he tries reaching for that front he hasn't used in what feels like ages. It's different. He's no longer trying to be charismatic in order to stay in people's good graces. He's genuinely forming connections with the people of Phoenix Drop.

Hid banter becomes more lighthearted and real, less about keeping up appearances and more about having fun and building proper connections. He loves teasing Garroth, as shy and defensive as he is. The head guard makes for an excellent target if Laurance knows what buttons to push. And the way he won't even try to fight back, simple rattles on about dignity and grace and the morals a proper guard should have. Laurance enjoys it, and they begin to form a close bond.

When he starts flirting with Aphmau again, it's all good-natured as it was before. But it's even better now. They each know how they feel about each other, and they each know that the flirting is nothing serious, so Aphmau begins to flirt back.

It's a horrendous first attempt. She and Laurance end up fighting over their shared love for a table. But it's real, and it feels good, and Laurance finds it's so nice to laugh again, to feel human again.

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Just saw this TikTok that reminded me of a conversation Zane and Aaron had, where Zane basically confessed that he deeply cared for Aph (not sure if he meant romantically or in an emotional connective way) and that he wanted to tell Aaron so that he was aware of how he felt and shared that he wouldn’t interfere with what Aaron and Aph had!!!

Ngl this made me reflect about how much Zane truly cared for Aphmau even though knowing that she would never (romantically) “like” him back

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honestly i just think we all need to slow down

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YESSS ( this art style is so cute 😖)

"Polyamory really would've saved them all a lot of heartbreak-" i completely agree, here's a 2 month old garrancemau sketch i have in my ibis🫶🙏

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☆Our Bisexual King🙏🙏

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summary of Jess’s most recent tiktok for those who haven’t seen it yet / don’t have tiktok / prefer to see things in text formatting :

— she admits to lying to jason when they first met about her age, claiming to be eighteen (18) when she was only fifteen (15). when she turned eighteen (after knowing him for three years online), she confessed to him her real age.

— then follows up by apologising to jason for lying about her age when they first met and allowing him to take the brunt of the fandom’s abuse, stating that the reason they kept jess lying about her age a secret was because they knew her career could potentially end over it.

— she also apologises to the fandom for anyone who worried about her and her relationship, and who were not just believing rumours.

— de-bunks the rumour that jason made jess change the story because he was jealous (this is in relation to the rumour that ein x aphmau was supposed to be canon, but jason was jealous of all of the einmau support and unnaturally forced aarmau.) addresses that the ‘jason made jess change the story’ rumour fuels the rumour that he manipulated her when she was younger.

— also addresses that she changed the story at end of diaries season two because of harassment from garmau fans (specifies “in real life”) and this is the reason why diaries stopped entirely.

— 2016/2017 jess and jason had a stalker. she doesn’t comment much on this other than stating that it has been appropriately handled, and stating their stalker spread a lot of rumours online within the fandom.

— the reason jess is bringing all of this up is because she is planning on bringing a series back, and clarifies that fans are allowed to have an opinion on her writing but she doesn’t want them to attack those surrounding her (family, friends, colleagues, ect.)

i highly encourage everyone to go view the tiktok (i put it in the content source) to verify this info for themselves, and see the recent activity. this post is purely informative.

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LITERALLY!!! Or I feel like Aaron could have had a better build up or character development with Aph but not in a romantic way since it was out of no where, maybe like a close friend or a role model relationship

aphmau's attachment to aaron is so random. she had so much build up with laurance and garroth and didn't fall for them, but then this guy shows up, she knows nothing of him and is all "oMg wHEre iS PooKiE??? 😰😰" FYM "POOKIE"???

forever upset with jason and what he did to the story.