the BPD experience of yearning for someone to tell you its going to be okay, but then when they do you dont believe them (and sometimes can even trigger you more)
my need to care for people i love to the point i tend to come of as overbearing, this is when i'm doing well, if i'm not in a good mood i tend to get stressed about it instead of being able to help :(
like your sick?, i could help nurse you back to help, don't you dare over work yourself and get worse!
you get hurt?, i have a first aid kit in my bag!
you're sad?, i'll buy you your favorite things and we can watch your favorite show even if i don't like it
you're bored?, i'll talk to you for as long as you want!
I know your work schedule. You should still make time for me and yet you barely do. What do I have to do to make it to where you can be on the line to spend endless days with me? It isn’t fair. Your job doesn’t matter, I can find different ways to support us. Just love me!
With how much I spam the gc I’m pretty sure I already crossed over into being annoying lols.
It is hard resisting being so clingy and begging for constant attention. But I know it is wrong. But. I still yearn so badly for their complete attention. It is so hard not talking to them and giving them space. All I do is wait for their attention.
If I get a stalker I want them to be obvious so that I don’t spiral into self destructive paranoia. I’d rather be certain of being watched then not know.
Wanna be stalked by a boy that's super bad at it and really obvious with it just so I can always figure out he's there and know how much he cares for me