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NOOOOOOOOOOO I GOT MY NUMBERS MIXED UP I'M SORRY 🙏🙏🙏 But that is the perfect answer these characters are everything

A1's height is everything to me actually 😭 That boy is a WEAPON. But also.. how does A2 feel about the height difference between them?? (The way that they're both over 6 foot and A1 is still so much taller is crazy to me btw)

a2 is the big boy actually! and i think a1 still thinks of a2 as his little buddy most of the time

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Writing so good it's got me cramping up like I'm dying

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if i ever interacted with you and it was awkward just know im sorry and painfully aware that sometimes i come off like a person who is having the first conversation of their life

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Meanwhile, in an alleyway in Naples

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Hey guys.. *staring into space like I've just been to war* do you guys know you can send me questions and asks??? Because I will speak about anything, sometimes I just need someone to light a fire in my brain.

It's like rock bottom in my head, it's just cold and empty of content sometimes like-

(Well actually it's always going on about eight different tangents at once but that's not the point- the point is feel free to ask me stuff /pos)

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Siblings in media you will always be so special to me.

Dean and Sam Winchester

The siblings that you are.

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HANNIBAL... HRHRRHRHE *RIPPING UP THE FLOORBOARDS* *SCRATCHING AT THE WALLS* SEASON- SEASON THE SEASON OF SEASON 4 WHERE IS- I- WILLIAM GRAHAM- MADS- HUGH MI- DANCYH- HANNIBAL-

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"Baby...We can’t both exist. I’m going to become half of you and I need you to know that every moment you love being yourself that’s me loving you and loving being you because you’re going to be something extraordinary…. you’re going to be a human being."

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The voices...

The voices...

Jane and John (sibling coded):

Jane and Dyssebeia:

Dyssebeia and Epiales (same vibes):

Epiales and John:

Me when I want to write a story with my own characters and plotline but I know for a fact it's like a patchwork of eight different series' put together to make a homosexual mess

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I know we all talk about Will and Robin interacting in season 5- but I raise you:

Mike and Robin???

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As a fic writer, i need every reader to know that:

I don’t care if your comment is coherent. I know what you mean and i love you

I don’t care if you ramble. I read every word and i love you

I don’t care if you leave a comment on a fic from four years ago or leave comments/kudos on like ten of my fics in one go. This isn’t IG, pls stalk my AO3. I love you

I don’t care if you mention the same thing in your comment that four other people have already mentioned. It’s actually really useful to know what resonated with people and I love everyone who takes the time to tell me they liked a particular turn of phrase

I don’t mind if your comment is super long or just a couple of sentences, i love them all

I love you

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Thinking about Mike freaking out and talking out loud in s5 because he's worried for Will's safety- but instead of the s3 Mileven type confession where he admits it and everyone stops to smile, it's more aggressive..

"I can't lose him- not again. You know I can't! It's not the same for you- you've never-" And there's this brief, wide-eyed silence where everyone just kind of watches, this sudden realisation being absolutely devastating for the whole room while they wait for what he's about to say. And then, "I won't let them have him again." and with that Mike Wheeler picks up his fucking rifle and walks out the door.

This boy is not letting Will Byers leave him alone again. He will pick a fight with the devil himself if he has to. He's taking it into his own hands, he doesn't care about the consequences, he doesn't care who lives and dies... even if he doesn't survive the fall, he's got to save Will.

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The jackets, HELLO????? I already can smell the parallel

@greenfiend already wrote a while ago how that scene from s1 may foreshadow Mike coming out to El and I think that’s maybe it! Or they’re having a heart-to-heart after just to clear things up/open up about Will

I mean, look at him!!! It’s the same Mike who feels understood and accepted for who he is

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murray bauman would make it happen

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Okay yes- we talk about the s3 Byler fight scene all the time:

BUT CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT THE SCENE PRIOR TO THIS???

Because yes, Mike and Lucas act like assholes towards Will because they're too concentrated on the girls- but as soon as Will finally breaks and gives them the,

"Okay, fine. You guys win. Congratulations."

Mike KNOWS he's fucked up and immediately tries to fix his mistake.

"Will I was just messing around- let's finish for real, how much longer is the campaign?"

"Just forget it Mike!"

"No- we want to keep playing- right?"

*Turns to Lucas and gives him a look*

"Yeah totally!"

"We'll just call the girls afterwards-"

CAN WE TALK ABOUT THAT VS THE ENTIRE REASON MIKE IS DISTRACTED TO BEGIN WITH???

That boy has no idea how to apologise to El, how to make it up to her- after being broken up with he fully pins the blame on El and argues to Lucas that it makes no sense- that he's the victim.

BUT AS SOON AS WILL'S UPSET WITH HIM? Now that's a whole other story.

And to really get that message across, also pay attention to the very blatant fact that Lucas has been trying to help him with the girls this entire time, telling him what to say and do- but it's Mike's turn to tell Lucas what to do when it comes to Will, that's where his expertise come in. It's second nature, with Will he knows what to do, he acts on instinct to reach out and soothe any injury he's left and he only ever blames himself.

Up until the fight that is.

Say what you Will about season 3 Mike Wheeler, but I will defend that boy with my life.

Yes, he acted like a douchebag- but he was also an extremely confused, extremely frustrated 14 year old boy, with no idea how to fix all the mistakes he seemed to be making just by trying to do what people were telling him was right.

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We dont talk enough about byler holding hands here

And the way will rubs mike's thumb with his pinky

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Chip has moved in the shadows his entire life almost, he only stood out when he wanted to- when he knew he needed to.

Because he's a thief first and foremost, a bastard, with silent footsteps and the ability to dodge impossibly- to avoid and sneak past at every turn.

But when Jay and Gillion entered the scene, that changed.

When he looks at them he must admit he shines a little brighter, grins a little wider, stands a little taller- but it's not just that... Jay and Gillion are the sun and the moon, and when they turn to look at him, no matter how he tries to hide, to blend in to his surroundings, they always find him. Left, right and centre.

And it makes him feel vulnerable. But it makes him feel seen.

It's a terrifying feeling, having those eyes pierce through him and skewer him right through the middle. The one defense measure he's used his whole life, the thing that's kept him alive all this time- stolen away from him in the blink of an eye, in the turn of a head and the shine of a smile.

Yes, it feels a little bit like dying- but doesn't it also feel a little like love?

For the first time since he was taken on board and given a family, a sister; all of who were torn away from him, he is being looked at like a living, breathing, feeling thing.

Like running out onto the sunlit deck with not a fear in the world, like watching moonlight glimmer on the ocean and hoping to one day swim down there and feel it, like defeating his sister in their play battle and reigning victorious, King of the overseas, King of it all.

That feeling is distant to him now, hidden from the sun for so many years, staying far away from the chill of moonlit waters. All this time, it's felt unfair to him to know that he is alive when they are not. So he avoids sensation, avoids the gold and silver the world offers him freely.

Until he finds the gold of a girl he can't help but run with, the silver of a boy who's hand is cool in his, as he helps him breach the surface of the swaying ocean.

Jay drags him out onto the sunny deck to spar, to dance, to laugh and navigate their course together.

Gillion grabs his hand and pulls him down into the cold midnight waters, pulling him through glimmering waves and showing him even more beautiful things he's never seen underneath it all.

Sometimes he wonders, when he sees Gillion pray or Jay drift, when their eyes begin to glow and magic seems to spill from their lips, seeping out of the corners of their mouth, if their goddesses ever missed him- if they ever noticed his absence, or more prominently, his return.