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i know this is a frank blog and frank isn’t in the picture, but i still find it funny they arrived to 2005 vmas in an armored truck. they’re obviously so precious and worth more than money that they need an armored brinks truck. this is some kanye west type and you know this was gerard’s idea. i love it.

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propaganda i am not falling for:

always moving on. some goodbyes need to rot a little. some griefs need to be held in the mouth like a stone.

beauty defined by algorithms. beauty exists in crow feet and smile lines

pretending to be chill. i’m not chill. i care deeply and inconveniently. i read into things. i write poems about eye contact

beige apartments with no soul. give me bookshelves and incense and loud art

sneaky links and unclear intentions. i want devotion. and also clarity

treating books as decor. read them. dog-ear them. argue with them in the margins

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i know the idea of 'hear me out' type posts is weird non-conventional attraction but i also have a fascination for the people whos 'hear me outs' are conventionally attractive characters from the most OBSURE media. like if you were asked to name a sexy character and your first thought is the girl from a mostly forgotten 1980s canadian animated scifi musical im gonna be way more intrigued by whats going on in your brain than if you had said like. the dragon from shrek yknow.

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My mom left an eviction notice for the carpenter bees burrowing into our porch

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I've come to the conclusion that i don't have a gender, I'm just me. But how does one make that clear in a world based on gender roles and as someone who doesn't look nor want to look androgynous?

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"i didnt want the girls to want to fuck me, i wanted the straight guys to want to fuck me"

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why are teen girls this hysterically funny for no reason

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"preferred name" "preferred pronouns" um NO? there's my real name and my real pronouns. apparently you are using some fake evil version?

usually im in favor of evil versions of things but yikes that's rank you skank

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giving birth sucks tbh. not only do you and the baby you’re birthing almost die, usually you shit yourself and often you tear your taint. then you have to push an organ out of your body (placenta) and if even a little of that remains in your body, you can hemorrhage to death or develop an infection that essentially rots your body from the inside out. even if you had a relatively “easy birth”, you bleed for weeks on end. even after that stops, your body and brain is changed for the rest of your life, the pregnancy leeched minerals from your bones, that can cause osteoporosis later. minor urinary incontinence is not uncommon, brain scans of people who gave birth show permanent changes in their brain, you’re never quite the same.

I say all of this not to say giving birth is disgusting but it is a harrowing and visceral experience. society downplays how fucking awful it is and makes it out to be a ~magical~ experience but it isn’t a magical transformative experience for everyone. it can be an extremely traumatic experience for someone who wanted to carry a pregnancy to term, much more so for someone who did not want to be pregnant in the first place or someone who knows their baby won’t survive the birth. anyway, abortion is a right. pregnancy and birth aren’t just inconvenient, it’s fucking awful.

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Turns out I accidentally have been working on the image in reverse this entire time wow what if i kill myself

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viewing queer identities as “this is the label that makes me happy and feels most accurate now” rather than “this is who I am, was, and always will be” will definitely take the pressure off, friends. changing your mind is proof that you have one.

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people hold so much hate in their heart. me especially though

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They should make a content label for ai posts like they do for mature content so I dont ever have to fucking look at it

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i’m not like other guys, i like talking heads, i like david lynch, and i know what harsh noise is

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ohhh i get it. my chemical romance is forever

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im still here i’m always so obsessed w how gabriel bá draws gerard simply the best to ever do it im sorry for ever picking up a pencil Also greatly enjoyed issue 1