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December 17, 2022 | Saturday - 7:04pm

Few days before Christmas Day and few more weeks before my Birthday Day.. Currently listening to #CigarettesAfterSex coz why not? Kidding! Just feeling their vibe lately.

Did nothing today but to lay down on my bed.. I just slept the whole afternoon, scrollin' my tiktok and reading Bangtan AU tweets. Ha! Self are you proud of me?

I just took a bath and I feel like sharing this here.

Feels like this is me.. my personality.. my true self.

I enjoy this moments even though I am alone and I don't have that someone with me.. right now.

#QueSeraSera just like my tatt says.

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3am | Feb 19

hello, its me again.

i am writing this tmblr post because i am sad.

i feel so empty. i am confused.

i dont know what's next for me.

i feel like a dissappointment.

silently crying and hoping tomorrow i'll be okay.

am i the only one like this? i am such freak.

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been losing interest in everything lately.

im so mad at my self that I can't do things what I want.

i just wanna travel back to 2019.

but at the end of the day, i still wanna trust the process because i believe there's a reason for everything.

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im not okay. totally not.

i feel like i've been stuck at home for a year now. fck! this pandemic. i work but i dont work out , i do go out some time but that's not what i want. tsk! (maybe it helps? but a little i guess) all i want is to do something fun, something new, different and something i haven't done before. i wanna go to places i haven't gone before, i wanna go to cafes though im currently enjoying making my own coffee.

kinda hate my life lately.

im bored and im boring and maybe thats why nobody loves me. 😭

--- #happysunday still! weekend is almost over again.

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im so sad. so, so sad.

i wish this pandemic is over. i want my normal life back. i want to travel again. i just want to get of our house. i just want to experience going home late again.

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“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.”

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“Don’t allow your wounds to turn you into a person you are not.”

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“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

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hello! today i found out i was covid-19 positive.

i was kinda sad but i dont want anyone to know.

i dont how to share it with my friends either.

anyway, just like BTS's song life goes on.

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What I want in a guy?

- respectful and understanding to me and to my parents

- have dreams and clear goals in life

- accepts and loves me for who I am

- supports me to whatever I want to achieve in life

- a little taller than me

- nice smile and good physique

- happy and postive person

This may be impossible to be found in a guy but I know when he comes it'll be worth the wait. So, waiting game is ON.

#valentines2021 #singleandhappilywaiting

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Still Single at 25.

Being single is definitely not a big deal to me. Though there are times that I wish I was in a relationship with someone already.

Being single is okay. No commitments but there's always a pressure. Pressure from friends that are already in a relationships and family that are always sayang "naunahan ka pa ni..." , "ilang taon kna nsan na.." Well, I just have to get used to that.

Being is single is sometimes happy and sad. Happy because I can still do whatever I want without asking someone's permission except for my parents. Sad because there's no one asking me "How's your day" and "Did you ate already". But then again, I'm good and still alive.

Being single at this age means that I still have a lot of things to accomplish on my own. So, I'll just enjoy this while I can because when the right guy comes everthing will be different and I'll realized that its worth the wait.

#valentines2021 #singleandhappy #02142021

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I've been keeping this feeling for a whiile now, finally, had a chance to cry it out today and now tears won't stop from falling.

Maybe they are right that I might be crazy and maybe this is the reason why nobody likes me. I am loud and not pretty.

They say, if you are still alive right now you are lucky. But not for me, they were days that I wish I was dead. I am nothing, can't think of anything I am good at aside from faking I am good and always happy. I guess even if I am gone no one will care.

#013021 #anothermonthhasended #almostayearinquarantine #midlifecrisisisashittything

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October 24, 2020

I feel terribly sad and lonely today. IDK why?

slept the whole day hoping that this will help change my mood.

woke up past 6 in the evening, dinner was prepared but still feeling ?!/+

its already 9pm and i feel like crying .

gosh! i hate PMS-ing 😭😭😭

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“My heart is so tired.”

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Sep 17 | Thursday | 0832

Im not okay. Still not okay. Im feeling a lot of emotions lately. Sad. Happy. Lonely. Sometimes Angry.

I really want to see my friends and give them each a hug but I can't cos physical distancing must be observed. I need some fresh air to free my mind from all the worries I have but I can't cos #Corona is still around. 99 days til Christmas but I can't still feel that Christmas spirit. I freakin' hate you 2020. so much. I wish this will be over soon. please.

-E

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“She lives the poetry she cannot write.”

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“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.”

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