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funny, how feelings work.

one moment you’re doing you

and next thing u know,

ur in love

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6am : I was about to pick up my phone and answer your call. 11am : I was about to read a message—reminding that I should never starve myself. 3pm : I was about to tell you how stressed I am—how I wish that I was already at home. 7pm : I was about to see you. So we could eat our favorite dinner together. Sweet moments and bright smiles that could make me forget that I had a bad day. 11pm until midnight : We never have the chance to say goodbye because none of us wanted to cut our conversation, but we always ended up sleeping with a joyful soul. And if today you’ll still want to know how my day went, I just wanted to tell you that in my heart, nothing has been the same.

ma.c.a // I miss the little things (via vomitingwords)

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I honestly think I was meant to be with you.

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This morning as I woke up, I forgot just for a bit That we weren't together. I was about to text you, "good morning, I love you" And as soon as I thought of that, I realized. Fuck. We aren't. It hurt pretty bad but I was in a rush to get to work on time. I can't help but wonder, do you get the same urges to? Do you ever forget we're not together? Are you happier? Does it hurt too? Do you miss me at all? I miss you every second of the day. Whether I'm awake or asleep I think and dream only of you. I don't know if this messed up but if for any reason you were to change your mind, I'd say yes faster than a heartbeat. Despite all the pain. Id take you back. I want you back. Do you?

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Dear Ely,

8-8-17 I'm going to be writing you letters everyday (or when I can). I don't know if they'll always be on here, but I'll have them in paper for sure. I started officially yesterday and I even put it in an envelope and everything. My goal is to write to you until we're back together again. I know that's a long shot. But it's one of the few things I have to hold onto right now. I want you back so bad ely. I fucking miss you. I'm miserable and my heart aches for you. As of now, I don't want to love anyone else but you. You're the only person I want to love and call mine and if I can't I don't want anyone else. I wish so bad that we could've been strong enough to get though this. I need you.

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Dear Ely,

8-6-17 I miss you so much. I keep replaying over and over what happened. How things went down. I wIsh I could’ve been better mentally. I also wish you would’ve told me every time you weren’t feeling okay or upset with me. I wish I could’ve told you all the times I wasn’t okay but my mental illness kept me from it.  It was so hard. We communicated  But we didn’t communicate enough. All I want is to be beside you I still love you I don’t want to love anybody else I don’t want to be with anybody else. I want you back so bad I miss you  I wish I was with you right now Everything hurts My heart hurts so bad I want to get better for you I want us to work But you said you don’t feel the same anymore I want to still fight for you  I want to make you fall in love with me again I want you back so so so bad Please come back to me I know that it was hard  And it’s probably for the best that we broke up  But I don’t know if that was the best for me  Because you’re the only thing I want right now I don’t want anything else but you. I want to ccall you my baby my love my girlfriend mi amor

mi gatita my ely  mine But I can’t  CAuse we’re not I don’t want anything more than to have you back please world help me out here baby I miss you please please please 

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The best thing I value about you I don't feel lonely When I'm with you And I don't feel lonely When you're not around me Being with you I don't feel lonely

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3-9-17 It’s kinda frustrating. Or maybe not frustrating. It’s just different. We don’t like all the same things. We don’t do the same things. Everyone I was with or would try to be, There was always a lot in common. And I mean it’s not hard cause I like most things And Don’t get me wrong, We like a lot of the same things too But with you, it’s like a surprise everyday Finding out something you don’t like Or you don’t really do. You know, being with someone doesn’t always mean You like and do all the same shit. And that’s everything is completely perfect It’s about being able to communicate, compromise, and care about each other. And you’re making me really check myself on that So even though it is different, I don’t mind it all Cause, I like being with you.

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I was used to cold hearts around me, that when i met yours, burning, alive, I jumped into your fires.

A.A.Roses (via wnq-writers)

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I adore you.

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I was really scared of not being able to feel for you as much as you do for me But, I don’t think I’m worried about that anymore.  I’m still not ready yet To jump into anything But, I’m starting to think You got me feeling some type of way I thought of you  And my chest went heavy But not in a bad way It was like there were hundreds of butterflies Just fluttering around Trying to get out I’m hoping these thoughts and these feelings aren’t temporary That they aren’t just part of some infatuation  But the start of something Because the last thing I want to do Is end something. The last thing I want to do Is hurt you.

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But in the night he woke and held her tight as though she were all of life and it was being taken from him.

Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls (via liquidlightandrunningtrees)

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3-3-17 You do this weird thing Where you take my hand and kiss it Your lips touch everyone of my knuckles Before you kiss my whole hand one more time It's strange And no ones ever done that But maybe it's something I can get used to

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How were you able to do that? Maybe it’s weird to me because I’m on the other end of this. But even after all that time I spent talking about her, All that time you listened to me speak about the way I felt about her And you were able to just take it And still like me anyway After all that time you still had feelings for me?

I know you said you liked me But I can’t help but feel maybe it’s more than that Because I’m typically on the other side And I don’t want to be the one to break your heart

I’m not sure what else I’m saying But I do know I don’t want to hurt your feelings And I’m sure that what I’m doing is selfish

So please bare with me And I hope that whatever comes it from this Isn’t bad I’m not in the best state to be in anything And I know we talked about it a little too But my heart isn't where yours is at this moment And maybe with time it will be And maybe that's I fear I have That I won't be able to catch up to your feelings I really don't know if we should keep this going In the fear of me hurting you Because that's the last thing I want to do But inside me I don't want whatever is happening to stop So I guess we're just gonna have to see where this goes And I really hope It doesn't end horribly