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I'm gonna make a post with all of the 'stick figure violence' adjacent images I have. if anyone knows any similar ones I'm missing PLEASE SEND ME THEM. I have an unhealthy obsession with them.

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Building modern America: Ukraine-born painter, Louis Lozowick (1892-1973).

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ayy!

No idea if anyone is still on here, but I've finished looking for the 💫true me💫, taken a needed rest from this platform and returned in a new branding - probably with a lot less activity now that I am busy in a variety of fields and have recently acquired the official licence to do stuff (aka graduated) - but still, I'll drop whatever I find interesting here from time to time.

Some of the updates since 2018 or whatever I forgot when was the last time I posted eughh:

9 years have passed since I began embracing the dada path (it's been so long it is kinda frightening how fast time passes - even though time is only our invention, just like language)

I experienced a major existential crisis, now it has gotten a bit better and I'm looking for ways to beat it

Through changing and juggling tons of hobbies I finally found the dream activity I always keep coming to

I made fantastic friends who showed me entire new universes I would've never visited otherwise

I still hold educational lectures and workshops in random places in my city and beyond (this feels like the most stable thing I've been doing along with music)

I still admire The Simpsons, although not to the extent I used to; anyway, insert obligatory 'Principal Skinner ftw' here

I exist, and this is the best miracle of all

Also it's June and whatnot, so I have the duty to let you know I'm aroace - although you may have noticed - and I probably should expand on it but in a different post.

To my Seypover squad if you're still here - thank you for all the fun we had, I remember all that with warmth till this day. And to all the other followers - glad to see you all again!

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it is also a breath of fresh air to come across familiar experiences shared by different people. glad to know we are truly not alone, even though our surroundings make us believe otherwise.

I'm closeted. Still am. In a religious environment that could go either way about it, but still social suicide in the place I'm living in to be anything queer because people really, really don't like it. For a while, I was "relieved" that my queerness is an "invisible" one — except, y'know, Iearned that it really isn't. People will start noticing an absence of something, and I just have to keep relying on the same excuses to make sure they don't suspect me. Usually, I throw them off with fictional / celebrity "crushes." Or letting them know I'll delve deeper when I'm older.

But knowing the term aromanticism in and of itself is, for me, a breath of fresh air. I've suspected it from a younger age and I feel confident in that nowz while giving myself leniency to explore if I'm not. I think without this term, I would've believed something is wrong with me. Now though, I can feel comfortable in my own identity — how to hide it, how to be content with it, know where to explore. Labelling yourself is not the be all end all and should never be a reason to invalidate yourself or others for the experiences you / they experience — it's meant to be liberating, a tool of understanding. And I think going in with that has helped me. I don't go deeper into exploring what "subtype" of aromanticism I am — but totally respect people who do, and labelling aro has led me to discovering other labels like aplatonic, and while I'm not that, it's good to know more about people's different experiences.

Growing up aro, to me, is mainly about finding the label and breathing fresh air, even if the environment is unsafe.

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thank you so much for bringing it up! an important question indeed. i am currently undergoing somewhat of a religious crisis, and viewing myself as aroace is an obstacle sometimes when it comes to embracing both queerness and involvement in the church. the christian culture surrounding me is ultraconservative and hostile to worldly lifestyles outside of marriage and childbirth (some go to the extent of saying e.g. a woman cannot be saved without childbirth), so i find it way safer to draw the abstinence card around others as for now, but later on it will raise questions. i've already had some bad experience with the clergy and i am afraid to go through it again. i would probably offer that teen to consider: while there are rules, they should not be applied out of thoughtless obligation 'because i have to', let alone hatred and us vs them juxtaposition. even taking 'queerness/purity' binary out of the equation, we aren't 'good and bad' kind of different, we are all in need of the Lord's presence and help. i remember a quote i saw in a themed magazine article on how different people observed Lent and it was the most insightful way to look at things: 'for some, fasting is giving up certain foods and for others, it is a simple milk porridge shared with a child'. by and large it has to do with the meaning, not just the text. ofc there are pieces of advice appropriate for the majority, but they are rarely one-size-fits-all word for word even for those who are married and have children. i personally am inspired by the lutheran ethic of 'Beruf' as a spiritual calling - a profession, hobby or any other activity you are devoted to - done as a way of honouring God. it has supported me a lot in a way of showing one's worth outside of relation-based social norms.

There's a 13 year old Christian in the tags who is like "being aroace does NOT make me part of the lgbt community I'll block you if you say I am" and I just...

Look, I remember being that kid. I remember being 14 and aroace and all in on purity culture because it was the only way to protect myself from the sexualization I was experiencing (despite it really just being more sexualization). I remember having a whole speech prepared about how it just means I'm extra committed to chastity and besides there's one verse in the Bible that says it's better to be single so actually I'm the single most virtuous Christian ever, not one of those dirty sinful gays!!!1!1!!!!

But the thing is, you're not fooling anyone with that. You have way more in common with the dirty sinful gays than you do with your parents and religious authorities who only accept you because they hear "asexual" and think "waiting for marriage". And the people who are all about you "protecting your purity" now are not going to approve of you doing the same thing at 25 or 30 or 50.

If you are aroace, you are a sexual minority. And it is possible for that identity to coexist with a Christian identity, but it is not possible for that identity to coexist with a Christianity that judges and persecutes people of other sexual minorities. For your own sake, you need to deconstruct what you've been taught about other queer identities, and about your own.

But I, as the local Norse Heathen who went through this deconstruction years ago, left Christianity partially because of it and is now focused on making my own faith community more friendly to those who don't comply with compulsory sexuality, am not the one to have this conversation. So I am opening the floor to queer Christians, especially ace and aro Christians, who have deconstructed these views and retained an authentic Christian faith. What would you say to a newly identified Christian aroace teen who still sees queerness as the enemy?

I'm a guest in your tags, but I hope to remain a welcome one.

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I wish everything was quieter and softer and less often. 

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feel like y'all would like this article about how the devaluing of platonic relationships has a lot to do with Western culture:

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you cannot really ever make up a music genre for a joke because there is no possible permutation of terms in which somebody is not already making serious and awesome music, anyway this is a recommendation of estonian psychedelic folktronica which is getting me through a lot of dissertation writing rn

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It still rains under the umbrella

I wish I could believe in love Like everyone else does I wish I could feel it The way they do

There weren't any butterflies in my stomach just dread

I kept pushing on Hoping eventually some kind of spark would appear

It didn’t work And I left someone caught in my crossfire

I wish I could just be normal I don’t know why I had to be so different

And the worst part Is that I like being this way It enhances my love for everything else in this beautiful world But I know in my heart That no one will ever get it And that’s the thing that actually makes me lonely

Not the absence of romance, The absence of understanding

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Gianni Frassati (1924-1989)—Mathematical Landscape [oil on canvas, 1962]

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David Lynch: "Sound is almost like a drug. It's so pure that when it goes in your ears, it instantly does something to you. The thing that I'm after is when the whole becomes greater than the sum of the parts. It's so beautifully abstract. The great thing is that it can't be picked to death, because it's so fantastically complicated. It's a beautiful realm to experiment in. There's a magical thing that happens that elevates it to another place. And it can't happen until everything is there. It can jump in those last moments, and it has to do with sound and picture working together in a certain way. It's such art abstract thing."

(Weirdsville USA by Paul Woods, 1997)

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Oskar Schlemmer, "Das figurale Kabinett", 1927

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I feel like a lotta people don’t understand this but <2 is NOT just a “platonic heart.” It’s used by the aspec (mostly aro) community to signify a love that differs and is divergent from the norm and what is typically seen as “love.” It is also used by loveless aros to signify their lack of feeling love, but presence of another emotion like compassion or appreciation.

Please don’t simplify it down to being a “platonic heart.” It’s so much more than that.

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could you explain why parallel fifths are bad please if its not too hard?

as far as I understand, they're specifically bad in the context of species counterpoint. the goal of species counterpoint is to make two melodies that sound good together while also working independently. using parallel fifths and octaves makes the melodies too similar. I'm not sure exactly why this doesn't apply to sixths or thirds, but I think it's related to fifths being "perfectly" consonant and sixths being "imperfect."

outside of species counterpoint I still don't know though

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Scriabin - Prometheus: The Poem of Fire

My inner Romantic likes to match music with the weather, and so the other night walking to the local Dairy Queen, I put on Scriabin to match the light of the full moon. Again I’m hypnotized and drawn in by the weirdness and the ethereal sounds from his more “mystical” works. Here is the Poem of Fire, which in a way is essentially his second piano concerto. For orchestra, chorus, piano, and organ, this work is highly dissonant and revolves around his “mystic chord”, which opens the work and which Scriabin also referred to as the “Promethean chord” [A D♯ G C♯ F♯ B]. I can’t help but think of Beethoven’s Eroica Symphony, which is also rooted in a Promethean spirit. Perhaps this is Scriabin’s way of bringing a new language to music? That of atonality, but order in the supposed disorder? One fun fact is that this work also includes a clavier à lumières, or color organ, in the score. The color organ is an instrument Scriabin conceived specifically for this piece, and it is an organ that also shines light as it is played, and each light corresponds with a specific key, which was Scriabin’s way of trying to show the tone painting that he did when he wrote music, using colors as he could see them thanks to his chromesthesia [audio-visual synesthesia where he associates different pitches with different colors]. The work is a fantastic build up, and should be included in every list of “music to hear before you die”.

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Goodbye!

Due to grand personal changes, I'm not able to be on Tumblr anymore. Apart from that, the atmosphere of this site has become quite, well, heavy for me. I can't find time to maintain this blog, and frankly speaking, I've lost interest in doing so.

My drawings are now transferred to a private platform where I just keep them as an archive. I am not planning on deleting this blog as for now, it'll just be inactive. The wall is cleaned except for one post, my first one, as a memory. My Klemm era is over - it's time to go and start fresh.

Thank you everyone who has been with me all along! We shared our interests and made each other smile. I'll always remember you. Still, due to personal reasons, I have to move on.

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Hi! [archived]

Some drawings of Klemm (who is my OC), a camera-headed robotic figure. I also decided to name my blog after them, because why not? Klemms (which is in fact a species) exist in my universe which is all about types of robotic figures, and they all have different occupations. Some are in charge of network connection, some - of graphic design etc.

My OCs are mostly inspired by Bauhaus works and Felix Kubin's music.