ippilulu
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ippilulu · 17 hours ago
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do you think you could ragebait raf by doing the sharks are smooth bit
well, anon. i did try!
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ippilulu · 4 days ago
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Meeeee
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I have no outline tho, just vibes
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ippilulu · 4 days ago
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This is so beautiful and perfect and opened my eyes to the India I'd been passively seeing through the music in my headphones and stories on my phone as the scenery whipped past me. Somehow I'd forgotten to see what was all around me, and this fic made me realise it. I love love love desi stories so much because they have this kind of magic that echoes in my heart like nothing else.
ISHQ MUBARAK
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PAIRING: Rafayel x Desi!Reader
SUMMARY: Amid the whirlwind of a grand Desi wedding, a wandering artist finds unexpected inspiration in you, someone who hums old songs and wears their heart like bangles. In the spaces between celebration and silence, love takes root—soft, slow, and impossibly tender.
WORD COUNT: 11.5k
NOTES: Owned up to my ethnicity with this fic, the motivation? Do it messy, do it cringe, but don't give up. Also, desi wedding galore.
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You don’t remember the moment your motherland stopped feeling like home—only that it happened quietly, like the way bangles lose their shine without you noticing. 
Your phone buzzes with another voice note from your sister—her voice crackling through bad signal and laughter, layered with the chaotic clamor of a house overrun with wedding prep.
"And don’t forget to bring those gold jhumkas! The ones from Ammi’s collection? Yes, those. And for the love of everything holy, DO NOT show up in sneakers this time!"
You smile to yourself, forehead pressed to the airplane window as the clouds scatter below like torn cotton. The sun casts long fingers across your lap. You're almost home. Almost.
It's been two years since you left for your master's degree. Two years of cheap takeout, solo library marathons, homesick breakdowns, and video calls at odd hours just to see your baby cousin learning to walk or your Dadi yelling about the price of onions. But nothing—not even the rigors of academia or the pride in your independence—quite soothes the ache you feel now.
You press your palm over your heart, feeling the thrum of it. Your childhood echoing in a language your mouth still dreams in.
You don't realize you're crying until the plane begins to descend.
Not the dramatic kind—just a quiet leak from the corner of your eyes, like your heart forgot how to hold its shape and is spilling through the seams. You swipe at your cheek, pretend it’s nothing. No one notices. Everyone’s too busy adjusting tray tables and waking up their kids. Somewhere behind you, a baby shrieks. Ahead, a flight attendant hums an old song under her breath.
Below you, the land stretches like a story you used to know by heart but haven’t read in years. Dry fields. Slow rivers. Crowded rooftops and ancient roads. You inhale, and it smells like recycled cabin air, but your mind tricks you—it smells like incense and heat. Like dust and sweat and the inside of your Dadi's spice drawer.
It smells like home.
You've been gone for too long. Long enough for your tongue to wrap around a new language, for your silence to grow roots. Long enough to know what it's like to eat alone, cry alone, celebrate alone. Your degree is somewhere in your bag, folded between old receipts and melted chocolate. People will clap you on the back and say they’re proud.
But no one knows how hard it was.
How many nights you watched weddings through your screen, bangles chiming through pixelated videos, your sisters laughing in outfits you'd never worn. How often you let a Desi song play on loop just to fall asleep, the lyrics whispering in your ears like an apology.
Maybe you’re being dramatic. Maybe it’s the altitude.
You didn’t mean to drift. Life just kept pulling. You forgot the names of streets you once knew like the back of your hand. You forgot how loud your family gets when they’re happy. Or angry. Or hungry. You forgot the colors.
And then—an invitation. One of your cousins is getting married. You're not even sure which one. You stopped keeping track when they all started sprouting kids and growing beards. But it’s a month-long wedding and everyone will be there. Everyone. Your siblings. The aunties who’ll definitely judge your weight and your unmarried status. The cousins who still call you by that embarrassing nickname. Your Nana. He's the one you miss the most. 
You haven’t even landed yet and already your heart feels too big for your ribs. You missed this place like you miss an ache—constant, dull, a part of you. There’s a fear too, coiled in your gut. What if you’ve changed too much? What if it’s not the same?
What if it is—and it hurts?
The plane touches down.
You reach into your bag, reapply your lipstick, and whisper a silent prayer.
Let this month stitch something back together in you.
Let it feel like home again.
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The heat hits you first—thick and cloying, like a shawl draped around your shoulders the moment you step out of the car. The driveway is already full, colors blurring as cousins pour out like a flood. A kaleidoscope of voices tumbles over each other: squeals, shrieks, the holler of your Chacha shouting “Move, move! Let her breathe!” as someone tries to shove a laddu into your mouth before your suitcase has even touched the ground.
“Oye hoye! Look at her! Gori hogayi hai!”
“Do you even eat there, or just survive on air?”
"Beta, you remember me, right? I'm your mother's chachi's devar's wife."
You blink. You're not sure who to hug first. A tiny cousin is already clinging to your leg like a koala. Another one, maybe eight, is dragging your bag toward the door while telling you about how she’s getting her ears pierced next week and do you want to come?
There’s laughter from every corner. Someone’s phone is playing a song on full volume. An uncle you barely recognize is wiping his forehead with a handkerchief and asking about your thesis. 
By the time you enter the house, your cheeks ache from fake smiling and your ears are ringing from the overlapping chaos of children crying, elders blessing you, and someone setting off fireworks even though it’s 3 PM on a Tuesday.
Then you see him.
Your grandfather.
Sitting in his usual chair, white shalwar kameez freshly pressed, glasses perched low on his nose, a bowl of peeled oranges in his lap like always.
“Meri beti,” he says, arms open.
You bury your face into his chest, the scent of sandalwood and old paper wrapping around you like a lullaby. The noise fades for a moment. His hands tremble slightly as they hold your shoulders, but his smile is steady.
“You’re home,” he murmurs, like it’s a truth the universe should bow to.
“I missed you, Nana.”
“I can tell. You’ve lost weight. And that glow—where is it? We’ll feed you. Don’t worry.” His eyes twinkle. “You’ll be shining again in two days. Just you wait.”
You laugh, and for the first time in months, it doesn't feel hollow.
Behind you, your sisters are already arguing over which lehenga you’ll wear to the wedding. Your brothers are negotiating who gets the guest room. Your mother is shouting from the kitchen. Somewhere, a child wails about someone stealing their last gulab jamun.
The house is bursting at the seams.
And in the middle of it all, you exhale.
This—this chaos, this noise, this life—it fits into your bones in a way your quiet studio apartment never could. You’d forgotten what it was like to belong so loudly.
Nana leans in conspiratorially, whispering, “Don’t tell your mother, but I saved the last gulab jamun for you. Come. Before your sisters sniff it out.”
You follow him through the courtyard, dodging small feet, a rogue football, and a chorus of voices calling your name.
In your chest, something cracks open.
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Your room still smells like jasmine and old notebooks.
The bedspreads have changed, but the walls are the same—covered in faded posters, hand-painted memories, and glow-in-the-dark stars your childhood friends insisted would help you sleep. It’s chaos and comfort all at once. There’s barely space for the four of you to sit, let alone stretch, but somehow you’re all sprawled on the floor, feet tangled, arms overlapping.
“Remember when she tried to run away because Ammi wouldn’t let her buy that glittery purple sharara?” your oldest sister snorts, pointing at you with a tube of lipstick she’s stolen from your makeup bag.
“I was ten!” you protest, laughing.
“You were dramatic,” your second eldest sister smirks, flicking her braid over her shoulder. “We found you sulking behind the swing set with a granola bar like it was your last meal.”
“She still does that,” the middle sister teases, nudging your knee. “Only now it’s over men and deadlines.”
You groan, flopping back on the rug. “I regret coming home.”
“No, you don’t,” your eldest murmurs, softer now, brushing your hair out of your face. “You missed us.”
The room quiets for a beat. There’s no music, no screaming relatives, no henna fumes or wedding bells—just the sound of four hearts syncing up again after too much time apart.
You missed this. The shared language of glances. The way you don’t have to explain your silence here. How your sisters know when to pull you into a hug without asking why your voice trembles.
There are binders. Color-coded. Made by your middle sister who’s taken on the role of wedding planner with the precision of a military general.
"You're wearing yellow for the haldi, green for the mehndi, red for the shaadi, and blue for the walima. No negotiations."
“Don’t even think about escaping wedding shopping tomorrow,” the other two warn. “We’re going to that madhouse bazaar. And you are wearing yellow.”
“Why yellow?”
“Because,” they say in unison, “it makes your skin glow.”
You don’t argue.
The laughter rises again, old and new, stitched into the seams of the night.
You fall asleep to the sound of your sisters breathing next to you, lulled by the hum of belonging.
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The market is loud enough to make your teeth vibrate.
Rickshaws honk like they're being punished. Street vendors chant their deals in an unholy chorus. The smell of frying pakoras, gasoline, and rose garlands drapes itself over you like a second skin. It's sticky, messy, and somehow—it’s exactly what you needed.
You haven’t walked these streets in years, but your feet still remember the way the uneven tiles make your sandals catch. The colors around you scream in every direction: turmeric yellow, chili red, emerald green, sequins that wink in the sun like mischief.
Your mother is already fifteen steps ahead, deep in bargaining mode with a vendor who looks like he hasn’t smiled since 2004. Your sisters flank you like a desi SWAT team—one arguing about blouse necklines, the other snapping photos of lehengas to send to the family group chat that currently has 472 unread messages.
Your ears ring with:
“Aunty, yeh last price hai!”
“Beta, is mein lining nahi hai toh thoda dhekhna padega…”
“No, not that dupatta! It looks like mosquito netting!”
You’re half-listening. Mostly trying not to sweat through your kurti. The dupatta keeps slipping off your shoulder. Your bangles ring with every breath. A rogue toddler grabs your hand thinking you’re his mom. You're exactly three seconds from turning around and running straight back into the AC of the car when—
Everything quiets.
Not literally. The market is still chaos incarnate. But your mind blanks for a beat—just long enough to feel like something shifted in the air.
Across the narrow, crowded street, in the shade of a peeling blue storefront, someone is watching you.
He’s sitting on a wooden stool, a sketchpad balanced on his knee, a pencil paused mid-stroke. His shirt sleeves are rolled up to his elbows, collar open, dark hair messy like he ran a frustrated hand through it too many times. His skin catches the sunlight in that golden, almost unfair way.
And his eyes.
His eyes are the sea right before a storm. Quiet, searching, endless.
You blink.
He doesn’t.
His gaze is fixed, not on your face, but on your earrings. Your jhumkas—the same ones your Nani gave you when you were fifteen. They're old, oxidized gold with tiny red beads, and they swing every time you move. You feel suddenly hyper-aware of every motion, every breath, every step. Like you’re under glass.
He tilts his head, sketchpad now forgotten on his lap.
And you—you don’t look away.
You should. You should say something to your sisters, fake a call, pretend you’re not affected. But there’s something magnetic about the way he looks at you, like he’s not just seeing you, but seeing through you. Like he’s been starved of color, and you just walked into his line of sight wrapped in a hundred shades of it.
A scooter zips between you, breaking the line of sight.
You gasp a little, startled, and look down—finally breaking the gaze.
Your heart is hammering. Not out of fear. But something… unspoken. Ancient. Like your soul recognized something your brain hasn’t caught up with yet.
Your sister bumps your shoulder. “What are you looking at?”
You glance back. He’s still there—but now, sketching. As if the moment never happened. As if you didn’t just crash into a silent kind of thunder between two strangers in the middle of a chaotic market.
You turn back to your family.
But you feel him still—like a thread tugging at your wrist.
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Rafayel wasn’t supposed to be here for long. He came for pigment—something earthy, something unnameable. He thought the reds would inspire him, or maybe the deep indigo he heard came from this region. He didn’t expect... this.
He didn’t expect you.
You are standing in the middle of all this noise, holding up a sky-blue sari to the light, and laughing. There’s a smear of haldi on your wrist. A streak of kohl at the corner of your eye. You’re trying on glass bangles that catch the sun and break it into prisms.
And he cannot move.
It isn’t a thunderbolt kind of moment. It’s the kind that creeps up his spine and sets his chest aching.
It’s the way your laugh folds into the bazaar’s song and yet stands out.
It’s the way your sisters shout over one another, but you tilt your head and listen; patient and amused.
It’s the way you look radiant even when you're scolding a rogue child.
Paaon tale mere zameenein chal padi (The earth beneath my feet has started to move) 
Aisa toh kabhi hua hi nahi (This has never happened before) 
He doesn’t know the song. He doesn’t understand the lyrics playing from a rickshaw parked nearby, but the melody sticks to his skin like paint.
He hears his name being called distantly—his guide, confused, trying to tug him back toward the dyes. But he’s rooted. Drenched in the color of you.
He watches you laugh, mouth full of stories he doesn’t know yet, voice lifted in that language he hasn’t learned.
He steps back.
He’s an intruder here. A guest.
But oh, how his fingers itch to draw you—no, paint you—with every shade the sun left in this country.
You pass him without seeing him again. The crowd swallows you.
Rafayel is left standing in a pool of spilled marigold petals and longing.
And for the first time in months—his fingers twitch.
Inspiration bleeds through the haze of his block, like color finding water.
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It’s three days later.
You’ve barely slept. Between pre-wedding events, endless fittings, and relatives using you as a glorified errand runner, you’re running on three hours of sleep and one aggressively sweet cup of chai. You’re back in the market—again—because your younger cousin decided she hates her mehndi outfit and apparently you’re the only one she trusts for “aesthetic guidance.”
“I swear I’ll owe you for life,” she says, fluttering her lashes.
“You already owe me for when I lied to your mom about you sneaking out to that concert,” you mutter.
You're too tired to dress up. Hair in a braid. Simple shalwar-kameez. Just your everyday silver jhumkas, because you feel weird without them now. No makeup, no pretense. You’re not here to be seen.
Which is, of course, why he finds you now.
You’re crouched by a rack of embroidered dupattas, texting your sister and regretting all your life choices, when you hear a low, thoughtful voice just behind you:
“You dropped something.”
You look up—and there he is.
Closer now. Too close, maybe. The kind of close where you can smell the faint sea-salt in his cologne and count the tiny flecks of light hidden in his dark eyes. He holds out his hand, palm up. In it is a single silver jhumka.
You feel for your ears, finding one bare. You hadn’t even noticed it was missing.
“Thanks,” you say, reaching out.
His fingers brush yours as he passes it over. Not by accident.
Not subtle.
He doesn’t let go right away. Just an extra second—barely long enough to call attention to it. Long enough to make your skin burn.
You straighten, suddenly aware of how much taller he is. He’s dressed simply—white shirt, sleeves rolled again, one button casually undone at the collar—but there’s something meticulous about him. Like a man who knows exactly how to exist in a frame.
His sketchpad is slung under one arm. His eyes never leave your face.
“I saw you here a few days ago,” he says, voice calm, eyes sharp. “You were… hard to miss.”
You raise an eyebrow. “Because I was yelling at a shopkeeper?”
A ghost of a smile touches his lips. “Because your earrings sounded like a song I forgot I knew.”
You stare at him.
He doesn't blink.
You break eye contact first. “That’s dangerously close to a line.”
“Wasn’t one,” he says softly. “If I were trying to impress you, I’d have quoted poetry. Or lied.”
“You’re not trying to impress me?”
“No.”
He pauses, tilts his head.
“I’m trying to remember the exact curve your bangles made when you laughed.”
You forget how to breathe.
Your cousin chooses that exact moment to shout your name from two shops down, waving a hideous magenta lehenga like it’s a victory banner. You don’t look away from him, but your mouth curls into something that’s halfway between a smirk and a smile.
“Duty calls,” you say.
He nods but doesn’t step back. “You’ll be back?”
“That depends.”
“On?”
“If you keep staring at my jewelry like it owes you answers.”
That smile again, this time more open. “Only if it keeps making music.”
You take a step back, heart beating far too fast for someone who just met a man whose name she still doesn’t know.
But as you turn to leave, he says, “Wait.”
You look over your shoulder.
“I’m Rafayel,” he says. “Painter. Traveler. Terrible at remembering things.”
You arch an eyebrow. “Things?”
“People.”
You hold his gaze.
Then, with a half-smile, you say, “Try not to forget me then.”
“I already tried,” he says quietly. “Didn’t work.”
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You're sitting on the veranda with a bowl of cut mangoes, trying to ignore the sound of your cousin playing “Sheila Ki Jawani” for the seventh time this morning. The shaadi countdown has entered a new phase of intensity—someone’s having a breakdown over missing heels, someone else is sobbing about flowers, and a child just ran past you naked holding a samosa.
Typical Thursday.
Your phone buzzes. It's your sister.
come outside
RIGHT NOW
ur not going to believe this
You’re already outside, but you get up anyway, curiosity prickling down your spine.
Then you see it.
The house next door—your grandparents’ old neighbor’s bungalow that’s been empty for months—is open. Curtains drawn back. Movers bustling. A man standing at the gate, talking to your mother.
Not just any man.
Him.
Rafayel.
White shirt again. Sunglasses pushed into his hair. A small smile playing on his lips as your mom gestures wildly, no doubt trying to understand who exactly this foreign-looking man with art-supply-colored fingers is and why he’s moving in next door during a wedding.
You freeze.
He glances toward you, and his smile shifts—something quieter, softer, almost smug.
Your stomach does a flip it has no business doing.
Of course, your mother clocks the silent exchange. She calls out your name like she just uncovered a scandal.
“Come say hello! Our new neighbor just arrived! Artist banda hai, you’ll like him!”
Before you can fake a phone call or a divine intervention, your entire extended family flocks to the gate like vultures spotting free pakoras. Uncles. Aunties. Cousins. At least three toddlers. Your sister’s already live-tweeting it in the family WhatsApp group.
Someone asks if he’s married.
Someone else asks if he’s single.
Your chachi squints suspiciously. “Artist? Matlab, kya karta hai full-time?”
Rafayel doesn’t flinch. “I paint.”
“Paint? As in walls or...?”
“Canvas,” he says, deadpan. “And sometimes silence.”
Your mamu side-eyes him like he just spoke French.
A cousin snickers. “Do you also paint feelings, bhai?”
“Yes,” Rafayel says. “But only the unspoken ones.”
The chaos halts for one holy second as they invite him into the house. He walks in like a man accepting a dare. Hair a little too perfectly tousled, expression unreadable—but his hand brushes yours lightly as he passes.
You feel it in your wrist.
Your grandfather is already seated at the head of the room, his cane leaning beside him, newspaper folded with surgical precision.
“Artist sahib,” he says, voice low and amused. “Come. Sit. Tell us—what exactly are your intentions toward our pigment?”
Rafayel blinks. “My... intentions?”
Cousins snicker.
You groan. “He means what color you’re looking for.”
“Ah,” Rafayel says, lips twitching. “Ultramarine, if I can find it. And maybe vermilion. Something that bleeds a little.”
That shuts them up. Slightly.
Nana nods, eyes gleaming. “Good answer. Sounds expensive.”
One of your younger cousins leans in and whispers—loud enough for everyone to hear— “He looks like a drama hero. All broody and tragic.”
Another pipes up, “He’s hot. Is he rich too? Or is this a starving artist situation?”
You elbow her gently. “You all have no shame.”
“We just care about your future, sis,” she says sweetly, then looks straight at Rafayel. “Do you like chaat?”
He nods. “If it burns the roof of my mouth and makes me question my decisions, yes.”
They love him. Instantly.
Tea arrives. Biscuits. Then laddoos. Then a plate of steaming samosas. Rafayel is juggling a cup, a plate, a toddler in his lap, and three questions from three different relatives at once.
But he keeps looking at you.
Between bites, between glances, in that moment when your jhumka catches the light and you sip your chai with both hands around the cup—he watches. Not like a man who wants to undress you with his eyes. Like a man who wants to learn you like a language.
Aisa lagta hai kyun teri aankhen jaise  (Why do I feel as if your eyes) 
Aankhon mein meri reh gayi  (Have settled in my eyes)  
Nana clears his throat loudly. “You know,” he says, tone casual, “in my day, a man came home only if he meant to stay.”
The entire room goes still.
You make a strangled sound into your tea.
Rafayel’s mouth quirks. “Then I hope I’m not offending tradition. I was told there’d be snacks.”
Nana sips his chai and gives a secretive smile.
And you know you’ve lost this round. Rafayel has officially infiltrated.
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It’s nearly midnight, but the house is still humming.
The elders have finally gone to bed, the kids tucked away like mismatched socks in spare rooms and floor mattresses. From the rooftop, faint laughter still drifts—your cousins playing antakshari. A fan creaks overhead as you sit cross-legged on the bed, brushing your hair out with slow, absent strokes.
The day is still clinging to you in pieces—Rafayel’s fingertips brushing yours at the doorway, his long lashes lowered as he sipped chai, the way your Nana watched him like he was trying to read a painting that kept changing under his gaze.
You try not to smile.
But then the door creaks.
“Knock knock,” comes the sing-song voice of your eldest sister as she slips in uninvited. “Or should I say... Rafayel Rafayel?”
You groan. “No.”
“Oh yes.” She plops down beside you, stealing the brush from your hand. “Explain to me how the world’s most expensive painter just so happens to be hanging around our living room? Looking like a Renaissance sculpture with abandonment issues?”
“He’s here for pigment,” you mutter.
She wiggles her brows. “Is that what we’re calling it now?”
Your second sister pokes her head in. “Are we talking about the mysterious artist who doesn’t eat sugar but somehow accepted two laddoos from Dadi?”
You chuck your pillow at her. She dodges, cackling, and climbs in beside you. “Oh, you’re blushing. This is historical.”
You bury your face in your hands.
The third walks in dramatically, arms crossed. “I just want to know if we’re getting an international jiju. I need to update my Snapchat story accordingly.”
“There is nothing going on!” you yell, tugging the dupatta over your face in mock shame.
But they know better. They’ve seen the way you looked at him. The way you didn’t look at anyone else. The way you spoke a little softer around him.
The way his gaze lingered even after you'd left the room.
“You know what he told Nana?” your eldest sister says, smirking. “That the light in our courtyard reminded him of Florence. Florence, yaar. Who talks like that?”
You mumble through your scarf, “A pretentious idiot with a brush addiction.”
The second sister hums. “A pretentious idiot who kept staring at your jhumka like it was whispering secrets.”
Your third sister nudges you, “Are you gonna kiss him or sketch him?”
You groan again. “Can I have one peaceful night in my own house?”
But when they finally leave, trailing whispers and giggles behind them, the room is too quiet again. You lie back, fingers still warm from brushing your hair, the ghost of a gaze heavy at your wrist.
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The courtyard isn't special.
It’s cracked tiles, uneven shade from a too-old neem tree, and the constant whir of a dying pedestal fan set up for the caterers. But somehow, in the late afternoon light, it feels like the only place untouched by wedding chaos.
You escape here more often now. Everyone’s too busy with haldi prep, last-minute fittings, sifting through bangle boxes and earring piles. The aunts are arguing over oil brands, the cousins are choreographing dances with the passion of Broadway stars. You’re slipping away before someone hands you another gift basket to decorate.
There’s a rustle—fabric, leaves—and then him.
You don’t startle. You’re almost used to it now. His quiet arrivals. The way he steps into a space like he was always meant to be part of it.
Rafayel.
Squatting on the ground this time, surrounded by ceramic bowls—actual hand-thrown ones—filled with powders that shimmer like magic. Ground turmeric, dried marigold, beetroot, crushed hibiscus, even something that smells faintly of cardamom and ash.
He looks up but doesn’t speak.
Just watches you as you approach, the corner of his mouth twitching in recognition. His eyes flick to your anklet when it chimes faintly against the stone. His gaze lingers. Longer than polite.
You sit without asking. Without needing to.
“Are you starting a spice shop?” you ask, picking up a pinch of burnt orange powder.
“I’m making a base for coral,” he murmurs. “The kind that dries dusky, not bright.”
“And that requires... cooking ingredients?”
He dips a brush into water, adds a swirl of powder. The hue that blooms is molten. Dreamy. “Natural pigments have soul. Artificial ones lie.”
“You sound like my Nana when he talks about real ghee.”
That earns a chuckle.
Then, a quiet beat.
“You always come here after everyone else is busy,” he says. Not a question.
You shrug. “Hard to be the youngest. Loud family. I disappear and no one notices for ten minutes.”
“I notice.”
It’s soft. Not performative. Like he’s telling you he breathes. A simple fact.
You glance at him. And this time, you really look.
He’s beautiful, yes—but not in the obvious way. Not in the way your cousins whisper about, half-laughing. There’s something in the curve of his mouth when he concentrates. In the quiet reverence with which he holds pigment. In the way his knees are dusty from squatting too long and he hasn’t even noticed.
“Why do you keep showing up wherever I go?” you ask, not sharply.
He doesn’t flinch.
“I think I was always going to end up here,” he says, still mixing. “You just happened to be in the frame.”
You should roll your eyes.
Instead, your fingers tap absently at your bangles.
“That’s a line.”
He glances up. “Maybe. But it’s true.”
You want to say something back. Something clever. Instead, you reach out and swipe a finger through the coral pigment he’s just finished blending. It stains your fingertip a shade deeper than the sunset.
“Will it stay?” you ask.
“Days,” he replies. “Weeks, if it gets under your nails.”
There’s a pause.
Then—
“Better than henna?” he asks.
You go still.
He doesn’t elaborate. Doesn’t say how he knows.
Maybe you had mentioned it once, offhand. At the bazaar. While he handed you a tissue for your chili-stung mouth.
You hadn’t thought he was listening.
He was.
You look down at your coral-stained finger.
“It’s different.”
“How?”
You hesitate. Then:
“Henna… feels like a promise. This feels like a secret.”
He nods. “Some promises lie. But secrets—secrets always tell the truth.”
Your eyes meet. Not flirting. Not play. Just that pull again.
You rise to leave—because if you don’t now, you’ll stay, and if you stay, you’ll say something you aren’t ready for. But as you brush past him, he lifts his hand like he might reach for your wrist. Stops. Thinks better of it.
Still, you feel it.
The warmth of him. Close. A little too close.
“Next time,” he says, quietly, “tell me what color you want. I’ll make it for you.”
You pause, turning just slightly.
“And if I want a shade that doesn’t exist?”
His smile curves, slow and knowing.
“Then I’ll invent it.”
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You don't remember agreeing to be the haldi handler, but somehow your arms are covered in it and your cousins are weaponizing rosewater like it’s war paint.
The inner courtyard is a riot of flowers, steel thalis, and three aunties yelling conflicting instructions. There’s singing, of course—off-key and heartfelt—and a cousin blasting Punjabi remixes from a Bluetooth speaker taped to a potted plant.
You’re wiping your hands on the edge of your dupatta when he appears.
Rafayel.
Again.
Leaning against the carved stone archway like he walked out of a Mughal painting and forgot to go back in. His sleeves are rolled up. He's wearing a kurta—pale ivory, thin enough that the shadows of his movements peek through. His gaze is easy but intent, scanning the courtyard until it finds you.
You freeze. Your cousin, of course, does not.
“Oh hello again, Sketchboy.”
You groan.
Rafayel’s lips quirk, just barely. “It’s Rafayel.”
“I know. She told me.”
You send her a glare. She ignores it.
He walks in further, cautious not to step on the wet haldi puddles. “I was looking for your grandfather,” he says, to you.
Her eyes gleam. “Nana’s upstairs. But since you’re here—do you want to help?”
He raises an eyebrow, and she thrusts a bowl of turmeric into his hands.
“You are always hovering around her,” she says with a wicked grin. “Might as well get your hands dirty.”
You open your mouth to protest—to save him—but he just nods. Calm. Graceful. Hands the same golden bowl back to you, and another box on top of it, like it’s a peace offering.
“For your bangles,” he says, eyes warm. “So they match the rest of you.”
Your cousins howl.
Another one whistles. “He’s got lines! Who gave this man lines?!”
You flee before they start chanting wedding shlokas.
He follows. But only after you’ve gone far enough that no one can see how your cheeks burn beneath your earrings.
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That night, you escape to the rooftop.
The city is hushed, just the whisper of distant car horns and the soft rustle of leaves. The stars blink lazily. The fairy lights from the courtyard glow below like grounded fireflies. You breathe in silence.
And then—
You know it’s him before he speaks.
He doesn’t say your name. Just steps beside you, a safe distance away, holding two steaming cups of chai.
“Your sister cornered me,” he says mildly. “Asked if we were in love yet.”
You snort. “I hope you told her we weren’t.”
“I told her we weren’t yet.”
Your laugh catches, half a sound.
He hands you a cup. You wrap your fingers around it slowly.
The night presses close. The chai smells like cardamom and something darker—clove, maybe.
“You were looking for Nana?” you ask.
He nods, gaze distant. “I asked him about indigo. Real indigo. He told me a story about how it dyes memory, not just cloth.”
“That sounds like him.”
“He said…” Rafayel turns, voice quieter, “...some colors never leave the skin. No matter how hard you scrub.”
You don’t reply.
You just drink.
The wind teases the hem of your dupatta. His shoulder is only inches from yours now, even though neither of you moved. You can feel the warmth of him in the space between.
“I remember the sound of your anklet before I saw your face,” he says, out of nowhere.
You turn your head sharply.
He’s not looking at you.
Just the city.
“But I think…” he adds, barely audible, “...I would’ve found you either way.”
And your heart does something reckless.
You shift your hand slightly. It brushes against his on the cement railing. He doesn’t pull away. Neither do you.
Neither of you say anything about it.
But you don’t let go.
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The house is a riot of colors and movement.
Marigold garlands are being strung across doorways. Plates of samosas, mithai, and chai pass from hand to hand with military precision. Your eldest massi is in a standoff with the decorator over the exact shade of pink for the drapes. The children are being bribed with mango juice to stop climbing the stage pillars. Your cousin nearly sets his kurta on fire trying to light a candle.
And you’re in the center of it all—trying to fasten a stubborn anklet that refuses to cooperate with your patience or your Garara.
“Uff, I swear I’m going to cut it off,” you mutter, crouched on the low veranda step.
“Would that be considered an act of war here?”
The voice is low, amused—and far too close.
You freeze.
Looking up, you find him standing above you, bathed in the golden hue of the setting sun. Rafayel. Dressed simply—white kurta, his sleeves rolled up to his elbows. His hair is tousled like he’d run a hand through it one too many times. His eyes, though—sharp as ever—are focused only on you.
He kneels slowly before you, tilting his head up. “Need help?”
You blink, heart thudding. “You know how to tie an anklet?”
“I know how to observe.” His voice drops a little. “You were pressing too hard. The clasp just needs a little patience.”
He reaches forward before you can protest. His fingers brush yours, gentle, cool.
It’s suddenly very quiet despite the chaos around you. Like the volume’s been turned down on the world just so you can hear the sound of your own pulse.
He fixes it carefully, then lets his hand linger a second longer than necessary against your ankle, his thumb grazing skin. Your breath catches.
When he finally looks up, there’s something unreadable in his eyes. Something reverent.
“You wear color like it was made for you,” he murmurs. “Sound, too.”
You blink. “Sound?”
He gestures lightly. “Your anklets. Your bangles. That jhumka. You don’t just move. You announce yourself.”
You try to laugh it off, but your cheeks are warm. “Bit poetic for someone who paints with mud and beetroot juice.”
A flicker of a smirk curves his lips. “You haven’t seen what I can do with turmeric and heartbreak.”
You’re saved from replying by the sudden shriek of your sister yelling your name from the terrace. “OYE—stop flirting! We need help with the gajre!”
Rafayel’s eyes crinkle with silent laughter as you groan and get up, brushing off your hands.
“I’m not flirting,” you shout back automatically, already turning away.
But you feel him watching you go.
The anklet chimes with every step, traitorous and delighted.
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The courtyard is transformed.
Fairy lights drip from the trees like liquid stars. Orange and pink drapes flutter in the breeze. Someone’s playing the dhol like their life depends on it, and the beat rattles through the ground and into your ribs. Laughter crashes like waves—loud, unrestrained, warm.
This is what you missed.
Home.
Family.
And right now, the stage belongs to you and your sisters.
You’re twirling, lost in rhythm, dupatta flying behind you like fire, bangles clashing with the music. Your sisters flank you, all of you laughing, dancing in sync, every step a memory coming alive. Anklets sing with every movement. Across the crowd—near the water fountain where the elders have congregated—he stands.
Rafayel.
Wearing deep blue, like storm clouds threatening to pour. Hair swept back now. A quiet shadow among all this noise. But his gaze never wavers.
Not even for a second.
It’s not just admiration. It’s... hunger. The kind born not of lust, but of longing. His eyes drink you in like he’s found the muse he crossed oceans to chase.
And for a moment, you dare to meet his gaze mid-spin.
The world doesn’t slow—it stutters. Your breath snags. The dance fades into background noise. His lips twitch at the corner, not quite a smile, not quite a challenge.
He looks like he wants to walk straight into the fire of it all.
But he doesn’t.
Instead, he stands rooted, one hand curled around a cup of chai he’s forgotten, the other clenching loosely by his side like he’s holding back something urgent. Something unruly.
The music swells. You turn away, cheeks burning, heart loud.
You shouldn’t be thinking about him this much.
You shouldn’t be wondering how it would feel to rest your head against that chest, warm and steady like thunderclouds before the rain.
Tu hi tu hai joh har taraf mere (Now that you are there all around me) 
Toh tujhse pare main jaaun kahan (So where can I go far from you) 
You mouth the lyrics with the music, not realizing how they cling to you like a secret.
Later that night, when the guests begin to trickle out and the lights grow softer, you pass him by in the corridor. He’s leaning against the arch, one leg crossed over the other, gaze unreadable.
“You danced like you were trying to set something free,” he says quietly.
You pause, heart skipping.
“And did I?” you ask.
His voice is low—dangerous. “No. You caged something else instead.”
You don’t know what to say to that.
But neither of you moves. The moment stretches like silk—thin, shining, threatening to snap.
Until your little cousin barrels down the hall screeching, “SWEETS!”
Rafayel glances up, chuckling. “Always the dramatics in this family.”
You smile, but it trembles a little at the edge.
Because you know it now.
This isn't just a crush.
It’s something deeper.
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The smell of mehndi hangs thick in the air—earthy, sweet, nostalgic. The house is glowing with fairy lights, cushions thrown everywhere, dhol beating loud enough to shake your ribs. Cousins are dancing. Aunties are gossiping. Kids are high on sugar and unregulated enthusiasm. Everything is bright and loud and spinning.
Except you.
You sit on the edge of the steps, hands folded neatly in your lap. Bare.
Everyone else has swirls of deep brown trailing up their arms, names of lovers hidden in curls, flowers blossoming across skin like poetry. You? Nothing.
Because in the chaos—between fixing someone’s ripped lehenga, calming your crying niece, and being sent to find a charger for the henna artist’s phone—you missed your turn.
By the time you got back, the artist was packing up. Everyone else had gone back to eating, laughing, taking selfies.
No one noticed your hands were still empty.
No one asked.
You don't cry. That would be stupid. It’s just mehndi, right? You’re not the bride. You’re not even the sister of the bride. You’re just... here. The guest. The helper. The fixer. The extra set of hands.
But god, it hurts.
You slip away from the crowd, down the back path that leads toward the garden. It’s darker here. Quiet. Your bangles don’t jingle. You’ve stopped moving like music.
That’s when you hear him.
“You look like someone punched your soul.”
You turn.
Rafayel stands leaning against a tree, one hand in his pocket, the other holding a small paper cup of juice. He doesn’t move closer. Doesn’t try to crowd you. He just looks.
You try to laugh it off. “What are you doing here? Don’t tell me you were invited again.”
“I wasn’t,” he says. “I was summoned. By your grandfather. Said there’d be sweets.”
You snort. “Of course.”
He walks forward slowly. Stops beside you, close but not too close.
You look down at your bare hands.
He sees.
“What happened?”
You shrug. “Nothing. I was just—busy.”
“With everyone else.”
You look away.
He’s quiet for a long beat. Then:
“Would you let me?”
He reaches into his satchel and pulls out—of all things—a fresh, sealed henna cone.
“I heard you say how much you wanted it. I may have… spent the last few days learning.”
You stare at the tube. Then at him. Then back.
“You what?!”
“I watched tutorials. Got a few lessons from the lady who sold me the bangles. Look, I might’ve accidentally stained my hands orange in the process, but…” he shrugs, sheepish. “I can try?”
You stare.
And then you laugh.
Loud and full and stunned. “You? Want to do my mehendi?”
“I figured…” He rubs the back of his neck. “If I can paint on canvas, I can paint on you.”
Just then, your cousins stumble onto the terrace. Spot the henna cone from above. Spot Rafayel.
“Oh my God, look at him! He’s going to do her mehendi?!”
“I thought he was a foreigner!”
“He’s not even Desi and he’s trying! What is this, a fanfic?”
“Bhaiya, please marry her—”
Rafayel, flustered and surrounded, gets to his feet. “Okay—I take it back, this was a terrible idea—”
You’re laughing so hard you have to lean against a pillar.
But eventually, you pull him by the wrist and escape up the back stairwell, breathless and grinning.
“I wasn’t joking,” he murmurs when you’re alone again. “I really want to do your henna.”
You look at him—at his stained fingers, at the sketchbook peeking from his bag, at the way he’s looking at you like you’re the most sacred canvas he’s ever seen.
“Okay,” you whisper.
“Okay?”
You hold out your hand.
He takes it like it’s made of glass.
And begins.
You sit cross-legged on the marble balcony, the air sweet with mogra and anticipation. Somewhere behind you, your cousins are whispering by the window, spying, no doubt—but for once, you don’t care.
The moonlight falls soft on your arms as you extend your hands toward him. Your skin glows under its silver wash, and for a second, Rafayel just stares.
“Are you sure?” he asks, voice low. He’s already kneeling in front of you, henna cone poised delicately between long fingers.
You nod.
“Positive.”
His gaze lingers on your face—eyes searching for hesitation, for teasing. There’s none. So he exhales, rests his hand lightly under your wrist, and begins.
The first line is slow.
Tentative.
You hold your breath as the cool trail touches your skin. His touch is featherlight, reverent. The henna’s earthy scent begins to bloom between you as intricate curves unfold beneath his steady hand.
You glance at his face—and your breath catches.
He looks... different.
Focused, yes, but something else flickers there too. A sort of awe. As if your skin is sacred and this—the act of decorating it—is worship.
“You’re good at this,” you whisper, half-teasing.
He smiles faintly. “I practiced on oranges and my own leg,” he murmurs. “This is... better.”
You laugh softly. “I should hope so.”
The pattern snakes up your palm in elegant spirals. Your fingers twitch once, brushing against his wrist, and his entire body stills for a second too long.
“I didn’t expect...” he starts, then stops.
“Didn’t expect what?” you ask.
“That I’d care this much about doing it right.”
He doesn’t meet your eyes. You don’t press.
The air between you grows heavier as he works. The world shrinks to nothing but the warm hush of your breath and the cool glisten of henna tracing lines over your skin.
It’s too much—too quiet, too close, too everything.
So you break it.
“Did you come really come this far just for color?” you ask, softly.
His hand pauses for a moment.
“No,” he says. “Not anymore.”
Your heart stumbles.
“I came for inspiration. I was blocked, empty. Nothing made sense on canvas. But now...”
He glances up.
“You do.”
And there it is.
The truth, plain as stars.
Your throat tightens.
“Rafayel—”
He gently lifts your other hand. Brushes his thumb over your knuckles. “May I?”
You nod, breath caught between your ribs.
He begins again, slower this time, more deliberate. Every curve of henna—a confession he isn’t ready to say out loud.
As he draws, you realize what he’s weaving into your palm. A crescent moon, delicate and shaded, blooming from a sea of waves and lotuses—an ocean of you and him.
And hidden in the swirls of your wrist, nestled between the paisleys—
A single stroke. He signs his name, woven into the intricate design.
You don’t say anything.
Not now.
Instead, you close your eyes.
You don’t need words.
The henna speaks for you.
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You wake to the scent of dried henna warm on your skin. The morning sun slices through sheer curtains, dancing over the gold trim of your pillow.
You sit up slowly.
Your hands are dry now, the patterns stained into your skin like secrets.
You lift them to the light—and stare.
You had seen it forming last night, glimpses between breathless silences and the brush of his fingers. But in the full glow of morning, it’s mesmerizing.
Waves. Lotuses. The crescent moon—so delicate it looks like a smile. Everything twined with the tiniest, near-invisible strokes of text—
His name. Hidden in the curve of your wrist. Not loud, not bold. Secret. Intimate.
You run your thumb over it. Your chest aches in a way it shouldn’t.
Outside your room, the house is already alive—laughter, clinking dishes, someone shouting about roti. But here, it’s still quiet. Still yours.
You press your palm to your cheek and smile. Just a little.
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You weren’t planning to wear anything that would draw attention.
But your sisters had other plans.
Somehow, you ended up in an emerald-green lehenga and so many churiyan stacked on your arms, you feel like a walking wind chime. They curled your hair, pinned your jhumkas just right, and lined your eyes with a black liner so sharp it could cut.
“You look like heartbreak—personified,” your cousin said, snapping your picture.
You didn’t say it, but you were already holding it.
Because on your hands—woven into your skin like a soft, silent rebellion—are Rafayel’s designs.
His ocean.
His name.
You weren’t going to tell anyone. You were just going to survive the event, perform the group dance, maybe eat a gulab jamun or four, and avoid thinking too hard.
But the universe had other plans.
You walk into the courtyard.
Someone sees your hands.
And the chaos begins.
“OHHH MY GODDDD!”
Your middle sister grabs your wrist like its evidence. “Yeh kisne banaya? This is NOT the henna artist’s work.”
Your aunt peeks over her shoulder. “Arey haan, this is too modern.”
Your youngest cousin squints, snatches your hand, flips it over. “Kya likha hai yahaan…? R… A… Rafay—”
You pull your hands back. Mortified. 
“RA-FAY?” she shrieks. “WHO. IS. RA-FAY?”
You freeze. For once, you have no comeback.
Your sisters are SCREAMING. Your chachis are huddled like spies in a Netflix crime doc. One of your brothers actually drops his phone and shouts “Plot twist!!”
You try to mediate the situation, but it’s too late.
You're in the spotlight now.
“You didn’t even TELL us?”
“Is he rich?”
“Is he tall?”
“Are you in love?”
“Kya kahani hai?!”
“Show us his picture!”
“NO NO, call him HERE.”
You’re backing away when you bump straight into a very solid chest.
Rafayel.
Wearing—of course—a black kurta with the sleeves rolled up and a subtle smirk playing on his mouth like he knew this would happen. Like he planned it.
Of course he did.
The entire family goes silent.
Your chachi is fuming.
Your sister whispers, “No. Freaking. Way.”
A cousin mutters, “Ladka hot hai. You’re excused.”
And Nana?
Sitting with a cup of chai, cross-legged on the divan. Watching.
He smiles. Doesn’t say a word.
Just sips.
You, somehow, find your voice. “What are you doing here?”
Rafayel’s tone is innocent. “Nana invited me.”
Nana, not your Nana, not your grandfather. Just Nana, as if—
Your grandfather raises his cup in the air like he’s won.
The rest of your family stares. You brace yourself for questions, for teasing, for death-by-curiosity.
But Rafayel just turns to you, eyes steady, and says:
“You didn’t wash it off.”
You don’t blink. “You wrote your name on me.”
“I asked permission.”
“You did not.”
“You didn’t stop me.”
Your mouth opens. But you’re short-circuiting. The lehenga’s too tight. The night’s too loud. The mehndi is still dark.
And Rafayel, without even touching you, has you unraveling.
Your aunt whispers to your mother, “Ab inki shaadi krwani hai.”
Nana nods sagely. “Larka acha hai. Artist hai, lekin acha hai.”
You look at Rafayel. “You’re enjoying this.”
He leans down, voice low, just for you. “More than you know.”
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The music's gone thunderous again—bass so heavy it could realign your spine. Everyone's dancing now. A blur of color and sweat and wildly offbeat choreography.
You duck out, breath catching in your throat, heat rising in your cheeks, pulse still tripping over Rafayel’s words.
You didn’t wash it off. You didn’t stop me. He said it like a fact. Like a challenge.
You need air.
The side courtyard is quiet. Just fairy lights and the faint echo of Raataan Lambiyan bleeding through the walls. You press your back to the cool stone and try to remember how to inhale like a normal human being.
“Running away again?”
His voice cuts through the quiet like silk.
You don’t open your eyes. “I’m not running.”
“Then what are you doing out here?” he asks, footsteps soft as he approaches.
“Hiding from my family. They’re about five minutes away from planning our engagement.”
He laughs, quiet and real.
“Would that be such a bad thing?”
You open your eyes.
He’s standing in front of you now, too close for comfort, but not close enough to touch. That maddening in-between space where the air buzzes and you don’t know whether to step forward or step back.
You go for sarcasm, because that’s safe. “Do you always move this fast?”
He shrugs. “I don’t move fast. I move when it feels like I’ll regret standing still.”
You hate how that lands. You hate how it feels true.
He takes a half-step closer. “Why does it scare you?”
You meet his eyes. “Because you’re—we're—”
We're too different. You don't say but he realizes nonetheless. 
Something flickers in his expression. He doesn’t respond.
And then—just as you’re about to turn, to leave, to end this before it spills over—
Your dupatta catches.
Snagged, pulled, stuck—right on the button of his kurta.
Classic. Cosmic. Catastrophic.
You both freeze.
His hand lifts slowly, carefully brushing over the embroidery. You feel it in your chest, not your shoulder.
“It’s delicate,” he murmurs, eyes still on the fabric. “Like you.”
“Don’t,” you breathe. “Don’t make that a metaphor.”
“I wasn’t going to.” He finally looks up. “I don’t need metaphors. You’re already the art.”
You exhale sharply, but you’re not smiling.
You’re bare.
No sarcasm. No shield. No exit.
“Why me?” you ask. “You could have anyone. You could walk into a gallery and have a dozen muses lined up.”
He leans in just enough that you forget how to stay still.
“I don’t want a muse,” he says. “I want a mirror.”
You go still.
Your heart has the audacity to lurch.
And then—just like that—he untangles the thread. Slow. Gentle. His fingers ghost over your shoulder as he frees you. Doesn’t linger. Doesn’t press.
He steps back.
But you feel it like he touched your soul.
“You’re dangerous,” you whisper again.
This time, he smiles like he agrees. “So are you.”
And with that, he leaves you standing there—wrapped in green, stained with his name, and completely unraveled.
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You should’ve seen it coming.
It started with your sisters plotting by the sink. Then whispering way too obviously during dinner. You knew they were up to something—your family doesn’t whisper, they scheme.
So when the plans for the “pre-wedding cousin trip” were announced—beach day, whole squad, bride, groom, chaos—you weren’t surprised.
What did surprise you?
The moment you climbed into the rental van and found Rafayel, already seated by the window, sipping Rooh Afza from a paper cup, like he belonged there.
“Kya— Why are you here?” you ask, switching languages without realizing, clutching the doorframe like it might save you.
He shrugs, deadpan. “Don't look at me like that. Your sisters practically kidnapped me. I'm a victim”
Your middle sister grins from the driver’s seat. “We needed an adult to supervise.”
Your eldest sister chimes in, “And someone hot for aesthetics.”
You stare at them.
They wink at you.
You climb in, praying the universe has a sense of mercy.
It does not.
Because Rafayel ends up beside you.
Because the van is packed.
Because fate is dramatic like that.
The beach is wild.
Desi playlists blasting from a Bluetooth speaker. Cousins racing into the water, someone trying to fly a kite, the groom being bullied into a photoshoot, and your dupatta turning into a weapon in the sea breeze.
You try to fade into the background. Let the younger ones scream over one of Atif Aslam’s songs and the older ones debate biryani vs kadhai. You sit near a rocky patch, toes buried in the sand, finally breathing.
Rafayel appears like a ghost beside you.
Shoes off. Sleeves rolled up. A soft salt-touched breeze threading through his hair.
“Didn’t take you for a beach person,” you say.
“I like water,” he replies. “It never lies.”
You glance at him. “Is that how you paint?”
He nods. “Water remembers things the canvas forgets.”
You don't know what that means, but it sinks into you anyway.
“Do you swim?” he asks suddenly.
You raise a brow. “Do you?”
His smirk is dangerous. “Want to find out?”
Before you can answer, one of your cousins yells, “WE’RE DOING A SANDCASTLE CONTEST—COUPLES EDITION!”
Your sisters immediately point at you and Rafayel.
“THEY’RE A TEAM!”
You open your mouth. “We’re not—”
Too late.
You’re being handed a bucket, a mini shovel, and more pressure than a family dinner.
Rafayel just chuckles. “Let’s win.”
You glare. “I hate you.”
He leans close. “Puh-lease, you love me.”
You blink.
Then he grabs the shovel and starts building like he didn’t just drop an emotional grenade on you.
The tide creeps in slowly. Your team lost (your youngest cousin's “Shrek castle” won by sheer chaos points). Everyone’s packing up.
But you’re still standing at the edge of the water, ankle-deep, jeans rolled up, watching the waves.
You hear him before you see him.
“Come on,” Rafayel says, walking straight into the tide like a painting coming alive. “One dip won’t kill you.”
“You don’t have extra clothes.”
“I’ll dry.”
“Your shirt’s linen.”
He grins. “Then let it wrinkle.”
You stare.
He walks farther in.
The ocean wraps around him, warm and gold and endless.
“You’re insane,” you call.
He looks over his shoulder, hair damp now, smile soft and sure.
“Come anyway.”
And somehow—you do.
You step into the water.
And it feels like everything else—your name, your past, your aching chest—gets washed back to shore.
He doesn’t touch you.
He doesn’t need to.
You’re already drowning.
And for the first time in weeks—you want to be.
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The day of the wedding it's like there’s gold in the air.
Not just in the shimmer of embroidered sarees or the edge of the bride's red veil trailing behind her like a royal train, but in the laughter, the glint of bangles clinking like tiny bells, in the chaos of cousins running wild with stolen stage props and half-baked plans.
Music weaves through the air—old Bollywood, newer remixes, and a few chaotic mashups that only your loudest cousins know how to dance to. Your aunties are shouting across tables, bargaining over bets and rules like they're trading on the stock market.
And Rafayel?
He’s seated quietly at the edge of it all, in a crisp sherwani you still can’t believe he agreed to wear. It’s ivory, with subtle hand embroidery at the collar, and when he shifts in the golden sunlight, he glows like he belongs in an oil painting. A silent observer, sketching it all with his eyes.
But then his gaze finds you, and he forgets how to breathe.
You’re helping your niece with her bangles, bent slightly forward, the jhumkas by your ears swaying like they have their own rhythm. Your hair is pinned up in an updo. And that smile—God. You look like a moment he wants to paint into forever.
You catch him looking. He doesn’t look away.
Tera dil woh shehar hai  (Your heart is a city) 
Jis shehar me ja ke lauta na main kabhi  (A city I went to once and have never returned since) 
The joota chupai begins like a war. Your cousin army steals the groom’s shoes, hiding them under a sea of lehengas and fake distractions. The groom’s side retaliates. There are negotiations, ambushes, ransom demands. Rafayel watches it all unfold with mild horror and deep fascination.
“You people are intense,” he mutters when you pass him, breathless and triumphant with one stolen shoe in hand.
“We’re efficient,” you say. “You’d better watch your shoes.”
“If you want me, just ask nicely,” he retaliates.
Your breath catches at the implication—but you don’t stop walking.
Then comes the game.
A table is laid out with dozens of objects—glass bangles, a peacock feather, a toy gun, a spoon, a fake mustache, lipstick, a paper crown. A speaker blasts snippets of Bollywood songs and everyone rushes to pick the object that best matches the lyrics. It’s madness. It’s brilliant.
“Kala Chashma”—a cousin dives for the sunglasses.
“Bole Chudiyan”—you grab the glass bangles.
“Desi girl”—he snatches a bindi and sticks it between his brows with a flourish. The entire family howls.
Rafayel doesn’t win most rounds. But when “Ishq wala love” plays, he doesn't reach for anything. He just looks at you.
And that… is enough.
Later, after the crowd has dispersed for dinner and the courtyard is quieter under strings of fairy lights and the stars above, you find him sketching near the tree.
He looks up.
“You look beautiful,” he says, as if it’s a confession. “Not just tonight. Always.”
You feel your throat tighten.
“Rafayel—”
“I’ve tried not to,” he says softly, stepping closer. “I told myself this is temporary. A trip. A burst of color. A muse.”
He exhales like it hurts. “But it’s not. I love you.”
The world stills. The lights flicker. A firecracker cracks in the distance.
You close your eyes.
Because you want to believe it. God, you want it.
But what happens when the trip ends? When you go back to your studies, your deadlines, your life? He’s famous, traveling the world. You're rooted in something smaller, softer, real.
“It’s not enough,” you whisper, stepping back. “We won’t survive. Not for the long run.”
And before he can speak again—before he can soften your doubt into something brave—you slip away, heart thundering.
Days pass. 
The wedding is over. The chaos settles into memory.
Your room is quiet. His suitcase is still in your foyer. Neither of you reach for each other.
Nana watches you mope around, pretending not to stare at your phone every ten minutes. Watches Rafayel sketch for hours but never finish a single piece.
He huffs.
“Enough,” he mutters one morning. “I didn’t survive three bypasses and a youth of British colonial nonsense to watch two idiots destroy their own love story.”
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Nana’s plan starts like most historical disasters do: with the elders whispering in corners.
You should’ve been suspicious when your aunties started wearing their fancier clothes to breakfast. Or when your second cousin first removed—who usually dresses like a teenager on laundry day—showed up in a sherwani and borrowed your brother’s perfume.
You definitely should’ve noticed when your mother gave you the look. That silent, smug “don’t-ask-just-go-wear-the-red-one” look.
But you were tired, still aching from how things ended with Rafayel, still pretending not to notice how your phone stayed silent. So you let yourself be dressed, fed, ushered into a car.
“Whose wedding are we going to, again?” you finally ask.
Your brother shrugs. “Distant cousin. Friend of a cousin. Someone’s son. I don’t know.”
You narrow your eyes. “You guys don’t not know things.”
No one answers.
The venue is decorated like a fever dream. Red and gold and ivory everywhere, fountains flowing with rose petals, dhol beats rolling thunder across the marble floors.
There’s a wedding chair up front.
Two.
One of them is empty.
The other is ocuppied by you.
“I swear to God,” you whisper, turning to your sister, “if this is a prank—”
“It’s not,” she says sweetly. “It’s a plan.”
And that’s when you see him.
Rafayel. Wearing a sherwani—how many has he bought?—looking utterly bewildered and completely beautiful.
“What sort of mating ritual is this,” he asks, blinking at your grandfather, “if I may ask?”
“An intervention,” Nana says smugly, holding the sehra. “Sit down.”
You are mortified. Beyond mortified.
There are aunties placing flower garlands around your neck. Cousins taking selfies. Your niece is live-streaming. Nana is pretending he’s hard of hearing when you question him.
Rafayel is frozen in place, eyes darting between you and the absurdly ornate garden. “Are we… getting married?”
You pull him aside by the wrist.
“No! God, no. It’s not real. They’re messing with us.”
“Are you sure? These rituals look too real.”
“Just—ignore it.”
He looks at you for a moment too long.
“I wouldn’t have minded,” he murmurs.
Your heart does a backflip.
“What?”
“If it were real.”
You forget how to breathe.
Eventually, you manage to escape the fake-wedding-ambush with your dignity mostly intact. The others cheer like a cricket match has just ended. Nana looks annoyingly pleased with himself.
But the damage is done.
Rafayel walks you to your room that night. The air is quiet again, heavy with things unsaid. The corridor is dimly lit. Soft golden sconces cast shadows against the marble, catching on your bangles as you fidget, still breathless from the mayhem.
He leans against the wall just outside your room, arms crossed, eyes unreadable. He’s always been like this—wrapped in riddles, walls so carefully constructed you never thought you’d see past them.
But tonight… tonight he looks wrecked in the way only someone in love does. Beautiful and broken. Holding himself still like the wrong word might make you vanish.
You speak first. Quietly.
“I thought I was protecting myself. Maybe even protecting you.”
His gaze flickers to you. “From what?”
“From falling too deep. From making it harder when we part ways. From hoping.”
A long silence stretches between you. He doesn’t move. Doesn’t interrupt. Just listens, and that alone makes your throat ache.
“You’re Rafayel,” you say with a hollow laugh. “The world’s darling. Painter. Traveler. Terrible at remembering things.” 
“Things?” Rafayel raises an eyebrow. 
“People,” You acquiesce. “And I’m just… me. The girl with an entire extended family who thinks you’re my groom now.”
His lips twitch, almost a smile. “That was chaos.”
“That was Nana.”
He laughs, finally. It’s low and warm and you’ve missed it more than you’ll ever admit.
Then his voice drops. Soft. Bare.
“Do you really think I care about any of that?”
You blink at him.
“You think I look at you and see someone ‘lesser’? I see the girl who made me forget I was lost. Who walks into a room and makes everything brighter—even when she’s holding grief in her chest like a second heart.”
You feel your eyes sting.
“You think I planned this? You think I came to this country looking for inspiration and expected you to be it?”
His voice catches. “But there you were. With anklets that sang like wind chimes. With that laugh that makes me forget my own name. I didn’t mean to stay. But I did.”
Your fingers tremble against your bangles. 
“I missed you,” you whisper.
He exhales shakily. “You tore through my silence like a monsoon.”
His hand lifts, slow and reverent, and tucks a stray strand of hair behind your ear.
“And I haven’t been able to breathe the same since.”
You swallow thickly, wanting to believe it, wanting so badly to let it all go and just fall—into him, into the soft promise of his hands and his voice and his everything.
“We live worlds apart,” you murmur.
“Then I’ll build a bridge.”
“It’s not that simple.”
“No,” he says, “it never is. But you and I? We’re worth the complication.”
The air between you is charged, your hearts beating in tandem like two instruments tuned to the same storm. You step forward, and he does too, and for a moment the distance shrinks until only choice remains.
You look up at him, eyes wide and soul trembling.
“What now?”
“Now,” he murmurs, brushing his thumb along your cheekbone, “we try.”
“And if we fail?”
“Then at least we did it holding on to each other.”
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The salt-laced wind rushes past you as you stand at the edge of the dock, bare feet grazing warm planks, the scent of sea and paint lingering on your skin. Somewhere behind you, laughter echoes—Rafayel’s, low and lazy, like sunlight stretched across a hammock.
A seagull calls overhead.
In your hand, a half-finished sketch of a bustling spice bazaar in Marrakech. On your wrist, a silver bangle you picked up in Istanbul, etched with waves. Next to you, a weather-worn travel satchel stuffed with fabrics, pigment jars, dried flowers, postcards. Places you've seen. Places you've lived. Together.
You hear footsteps.
“You’re sketching again,” he murmurs, peering over your shoulder.
“Trying to keep up with your genius,” you tease.
He rolls his eyes dramatically. “Please. Your mango vendor has more soul than my cathedral.”
He slips his hand into yours.
Your rings clink.
Cities blurred past. Paint on his collar, your poetry scrawled in margins, nights tangled in hotel rooms with rain drumming against old windows. Bickering in markets. Singing old Bollywood songs while doing laundry in some forgotten corner of Prague.
Once, he painted you wearing bangles and jhumkas and nothing else. You framed it in the kitchen of a houseboat you rented in Kerala.
The world doesn’t feel so wide now. Not when you’ve danced in its shadows with someone who speaks in art and sarcasm and glances that set your pulse racing.
He presses a kiss to your temple.
“Where next?” he asks, voice muffled against your skin.
You smile. “Wherever the color is.”
He bumps his shoulder into yours. “Wherever you are.”
You turn to face him. Sea spray in your hair. Love in your eyes. The kind that didn’t arrive with fireworks or grand declarations. Just persistence. And softness. And staying.
Somewhere, a song plays in the distance, wafting from a small celebration down the beach.
Ae mere dil mubarak ho (Congratulations to you, my heart) 
Yahi toh pyaar hai (Only this is love) 
You both freeze.
Then you laugh. Loud and bright and free.
He groans. “That song is going to haunt us for the rest of our lives.”
You lean into him. “It brought you to me.”
He grins, his eyes soft with something eternal.
“No. You brought me to you.”
And just like that, with the sea behind you and the whole wide world ahead—you walk forward, fingers intertwined, hearts unafraid.
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I was listening to Caleb's Korean VA and—😩
Small town age-gap romance—but like you’re the older one.
You were 18. Big city dreams, sharper tongue and a hell of an attitude. Temporarily exiled to some sleepy little town because your parents thought a change of pace would do you good.
You're staying with Josephine—your mom’s friend’s cousin’s sister’s whatever—someone twice removed and barely remembered.
And that’s where you meet him.
Caleb. Fifteen. Bright-eyed. Dirt-smudged cheeks. All limbs and sunshine. Everyone in town adores him, calls him "our golden boy.” He mows lawns, helps old folks cross the street, probably bottle-feeds baby goats.
And his next target? You.
Because of course the summer you roll in like a hurricane with eyeliner and sarcasm, he imprints on you like a baby duck.
It starts cute.
He offers you the bigger ice cream cone.
He pouts when you call him “kid.”
He grins like he’s won the lottery when you ruffle his hair.
Just little things. Harmless. He’s a kid, after all. You tease him. You joke. You don’t see it—
Not until the day you’re leaving and he shows up, face serious like he’s heading to war, and just says:
“Marry me.”
You laugh. Loud. "Kid, you’re not even legal.”
But he doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t blink.
“So… you’ll marry me once I’m legal?”
You, still halfway through stuffing your duffel bag, laugh even harder. “Yeah. Sure. In the next TEN years, maybe.”
And he just… nods. Like it’s promise.
You roll your eyes, kiss his cheek, and leave town thinking it’ll be the best inside joke for when he’s grown. You forget. You move on. Life happens.
Then—TEN YEARS LATER—you run into him by chance (or not).
And there he is.
A hunk of man now—a pilot(!)—Leather jacket. That sultry voice that could make you forget your own name.
And those eyes—still bright—but focused. On you.
He smirks. “Am I legal now, Noona?”
And you’re blinking, stammering, not breathing.
He leans in, low and soft.
“You know I saved myself for you, right? All these years. All for you.”
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He’s waited 800 years to bring you flowers <3
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ippilulu · 14 days ago
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sculpted his lover's face just to be able to touch it again :(
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the arm with living pulse 💪
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ippilulu · 1 month ago
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Colonel Xia
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ippilulu · 1 month ago
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caleb was never meant to be loved.
he was destined to be cruel and cold, to crush and destroy the most delicate things. from the moment his memory can reach, he was always told the same thing over and over again.
'just focus on doing what you're the best at. ruining everything.'
screams of voices of people from the lab keep on echoing through his mind like a never-ending nightmare. they always tell him to be good and destroy something, to be tough and stop crying - stop feeling. he's not supposed to do that. he shouldn't feel anything at all–
but then you happened.
like a glimmer of a shooting star, bright and unreachable. you were too good to be in a lab, too emotional. a cupcake-sized little girl with wide-eyed gaze and childish hope that hundreds of experiments followed by memory losses couldn't erase. you were soft. gentle. too good to be true in a place so cruel - too good to be caleb's friend.
...but you didn't care about how doomed and bad - broken and messed up, rotten deep to his very bones - he was.
you smiled at him like he was your own little sun. you fed him apples and laughed when he spun you around. you squeezed his hand when he was about to leave your room. you called him your gege, and kissed his cheek in front of everyone.
you chose him; over and over again. and everytime you traced your name across his back, caleb could swear it was sinking deep into his veins - just like his love for you did.
years have passed and the two of you are not kids anymore. you're taller and older, wiser but childish enough to make silly inside jokes and laugh in all the wrong moments. you tease caleb with bold gestures and take him by surprise just to see him blush. he uses his evol to pull you in and teases you until you squirm in his arm and whine about how your gege is so, so mean.
you're both scared and probably on the way to ruin, looking at how the world has been treating you your whole life.
nevertheless, when caleb holds your hand, you're not afraid to hope that the moments of your breakable heaven will never vanish into thin air. that caleb will always be the one who wraps his arms around you when you feel down - as if he wants to save you from everything, including himself.
caleb wasn't supposed to love. he wasn't supposed to be loved.
and yet, you love him, still. and he loves you, too, even if it's his greatest sin.
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thinking of rafayel !
I imagine he has consistent nightmares of your death. Every night for 800 years he wakes up in a cold sweat, heaving and gasping for air looking around for anything in close proximity that reminds him of you. He still remembers how you faded away in his arms, how he stayed there in the same spot, hoping that it was all just a bad nightmare. He would look for you in the faces of passers by, looking for anything that will bring him back to you.
800 years of waiting.
800 years of lonesome walks along the beach, hoping that you would remember where to find him.
And 800 years of absence, absence from a figure that haunts his dreams, leaving a wistful ache to fester in his mind, his body, his heart, and his soul.
800 years of searching, until he found you again.
Looking down from the ladder, he captures the image of your face.
Still perfect as ever.
As beautiful as the day he lost you.
And finally, on the 801st year, when he awoke abruptly from his nap due to another nightmare, he didn’t feel the ache.
The ache dulled, because the cure was sitting right beside him with a comforting smile on her face.
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What do I do with myself when you go where I cannot follow? - a Caleb x MC fanfic
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Author note: I was listening to Weightless Paradise (this one) on his birthday as one does cause that song is a BANGER (I once texted my friend like 5 paragraphs dissecting the song and musically what each part meant- I am crazy crazy) and there was this one part that made me think of a sad coming-back-to-reality after being happy moment, and I was like huh. 'You know how Caleb and MC spent nearly a year apart (if this isn't canon btw I apologise), so that means he spent a birthday without her. What do you reckon would have happened on that day?' And this was born. Decided last minute not to post this on his birthday cause that would have been too angsty for even me- bro deserves so much better. Anyways, I'm sorry in advance.
Caleb relaxed his jaw as he put his car into gear, slowly driving out of the square, away from the people casually strolling and enjoying the warmth of the summer days that were only going to become more frequent as summer eased into Linkon. Her laugh still echoed in his ears- despite it being seemingly impossible considering the distance he had been careful to maintain between them lest her instincts sense him (because just like he always had a sixth sense for her, so did she).
He didn't need to hear her laugh for him to remember it, after all- after all these years, merely seeing a picture of it would ignite it in his memories. And oh, how happily he would burn in it, if he were allowed to. But the blinking light in his car's holographic display served as a reminder of how he couldn't- how he shouldn't- if he were to fulfil the vow he'd made to himself that day when he'd held her small, cold hand after the 13th cycle in the labs.
Caleb switches it off- a child's stubborn instinct to not face reality, not yet- and drives to an address as familiar as his breath. He almost expects to see the old house he'd spent most of his life in as he turns the corner… but of course there is nothing there.
For a few months after the incident, he'd notice flowers and various trinkets scattered in the remnant of the ashes- all that was left in the explosion that killed Josephine, that should have killed him too. He could never bear to stay for long, not after the few times he saw her there, silent and cold and unlike herself- so much so that his eyes had passed over the small figure in a familiar raincoat and umbrella- until he'd realised that that figure was as recognisable to him as his own.
He didn't bear the right to see her in her grief- even if from the outside it seemed like there was a lack of it. So he'd give her space, leave her alone. Caleb only wanted her to smile and laugh like the little meimei of his memories did in every idle dream he had. He protected these idle dreams with all the force of a black hole, refusing to let them become collateral in the everlasting struggle he waged- all to protect her, all for her.
For now, he was succeeding, barely. He was doing everything he could to fight against the chip- and even then all he could do was keep it at 93%.
7%.
That number haunted him sometimes, made him stare into the mirror longer than he should- late at night when the world was asleep, when he should have been asleep as well. But he couldn't rest, one thought keeping him awake beyond the fragile limits he'd managed to create for himself in his new role, his new life.
If he ever got the chance to see her once more, would she even recognise the soul behind his eyes as his? Or would the tiny 7% that remained be overshadowed by the 93% that had already been stolen from him?
Was there even a point to this struggle? Sometimes when he saw the familiar sterile white of the lab once more in the space between his nightmares and reality, he couldn't find one. It would be so much easier to let go, to give in…
But no. Even if he never met her again, he must do this for himself- he could not lose any more of himself than he already had. He would fight them until the end.
Even if it ended up being futile, his struggle still had meaning. For he'd have tried.
(For someone so used to success, this was a bitter pill to swallow. But it was either this or oblivion, and he knew which one he'd choose.)
Caleb blinked his eyes open, looking at the dim clock hovering above his car's dashboard. It was later than he'd planned- somewhere along the line his depressing thoughts had lulled him to sleep.
No nightmares this time, huh? He cracked a smile at the shadows beneath his eyes that never seemed to reduce, but froze as he looked outside.
Because there she was. The girl he'd dreamt of every time he closed his eyes, the one he'd put the little he had on the line for… The girl he loved.
His hand hesitated over the controls.
He should drive away.
Obviously she was there to talk to him- the version of Caleb in her head who she didn't even have the luxury of burying six feet in the ground. In no delusion his mind could come up with did he ever even think he deserved to see her like this.
He shouldn't even be seeing her at all, in fact. Not after what he did, not after what he chose to do every single day in his continued silence.
But there was a small, soft voice within him- was it from his current self or the child he'd buried deep within?
It's… It's your birthday. You deserve to be happy too, Caleb.
He lowered the window just a crack.
"… -out today, gege… I even got that cake you always said you didn't like but did- all because it was too expensive. It was delicious, but-" There was a pause, he could hear her crumpled breath echo across the small distance between them. …She was crying.
Caleb heard a small crack beside him and looked down, distracted. His car door's handle had given way under the force of his metal arm, and the implications of that made him bite his lip until it bled. The taste of blood in his mouth was a familiar one, and somehow it made the guilt less all-consuming as he looked back at her.
"I wish you were here. I know it's selfish, I know maybe you'd be in pain from your injuries… but your meimei has always been the most selfish when it comes to you. I can't help it, gege. I'd let the guilt eat me alive for it, but I'd still take advantage of your nature. Because… it was mine to take advantage of. And now… there's nothing of yours left for me."
Another deep breath. Caleb's jaw was so tight that it would have snapped if it were metal. He hastily wiped the wetness on his cheeks away, all of it blurring the rare image of her in his vision.
"All I have is this-" Something silver sparkled in the dying rays of the evening, and his left hand automatically took out his own copy of it, the metal cold enough to remove every trace of warmth from him- as if it knew it were not the original- as if it knew it were a mere copy that he'd made in his grief and desperation that could never even live up to the original.
"You broke your promise, gege. You promised me you'd never take it off, but you left it behind here- you left it behind with me." She slowly sat on her knees, and this seemed to be what hurt Caleb even more than the knowledge that she was crying.
"Caleb, ew! Don't sit there- you don't know what's been on it!" "I'm not sitting on the ground. I'll get a mat next time. And don't even think of sitting on my bed after this until you've changed your clothes!"
"I know I shouldn't- it wasn't… it wasn't your fault. But I feel so abandoned, Caleb. I feel so terribly lonely-" Another choked sound and he wasn't even sure which one of them made it this time- "It's not your fault, it's not- but still I blame you, gege. I'm so sorry- I'm so sorry-"
A phone ringing shocked them both out of the reverie they'd found themselves in- her sitting there sobbing softly, Caleb watching her like it was his personal punishment. He watched her wipe her face with her sleeves, raise her face to the sun and blink a few times, smiling brightly and singing a few notes, before she put the phone to her ear, a bright happy "Hi!" on her lips like it belonged there. A few seconds pass as she seems to be listening to the caller.
"Oh, that's so- it's so sweet of you to ask, haha! But no… I'm fine. Just watching a few old movies that both of us loved to remember him… My popcorn got over so I'd just stepped out to get some more. How's it going for you, Tara?"
Tara- the girl with black hair and purple eyes who always hung around her since she'd joined the Hunters' Association- and even more so after the explosion. The file he had on her life and history flashed in his mind- safely tucked at the house the Fleet had given him. But seeing her in front of him, guilt weighed him down.
This was not how a normal gege would behave. Or a normal anything- who keeps updated files of all the people their meimei interacts with just in case?
Even if he'd never thought of her as that for a long, long time now. But all those years ago, it'd been the fastest way to make her realise he wasn't one of the people who'd hurt her each time she came back. The fact that his child self had unknowingly bound himself in these chains of duty by doing so was something no one would have anticipated at the time… especially in the place they were in.
"- I'll see you tomorrow then! Yes yes, sure. I'll get some of those biscuits for you- sometimes it really does seem like you're only here for them, hmph." Her laughter rang out but he couldn't even smile.
When did she get so good at pretending everything was okay?
She was too good at it for it to be such a recent development. Or perhaps it was, and her loss had forced her to become good at it too soon.
He didn't know which one hurt less.
The phone was put down, now forgotten as she looked back at the plot that had once housed the only childhood home they'd ever known- and bent down to kiss one of the flowers that were near her. "I hope you like these, gege. I thought you'd like the scent- wherever you are. Take it as my apology… Because even if I love you, I hate you- just a little bit. Big dummy Caleb. Happy birthday… I love you."
The small smile on her face as she walked away felt like she'd personally slashed the shape of it into his heart.
…Happy birthday, indeed.
ending notes: I like using gege and meimei when talking about Caleb and MC despite playing the game in english, because I feel like it's the only word that can come close to describing the relationship they've shared with each other since childhood. In no way does this mean that I think of them as blood siblings, or that MC and Caleb in my fics think of themselves as related that way either. In case you do, that's great! I love all sorts of Caleb and MC fics. I just like to think of them romantically in mine :D Also! The small thing she did before she picked up Tara's call is something I always do when I need to hide that I've been crying haha... apologies if it seemed unusual!
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A painter and his muse 🥰
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ippilulu · 2 months ago
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Maps headcanons -
🧡 Domestic Caleb
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Domestic Caleb does the dishes by hand even though there’s a perfectly good dishwasher. Why? Because he likes blowing soap bubbles your way while you dry, smirking like a menace every time you flinch or laugh.
Domestic Caleb treats grocery shopping like a game. He loads the cart with random fresh produce and refuses to tell you what he’s planning for dinner. “You’ll see,” he says, smug, while dropping three types of mushrooms into the basket like it’s classified intel.
Domestic Caleb always checks if your neck or shoulders feel stiff. If they do (and sometimes even if they don’t), you’re getting a massage. Right there. On the couch. In the kitchen. He doesn’t care. “C’mon. You’re all knotted up. Let me fix it.”
Domestic Caleb dusts the living room while dancing like an idiot to Everytime We Touch by Cascada. He knows every word. He spins the duster like a mic. He’ll dip you unexpectedly and laugh into your neck when you almost drop the laundry basket.
Domestic Caleb times his chores so perfectly that he’s just finishing up when you walk in the door. Hair messy, sleeves rolled up, smug grin ready. He scoops you up without warning, kisses you breathless, and tosses you on the bed like you’re his reward. “Smell that? New fabric softener. You like it, right?” Then he covers your eyes and makes you guess what it is while half his weight is on you, laughing the whole time.
Domestic Caleb lights candles in the evening. Especially after showers. He towel-dries your hair with gentler hands than you’d expect from someone with his build. Murmurs soft things against your shoulder while you sit in his lap:
“I keep waiting for someone to tell me I don’t get to have this.”
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ippilulu · 2 months ago
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I write fanfiction so that I can train their voices enough to always run in my head 🗣️
the insane experience of missing a fictional character . like you can always go back and reread the book , replay the game , rewatch the show or movie , you can always go back & see them , but you can never experience them & their story for the first time again . its absurd to miss them because they'll always be there , but you'll miss when there were still new things for them to say .
for a small time they were real & growing and changing and you hung onto every new word, but now all they can do is repeat the same story forever&ever & they're not real anymore because you know everything they're going to do. & you miss them. its fucked man...
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ippilulu · 2 months ago
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Umm what if I CRY
Affinity Phrases 1-130
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Every time you level up in affinity, there will be a small phrase attached to the congratulations graphic that flashes across the screen. I wanted to translate the ones in CN to EN. 🍎🍎🍎Translations Below 🍎🍎🍎
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1-10
You must have been waiting for a while right? Let's go home
Next time, you don't need to have an excuse to hold my hand.
I will return to the place you're at.
From now on, you'll be able to see me when you open your eyes.
11-20
I didn't just happen to pass by today, I specifically came to see you.
My house in SkyHaven has also been filled by you.
If you want to throw a tantrum, take it out on me.
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21-30
The one who lied to you was a rascal (literal translation: puppy), not 夏以昼.
You're still allowed to be willful when you're with me.
Patting your head is a habit that can't be unlearned.
31-40
If you can't sleep then I'll tell you a story.
The plane that has departed will return again.
In SkyHaven, I'm most infamous for having double standards.
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41-50
I'll take (fly) you anywhere.
Sometimes I suddenly become aware that you've grown up.
The amount of times we videocall each other could be more frequent.
51-60
夏以昼's weakness is related to you.
The reconciliation ticket is in effect for forever
I can cook anything you want to eat.
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61-70
I only want to land next to you.
No one is allowed to harm you, not even me
We can have conflicts, but we must eat our meals together.
71-80
There's no need to share, everything that's mine belongs to you.
I'll help you protect your childhood secrets.
Flying homebound, I'm already thinking of meeting up with you.
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81-90
You are the guiding direction of my homebound flight.
From waiting for you to get out of class to waiting for you to get off work.
Following the customs we agreed on previously, I will willingly coax you.
91-100
It was always intended for me to be the one who protects you forever.
Love is the exclusive gravity that will only lead to you.
I yearn for you, lucid dreams have no effect on this.
This time, the present is hidden at our secret base.
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101-110
Still playing on your phone? Hurry, wash you hands and come eat.
We will always share the same secret.
After replenishing fuel, we can fly even farther.
In the next dream, you are the ending.
111-120
My handwriting has become more and more like yours.
Long distance love is becoming more and more difficult to endure.
I'm still wearing the necklace, do you want to touch to check?
121-130
Even if the rain has stopped, I still don't want you to leave.
Can you say that you need me one more time? Please?
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ippilulu · 2 months ago
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The way my jaw dropped
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Happy Birthday to Caleb
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