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it’s almost WW3

and i ate pancakes without a plate

no syrup to top it

plain and bare handed

shovelled as many as i could into my mouth

because i can’t afford to eat vegetables

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it’s probably a good thing that that ficus decomposed

we wouldn’t have been able to take care of it together in the way she needed

thank god she was a plant

and not a product of my own body

maybe we could have another

again one day

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this time

the sun is out again

and it’s warm

and the birds are still singing

and the grass has grown

and the leaves are healthy

spring

from winter

a relief

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amphitheater code of ethics

perform until you cry

reach the stars behind your eyes

pull em out and open wide

euphoric sense of high

rip to those who died

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my ring clinks against the fridge door

sounds just like my moms

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doing the best i can do today

feels like doing nothing

i am guilty of that which

i cannot bring myself to do

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train left

love stays

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beach baby

salt n sweater

sandy fingers

find me everywhere

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train stop

last one

destination available

glad you had enough change

to make it back for a moment

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blood moon

light me up

let my shit go with your shadow

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i wonder when you move on

or are done with thinking about me

what you’ll say to the next one

like

“she’s cis and white”

and

“she had a massive drinking problem and it didn’t work”

or

“she was my friend but we haven’t talked in a while”

if

“she made me feel unsafe on purpose”

like something to say about me negatively

comes easy for you

or if

you’d choose to say

“i didn’t want things to work out”

and frame it from your pov

why didn’t it work?

vulnerable avoidantment wounds

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it’s so quiet out here

suburbia

one car passed

a trash bin rolled

i hear birds like wind chimes

twinkling in a distance

two cars passed

sun beaming on my face and off my sunscreen

wondering if you’ll ever get that solitude

being alone in a quiet place

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costar says

highly compatible today

i say

wish it was everyday

(and also

i don’t)

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really getting tired of choosing kindness

i haven’t chosen anger in a while

maybe it’s time

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i’m waiting at the mailbox

naivety and idealism cupped between my fingers

expecting something to show up

that was never intended to be sent

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anger 2.0

after depression this time

people that love people don’t lie to them

about how much they love them

i’ve found that

liars

don’t deserve me

i’m outrunning you

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3:33

wish that you’d

come back to me