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21 June 2025

11:21 am. Good morning.

3:56 pm. I done took a nap TWICE today. What the FUCK.

4:59 pm. If I could describe June thus far it would be "dry". Dry dry dry very dry.

5:23 pm. Vespertine playing in my headphones; sleeper agent awakened.

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20 June 2025

What do I want? I only know what I want when I get start to get envious of what I'm not doing.

2:12 pm. Just made a private story post on Instagram post that sums up how I'm feeling right now:

So it's either inspiration or envy that motivates me/awakens me from this constant state of unawareness I'm in.

7:46 pm. I always feel like I'm not making what I either need to be making or want to be making.

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20 June 2025

9:48 am. Good morning. I've been working on this one drawing of Naerys for days, since the 13th. I havent taken this long on a srawing of her for.. months, I think. It's been a slow month.

I finished this sketch on the 17th, I remember working on it while watching Last Night in Soho on this Discord. Then I began to render it shortly after.

This is what it looks like this morning. I added more loose detail to the embellishments, made them more of a silver color. I've been doing work on the face yesterday and the day before. First one is wednesday, the second is Thursday, the third is today (most of the rendering work was done yesterday, though). I think I disliked the beginning stages of the coloring because the lineart was so thick and nasty. Her eyes too, they started off too flat. What I did was erase most of the blush, which looked like sunburn, changed the face shape a bit, added more detailing to the lips and upper chin so it didn’t look so flat (she has fat kissy lips in my head lol) and made the pupils of her eyes bigger and blurrier.

I still don’t know how to feel about her face though.

In some aspects I'm proud, in others, I'm not. For things I like: I like how i did her lips, they look three dimensional and puffy, the shading below the lip really helps the look of her lips protruding from her face. I like the eyes, they look big and sweet, and the blurry pupils really pull it together. The rendering on the nose looks good, too.

As for things I don't like? The hair, I don't like how soft the shading is. The hairline is a bit hard, makes it look like a wig. I dont think her upper chest looks that tangible. No collarbones (though I tried to add collarbones, I ended up not liking them), the shoulders aren't shouldering, and her neck looks too thick on her shoulders.

But as far as overall rendering goes on the face, it looks pretty decent to me. the lips and eyes really carry this one.

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19 June 2025

9:36 am. Woke up feeling optimistic about art. I was thinking about High Tide again.

3:20 pm. I'll be honest I've been pretty freaked out these past few days.

6:40 pm. Still freaked out. I wish I could sublimate my goon energy into art. No I'm not going to delete that, it is what it is.

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16 June 2025

9:49 am. Good morning. I woke up thinking about how little I've drawn so far this month. We are halfway through the month (lord help me) and I've made, what, 2 or 3 finished drawings? Just a bad time for inspiration. The muse abandons me.

This is essentially what I have so far in terms of rendered pieces. Things I would call "finished". A magma drawing and two costume pieces, the green dress I HATE the rendering on. The first one, well I've been wanting to get into brown dresses because it's such an elegant color but god dammit her face ruins it. This has to be the worst Naerys I've drawn in terms of her face. I dislike it so much.

I'm most proud of that first sketch. The face though... it's never her face. I'm not good at faces.

The rest I just plain dislike. They're not finished to me. I haven't had it in me to finish them.

uh

I'm doing everything EXCEPT reading and drawing. The two things I know will make me feel better.

The passion the aggression is gone. Where inspiration?

My hands are cold and this sucks. I hate it when my hands are cold.

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15 June 2025

1:13 pm. Hot bath. Thinking about my art. Played with the cats. Yesterday I built this large cat tree my mom bought a few days ago. Who would have thought that building something would make me a happier person than if I scrolled on my phone endlessly?

It feels like there’s a bad energy this week. I asked some of my art mutuals, and it seems they’re feeling much the same rift. Not feeling very asoiaf-y. Not all too inspired. I want to change that.

It’s Sunday. New week.

Pays imaginaire. Golden brown.

I'm always jittery in some form or another and it makes me sad. Frustrated!

Frustrated!

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14 June 2025

10:33 am. Feeling a bit not into it! Perhaps that's because it's overcast outside. Hate overcast weather!

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I've been telling myself that I'm going to start art journaling for months now, ive been wanting to document progress and studies so far, cause I feel like I need to get some momentum going