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part 1 + 2 of my arcane poem undoing as a daughter !!

part 3 + 4 coming later <3

if you're interested in supporting me, any donation = a poem!

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One of my all time favorite Silco fan art pieces that I drew. This gives me so many feelings. Their father / daughter relationship really hits.

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He has so many good shots

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I think it's interesting that this episode opens with the underwater scene, and then later we get these shots that recontextualize it. They confirm that it didn't actually happen that way, that it happened in the shallows, that Jinx stayed above water. Like the beginning of episode 3, season 1, the beginning of the episode was symbolic, and you have water acting as a symbol for the psyche. There's all kinds of things happening under the surface.

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Whatever, listing some cool free digital art-programs:

Medibang Paint Pro / FireAlpaca: both are programs (and almost exact copies of each other tbh iirc) that I used to use before switching over to Clip Studio Paint <3

Krita: I've heard good things about it, though haven't really used it much myself.

Blender: excellent for many things, especially 3D modeling and animating!

LibreSprite: a free fork of Aseprite, that's great for making pixel arts!

GraphicsGale: another free program for making pixel arts!

OpenToonz: great neat program for making 2D animations!

ArtWeaver: haven't used this one in literal years, so I have no idea what it's like nowadays. But it's a free painting-program!

MyPaint: Yet again, haven't used in years. But I remember this one being great too!

Gimp: Free and great for photo editing!

Paint.NET: Also free and good for photo editing!

ntsc-rs: A cool program that I use for adding VHS/VCR effects on my arts!

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the monster you created

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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x05 - “Blisters and Bedrock” ↳ “Oh, you're sadly mistaken. I'm Bozo 1.”

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Normalize whackin’ sticks with other men

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camera 🐶☀️ art 🥀🚬

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“Yet, up there in the surface, no one know they exist.”

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Finally finished ! I spent countless hours drawing, deleting, re drawing… It’s based on three different 3D models posted on artstation (forever glad for them). Hope you enjoy :)

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An issue with a lot of whump and injury writing guides is that they also tend to assume that the characters are always able-bodied but like.

It's been proven over and over again that people with chronic pain have higher tolerances for everyday pain, including things that would leave other people crying or screaming. When you experience dizziness, body aches, chills, etc as just your baseline, those things aren't a good indicator that you're injured or bleeding. Even mild concussions are very hard to notice when you have chronic headaches/migraines (speaking from experience).

And those are just the experiences of general chronic pain, not even more severe and debilitating conditions that can completely warp someone's relationship to their body and their brain's way of processing pain.

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Silco Wasn't Good — But He Was Enough

I keep seeing debates about whether Silco was a “good father” — but the more I read, the more I realize that so many people judge him by the standards of our world, not his. Zaun is not a place where gentle ideals survive. It's brutal, broken, and unforgiving. You don’t get to parent in a world like that the way you would in ours. And yet… Silco still tried. That’s what makes his relationship with Jinx so powerful — and so tragic.

So I wrote this — not to excuse who he was, but to try and understand how he loved, and why that still matters. Was Silco a good father?

It’s a question that often divides Arcane viewers — yet too often, it’s judged through the lens of modern, idealized standards, rather than the brutal reality of the world Silco and Jinx lived in. To answer honestly, we have to separate our expectations from the world of Zaun — a place where innocence is a liability, and survival outweighs morality.

Silco was a criminal, a revolutionary, a murderer — someone who acted with cold calculation. But he wasn’t hollow. Fatherhood wasn’t his goal — it was a consequence of a choice made from a place of humanity that, despite everything, still lived in him. He wasn’t capable of being a "good" father in the social sense — he didn’t know how. He had never experienced those ideals himself. He was a man shaped by trauma, betrayal by Vander, years of isolation, and a consuming obsession with Zaun’s freedom. Such experiences warp your moral compass. And still — he tried.

You can’t give more than you have. Silco didn’t know how to love in the way we often expect. He had no softness, no experience of tenderness. But he gave Jinx everything he did have — his time, his attention, his presence, and most importantly, a place at his side. He didn’t shut her out or keep her at arm’s length for her protection. He brought her into his world, made her his equal, trusted her with secrets no one else knew. Their relationship was built on trust and understanding — even if the language they spoke was violence and survival.

And more than that — he tried to give more than he had. Even though he wasn’t built for softness, he still tried to protect her, took responsibility for her actions, justified her choices. He sought stability for her, even when he had never known it himself. He was willing to abandon his dream — the dream he had sacrificed everything for — if it meant she would be safe. That’s not manipulation. That’s love, expressed by a man who had no other way to show it.

Jinx, though damaged, wasn’t passive. She recognized in Silco the only person who never left her. Her loyalty wasn’t forced — it was conscious and deep. And that’s why she became his weapon — not because he made her into one, but because she chose to. He never tried to fix her or force her back into being Powder. He let her be who she was. And in her own understanding of love, she accepted his monstrosity and chose to shield him from the world that would tear him down.

He wasn’t a good father by ideal standards. But he was a good father in a world that had no room for ideals. He gave everything he had — even if all he had were broken things. And still, he tried to give more.

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Did you make that pfp, or do you know where it came from? It's insanely cool!

Aaw thank you! <3 I made it myself!

I just jumbled these three pics together:

Pre value editing:

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STOP BEING CONTEMPORARY, B5