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so as everyone predicted i slept with him. and then i let him stay the night and he called me baby and we're going on a trip together and i'm being very dumb.

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oh i am not a smart person

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"he's your ex" okay and he's also six feet tall what does anyone want from me :/

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wish i could hold every people pleaser’s hand and & tell them it’s fine. it’s fine to prioritize ur feelings over somebody else’s for once. it is fine and it does not make u this irredeemably bad person. i swear

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hey good talk let’s do it again sometime

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there is no logical reason for me to be unhappy and yet

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yesterday i had a vision of one of my best friends dying but this time i was actually able to help change what i saw and that’s just. a lot to unpack.

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i feel numb

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everything just vanishing and remembering how happy i feel around you is sooooooo. like i had the best day.

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so i guess that was a fucking lie

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every time i think i’m over it i think of something i want to tell you and i just can’t

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today felt good

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so many of my favorite people treating me like i’m a joke or an obstacle but that’s my own fault

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i miss chan

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i like you so much i just want to text you but you hurt me so bad i hate it here

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like i gave everything i had to offer i tried so hard maybe i was being difficult but i don’t know if that means i deserve to get ghosted