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friends, lemme share this little gem with you

FIRST! The inner flap:

oh dear indeed… 

some people crayons are jerks.

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:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :’’’’) :’’’’’’’’)))))))))))

i just have a lot of feelings about this book and think everyone should own it

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I feel like it’s a general rule of mine: favourite character has to suffer a fair amount. 

I’m all for friends helping friends when they fall exhausted:”)

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Finally have a chance to post Alex Fierro here as well! She was so fun and interesting to draw, yet a bit of a challenge, since I knew how many people have expected this particular drawing:”D I did all in my powers to do Alex justice, so I hope you can see it *3*~ 

Edit: many people wrote me I shouldn’t have referred to Alex as s(he), so I’m fixing it to just she! I’m not too far into the second book, and I know so far Alex said to refer as “she” unless she states otherwise, so I assumed at some point she does state otherwise and we switch to referring as “he”! I didn’t know how to refer to Alex in the post as in she/he, just she or just he, but I’ve seen people in the comments referring as s(he), so I thought it was good to go option. Sorry for that! 

Another design for Rick Riordan’s website! 

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Finally can post these babies on here! I’m getting attached, so I really tried to do them justice for Rick Riordan’s website. 

PS: I’ve got so many questions asking why Alex Fierro wasn’t drawn yet, but I still have a few chapters from the first book to finish, so! Just haven’t met this character yet;) 

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I never do it intentionally, but somehow they usually match if I post them side by side:”)

Mallory Keen and Halfborn Gunderson (for Rick Riordan’s website!)

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And then, I suddenly thought, that posting gods from various universes I did for Rick Riordan’s website isn’t a bad idea, because I’m quite proud of these drawings, if I’m honest:”)

Bast, Hephaestus and Thor! 

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I hate it when greek mythology comes up in and people ask why i know so much about it and i have to pretend that my entire knowledge of Greek Mythology did not come from Percy Jackson and the Olympians, written by Rick Riordan

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Relationships are just two people constantly asking each other where they want to go eat, until one of them dies.

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One year.

One year ago today, I secured my happy place. I made her mine and then 6 months after that she became only mine. Her and I’s journey is a beautiful one and we have a story I love to tell. She means absolutely everything to me and seeing her I know I’m going to smile. Through every bad night and every tear she’s been a light to guide me through life and I couldn’t be happier. She came into my life when I didn’t want to fight anymore and she held me up when I needed it. Not just that but I love hearing about her day, the good and the bad. Seeing her lose the tension as she lets off steam makes me so happy. For the first time in my life I can say, if 10,20,30,40 etc years from now, I still was able to hold her hand and kiss her goodnight I would be extremely happy. I’ve never met someone who within seconds of seeing me sad or anxious can make me feel safe and normally happy. Hitting one year with her is so much more than celebrating 365 days of happiness it’s “We’ve been through every date that has a good and bad memory tied to it and we are still here.” Shes still the very same fairytale that she was for me when I first kissed her and I can’t wait to see how our storybook continues.

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Humans

I’ve always found it interesting how different every persons life is. Even if you live in the same house as somebody, you have no way of knowing their whole day, even if they tell you. This past year I’ve really gotten to see many different lives both in and out of my household better than I ever have before. Take my mom for example, on the outside looking in my mom has everything together she has run her own business for years and is doing very well. She has 3 kids all of which have their own personality and lives. She lives in a nice house with adorable pets, what a lot wish for in their older life. However my mom is suffering from chronic nuero lymes and frequently spends her days topping off the pain charts while she hunches over making someone else’s life easier. And up until two days ago I never knew how her client meetings went, until I actually traveled with my mom to her clients and saw all of them I didn’t realize how much she helped these people. At those client meetings I also saw a bunch of different walks of life. In one day we went from a household with two firefighters, to a meeting between two rich people who bitched about one of their business partners. I saw a man with a baby and a old dog who was lazy but would growl at any who dare enter the house where his child lives. I just got to see a glimpse into these peoples daily routine, their daily schedules. I’ve also become closer with both of my sisters. Again both look perfect on the outside and have immense struggles on the inside. One of my sisters is scared to leave someone she isn’t happy with, because she fears he will end his own life if she does. She’s also juggling college, a new job at a hospital and a sorority that treats the sisters less than beautifully. My other sister who lives at home for the next few months, who just got two jobs as an elementary school pre day and post day helper. Which she loves. I’ve also heard more about her fears of not being able to have kids which is truthfully the only thing she’s wanted her entire life. I also frequently spend time with my girlfriend, who people love to fuck over. Everyone thinks its Ok because she has everything. What they don’t know is the horrors within her house, however that is her story to tell. I’ve also seen my best friend go through finicial problems, and struggling to find time to take a break. Its interesting to think of how many people seem to have it all when they have everything but. There are also people who are the opposite they seem to have the worlds shittiest life and its amazing. This world is full of people each ones story is full of beautiful and tragic things. Each one appears better to the outside world than those who get to know them well. Even within a singular household, whether its the one you are raised in or the way you have with friends, or one with your husband and kids. Everyone of them will have a unique experience today. Will have a different outlook on life. Even if its similar. Its beautiful to see how different people operate, to see what hurts them, what they hide and what no one else knows. Its beautiful to see human nature in the works, and I’ve always found that interesting

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Crazy

I hit one year with my girlfriend soon like very soon and its crazy. Being with her it feels like 12 years but 2 days all at the same time. We’ve been through so much together already and I’m excited to see our adventure progress. She has made me so undeniably happy and everyone around me sees it. She gave me strength when I really needed it last year and she’s always right there if I need her. Being with her for a year will make her my longest relationship ever. Its also my happiest, my healthiest and my most productive. I’m not scared to tell her about the demons that once took over my life. And I hope she feels the same way. She’s truly my happily ever after. She’s the best princess I could have ever asked for. Excited for one year and many more to come.

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it was a good moment

Just so I remember.

So my mom has a boyfriend, who lives an hour away and when I have a doctor appointment or something to do closer to him we normally stay the night up there, it makes sense in a second. So one night I was up there and my girlfriend was lonely. Reminder she lives an hour away. SHE DROVE AN HOUR to come get me and went out to dinner with me and the family and then brought me to my house (Mom wasn’t coming home till the next day and I missed my lizard and pups). So we end up in Kissimee which is very far from where we wanted to be. But the part of that night I want to remember is when she dropped me off she came inside, just to cuddle for a few or grab something and I wanted to stop her from leaving and we ended up falling over and it was just such a cute moment I want to remember it. Then her mom called but it was perfect. She is perfect.

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go be a piece of shit somewhere else. we’re happier without you. all you do is cause problems. if you keep contacting us you’re gonna have a bigger problem. you can try to sell us your story about how you’re such an angel but we don’t buy it. we know what you did. you broke my girlfriends heart and that’s something you will pay for. once a piece of shit, always a piece of shit. leave. us. alone. you say you’re done yet you leave “anonymous” messages. go away. we don’t want you here. all you do is cause pain. fuck you.

Glad you can at least have that illusion to comfort you. But I can guarantee that you'll never understand what's going on in my head. Anyways, sorry for flooding your inbox. I plan on this being the last you hear from me. Yes, I've been reading everything. I've been worried about you. But you seem ok. So I'm done here. I'm better when I don't think of you. Sending best wishes and prayers for you, and that's not a lie. Same to manders. Just remember, I did love you, you were the reason I stopped.

Oh how I could go about this in so many different ways. I’m going to go with this. You are and will be for a while a huge sore spot for me. If you want to actually talk to me about this reply with another anonymous I’ll unblock you on here. And we can hash it out because I’m done. You want to talk tell me I’ll give you the line but don’t expect much. I’m very honest with people if you aren’t ready to hear about what you did to the people you “worry about” don’t fucking bother. If you are ready to swallow your pride and admit your faults again anonymous me again and I’ll unblock you on here. If you don’t want to acknowledge the shit you did then consider me dead. So yah. You want to finish this once and for all then come to the table ready for everything or nothing.

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So I just got the last bit of closure.

I’ll admit I went to your blog, something told me that this one last time was what I needed to finally say goodbye and it was right. You wrote about your year and in July, you kissed someone else. You admitted to cheating on us. Then you cut out our girlfriend, probably thinking she was catching on. Then you kept us on for August, September, and in October I finally snapped and got done playing your games and I’m oh so glad. You wanted to break up with us since July, you said you wanted to do for a while but I didn’t suspect it had been that long. However you didn’t have the balls, once a coward always a coward. Similar types in your family I guess. So you lied, I’m sure you tried to see how’d we feel and panicked. Seeing as the only thing I told you I’d be mad about was cheating. You knew people had fucked me over, but you found something no one had done yet. You then blamed us for the problems in the relationships, got really bad with self harming some of it probably for cheating. And you said I love you so many times. That was the closure I needed. Yes I snapped but I treated you amazing, and you cheated, then got super sexual to compensate, distract us. A move you now regret. Now some of this could be subconscious hence the regret. In fact I believe your first few sexual encounters WHICH YOU STARTED, were subconscious fuck yous to your parents. We never truly meant anything to you, sure you had a girl crush but I’m sure it ended soon after we made it official. Then we became pawns, whether you knew it or not you started playing with us, and in July it solidified those feelings you thought were there weren’t. Then you kept us around, purely for sexual gain. Again you may not have known it, but something like that happened. I used to think you were nothing like your dad, but I was wrong, you are scarily similar. And with that realization the demon that would randomly ask what I could have done went back to hell. I’m at peace now, I hope you treat Sam better, but your record sucks. So I started 2018, crying, in pain and cleaning up puke. Which the crying and pain weren’t from this, some shit with my chest went wrong, not that you would care. But I got one thing I require to let someone go, I got closure. I figured you out, checkmate.

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ill eventually have a friend group

support system, if you will

that has been untouched

by

your sins

and boy can i not wait for the day

i see you

crumbling, crawling

towards nothing but

your utter demise

i hope my heaven

is your perfect hell

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my wonderful charming 💞

My Beautiful Cinderella

When I was little I had the biggest crush on every single Disney princess. Their stories filled my little heart with joy. Add in some amazing music and I was hooked. Anytime my mom would put a Disney movie on I’d be still. Watching intently the beautiful girls growing up even as people tried to stop them. As I grew older I still loved those tales though I saw how easy some of them had it. The music still brought a smile to my eyes, but I started to want a fairytale of my own. I came out and in an ever bright rainbow o promised to make whatever lover I had, feel like they themselves were in a movie. I do cute things, surprises and always make sure she is happy. And that is where I found my happiness. We are unconventional but at the same way stereotypical. The dyke and the beautiful princess. I call her Cinderella, because of her beautiful blonde hair, and the fact her party stops at midnight. I’ve associated some of my favorite artists, TV shows and places with her. And I couldn’t be happier. She makes me incredibly happy, and the compliments she gives me make me smile. I love her. And I’m so excited to have a fairytale of my own with my beautiful Cinderella. There are still Gillian’s to overcome but I know we can get through it together. And in this tale, we save each other. Always.

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you know when people are like “ass or tits?”

I’m like

have you ever seen a woman’s THIGH

or TUMMY

or A R M

or LEGS

or nECK

or HAaAANDS FOR GOODNESS SAKE