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Writing is such an interesting thing to do. The ideas keep swimming in my head and sometimes it’s very overwhelming. There’s so much noise and so much excitement to get the work done and out, sometimes I find it very hard to keep a healthy balance. I either write 17 pages in a row or don’t write at all. Sometimes I write a paragraph and other times I write half a page and it’s okay. I’ve learned to work with my inconsistency and stopped being so hard on me. I have (self imposed) schedules because I love this fic and I’m aware there’s a couple people reading, but I’ve learned to respect the fact that I’ve got a full-time job outside of fanfiction and that it’s okay to work in my own pace. I’ve come back to (finally) work on my latest chapter and I’m trying my best to let go of the fact that it’s been almost a year since I’ve updated. It’s about the creativity and the love I’ve got for these characters, it’s about community and shared interest in Bonnie and her life. It’s about honouring her in the ways that the creators were NEVER able (or wanted) to honour her. So, to readers out there that have found Selfish - thank you so much for your patience. Thank you for rocking with me and for leaving such helpful comments/messages and overall support.

P.S.: feel free to drop me a line here or on ao3. Anon or otherwise I’m happy to chat with people!

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I think about certain speeches Bonnie makes to Enzo about love. season 7 ep 21 or 22? i think? but how she tells him she’s been waiting all her life for someone to love her. What could’ve been so moving about that is if they showed her home life? if they allows her abandonment issues to actually be about HER, they only utilized her emotional trauma with people abandoning her when it came to Damon, even the season 3 plot was more on Bonnie suffering so we can push Elena needing protection and keeping the Mikaelsons in the plot, Bonnie was supposed to be close with her Dad as the sole parent in her life but when we finally meet Bonnie seems to have some resentments to Rudy - which makes sense with the traveling but that quite could’ve been more powerful if they gave Bonnie some emotional depth that she deserved

Bc love isn’t just romantic, it’s platonic tell us how her friends don’t love her correctly if Bonnie has spent her life waiting for love. Talk about how the Bennetts were super harsh on her when she didn’t even know much about being a witch at first

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BONNIE & STEFAN ⤷ 2x10

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Bonnie Bennett Lifting Up A Feather With Her Telekinesis.

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✨️The main character in our hearts✨️

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Imagine if they explored Sheila and Stefan's friendship and let Stefan keep his protectiveness over Bonnie. If didn't remove Stefan and Bonnie's blossoming friendship.

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THE VAMPIRE DIARIES, 7.19 “Somebody that I used to know” “

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MKAY MS. KATERINA KNOWLES 😏

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AO3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39594432/chapters/169813582

Summary: [Post s5 Finale] Damon and Bonnie were ready to die, to leave everything and everyone behind. Despite all of their damaged history together, one moment will redefine their entire relationship. What happens when fate has other plans?

Pairing: Bonnie Bennett x Damon Salvatore

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A shift of energy.   

It was dark, sultry and heavy but familiar. She wasn’t sure where it came from.   

To be honest, she couldn’t say for sure that it wasn’t coming from her own self. It had been a while since she’d been connected to her foundation, and after everything that’d happened in this world, she couldn’t confidently say that there wasn’t darkness within her. Not anymore.   

She could hear the soft grinding of her molars against one another. Ever so delicate, the ivory tissue that linked them was powerful, like a union that was meant to happen. A union designed by centuries of genetic history carefully curated and carried by another link. Passed down from generation to generation to generation until it found her.   

She was crafted specifically for this. Every intention, every choice led her here. She knew what to do.  

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AO3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39594432/chapters/169813582

Summary: [Post s5 Finale] Damon and Bonnie were ready to die, to leave everything and everyone behind. Despite all of their damaged history together, one moment will redefine their entire relationship. What happens when fate has other plans?

Pairing: Bonnie Bennett x Damon Salvatore

"Tethers" (Chapter 17) Preview:

A shift of energy.   

It was dark, sultry and heavy but familiar. She wasn’t sure where it came from.   

To be honest, she couldn’t say for sure that it wasn’t coming from her own self. It had been a while since she’d been connected to her foundation, and after everything that’d happened in this world, she couldn’t confidently say that there wasn’t darkness within her. Not anymore.   

She could hear the soft grinding of her molars against one another. Ever so delicate, the ivory tissue that linked them was powerful, like a union that was meant to happen. A union designed by centuries of genetic history carefully curated and carried by another link. Passed down from generation to generation to generation until it found her.   

She was crafted specifically for this. Every intention, every choice led her here. She knew what to do.  

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Klaus x Bonnie_

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AO3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39594432/chapters/169813582

Summary: [Post s5 Finale] Damon and Bonnie were ready to die, to leave everything and everyone behind. Despite all of their damaged history together, one moment will redefine their entire relationship. What happens when fate has other plans?

Pairing: Bonnie Bennett x Damon Salvatore

"Tethers" (Chapter 17) Preview:

A shift of energy.   

It was dark, sultry and heavy but familiar. She wasn’t sure where it came from.   

To be honest, she couldn’t say for sure that it wasn’t coming from her own self. It had been a while since she’d been connected to her foundation, and after everything that’d happened in this world, she couldn’t confidently say that there wasn’t darkness within her. Not anymore.   

She could hear the soft grinding of her molars against one another. Ever so delicate, the ivory tissue that linked them was powerful, like a union that was meant to happen. A union designed by centuries of genetic history carefully curated and carried by another link. Passed down from generation to generation to generation until it found her.   

She was crafted specifically for this. Every intention, every choice led her here. She knew what to do.  

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Kat Graham as BONNIE BENNETT

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES S07E19 - Somebody That I Used To Know

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Big fan of characters realizing they don't get to die. They have to live. And grow. And be a person. And deal with shit they thought they'd never have to. And be fucked up about it. I would like more of this. Enough dying for honor or as redemption. It ain't. You're just a corpse. There is no moral value in dirt time.

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Kat Graham as BONNIE BENNETT

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES S07E19 - Somebody That I Used To Know

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Kat Graham as BONNIE BENNETT

THE VAMPIRE DIARIES S07E19 - Somebody That I Used To Know

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No because this is actually insane